Did i love you not? FF - Page 13

Originally posted by: -Sarcy-

I've read your one shots and loved them all so I will soon come on to this one as well! :)

Originally posted by: indrani7495

Read all your one shots and this ff aswell...luved your story...n i must say that u really write wonderfull stories , each scenes so perfctly demonstrating the emotions of the characters👏...curious to know what had actually happenned ...continue soon...plz pm me the nxt part if possible...shall snd u a frnd request!!

Before I start let me again tell this. Readers who want PMs, please send me a friend request so that it is easier for me to send all the PMs in bulk.

So let me apologise first for the delay in updating this series. Actually I have so many ideas in my head regarding various one shots that I couldn't concentrate on writing this at all. So now that I finally have enough time and focus I finished writing this. So here is the promised chapter. Enjoy!

Chapter 5: https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/135472230

Chapter 6.

"he is your brother and that is why I care for him. Because you mean a lot to me."

"i love you Anika, god I love you to the point of insanity."

"I lost Anika. I lost my heart to you."

"didi!"

Sahil's voice startled Anika out of her thoughts. She turned around from the window and saw Sahil limp to her. she greeted him with a smile though it hurt to force one.

"didi, are you crying?"

Anika's fingers immediately went to touch her face. She felt the wetness on her skin. she hadn't realised that she had been crying. She looked down at Sahil who looked worried and smiled at him.

"I wasn't crying. I just forgot to blink so my eyes teared up."

"thinking about what?" he asked her innocently. Anika's heart clenched. His face flashed in front of her eyes and she shut them trying to forget how his gaze made her insides melt.

"that Bagad billa hurt you again didn't he didi?" she ehard Sahil ask. She bit her lip trying to control the emotions welling up inside her. she shook her head frantically afraid that if she opened her mouth she'll lose control over her tears.

"didi?" Sahil called out to her softly.

"he didn't hurt me Sahil." Anika said softly. "this time I hurt him. and I know he will never forgive me for it." After saying this she looked down and realised that her words had made her brother sad. She pressed her lips into a grim smile and bent down on her knees in front of him.

"don't worry about me. I am fine. Go freshen up. I will heat up the food till then."

Sahil nodded and started to walk out the door. But he stopped, turned back a little and said, "didi, I really liked him." and walked out.

Anika caught her mouth in a painful grip trying to push back the sobs that were trying to escape her. only one thought in her mind, "and I loved him. I still do. And forever shall I."

Realising that she was going to lose this battle she ran into the bathroom and turned on the tap in order to cover her sounds.. the last thing she wanted was for Sahil to worry about her. the dam to her tears was already broken till then. she lost the strength in her legs and her back hit the cold tiles of the bathroom wall. She slid down and the water hit first her legs than her shoulders and then the side of her face. as the sounds of the splashing water kept on increasing she let out wails of anguish. Even the cold water could not chill down her burning body.

"I want her alive." Tej said with venom. "I want that girl Ishana to feel the pain and humiliation she brought to my family. she used my son and for that I'll have her pay." Tej said as he cut the call and walked to the glass window to stare at the city from the top of the Oberoi tower.

Unknown to him Svetlana smirked at his back.

Omkara was sitting in his art studio. His arm was still in plaster so he couldn't sculpt anything for now but he had come here for the peace of his mind. From the time he had woken up in the hospital room he had this uneasy feeling. He still couldn't remember his accident. He had tried asking Shivay about what had happened since it was Shivay who had found him. But to his surprise Shivay kept avoiding that particular topic.

He sighed. It was not like he didn't have enough memories to look back on. He still had her memories. Her name alone brought a sad smile to his face. he still remembered the second time he had met her. it was the first time he had seen her eyes and probably that was the moment when he fell in love with her. or maybe it was later when he got to know her. he couldn't tell. To him, he couldn't remember a time when he was not in love with her. that was how much he loved her.

Ishana opened her eyes slowly trying to register her surroundings. It was dark and her body ached but her thoughts were all messed up. She couldn't form a coherent thought. She tightly shut her eyes again in order to concentrate.

"what are you doing? I know life can be hard but trust me, this is not your way out."

The memory of that voice bought a smile to her face. the first time that she ahd met him, Omkara Singh Oberoi.

Flashback:

She was irritated. Dancing and singing was her life. Her Ammi had trained her and thought her to worship the art. But just like her Ammi she too was forced to sell her art. From when she was small she had stood outside the gates of this very institution and dreamt of dancing in front of an audience that would clap for her in the very auditorium over which she stood now. And today she had done exactly that but the audience there had clapped for Ahana Kapoor, The girl who had paid her for taking her place on the stage under that veil. She had danced her heart out but then she was rewarded not by praise but a bundle full of notes.

Ishana felt like flinging that money out but she couldn't. she needed this to get out of that hell hole. To get her Ammi out of there. Suddenly there was a gust of wind and the bundle slipped out of her hand and landed on the other side of the railing.her heart almost leaped out. She cursed the almighty.

"what have I done so wrong that you are punishing me for?" then she paused remembering the auto she didn't pay for in the morning. "okay wait, on second thought don't answer that." she quickly amended.

She looked down at the money sitting there on the outer ledge and sighed. she bent over the railing to pick it up but her hand didn't reach. Finally she realised that she wasn't going to be able to reach it from there and climbed the railing.

"what are you doing? I know life can be hard but trust me, this is not your way out." She heard a voice call out. she huffed. Now only this was remaining. She turned around to look at who had disturbed her when she was trying to concentrate.

"go away." She said clearly irritated.

"I can't. I won't leave you here alone."

She narrowed her eyes. she saw him. he had long hair. And that meant he was no good. To her long hair was a sign of those spoilt brats who were up to no good. And so she glared at him. but he had covered his eyes with his arm. She turned her head and saw that the sun was directly behind her and hence he was finding it difficult to look up at her. she turned to look at him again.

"are you trying to hit on me?"

"what?" Omkara cried out still covering his eyes from the sunlight.

"go away. I am not interested."

"I think you are getting me wrong. I have no intention of hitting' on you." he said making quotes for the word hitting with his free hand. "you seem troubled. Troubled enough to do this so..."

"so what?" Ishana said as she turned her attention back to the money on the ledge.

"I have been through this." She heard him say. Her eyes widened. His words made no sense to her but the pain in his voice shocked her. the raw anguish in those words made her turn around. Without realising she had covered the sun and thanks to that Omkara had put his arm down. he was looking past her remembering something which obviously hurt him. she could see the pain on his face. and guilt too. For what she didn't know. but his face made her gasp. He was beautiful. Perfect.his eyes which were looking at something far away were like molten chocolate. The hair she had thought were a sign of immaturity were what made him looked experienced. Experienced in life and its challenges.

She heard him continue, "I have been there. The point where you just want to end it. But as you stand there it seems so easy to let go but at that moment all you have to do is look back once and you can see people who are smiling at you and waiting for you to return. I didn't turn back but my brother forced me to. And when I did I saw my family waiting for me. you also must have someone waiting for you. so don't jump."

The ache in his voice was painful yet soothing. Like he had won a battle after thousands of sacrifices. It brought tears to Ishana's eyes. she turned away from him surprised at her own emotions. and then she realised what he was saying. He thought she was trying to jump from here. he had misunderstood.

"hm...actually, I think you misunderstood. I am not trying to jump. My money fell down and I was just picking it up."

"oh' he said and she could feel that he was embarrassed. She quickly got down and picked up the money. She put it in her bag and turned around to climb up again when she saw him, through the railing, turn to leave.

"wait!" she called out. She saw him stop. "could you help me?" she said.

Omkara turned around surprised. She was looking down, probably out of embarrassment. He walked to her slowly. She saw his feet approaching her and then his hand came in her view. She smiled slightly and took his hand.

Omkara felt her soft hand in his and as he helped her up he said, "btw I am Omkara."

She looked up and in to his eyes. and his heart skipped a beat. They were the most beautiful eyes he had ever seen.

In his mind he could still hear her voice singing, "Ki teri jhooti baatein main saari maan loon
Ki teri jhooti baatein main saari maan loon
Aankhon se tere sach sabhi
Sab kuch abhi jaan lu
Ki teri jhooti baatein main saari maan loon"

He saw her smile slightly but before she could say anything, he cut her, "you are Ahana Kapoor right? I saw you at the event. even though you were in the veil I recognised your voice."

Her smile dropped. she wasn't Ahana. She was Ishana. But she couldn't tell him that. if he knew who she was he would be disgusted. He would cringe at her touch. she couldn't tell him.

Flashback end.

Ishana heard a sound from outside. Finally her mind was registering things, like right now her wrists hurt from the bruising the rope used to tie her were causing her. she was gagged and placed rather uncomfortably on the hard stone floor. She shivered as the cold breeze hit her from the door that had just opened. The light that hit her eyes pained her. She tried to adjust her eyes to the new light hitting her from the now open door but something covered it. Just as she was about to feel relief for her eyes her head was yanked up by a painful grip in her hair. As she registered the face of her tormentor her eyes widened. It was that woman.

With that I end this chapter. Like I mentioned last time I have changed the name Aarya to Ishana so that it is not confusing to anyone. Please tell me how it was. I know I am writing a lot of things at a time but I want to finish as much as I can in the time I have right now. so keep encouraging me.

Chapter 7: https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/136350508