New Arshi ts: I love your heart last part updated 29/7/16 - Page 3

Part 2

The whole night Arnav could sleep properly thinking of Khushi's confession. How could he ignore her for so long? He closed his eyes to fetch some sleep. He saw himself playing basket ball with Sheetal and Khushi watching it from a distance. He saw her moving away from him. He remembered him, Sheetal and Aarav spending a lot of time together. He remembered Mami comparing him with Aarav. He saw Khushi watching all these nonsense from far with a hurt face.

It was morning. Khushi was packing her bags. Arnav slowly opened his eyes and saw her, trying to figure out what she was doing. In a second he realized that she was leaving the house. He couldn't let that happen. How could he breathe without her? He pushed the blanket and went to Khushi. He stopped her from packing her bags.

Khushi please give me one chance. I promise I will never hurt you again.

I have had enough of negligence from you Arnavji. I am sorry, I cant stay with you anymore.

She told him straight.

But how will I live without you Khushi?

He asked her with full of love and concern.

Just like the way you did from past one month.

A drop of tear fell from her right eye. He could clearly make out that she was very hurt. All thanks to his attention and stupid brain. He slowly wiped that lone tear from his thumb finger.

I am sorry Khushi. I know I did wrong, but please give me a chance.

How many chances Arnavji? From the beginning I am just giving you chances, to amend your mistakes, but you are taking me for granted. I do have a heart Arnavji, which you keep forgetting. It is too late Arnavji, too late to repair your mistakes.

She wiped her tears and took the bag, making her way towards the door, and she left him.

His face was covered with sweat. His heart was beating faster, out of fear. He saw his Khushi sleeping beside him. He thanked that it was just a dream, a horrible dream. Slowly tears made way on his face.

How shall I live without you Khushi? He asked himself.

He could never think of staying without her. He loved her, from the core of his heart.

How could I ignore her? Why was I such a jerk?

He pulled her close to him and hugged her.

I wont let you go anywhere Khushi, he promised himself.

Sleep was very far from him. He remembered that day when he had come late to home.

Flashback

He was very tensed, and had a bad head ache. He had lost the deal, inspite of putting lot of efforts. He never expected to lose this deal. He barged inside the room with a sulked face. He threw his bag on the couch and sat on the bed. He was damn frustrated. Khushi came out, from the bathroom after taking shower. She slowly wiped her hair. Her gaze shifted to her hubby who seemed to be lost somewhere else. A smile rose on her lips.

Arnavji aap kab aaye? (Arnavji when did you come?)

Abhi. (Now)

He tried to sound cheerful, not wanting her to know that he was upset. But she clearly made out that Arnav wasn't happy. Something was wrong. She sat beside him, and held his arm.

What happened? Why are you tensed?

He gulped his throat. How could she know him so well? He looked at his innocent angel.

I lost a deal. He replied with a sad voice. Now she knew the exact reason. She hugged him, with full of love and affection.

Its ok Arnavji, don't be upset. You will soon get another one, indeed a better one.

She cheered him, with her support.

Thanks Khushi, for being beside me, and encouraging me in my every step.

He kissed her forehead.

I am always there for you Arnavji, she said happily.

Flashback ends.

But I was never there for you Khushi, he murmured with full of pain and remorse.

You understood my pain within seconds and didn't understand your pain even after a month. How could I be so careless? How could I ignore you? Why do I always end up hurting you Khushi? I am such a bad husband, his inner voice told him.

He slowly caressed her hair. He bought her more close to his chest.

I wont repeat the same mistake again Khushi. This time I wont let you go away from me.

He kissed her hair softly, and closed his eyes.

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Khushi slowly opened her eyes in the morning. She felt as if someone was hitting her head with a rod. She had a bad headache. She didn't feel free today. She felt as if she was wrapped. That's when she saw herself in his arms. He looked so cute when he slept. She looked at his innocent face. She had missed his arms from a month. She wished to stay in his arms forever. Her eyes pooled when she remembered, how he had ignored her for another woman. She cant forgive him for that. Khushi was feeling very bad. But at the same time she was confused, that how did she end up here, with him?

She tried to free herself from her husband's grip, but he became more protective towards her and made his grip tighter.

Where are you going? He asked her with concern.

Please leave me, she protested.

He nodded his head in a no, and pulled her close to him. Within seconds she was in his arms. She was urging to hug him back but her inner self didn't let her do so.

Leave me, she said in a painful voice.

She pushed him with all her force. He gulped his throat looking at the fury in her eyes. She rejected his hug, for the first time. That surely hurt him. She could see pain in his eyes. But this wasn't the time to fall weak in front of him. She wanted justice.

What am I doing here? She tried to clear her doubts.

Now it was time for Arnav to receive shock. She didn't remember anything.

You don't remember anything,? He asked with shock.

No, she confirmed.

He was sad that she doesn't remember anything.

You were drunk, he confessed, so I bought you here.

Now that was a shock for Khushi. Her eyes popped out. She lowered her eyes.

I am sorry, did I embarrass you in the party? She asked with her eyes gazed on the floor.

He knew that she was teary. He made his steps towards her and cupped her face.

Hey, you need not be sorry, you never embarrassed me. Don't you seriously remember anything Khushi? He asked her, to find some ray of hope. She shoved his hands from her face.

No, she said without looking at him.

Just look at me and answer, he demanded.

I remember everything. I remember kissing your chest, I remember confessing my insecurities, I remember seeing you cry, I remember our kiss, I remember you consoling me, her heart said to her. But she didn't want to forgive him so easily.

She looked at him.

I don't like to repeat, she said bitterly.

Hope you got my answer, Mr.Raizada!!

Khushi, he whispered when she called him Mr.Raizada and not Arnavji.

She knew how difficult it was to call him that, but she had to be strong. She had to make him realize his mistake. She had to tell him that she wasn't a toy, to be used once and thrown later. She had to make him realize that she shouldn't be taken for granted.

Will you mind to take me home? She asked him with no emotions.

He went closer to her and cupped her face.

I am sorry Khushi, I shouldn't have ignored you.

She cut him in middle.

Please don't use that word when you don't mean it.

He was angered by her statement. He pulled her in a jiffy motion, making her collide on his chest and made a tight grip on her.

I never say the words which I don't mean. Got it Khushi kumari Gupta Singh Raizada? I seriously mean it Khushi.

He loosened the grip on her.

I know I have hurt you a lot Khushi, and I feel bad for that, but I seriously didn't want to hurt you. I still love you the same as before. I know you aren't happy for my behavior, but I didn't know that you were insecure of Sheetal. Believe me, I and Sheetal don't share any relationship. Its only you, who is in my heart. I love you Khushi.

And that's why you kept ignoring me? That's why you stayed away from me. What kind of love is this?She blasted. Tears covered her face.

I wont hurt you again Khushi, I promise

Please stop making false promises. Each time you promise me and hurt me again. Everytime I forgave you, thinking that you are repenting, but I was wrong. Each time you break my heart into pieces and I have to forgive you.

She cried more.

This time I wont let that happen. Where was your love when you were flaunting with Sheetalji? Where was your love, when I was feeling all lonely in home? Where was your love when I was waiting till late night, just for your one glance? I tried to stay close to you, but each time it was you who chose to stay away from me. You went early to office with her and came late with her. Did you ever bother to know that if I had my dinner? I used to wait till 11 just to have dinner with you, but you and Sheetalji already dine in your office. Do you know how many nights I was all hungry? And after coming to home, did you speak to me? Either you had your laptop or your mobile beside you. And Sunday would be the worst day for me, when I find you with Aarav and Sheetal for the whole day. Either you play with him or work with Sheetal. Did you spare a single minute for me? Did you realize how much I needed you? Its too late Arnavji, too late to realize your mistake. And neither your whole family needed me. They have a good time in serving and making our guests comfortable, totally forgetting me. Do you have any idea how it hurts when the whole family compares you and Aarav to be alike? Do you realize my pain Arnavji? Do you know how it feels when your husband isn't interested in you anymore?

Her tears were not stopping at all. He was hurt to see her cry. He went to hug her. His eyes were moist. She stopped him, by showing her palm.

Please don't touch me.

She was refusing his touch too.

Khushi I seriously didn't mean to hurt you.

A lone tear fell from his eyes. He didn't mean to hurt her. She cried bitterly and sat on the bed. He couldn't see her like this.

Khushi please stop crying.

He begged her, unable to stand her tears. He knew that she was feeling weak. He didn't mind if she would scold him. He moved forward and made her keep her head on his chest. She didn't protest this time. He was hurt seeing her in such a painful situation. She was right, he was never a good husband.

I will make everything alright Khushi, he assured her.

I want to go home.

She said painfully. She knew there was no one to bother about her even in home but she didn't want anyone to be worried for Arnav atleast.

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They entered home. Khushi made sure that no one could make out that she was unhappy. Arnav kept looking at Khushi if she was fine. All family members were worried for them.

Mami: Hello hi bye bye, Arnav bitua, phati saree bher(where) bere(were) u two?

Anjali: Yeah chotte, Akash was about to call the police. Couldn't you both inform us that you aren't coming home? You know how worried we were.

Before Arnav could say anything, Sheetal spoke.

Sheetal: Yeah Arnav, I called you so many times, but you didn't receive any of my calls.

Arnav(to everyone): It was very late when we came out of the party and we were tired so we stayed in the farmhouse.

He lied.

Sheetal: But where did you vanish all of the sudden from the party? Atleast you could inform me.

He didn't like it when somebody dares to question him, on his face.

Arnav(gritting his teeth): Why? Do I need your permission for everything? I had some personal work and I guess I don't need to publish in any newspaper about my routines, where I go, what I do etc.

That was enough for Sheetal to shut up. Everyone got to know that ASR was angry. For the first time Khushi felt that her husband did a sensible thing. She too didn't like Sheetal interfering in their personal issues.

Nani: But anyone could inform us right? Atleast you Khushi bitiya.

Khushi was upset with these Raizadas who expect her to do all her duties as a faithful daughter in law but never gets anything in return.

Khushi: Batao, ya na batao kisiko kya farq padtha.(If I would say or not say why would it matter to anyone?)

She said in a painful tone. Without wasting a single second she went to her room. ARnav followed her. For the first time she stood for herself. All the Raizadas were surprised.

Anjali called Khushi from behind, but she didn't care.

Anjali: Surely something is wrong Nani, Khushiji never behaved like this before.

Nani: Maybe she is upset because of us.

Mami: But bhy?? What did we dowa?

Nk: I need to find out.

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Once again, sorry, I couldn't complete it today. I need some time to complete this story. I might give one or two more updates, but I will try to finish it soon. Thank you all for liking and commenting on the story.

Katty