I didnt win the Silver, I lost Gold (Imp Note Updated) - Page 2

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I didn't win the Silver, I lost Gold

-Shravs

Prologue 2

"Aunty, You are our neighbour's daughter right? They told me you are gone to God, how did you come back?"

I smiled, after seeing our child for the first time after seven years. The daughter who doesn't even know you as her mother. The daughter for whom we had lots of dreams weaved. The symbol of our love, our togetherness, our happiness. The baby sis is a carbon copy of her elder sister. The moment I saw the face, I fell in love with her, on that miraculous day on the road just after the accident. All of these realizations shattered the moment, I heard the word Aunty' from my daughter. The fact that I couldn't do anything in saving both my kids seven years back made me realize that I am really unfit to mother them. I don't have it in me to tell my daughter that I am her Mother'. I don't have an answer to her if ever she asks me, where did I go? why did I go? I don't have it in me to see anymore hatred from my own children. I failed my daughter again. I am glad, she is lucky, lucky enough to get a mother in another woman, who gave birth to her. It pricks my heart when I see my daughter refer me as a third person. I feel helpless, I so want to tell my daughter I am her mother, and I love her a lot, but again the reality hits me, I don't deserve to be a mother, I don't deserve to be a mother, I don't deserve to be a mother.

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"You are leading a very happy life, These seven years were a cakewalk to you but not me. Why did you choose the baby that day and not me. Didn't you love me as your own? Didn't you claim I am your first Child? Didn't you claim I am the first person who made you feel mother? Why didn't you come in search of me? How can you be so selfish? For the first time, you made me feel your step-daughter. I feel ashamed of loving you."

Seven years ago, I didn't think saving one of my child will put my other child through a sorrow, which I can never think of. When today my daughter asked me lots of questions, I was a mere statue, I don't have answers dear, I don't have any answer. I don't know why I did what I did. Probably, yes God did right by not giving me the blessing of bearing a child. What Raman said years back has always pricked my heart and shattered me into pieces, but I had enough strength to go on with those pieces. I won't be anymore Rooh, I may not show my love enough, I may not be a perfect mother to you, but the fact is, I can't think of anything else than you. The word StepMother' never gave me so much pain when it came from your mouth. Whatever I do, It will never be enough for me to prove my love to you, I will never again claim myself a mother, If I cannot mother you, I will mother none. It is always has been like this, I have to prove everyone my love always and this is the biggest failure, I will ever face or ever faced. I don't know how to love, till I discovered it from you Rooh. I failed you and I failed myself. I feel so helpless right now. I know my child, my rooh is in pain and I don't have the right to make you feel better anymore, especially it hurts when I am the reason, you are in this condition. For the first time I am thankful to God that he didn't bless me with a child whom I can bear,As, I don't deserve a child, I don't deserve a child, I don't deserve a child.

To be continued...😉
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Hi Shravas,

Amazing

that was soo emotional
each feeling nicely written

n please stop teasing with just prolongue
plz update na

that was soo emotional
each feeling nicely written

n please stop teasing with just prologue
plz update na

sharu di!

Didu

fabulous prologue dear

i loved it dear

i am unable to hold myself how would it going to be ?

but dear you teasing us with continuous prologue

too bad dear

please continue soon

eagerly waiting