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"Suniye... Wake up...", I try to wake him up. He pulls me to the bed cuddling closer.
"Sone do, Fuggy", he says kissing my cheek.
"Your voice is still not fine, there is a lump too, we are visiting a doctor today", I told him worried caressing his throat.
"It's just a sore throat, you are unnecessarily freaking out."
"It's ok... Let's get it checked, please wake up and get ready, I will get an appointment with the doctor", I told him as I freed myself from his clutch.
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He was back a week ago after his professional trip for a month. He looked dull and weak. Along with cold and cough, there was a change in his voice. He told me it was because of his hectic schedule and the climate in the place he was performing. Though he would tell me he is fine, I know he felt uneasy and had difficulty while eating because of lump. Instead of getting better I felt it was turning bad. There was a lump formed in the left side of his throat and his voice was getting low and rough.
"Mrs. Mehra, the doctor is calling you", the nurse disturbed my thoughts and I followed her inside to meet the doctor.
"How is he doctor?", I asked him tensed.
"It's not just a sore throat. Let us do some test to figure out what is actually wrong. Don't worry he will be fine",the doctor told me.
"When should we get the test done?", I asked looking at the prescription.
"Tomorrow", Abhishek answered before the doctor. "I have work today, we have to leave soon.", he continued.
"Test for tumour", I read the prescription shocked.
"I suggested a biopsy also, it's not that it's a tumour but let's not rule out any chances"
I was boggled at what the doctor said.
"Mrs. Mehra stay strong, this is just a procedure. We get all the test done", the doctor further assured me but my mind wasn't registering anything.
"Thank you doctor", Abhishek said holding my hand.
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"Fuggy, stop worrying... I will be fine", he pressed my palm in assurance.
"But... Tumour...", tears rolled down my eyes.
"Come on... It's done as a part of procedure, it's Not that I have cancer", he said smiling and wiping my tears.
"It's not funny, why will the doctor write if he doesn't feel so", I pushed his hand annoyed with him smiling.
"Arrey Fuggy, why don't you start worrying after something goes wrong, now stop crying", I could see him getting annoyed.
Though I was scared I stopped crying and nodded. He dropped me home and left for work. We decided to not tell anyone about it as we did not want to create stress to dadi or maa.
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"Fuggy... Can you stop this", he said nibbing on my shoulder from the back.
"Please.. Sleep... I don't want this now", I told him moving away from him and placing a pillow between us.
"Okay", he said annoyed and dozed off turning to the other side.
I couldn't sleep that night. The fear of something going wrong kept me awake.
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The test were done and we were told to wait for 24 hours for the results. I asked the lab technician if there are any chance of getting it faster but There was no way and I had to spend another day in fear.
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"Fuggy, Don't you think you are over reacting", he asked me when we were driving back home.
"I can't bear anything happening to you", I tell him with tears.
He was about to say something but I held his arm tight, put my head on his shoulder and whispered "I love you". He kissed my temple and repeated the same.
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"Thank you, Thank you so much doctor", I said Glad and contended to know he is absolutely fine and there is no tumour.
"Let us increase the dose of antibiotic and examine for a week and if it doesn't heal. We would go for a surgery. Nothing to worry, it will not affect your voice in anyway. You can sing as usual", he assured Abhisheik.
" I knew it. She freaked out unnecessarily"
"It's all because of the love she has on you"
The men talked about me as I sat there glad he is safe. The thought of anything happening to him scared the hell out of me.
I felt a bit embarrassed for panicking too much but the thought of something happening to him did not make me think calm and straight.
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"Let's go out for dinner tonight", he said while we drove back home.
"Okay, I am so happy today and want to celebrate it", I said grinning.
He seemed a bit off but I was too happy to think about it deeply. He dropped me at home and left for the recording studio.
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Fuggy, wine?", he asked me.
"Hmm... Yes...", I took the glass he offered.
" I love you", I bent forward and kissed his cheek. He was a bit shocked as I was not someone who displayed affection much like him.
"I love you too but I don't like this", he told me looking straight into my eyes.
"Wine or kiss", I asked teasing him.
"Pragya", he called my name.
He sounded critical. One of the rarest time he called me by my name.
"What did I do?", I asked with an innocent face.
"What was that behaviour of yours in the last couple of days?"
"I was scared, what if..."
"So What if it was a cancer?", he completed my sentence.
I could feel my eyes full up with tears.
"You feared my death?, you know nothing is more dangerous than fear, I never worried about what will happen to me in the last 2 days but I was worried about you. You neither ate properly nor slept properly"
"Wouldn't you react the same if something happens to me", I asked him and I can see him soften a bit.
"No... Definetly not like you, I would try to be strong and help you get out of this. I want to be your strength Fuggy not your weakness", he said placing his hand on mine.
"Anything can happen to anyone in life Fuggy, I just want you to be strong and face it. I have seen you be strong for everything else in life but when it is concerned with me you act different. Should I blame myslef for it", he asked me.
"No... Don't even think like that. I just can't bear losing you"
"What can happen to me Fuggy, when you are with me?", he said wiping my tears.
"I am sorry", I told him.
"I don't want you to feel sorry Fuggy, I can't see you hurt at all and if you are in pain because of me it hurts me more."he tells me and I hug him.
"Whatever it is, I want you to stay strong, share it with me and let us fight our problems together." He tells me and I nod.
"Remember you promised me not to hide anything from me, now I want you to promise me to stay strong and not freak out with every little thing concerned with me. Promise me to be the same Pragya you are when you face a problem even if it is related to me. I hate to see you broken and weak".
I promise him and he hugs me, we remain like that for a few minutes and he breaks the hug
"Shall we go home", he asked me all of a sudden changing the topic.
"You have to make up for the last 3-4 nights", he winked at me and I blush.
------
I sit comfortable on my bed leaning on the head board surfing the channels.
It was his concert night and I couldn't attend it. I am pregnant and was advised bed rest because of my health. They are a few not so risky complications in my pregnancy but I am confident I will be fine.
I change various channels watching him all over the TV with reporters and fans praising and congratulating him for the successful concert.
The lump was cured soon and he did not have any issues further because of it. He must have forgotten the whole incident but I would never forget it because it made me the More stronger and confident person I am today.
"Sone do, Fuggy", he says kissing my cheek.
"Your voice is still not fine, there is a lump too, we are visiting a doctor today", I told him worried caressing his throat.
"It's just a sore throat, you are unnecessarily freaking out."
"It's ok... Let's get it checked, please wake up and get ready, I will get an appointment with the doctor", I told him as I freed myself from his clutch.
-------
He was back a week ago after his professional trip for a month. He looked dull and weak. Along with cold and cough, there was a change in his voice. He told me it was because of his hectic schedule and the climate in the place he was performing. Though he would tell me he is fine, I know he felt uneasy and had difficulty while eating because of lump. Instead of getting better I felt it was turning bad. There was a lump formed in the left side of his throat and his voice was getting low and rough.
"Mrs. Mehra, the doctor is calling you", the nurse disturbed my thoughts and I followed her inside to meet the doctor.
"How is he doctor?", I asked him tensed.
"It's not just a sore throat. Let us do some test to figure out what is actually wrong. Don't worry he will be fine",the doctor told me.
"When should we get the test done?", I asked looking at the prescription.
"Tomorrow", Abhishek answered before the doctor. "I have work today, we have to leave soon.", he continued.
"Test for tumour", I read the prescription shocked.
"I suggested a biopsy also, it's not that it's a tumour but let's not rule out any chances"
I was boggled at what the doctor said.
"Mrs. Mehra stay strong, this is just a procedure. We get all the test done", the doctor further assured me but my mind wasn't registering anything.
"Thank you doctor", Abhishek said holding my hand.
-------
"Fuggy, stop worrying... I will be fine", he pressed my palm in assurance.
"But... Tumour...", tears rolled down my eyes.
"Come on... It's done as a part of procedure, it's Not that I have cancer", he said smiling and wiping my tears.
"It's not funny, why will the doctor write if he doesn't feel so", I pushed his hand annoyed with him smiling.
"Arrey Fuggy, why don't you start worrying after something goes wrong, now stop crying", I could see him getting annoyed.
Though I was scared I stopped crying and nodded. He dropped me home and left for work. We decided to not tell anyone about it as we did not want to create stress to dadi or maa.
------
"Fuggy... Can you stop this", he said nibbing on my shoulder from the back.
"Please.. Sleep... I don't want this now", I told him moving away from him and placing a pillow between us.
"Okay", he said annoyed and dozed off turning to the other side.
I couldn't sleep that night. The fear of something going wrong kept me awake.
----
The test were done and we were told to wait for 24 hours for the results. I asked the lab technician if there are any chance of getting it faster but There was no way and I had to spend another day in fear.
------
"Fuggy, Don't you think you are over reacting", he asked me when we were driving back home.
"I can't bear anything happening to you", I tell him with tears.
He was about to say something but I held his arm tight, put my head on his shoulder and whispered "I love you". He kissed my temple and repeated the same.
----
"Thank you, Thank you so much doctor", I said Glad and contended to know he is absolutely fine and there is no tumour.
"Let us increase the dose of antibiotic and examine for a week and if it doesn't heal. We would go for a surgery. Nothing to worry, it will not affect your voice in anyway. You can sing as usual", he assured Abhisheik.
" I knew it. She freaked out unnecessarily"
"It's all because of the love she has on you"
The men talked about me as I sat there glad he is safe. The thought of anything happening to him scared the hell out of me.
I felt a bit embarrassed for panicking too much but the thought of something happening to him did not make me think calm and straight.
-----
"Let's go out for dinner tonight", he said while we drove back home.
"Okay, I am so happy today and want to celebrate it", I said grinning.
He seemed a bit off but I was too happy to think about it deeply. He dropped me at home and left for the recording studio.
----
Fuggy, wine?", he asked me.
"Hmm... Yes...", I took the glass he offered.
" I love you", I bent forward and kissed his cheek. He was a bit shocked as I was not someone who displayed affection much like him.
"I love you too but I don't like this", he told me looking straight into my eyes.
"Wine or kiss", I asked teasing him.
"Pragya", he called my name.
He sounded critical. One of the rarest time he called me by my name.
"What did I do?", I asked with an innocent face.
"What was that behaviour of yours in the last couple of days?"
"I was scared, what if..."
"So What if it was a cancer?", he completed my sentence.
I could feel my eyes full up with tears.
"You feared my death?, you know nothing is more dangerous than fear, I never worried about what will happen to me in the last 2 days but I was worried about you. You neither ate properly nor slept properly"
"Wouldn't you react the same if something happens to me", I asked him and I can see him soften a bit.
"No... Definetly not like you, I would try to be strong and help you get out of this. I want to be your strength Fuggy not your weakness", he said placing his hand on mine.
"Anything can happen to anyone in life Fuggy, I just want you to be strong and face it. I have seen you be strong for everything else in life but when it is concerned with me you act different. Should I blame myslef for it", he asked me.
"No... Don't even think like that. I just can't bear losing you"
"What can happen to me Fuggy, when you are with me?", he said wiping my tears.
"I am sorry", I told him.
"I don't want you to feel sorry Fuggy, I can't see you hurt at all and if you are in pain because of me it hurts me more."he tells me and I hug him.
"Whatever it is, I want you to stay strong, share it with me and let us fight our problems together." He tells me and I nod.
"Remember you promised me not to hide anything from me, now I want you to promise me to stay strong and not freak out with every little thing concerned with me. Promise me to be the same Pragya you are when you face a problem even if it is related to me. I hate to see you broken and weak".
I promise him and he hugs me, we remain like that for a few minutes and he breaks the hug
"Shall we go home", he asked me all of a sudden changing the topic.
"You have to make up for the last 3-4 nights", he winked at me and I blush.
------
I sit comfortable on my bed leaning on the head board surfing the channels.
It was his concert night and I couldn't attend it. I am pregnant and was advised bed rest because of my health. They are a few not so risky complications in my pregnancy but I am confident I will be fine.
I change various channels watching him all over the TV with reporters and fans praising and congratulating him for the successful concert.
The lump was cured soon and he did not have any issues further because of it. He must have forgotten the whole incident but I would never forget it because it made me the More stronger and confident person I am today.
Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon
Jodha Akbar
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