And to add to this I want to share about a poem written by ONV sir in malayalam, today of all days since the great poet passed away today... a loss to whole of Malayalam and Indian literature...
The poem called Sarayuvilekku .. or Into Sarayu.
Its lord rama asking the pure river to take in him too to its depths...as he cant see anything in nature but his lost sita, the same sita who he abandoned in dark forest has now abandoned him forvever...she had gone back to the womb of her mother standing right there .. down and down...not heading to my sorrowful request to comeback...
They call me the symbol of goodness and kindness... and each time I hear this my heart burns in fire because it can only remember my sita's tears and her face full of pain... The same sita, who in a heart beat decided to come with me to share my hardship is forest, and then some day I left her is that same dark forest ...a million questions pricking like thorns, asking me... no enemy's arrow couldnt compare to this... Oh beloved Sarayu, please take me to you...
The poem goes on about how more tormented he is with his decisions and losing Sita... It is beyond beautiful(i am so bad that I should stop my attempt to translate anymore :P )... never before had I ever thought of how Ram might have lived without Sita with all the guilt of being unjust to her... the guilt, the helplessness, the pain, the emptiness ...
I really hope even in this show they will eventually show the depth of his feeling as a human, not only as God when the time comes...