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Kiara

Part 14

For long I had been alone..for long I had felt incomplete...for long...I had yearned for love...

As I took her into my arms...I felt complete...yes I had found my love ...and seeing her like that almost broke me but being so close to her gave me encouragement that no matter what I was not leaving her side...

It was my silent promise to her

It took me a while to realize ridhima had started crying even more...but silently ...

She was almost shivering...i hugged her more tightly...

...

My restless heart was finally at peace...tho nothing was said yet...

His hug made me feel as if he was promising me that I would never get hurt again...

As more tears escaped my eyes...

He held me more tightly...

I listened to his racing heartbeats...

I felt scared again...scared of loosing him...

He let go off me after sometime...

And his cute blue eyes looked straight into mine...

There was something he was gonna say...

He wiped my tears...but he was still unable to say anything...

I didn't need him to say anything...

We heard footsteps...

...

I let go off her slowly...I had to tell her

I had to tell her

She belonged to me ...and I belonged to her...

But there were no right words to explain what I felt ..atleast I couldn't find any at the moment...

But her eyes almost said to me...you don't need to...i understand...

and then we heard footsteps...

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We entered the library in hurry...

Bcuz both of us didn't know what to do after...

Our hearts knew...but...

The library was almost empty...

Armaan went and got me a bottle of water

He gestured it towards me...and then sat beside me...

I still hadn't found my voice...and I guess he also hadn't...

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Love isn't a destination...its a journey...

It isn't a single emotion ...it's a compilation of many...

It doesn't need big words...it needs only understanding of two...

It doesn't need voice...it just needs two hearts beating to the same rhythm

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I asked finally finding my voice " are u alright?"

She looked at me...and her face broke into a beautiful but weak smile...

And I dint need to hear any words...

One of my frienz walked towards me...

His name was arjun...one of the few of my gang members who studied and kept much to himself...

" are you guys studying for Surgery test??"

He looked in a bad state...

" actually I had my basketball match yesterday and I totally forgot...if you guys don't mind...may I revise with you two...??"

My head automatically turned towards her..

I wanted to help arjun...but was ridhima alright with it..

She gave small smile...and said "yeah sure..."

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Throughout our studying I was recounting what had happened before...

It created tickles in my stomach...at the same time my heartbeats were racing...and my mind full of questions...

My heart knew the answers but it wasn't ready to bring it into words...

The next two hours passed with my awkward glances towards ridhima and she sharing almost the same expression

In a way arjun made things easier...and in a way I felt someone invading our privacy...

...

I glanced again awkwardly to him ...and he looked almost the same way at me...

My heart still hadn't found words to describe...what I felt...

But I didn't need to wait for my questions to be answered...

The next two hours passed...

Arjun said "thanxx you guys saved my life yaar ...armaan tum itne ache se kabse padhne lage??"

Armaan smiled but didn't say anything...

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They say your world stops...when u fall in love..they say u hear music when u fall in love...

I always thought all this was just exaggerated crap teenagers made...and was just influenced by the daily soap operas my sister and mother saw...

But...it was all true...

And I had submitted myself to the fact that ...yes my world had stopped since she entered my life...

yes she was the only one on my mind...the only one I truly cared for apart from my family...

but there are always two sides to a story...good and bad...

And ridhima influenced me in a good way..studying was one thing...being with her made me feel different and not the usual good looking hunk I felt around girls who just drooled over me and guys who were jealous but pretended to be my friend...with her I felt pure...

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I looked at armaan

He seemed in deep thought...

Suddenly my cell started vibrating..

It was nupur

I ran outside the library before people started giving me mean looks

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Armaan also checked his mobile..he had kept the vibration also off..

He saw he had alost 20miss calls and around 10 messages...

And all were nupurs

He read all of them...

She had asked him to bring ridhima home by 5

He looked at his watch it was 4:45 pm

He had spent almost the entire day without realizing how much time had passed...

Nupur had thrown a surprise party and it was the very first as she thought riz needed a new beginning in everything

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Nupur was screaming on the fone...making every thing dramatic and asking ridz to come home as soon as possible not telling her the reason...

Ridz was used to nupur being such a hyper active girl...but at the same time she started worrying about her ..

" ok ok I am coming...i hope u haven't thrown me a party of something..."

" arey no no...i just want to talk to you about something.. come soon ...plz bye"

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Nupur hung up the fone almost feeling low ...she didn't want ridz to get any idea...

She knew ridz...she would worry about hundreds of things ...and would have several questions " why...what ...where ...and she would be pissed off that in last 4 years she had made it clear surprise parties were something samrat did for her...

Her fone buzzed it was armaans message

" I am so so so sorry nupur..i m getting her home asap"

She smiled at the message..." yes ridz deserved a new beginning...she needed to accept armaan in her life...she needed to open her heart.."

She knew ridz had opened the door but still she needed to give her a push...

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" I have to go armaan nupur needs me...---"

She was cut short when she saw a worried expression on armaan's face

" what happened??"

" nothing...I will drop you...ok"

" no no I will go..."

"no I will drop you...are u scared I might ask you for a b'day treat"

And a charming smile replaced his worried expression

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Thanks

Griffy

Part 15

I stood as she collected the books..

I noticed her worried expression..

Nupur must have said that she is in trouble or something...

As much as I wanted to tell her that it was a surprise party looking at her worried expression.. I knew I should not. .. she deserved the surprise...

I remembered how I had held her in my arms and how I wish I could have held on longer...she gave me peace...in fact she was my peace.

She had not revolted.. she had not flinched at my touch.. in fact she accepted me gracefully.

Whatever she had been scared off.. whatever that was holding her back wasn't any more..

I could feel it.. and I knew I didn't want to hold back either..

Maybe few weeks weren't enough to know each other.. we had hardly talked.. hardly exchanged what we felt about each other... but somehow I knew it all already...It felt like I had always known her all my life and that was a weird feeling but a good weird feeling...

I must be looking at her for too long because she said my name loudly " Armaan!! We have to go!"

I was brought back from my sea of thoughts.. I smiled and said " Yeah yeah... let's go"

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I was worried about Nupur and at the same time secretly wished it was not a birthday celebration.

The birthday had been going good already.. I was happy.. I was at peace.. I was with him and that was enough..

I knew I could not run anymore.. nor from my feelings nor from him..

I was undeniably drawn to him in ways I was never before drawn to anyone..

Even after hours.. I remembered being in his embrace.. and how it not just raced my heartbeats ... it whispered to me ...that he was the one who would bring happiness and not tears..

I looked at him staring at me .. I felt hot in my face.. never in my life I had been given this kind of attention or care.. never in my life had I been so important to someone.. and I have been rude to him.. I have run away from him and yet he was holding on... I didn't even know his likes..dislikes.. about his family... they were important details to know but yet felt unimportant.. all I knew was that I felt safest with him.. like I could depend on him for my worries..

After Samrat I thought I would never able to feel love.. but this was much more than what I had ever felt for Samrat.. The kind of safety.. the tickling In my stomach or the response of my heartbeats to his sight were different.. were unique..and I knew what I felt for him was definitely not what I felt for Samrat

And this made me even less guilty... I know I would have to eventually tell him about Samrat.. Riya and everything

But somewhere I felt he would trust me and understand me... it felt as if all this was meant to be

Wasn't it?

"Ridhima!" Now I had stopped in mid way and been lost in thoughts...He looked at me with concern..

And Yes my heart knew.. it was heading to the right place...

...

Her face broke into a beautiful smile.. a smile enough to melt my heart again and again ...

I walked back to her and asked

"You alright Ridhima?"

"What's your favourite food?"

"Checken Biriyani ...but why? You stopped in the middle of corridor to ask me this?"

"No no I meant" Her voice faltered..

I mentally kicked myself.. she wanted to know about me ..wasn't it that simple...

So even amongst her getting worried about Nupur... she wanted to know small details about me..

"I was joking!! Like I said Chicken Biriyani and Mutter Paneer... what about you?"

"I love Biriyani" she said in low voice...

She had gone red...and I knew it was time to shut up

I smiled to myself.. gosh she is too cute.. and we started walking to the car

Once or twice I thought of asking something.. but the silence was so beautiful I didn't feel like breaking it..

I did want to talk to her for hours but I could also stay with her in this silence for hours

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I was a bit annoyed with myself.. Yes I should learn more about him but who abruptly asks ones food choices in the middle of a corridor.. and anyways I loved the silence we held..it was peaceful and pure

We didn't speak and yet understood everything about each other and that was something you don't find..

I did want to know all about him but I loved walking silently beside him... I no more felt like a lost soul I had all these years...I had finally found home somewhere in him...

My thoughts amazed me.. how in few weeks I had changed from a revolting isolated girl to someone who was ready to be in love with a guy I didn't even know...But the truth was I knew him.. I knew the important details... the most important was that he was a descent guy who cared about not hurting me and I had noticed how my worried expression produced wrinkles and concern on his face.. and for me that was the most important part.

I did want to know about his likes dislikes. Wanted to know how much he matched me but

One thing I knew...for sure was how much I wanted to stay beside him.. talking or not..

My phone buzzed again.. it was Nupur

"I think we should hurry"

Armaan said even before I said anything.

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We sat in the car... I looked at her again..

" Your favourite color?" I asked without thinking ...

"sea green..."

"So you love sea?"

"Yeah I do...Sea is beautiful"

"So you go to beach often ?..."

"Yeah...I do..."

"great... we should go someday..."

I blurted...and knew I should not have

Her face went red again..

I kicked myself mentally again and the rest of drive I didn't dare to speak anything.

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Does this happen to everyone?? Can I be so special to anyone.. that someone would like to spend time with me..go places with me.. all my life I had never been on the receiving end of care.. I was the one taking care of everything especially Samrat.. I do not want to say that he did not care for me..it is just how someone should make you feel important in a way no one else could.. that factor was always missing ..like yes my company mattered to you..like my likes dislikes would influence the flow of this relation...

It is not like I had not been blessed with friends...or my parents never loved me.. I had been blessed with the best yet there was something missing ...something that I had searched in Samrat and had failed miserably...

And here I was beside that one person to whom I mattered.. and there was no doubt in that..even when I left him in the camp.. he pursued he held on .. like my presence and absence mattered to him and what could be more beautiful than that??

The car stopped and Armaan came a bit near me

"And I like your smile the most"

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Part 16

Lost souls do find their home..

Tears do find the hands that stop them ...

Cracks in heart do find their healer

And just like this I was whole again...

I had returned...

"And I like your smile the most"

I turned red... he had whispered that near my ear.. and I knew.. no one had ever made me feel this way.. and I could live off this memory forever...

I turned to look at him..

And all I found was love in his eyes.. pure love

For me..

The thought itself warmed my soul...Life could be that simple? I have finally found that person who would just erase my pain...?

"Yes you have" My heart whispered..

As my eyes remained fixed on his... as if something had captured me...

To tell the truth

His love captured me...and I wanted to remain captured till eternity..

My heart knew .. he was the one...

He inched a bit nearer... my heartbeats silenced.. for the first time...as if they knew.. they knew it was not the time to trouble me.. as if the world wanted to stop for me .. so I could savor this moment..

Everything around me was silent.. just him and me ...his eyes and mine...and slowly inching closer...

Was it the right thing to do ? I hardly knew him? What would happen when he knows? Shouldn't I wait ?

The multiple questions were suddenly silenced by my heart...

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I looked at her.. My words had a definite affect on her..

There was no more fooling me that she did not love me ... or had no feelings for me..

My mind almost laughed at how I can think after all this .. that I didn't affect her in any way..

In camp how she had held on to my hand.. How she let me lead her..

It all came back to me..

I had known and it felt like since an eternity that we were meant to be..

Such force that drove us to each other was unique.. she was unique...

No one ever had that kind of effect on me... but she did..

She turned and I saw her innocent brown eyes.. staring into mine eyes..

And slowly I understood what they were speaking...they were speaking of love

And only love.. pure love

I knew I didn't want to ever let her go..

Her eyes drew me nearer to her..

I inched a bit closer to her love filled eyes.. I didn't know what I was planning to do..

All I wanted was to stay like this forever... I had found my home.. in her eyes.. and I planned to stay there till eternity...

How in little time.. I seemed to have submitted slowly and completely to her..

Words didn't matter... nor anything else.. all I knew was I wanted to make her mine...

My heartbeats said the same.. silencing my mind of all the innumerable questions..

And ...

Her cell buzzed..

The trance was broken..

I didn't know who was more red .. her or me..

I immediately drew back hurriedly took off my belt and got out.

She did the same..

We had landed in front of her house..

I was glad no one was around..

It was a private moment and I wished it remain so...

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I thanked and cursed my phone at the same time..

It was Nupur obviously..

I looked around as if now only I had realized that we were in a public area..

As if my other senses had just hit me..

My face felt so hot..

What was just about to happen?? Oh My GOD

I freaked out almost and literally wanted to run towards home..but my legs were refusing..

Armaan was following me.. slowly lost in thoughts too..

My heartbeats were back to racing.. My body was behaving weirdly..

My mind was in shock.. I felt weird..

What if something had happened?

"It would have been wonderful" My heart whispered and I swear I could hear my heartbeats giggling..

My mind was not angry either behaving as if it was the obvious thing to happen.

I could not even turn and look at Armaan.. too embarrassed and yet My heart wished to know his thoughts..

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What the hell was I doing?? What if I scared her off?

She looks terrified...

What is bloody wrong with me..??

I cursed my heart which was laughing loudly...

My mind didn't help matters...

I cant lose her...what if she thinks I am some creep and goes away

And my mind almost said a logical answer

"Her eyes? Didn't they speak enough.. stop muttering crap ok?"

I just don't want to lose her..I muttered desperately

And as if she had heard me

She turned.. and smiled.. and the world was alright again

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I turned wanting to know what he was going through.. he looked scared..

Scared of what? ...

And a thought ran across my heart

Scared to lose me?

Not a chance..I thought to myself

And my face broke into a smile..and as if it was all he was waiting for ...

His face broke into a smile too...

I opened the door of my house..

It was dark and my heart knew

The lights were switched on with people screaming "Happy Birthday"

I looked around.. many of my friends stood there smiling their heart out wishing me sincerely

Wasn't I already having the best birthday ever?

I can't complain.. this felt good...

Nupur stood in the middle with a cake..

"Happy birthday Ridhima!!!!"

The next twenty minutes or so were all about singing birthday wishes .. I offering cake to everyone..

My eyes searched for him and he stood leaning at corner of the room looking at me almost admiringly

I heard whispers

"Armaan is here!"

"Look Armaan made it to Ridhima's party! Weird!"

Well my group of friends were the nerds and not so involved in the college's so called cool group..

No wonder Armaan had found his way to the end of the room..

I made my way to him... he had made my birthday special enough.. I didnt want to leave him alone

"good excuse Ridhima"

My heart whispered giggling

I was sure he knew about Nupur's plan

"So you knew?"

He gave his killer smile and ran his hands at the back of his head..

"Well..aren't you gonna offer me cake"

I turned red and gestured the cake for him to take ..

But he had already opened his mouth.. I went even more red..but I knew I had to..in fact I wanted to

And fed him a little of it with my hands almost shaking

I was going to let go off it.. when he caught my hand and fed me the rest..

His touch created havoc and yet gave me peace every time..and just felt right..

I was again captured by his eyes.. the world and party forgotten..

The music volume was suddenly increased to loud and I was dragged back to the party...

I turned Nupur was looking at me and almost winked..

My friends though studious were crazy about music and dancing..and the room almost transformed to dance floor..

Some came to drag me towards the center I politely refused

And each friend of mine would come and look at me..and then at Armaan..

Give a devilish grin and walk off..

How could they all behave like Nupur..I almost giggled at their attitude.. these people were my good friends who didn't judge me.. and I was glad I had them

I sat on the floor leaning on the wall and Armaan also quickly slid down..

"So you don't dance?" Armaan whispered in my ear

He was too close to me.. more than usual generally there would be distance between us.. but not anymore... our shoulders were almost touching..

And to tell the truth I did not mind..My heart giggled even harder

I shook my head saying no..

" Then I don't either"

He whispered.. and I looked at him smiling..

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I looked at her happy satisfied face.. for the first time ever she looked relaxed... and even when so close to me...

She didn't seem to mind my closeness to her.. just like back in the car.. she didn't run away...

Silently she had accepted me.. and I couldn't stop thinking of imagining my future with her...

I might be getting ahead of time.. but her presence didn't feel temporary..

It felt like pieces of my puzzled life had finally started to make sense..

How I never had found real love...how in-spite of so many proposals... I could not say yes to any girl

How none ever made me feel what she did...

I might not know everything about her... but it hardly mattered..

When someone silently sits by you in their own birthday party knowing I didn't know anyone else in the party itself spoke volumes...

I wanted to tell her what I felt about her..

Say it all out and hear the three beautiful words from her too ...

But for the moment I just wanted to sit beside her attempting to carry casual conversations and stealing glances at her ...that was enough for me

...for the moment...

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Griffy

Part 17

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Part 17

I always thought love was more pain... and how I never wanted to fall in love again..

Again? But then why this felt so new... so different .. so unique..

The truth is that love is beautiful when reciprocated ..

As we continued our paused.. awkward.. attempted ... conversations.. I could feel my heartbeats whispering a song...song of love...the heartbeats were content.. they were happy.. they knew that my heart had found the right place...

I tried stealing glances when he was busy looking at the crowd around but I guess his attempt to catch me was more successful than mine..

The butterflies in my stomach continued to their merry dance... ...as our shoulders continued to touch each other and neither of us attempting to break free... my heart sent waves of warmth across my body

Little was my world... and it all just wanted him and it all just needed him.. and it all just had him...

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I caught glances of her now and then...she seemed at peace just like I was...

But I also wanted to carry this relation forward.. declare it to the whole world that she was mine and even before that... declare to her that she was mine ..

The hesitation of our conversation was fading off slowly... I knew I was at the right place.. I just wished I could look at her forever..

To me her love felt like a destination... like I had arrived at my final place of rest and nothing beyond this could cause me any trouble..

As her shoulder kept brushing into mine.. the tingling sensations in my body increased...

I wished to tell her all this.. I wished to speak my mind finally to her..

These conversations of my heart needed voice..

"Should we go to the beach?"

I knew it was almost sunset time.. I wanted to walk by the beach with her.. hold her hand maybe.. and I didn't realize I was already smiling

" You are already smiling without me answering "

For the first time I heard Ridhima giggle..

She looked so cute..Her eyes had already lightened up...

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I was giggling so hard.. after he asked me about going to beach... Eeven before I had replied... he started smiling dreamily..

He looked so cute that even if a nerve inside me wanted to say no.. could not..

As his smile had already swept my heart away..

Most of my friends had left

Nupur was dancing with Mayank...

I looked around..at how suddenly my small world now just comprised of him..

I did want to tell him all this..and the little hesitation I had was disappearing by the second..

I realized I was lifting the walls of isolation and they didn't even need effort with him..

It just felt so right..

He got up and gestured his hand to me

And this time I took it without a second thought..

And as I felt his touch I knew I was walking to my happy ending...

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A part of me was relieved as she held my hand.. I remembered it had hurt quiet a lot last time.. when she had refused...

I realized .. I noticed emotions of mine which I had never acknowledged..

Ridhimad had paved the door open to a whole different world for me..

I went out as Ridhima thanked everyone..The place was pretty empty now..

I was glad how readily she had agreed... I knew our relationship had already started and it didn't need words

But still I wanted to express my love to her..

Though I wanted it be perfect...

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How many times I had wished to go for a walk with Samrat on the beach.. at sunset..

But my dream was crushed again and again and was eventually forgotten by me..

Thinking about Samrat didn't cause me any emotions of pain or love to me.. instead they were blank..as if something had been erased..

As I got out of the house and I looked at him standing near the car.. eagerly waiting for me I knew each of my wishes ..dreams would be fulfilled now.. as I knew they were for the right person

He held the car door open for me...I smiled and got in

He sat on the driver's seat..

" Favourite song?"

" Agar tum saath ho..."

And he lowered his voice and said in almost a whisper..

" wo to main hoon hi"

I for sure blushed..I loved that song a lot... but I knew my emotions would be different when I would hear it now.. because yes I had someone with me..

I had him...

...

We reached the beach..

She got off and waited for me as I parked the car..

We went towards the water.. I tried to be close and yet maintain a distance.. I didn't want to do anything that would scare her off...

I just wanted to hold this moment forever...She looked even more beautiful in the light of the setting sun..

The winds were blowing her hairs away slowly and she was trying to keep them in place again and again..

Life is beautiful; I thought at how simple things could feel like a blessing sometimes...

She made life beautiful in the most simple way..

Like from the very first day.. her presence had a different effect on me.. I felt calm.. I felt peaceful...

I had always wished that when I fell in love.. life should become easier.. my problems would become insignificant and it is weird but I thought love was the solution to all..

If you have someone by your side through your good and bad.. wont life be easier?

Someone who would share your sorrows .. your pain and just hold your hand ...which would give you limitless strength to go through what your going...

one who would share the understanding of silence and appreciate you being honest to them

Maybe it would sound weird to others.. or maybe that I am expecting too much

But looking at Ridhima I felt.. I was at the right place.. if she understood my silence.. she would understand my other beliefs too.

As much as I knew her.. I knew she was a simple girl who didn't like to complicate things... in the little time I had spent with her ..she never fussed about anything...and that is the kind of girl I had wished for..

And My wish was coming true..

I wanted to hold her in my arms and look into her cute brown eyes... and say those beautiful words that would not be just be my declaration of love but also a promise... that I would stand by her no matter what...

I would understand her silence.. feel her pain and give her all the love I can...

I wanted to say everything and yet I was searching for words..

I wanted it all to sound right...

Suddenly Ridhima caught my hand...

She was about to fall and I quickly caught her..

She said a soft Thanks..

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As we walked beside each other.. somewhere my heart craved to hold his hand.. I wished I don't have to ever let go off him..I wished to wash away any pain that would find way to him..

I just wanted to take care of him and love him..

I knew my heartbeats had found their happy rhythm in his presence and the butterflies knew they were fluttering for the right person..

I wanted to tell it all to him.. even about Samrat.. I didn't want anything to come in between us..

I knew I had found my destination and it was him..

My leg got stuck in the sand suddenly and I reached for his hand..

And even before I could balance myself.. his touch had already washed away my fear of falling..

"Shall we sit ?"

I asked him ...

He sat down and so did I

I looked at the sunset.. and remembered how many times I had sat here missing Samrat.. pitying myself ... crying in loneliness.

But those memories felt distant now.. they felt a lifetime away..

All today I could feel his love washing over me..

His eager eyes wishing to be with me.. his cute attempts of finding the right words to say to me..or his silence which in spite of being wordless spoke the world to me..

It was like he had already made promises to stay by me...

"So... what do you most like about beaches?"

He asked in an eager tone.. like he had been wondering something and suddenly his mind had found the right words to start a conversation

" I like the sea.. it's calm but it can be ferocious when it wants.. I like the loyalty of the sun...it sets here leaving us but with promise of coming back the next day.. I like the sound of waves.. .. they leave a calming impact on me for some reason..."

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Ridhima kept on saying about what she liked about the sea... and the more she told me .. the more I knew she was the one..someone who could understand the meaning of nature..understand its language and how deeply she understood it.. convinced me further of she being the Miss Right.

Suddenly her phone rang..She immediately looked at the phone..and her expression changed to almost horror..

She picked up and whispered

"Samrat? "

And somewhere my heartbeats started pacing on a different rhythm..

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Love

Griffy