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Hi guys...I m back again with a new os.It is a sequel to my os A mail which wasn't sent.I have got a very good response on that.So I decided to write a sequel.Hope u guys like this too...
Dear Randhir
Hope this finds you in great spirit and health. I had a lot to say and a lot to talk to you in person but that day never came. The day we parted ways wasn't the day to talk because neither you were in the right frame of mind to listen to and nor was I in the right frame of mind to speak.Now that the dust has settled and we are on different paths, I would appreciate if you can read this patiently with an open and receptive mind, at least for the sake of the wonderful moments we had shared. I hope I at least deserve to be given a patient reading.
After days of allowing myself time to heal and go through a shower of emotions ranging from agony, hurt, pain, sorrow, grief and what not, I have finally decided to say what I had to say for last one year but could not say because the opportunity never came. While this email might not have been necessary as I have nothing left to prove but I am still sending it across as it will help me be at peace with my inner self.
The ways in which we thought about things were never different. No matter how hard you try to convince yourself, at some level you also know very well that we have always wanted the same things from life and we wanted the same things from each other. Our ideas and opinions never differed on the broader issues that concerned us. Our approaches and actions might have been different but our dreams, intentions and thoughts never were and intentions are all that matter at the end of the day. Actions can be misleading, intentions can never be. I have always been a believer in the fact that no match is perfect. And our perception of perfection is always a state of the mind. I had always looked at you as the one I wanted to be with, the one in whom I saw the reflection of my own .
I have never blamed you for anything. Because everything I did surrounding us after you came into my life was to be with you. And you know that very well. With that said, it's also an undeniable fact that it always takes two to tango for all the good and the bad things that happen.There is a very thin line between being practical and being naive and oblivious of reality and failing to realize that there exists a world outside our minds with equal degrees of truth in it. There is also a very thin line between being emotional and romantic and being a fool. But to this day, I never regret falling in love with you and developing feelings for you. You were the most wonderful person that came into my life in a long time and being with you was the best thing that happened to me.I have seen, felt and experienced the emotions that run inside you. I always felt that deep inside your heart, you are lot more emotional than I am and your sentiments run deeper than mine.I always had a hope that a wonderful person like you would be able to understand me one day and see the light in my eyes. I am also practical about a lot of matters in life but in matters of relationship, I let my heart decide because my mind tells me to be safe but my heart leads me to do what makes me happy.
Disappointments and differences are as much parts of a relationship or a courtshipas the wonderful moments which come along the way. What we had between us was great. The understanding, the compassion, the warmth - everything was there. But I always knew and feared that the rough patches will come along the way. The only regret that I have is the fact that everything we had between us went in vain just because of a few misunderstandings, none of which were our faults. Every situation in life can be resolved if only there is a firm will and an honest effort to work towards solving it. I don't have any guilty feeling now as I know I pushed myself as far as I could go, to help improve things.May be you will never understand my position now.
I pray that may there never be a time in your life when you will feel as helpless and dejected as I felt over last few months. I pray that may such times never come in your life because believe me, it's the most miserable feeling ever and I never want you to go through what I have been through. Every day, every moment you get torn apart into shreds from inside, you die in parts and you lose bits and pieces of your soul. My only regret is that I have paid the heaviest price of being honest and that too by parting ways with a person with whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life.
When we started our journey, we were at opposite ends of a bridge. We started walking towards each other and it was an amazing walk until midway when we hit a storm. You saw the dark clouds, stopped in your tracks, started walking back and almost convinced yourself that the sun will never shine again. I kept walking in the rain expecting it to stop sometime soon, expecting the sun to shine again even though I knew I might fall sick. I thought I will fight all the adversities and go the extra mile to be by your side and hence tried hard to cross the bridge but the other end was always too far. Finally, when I reached the other end, I found that you had already decided to continue your journey without me.
People meet but some aren't meant to be together while some indeed are meant to be together forever. People meet for a reason. Meetings aren't just random encounters. People meet because they're meant to be a part of each other's journey. I may not know it now. You may not know it now. But there was a reason why we met. Our paths have crossed to teach each other a lesson and I want you to know that I learned a lot from you. You have always made me feel wonderful in each and every moment we were together. Walking beside you, I always felt proud of being with a person who reflects dignity and grace, a person I could be with for a lifetime. May be it was my pride in you that made me blind towards what was coming.
If you have read this far, then I can only say thanks a ton for giving this a patient reading. A simple acknowledgement of the fact that you have read this would suffice and help me be at peace with myself and move on. I can't thank you enough for being a part of some of the most wonderful moments in my life. If I had given you even one moment of happiness, I will feel honoured and privileged. I wish things were different but some things in life are perhaps just not meant to be. Only time will tell. Sorry if I have unknowingly wasted your time.I have never held any grudge against you and I never will. Have a good life and wish you all the best. I pray for your happiness and well-being as I always have. May my feelings and my love for you protect you in all the difficult times of your life.
With love
Sanyukta
Dear Randhir
Hope this finds you in great spirit and health. I had a lot to say and a lot to talk to you in person but that day never came. The day we parted ways wasn't the day to talk because neither you were in the right frame of mind to listen to and nor was I in the right frame of mind to speak.Now that the dust has settled and we are on different paths, I would appreciate if you can read this patiently with an open and receptive mind, at least for the sake of the wonderful moments we had shared. I hope I at least deserve to be given a patient reading.
After days of allowing myself time to heal and go through a shower of emotions ranging from agony, hurt, pain, sorrow, grief and what not, I have finally decided to say what I had to say for last one year but could not say because the opportunity never came. While this email might not have been necessary as I have nothing left to prove but I am still sending it across as it will help me be at peace with my inner self.
The ways in which we thought about things were never different. No matter how hard you try to convince yourself, at some level you also know very well that we have always wanted the same things from life and we wanted the same things from each other. Our ideas and opinions never differed on the broader issues that concerned us. Our approaches and actions might have been different but our dreams, intentions and thoughts never were and intentions are all that matter at the end of the day. Actions can be misleading, intentions can never be. I have always been a believer in the fact that no match is perfect. And our perception of perfection is always a state of the mind. I had always looked at you as the one I wanted to be with, the one in whom I saw the reflection of my own .
I have never blamed you for anything. Because everything I did surrounding us after you came into my life was to be with you. And you know that very well. With that said, it's also an undeniable fact that it always takes two to tango for all the good and the bad things that happen.There is a very thin line between being practical and being naive and oblivious of reality and failing to realize that there exists a world outside our minds with equal degrees of truth in it. There is also a very thin line between being emotional and romantic and being a fool. But to this day, I never regret falling in love with you and developing feelings for you. You were the most wonderful person that came into my life in a long time and being with you was the best thing that happened to me.I have seen, felt and experienced the emotions that run inside you. I always felt that deep inside your heart, you are lot more emotional than I am and your sentiments run deeper than mine.I always had a hope that a wonderful person like you would be able to understand me one day and see the light in my eyes. I am also practical about a lot of matters in life but in matters of relationship, I let my heart decide because my mind tells me to be safe but my heart leads me to do what makes me happy.
Disappointments and differences are as much parts of a relationship or a courtshipas the wonderful moments which come along the way. What we had between us was great. The understanding, the compassion, the warmth - everything was there. But I always knew and feared that the rough patches will come along the way. The only regret that I have is the fact that everything we had between us went in vain just because of a few misunderstandings, none of which were our faults. Every situation in life can be resolved if only there is a firm will and an honest effort to work towards solving it. I don't have any guilty feeling now as I know I pushed myself as far as I could go, to help improve things.May be you will never understand my position now.
I pray that may there never be a time in your life when you will feel as helpless and dejected as I felt over last few months. I pray that may such times never come in your life because believe me, it's the most miserable feeling ever and I never want you to go through what I have been through. Every day, every moment you get torn apart into shreds from inside, you die in parts and you lose bits and pieces of your soul. My only regret is that I have paid the heaviest price of being honest and that too by parting ways with a person with whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life.
When we started our journey, we were at opposite ends of a bridge. We started walking towards each other and it was an amazing walk until midway when we hit a storm. You saw the dark clouds, stopped in your tracks, started walking back and almost convinced yourself that the sun will never shine again. I kept walking in the rain expecting it to stop sometime soon, expecting the sun to shine again even though I knew I might fall sick. I thought I will fight all the adversities and go the extra mile to be by your side and hence tried hard to cross the bridge but the other end was always too far. Finally, when I reached the other end, I found that you had already decided to continue your journey without me.
People meet but some aren't meant to be together while some indeed are meant to be together forever. People meet for a reason. Meetings aren't just random encounters. People meet because they're meant to be a part of each other's journey. I may not know it now. You may not know it now. But there was a reason why we met. Our paths have crossed to teach each other a lesson and I want you to know that I learned a lot from you. You have always made me feel wonderful in each and every moment we were together. Walking beside you, I always felt proud of being with a person who reflects dignity and grace, a person I could be with for a lifetime. May be it was my pride in you that made me blind towards what was coming.
If you have read this far, then I can only say thanks a ton for giving this a patient reading. A simple acknowledgement of the fact that you have read this would suffice and help me be at peace with myself and move on. I can't thank you enough for being a part of some of the most wonderful moments in my life. If I had given you even one moment of happiness, I will feel honoured and privileged. I wish things were different but some things in life are perhaps just not meant to be. Only time will tell. Sorry if I have unknowingly wasted your time.I have never held any grudge against you and I never will. Have a good life and wish you all the best. I pray for your happiness and well-being as I always have. May my feelings and my love for you protect you in all the difficult times of your life.
With love
Sanyukta
Shiv Shakti
