Aahil FF- Without You! Important Note 1 and 2 page 15! - Page 9

Originally posted by: Humnava

It was as if I could feel Aahil's pain...😭 Amazing update...plzz want SaHil together in ur nxt update...Do continue soon...😊

Originally posted by: asifiqbalsh

Very well written part
The way u wrote the emotions was awesome
Update soon plz
Thanks for pm

Originally posted by: muskaan17rocks

Really very incredible

Reading about aahil just reminds me that he deserved so much more in life than what was always shown in the show

It's just very painful to even think that your every loved one is taken away from you and u need to live this life all alone

Beautiful update dear

I am sure this is what aahil must have felt when he was all alone with sanam2 (season 3)

Really very flawless

Amazing lyrics i must say and definitely the main highlight of the update

Loved as well as lived the update

Please continue soon

Will be waiting impatiently 😊

Originally posted by: nilusoni

Amazing

Thanks for pm

Originally posted by: sahil333

Wonderful update, but I'm a little 😕😆

Aahil with his thoughts and going back to that hurtful phase of his life. He has to be very strong to endure this everyday of his life 😭

I got a mother who loved me so badly, who was ready to give her life for me, who was as pure as God. She betrayed, the same eyes that looked at me lovingly always showed unfathomable hatred for me, the hands that caressed my cheeks pointed gun towards me, for what Bloody Richness! How I shall explain her, that she already had all the richness in my view, she had the most pure heart for me. Rich emotionally, rich morally, rich intellectually!

Very well written. It must have been so unbearable for him to know that she had betrayed his trust and was so greedy...

And I got a beautiful woman, who loved me crazily, who loved every inch of me, who lived for me, who smiled for me, who cried for me, who soothed my life, who became the happiness of my soul, Sanam! For whose every smile I died for, for who loved me really and saw the Real Me behind the Surface of a guilty unpunished free murderer, for whom I meant everything and who meant everything for me! My World! And the nature wrath, stole even that from me! Because the nature knew this man of Bloody Riches didn't deserve a beautiful-hearted woman!

HIS Sanam, I miss HER so much!!! 😭


Wait... WHAT!!! Rehan and Bulbul are lost????? How, Where and When?!!!! Had they been murdered? Arghhh!!!...

And how did Aahil landed in the forest?! Did Aahil travel alone? And where in the world is he atm! I'm so 😕 here!!!


I screamt so loudly! There was no one to hear me, no one! I was damn free from every bondage...and I hated it, I hated this freedom! This lonely Freedom Killed Me From my Insides!

Love the above lines, especially in red.

Robinson Crusoe!!! This was a nice 😆

Yayyy to the funny and lively Ritwik 😆

This chapter is interesting, but clear the confusing part please? 😆

TQ for the pm!

Originally posted by: Zuriah

Rashmi😊

Finally I got a chance to read ur story and all I could say then was WOW kya likha hain..

The entire update kept me on edge...

Sahil has undergone immense pain that even words seems too small to describe it.

His hands dipped in blood of his father though he wasnt at fault...his mothers lovable caresses have changed into hurtful ones ...This sounds too painful..

He doesnt have his sanam there with him..these are circumstances that forced n pushed him in this mishaps..

Saahil was a boy full of innocence always

Loved every piece of it..the loneliness ..the pain endured n the measure of hurt under gone is heart wrenchy

The song had beautifull meaning soo much of dept felt perfect with the scenario descriped..truly applaud worthy⭐️..

Awww rithvik is here..thats another tongue candy to read about😆

Thanks for the pm

Mr stomach has fallen hard for u

Loads of love

Zuriah🤗 aka PK

Originally posted by: Junoon-e-SaHil

Rashmi, this chapter was amazing man! I can almost feel the pain with every word you wrote there, through him. God, such a vulnerable guy he is! 😭

Sorry for being so late to reply, was quite busy these days..in moving out.

Anyway, but this was amazing! How he reminisced all that and how he felt so guilty about being the reason of everyone who was close to him always went away from him..sigh.

They are stuck in a forest, damn! And that guy Rithwik, nice touch there! Loved the convo, and the update! Continue soon! :)

Chapter 3: Eye Of The Tiger...

The birds chirped, the leaves rustled, humming of insects, smells of the ripening fruits, the subtle yet wild touches of the breeze, the world around me was opening up to life. I could see the sun rising with rays of hope shedding light over the lakhs of species of the land, keeping up their belief, as the flowers blossomed and the various organisms waking to the light, cherishing it and working in its blessings. There it was...life.

He looked across the thick forest; there was a vast variety of trees and the little cute animals to huge animals. He was experiencing something he never did before...He could feel a sense of life. For the first time, he saw life...life blossoming.

All his life he was surrounded by evils and crimes with only Sanam and Rehan his true people. But even with them, he was always brought up where there were only murders and deaths. He saw people dying only, he saw Sanam dying, Rehan getting lost, his Ammi dying, his father... being murdered. His life was a game of wicked moves, ego, lust, money, power and life being crushed. Today he could see life being blossomed in the warmth of the nature.

He was delving in deep thoughts as he took in the happiness and warmth. He could feel...her. Caressing him...Her scents mixed with the forest's scents...The breeze made its way through the life of the forest and got mixed with her touches...the rustling of the leaves got mixed with the sounds of her light bangles...She got mixed with the nature's beauty or shall I say the nature turned into her and I opened my closed eyes to see her heart-warming smile in the sky...I felt the true her.

He always thought she was in his heart. Yes, she was there, she was always. He could dream her...he could imagine her always and without that he wouldn't have even maybe even survived. But, all of that always ended with a pain, unsatisfied feeling of losing her, the incompleteness of the completeness. With a pain. But, isn't that all love is all about? What he felt around her...a feeling of unsatisfied satisfaction, of always wanting more, never being able to fulfill that crave, an eternal crave...? It was love, he could feel it. But, today, it was different...He felt her like always, but it was something different. It felt real...There was no pain. A feeling of satisfaction was there. If that was love, what is this?

...

A figure could be seen praying in the dawn.

Maullah! Till today I have always kept hope, faith...in you. Whatever happened, I know you would always save us and you did save me. Maullah, Aahil Bhai is the most honest and purest person I have seen till today. Please, please save him. I can't afford to lose him. The only person I could call my own. He's already gone through a lot. Please save him, please...'

Rehan finished his Namaz and got up. Bulbul was safe. But...Aahil Bhai wasn't there. It tensed him to there, his only own wasn't there...He had somehow survived and the rescue team had found him. As soon as he could come out, he started enquiring about Aahil Bhai everywhere...however there was not a single sign of him. He could find out Bulbul and she was also rescued and was safe. But, Aahil Bhai...?

Ya Allah! Aahil Bhai Jaldi Jaldi wapas Aajaye..

"Mr. Lawyer, the Maggi is ready", a voice which he found to be irritating called out and sighing up Rehan walked towards the kitchen.

...

A rose caught Aahil's attention. He observed the symbol of love carefully. It had both the beautiful attractiveness and the painful thorns. Maybe that was why it represented love. It meant both pain and pleasure. He had accepted it, that love was a painful pleasure. But, this new feeling haunted him- The feeling of a happy husband. It was not a matter that needed pondering, he should be happy cause after years he felt warmth and happiness of her, but this was new. It settled him, is that how one feels in love? He had accepted the fact that life without Sanam was pain, unbearable and so it was. But, this...this feeling was of a happy one. He was surprised, he wanted to...explore this feeling more...this feeling of Sanam.

Maybe love was not about the thorns or beauty of the rose. Maybe it was just "The Feel" of the rose...And I got lost in that feel...

...

I felt somebody nudging me...maybe Rithwik, who else?

"Aahil! Aahil", he seemed to be screaming.

Why the heck are you screaming man? I have ears. What were you calling me for? Say Now' He sighed. Is he gone crazy? Eh?

From past 5 minutes, I am calling at the deaf you and you ask why I am I shouting.'

Whatever! Say what now? '

Say what? Are you gonna starve the whole day? Or do you think you'll keep dreaming and the angels will come and give you food. We've got to get food for ourselves. So shall we go find something or you wanna keep dreaming?'

Yeah!Yeah! Why are you screaming? We'll go. I'm not a dumb and no one commands ARI, you get that?' My Ego got the better of me this time.

Okay Nawab Sahab! Shall we go and find ourselves some food?', he said giving a cheesy smile.

That's better', glad at him obeying me and we set out to feed ourselves in amidst this crazy land parting our ways and deciding to meet on the sands after finding some food.

...

"Ek Jungle Hai Teri Aankhon Mein...Main Jis Mein Raah Bhul Jaata Hu...Hmmm", I was humming one of those old Ghazals. I kinda actually liked them...I mean after Sanam came into my life...She kind of had this craze of Ghazals and though I mocked at her habit of this of always listening to Ghazals I kind of liked them and at this moment honestly that was the only thing I could do and the only thing I had on my mind...

It's been I guess almost an hour and I'm still roaming around with butterflies in my stomach. Okay...let me admit it I'm loving this stroll around the forest. It's fresh and pleasant...the smells put you in a trance...it's as if heaven...with pure life around it. I wonder why our sophisticated human lives, that are supposed to be filled of pleasures are so painful and the simple life of these cute creatures or maybe wild too are so lively and happy...It reminds me of Sanam... Hardworking, simple, independent, mature and yet bubbly, happy, lively, high morals...Oh No! I forgot she was a Wild Tigress too...' A gulp went down my throat...Is this heck real? A Real Tigress?

...

The branches creaked, the little creatures around me started running away...footsteps were heard...The eyes burning with hunger...The predator's eyes met mine...

It roared...I started sweating...Those fierce eyes met mine...They had a crave...a hunger...Right now at this moment ...I questioned. There was no way of escaping. It was too fast in running to catch me...And make me into pieces..Tearing my flesh...and...

I was ready to die ...Anyhow; this is a life that's a waste. I have lost everything that I had, what more should I live for or better say what life did I allow to sustain..I grabbed all the lives. Maybe Allah has decided to take my painful life away ...after losing everything I had. And whatever Maullah has written for me, I accept that.

"Mujhe Yeh Qubool Hai..."

But, was I actually?

"Serve me!"

"Main har ek challenge ke liye ek bottle dhodunga!"

Was I ready to leave the only memories I had too? Was I ready to leave the life on which Sanam had made a mark?

"Mera dam ghut raha hai... Main marna nahi chahti!"

"Listen, main aa gaya hoon na! Just dont worry!"

I looked into the eyes of the tigress. They were fierce, like hers, with a fire in them. I could see her eyes in those eyes.. Was I ready to leave these dreams and imaginations? Was I ready to leave this "Feel"? Was I? No! A fire built up in me too. I wasn't going to leave these eyes. I don't know what was in me at that time. But I felt her...alive. And I was going to catch her...He was not going to let that "Feel" go away from him. He would cherish their love. Explanations were left for the later. Right now, he could just see the fire in those eyes and he wanted it to merge with the hunger in him. He was hunting after 5 Years of Fasting. The predator in front of him ran to catch its prey...but little did it know...the fire in its eyes was long made mine...

"Iska jawab main tumhare honthoon par likh kar dunga!"

"Ghutno Pe Pada Huva Insaan Chaand Ko Chune Ki Khawab Nahi Dekhsakta"

Rising up, back on the street
Did my time, took my chances
Went the distance, now I'm back on my feet
Just a man and his will to survive

"Mujhe chodke mat jao please!"

"Aapko kya fadak parta hai?"

"Mujhe iss rishte se azaadi chahiye!"

"Aap zid mat kijiye!"

"Hamara dream house... Faiz aur haya ke bacche..."

It ran racing to me...and lifting myself I did a jump, my leg supported by a tree and landing past the tiger...Switching positions...I looked at with a fiery look...That of passion...To Fight...And Make it Mine...I wouldn't harm it...It wouldn't die because of me...No! I won't be a murderer again! I'll make those fiery eyes mine...that Feel mine...The Passion...

So many times it happens too fast
You trade your passion for glory
Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
You must fight just to keep them alive

"Kya tumhe bhi wahi feel ho rahi hai jo mujhe ho raha hai?

"Why Don't you Understand Sanam?"

This passion...you feel it, right? I'll make you mine...The fire in your eyes will be mine. It came towards me again..This time, I didn't move.

As, it tried to give me a hard punch, I moved my head catching its strong arms. They were leathery and the skin was burning...It was too heavy though...The muscle structure of its was too nice...I knew it could not go this way.

It's the eye of the tiger
It's the thrill of the fight
Rising up to the challenge of our rival
And the last known survivor
Stalks his prey in the night
And he's watching us all with the eye of the tiger

It looked in my eye...As if challenging me...I accept the challenge...You mighty tigress.

Face to face, out in the heat
Hanging tough, staying hungry
They stack the odds still we take to the street
For the kill with the skill to survive

It's the eye of the tiger
It's the thrill of the fight
Rising up to the challenge of our rival
And the last known survivor
Stalks his prey in the night
And he's watching us all with the eye of the tiger

"Kya aapko yeh nikah qubool hai?!!"

"Ab jab yeh bandh hi gaye hai toh isse mat kholo."

Trying to slip away from its hands...it seemed hard. I tried, but I knew these tigress are pretty strong ones, not that easy to escape. Almost impossible, like My Dhabevali, they are level-headed. You can't win over them. You can make them yours that's all...with love..

Rising up, straight to the top
Had the guts, got the glory
Went the distance, now I'm not gonna stop
Just a man and his will to survive

The eye of the tiger
The eye of the tiger
The eye of the tiger
The eye of the tiger

"Bahut suna hai ki ishq aisa hota hai, wasa hota hai, ishq par kisi ka zor nahi...suna tha par maana kabhi nahi. Lekin aaj mantaa hun, logo ne sahi kaha hai... Ishq par kisi ka zor nahi! "

"I love you Sanam! I love you!!"

"Main waada karta hoon...Ab hum kabhi judaa nahi honge!"

It gave a fierce punch...I seemed to leave my breathes. But, no! I know, I will feel her. As absurd as it may sound, my heart was playing a game with me. I've felt it after 5 years. I know she's not alive, but she is, her feel is and that is what I love. What I felt today in the forest was love, a life of love, the love of Sanam...I'm not going to leave that...leave that "Feel."

Junoon...Tere Ishq Ka...Ha Ishq Ka...Junoon...Junoonnn...

. . . . . . . .The Love Of The Soul Is Eternal, Ever-Living, Ever-Happy. . . . . . . .