Suhani's POV:
It hadn't even been a week since our return home but already I was feeling like we'd never get any time alone. Something or the other kept us apart every day since my return home. On our first night, something happened and I fell asleep first. Then, Yuvraj & Anuj Bhaiyya went out of town for three days. I was all alone at home and missed him. On our phone conversations, he promised to come back home this morning but it was already nighttime and it seemed like he'd still be away a bit longer. I was frustrated. Even Menka Bhabhi was beginning to miss Anuj bhaiyya, so much so that, she wasn't listening to a thing Ragini Bhabhi had to say.
Yuvraj called me and I didn't answer him. I was lying in bed all alone for the fourth night in a row and I didn't want to answer it and hear that he'd still be away another night. So, I didn't answer it. I tried going to sleep.
Yuvraj's POV:
"Ok. She's officially not talking to me." I thought. I was going to tell her that I would definitely be home tomorrow but she didn't answer it. I couldn't blame her. Nothing like this had happened before. Even Anuj missed Menka now, and that was miraculous. So, imagine if Anuj missed MENKA, then how much must I be missing Suhani? I knew she missed me as well. It was time for me to make it up to her but I didn't want to plan anything and have it blow up in my face. If she was in a bad mood, then planning may not get it done.
The next day, with everything wrapped up, we finally went home. Ramesh answered the door and I went to our room, and Anuj went to his. She was wearing a pretty purple saree, but not with her usual smile. Her hair was wet as she'd just showered. She came out of the bathroom and saw me. I unzipped my suitcase and took my clothes out. She didn't speak a word but came over and helped me with my things. She placed them back into the cupboard and then went on her way. It was past lunch time. She bought my lunch to our room in a tray. All my favorites were there. Still, she kept a straight face.
"Thank you..." I said. I took the tray from her, sat and ate. She combed her hair and then left the room in silence. I ate and felt pangs of guilt throughout at seeing her so upset. I took the dishes back to the kitchen and placed them on the counter. She was behind me when I turned around. She didn't look at me and continued with some work. I watched as she cut some vegetables and made a salad for later. She put it in the fridge. No one was around so I held her hand and looked into her eyes. She broke eye contact and looked sideways. I wasn't so great with words and emotions but I was aching for her eye contact right now. I had to get her to listen. I needed to get her to warm up to me again. I missed her badly while I was away and not just mentally and emotionally, but physically as well.
"We really tried to hurry things up and make it back on time, Suhani. I'm sorry..." I said. She tried to free her hand but I clutched it. "Will you please look at me when I'm talking to you? I didn't stay away for four days on purpose. It was necessary. It's work and you taught me how important that is." I said. She eyed me for a second but not a second longer.
"If I could have, then I would have come back sooner." I said in a softer tone. She left me and went back to our room. I followed behind. She went in and I did as well. I locked the door.
"You don't want to talk?" I asked. She shook her head. I nodded. "OK..." I Said. I let her be. She read a book and used her laptop. She did everything to ignore me but I kept watching her from the corner of my eye. We had dinner with the rest of the family and the tension between us was apparent. You could cut it with a knife. It was getting too much. I felt suffocated. I went to our room and waited for her. She came in. I walked towards her.
"I'm not going to bed tonight with you in this silent mode. Talk to me."
"Goodnight. There...I talked." She said. That really pissed me off. "What did I DO!?" I shouted. She flinched. I checked my tone. "I'm sorry..." I said.
She was crying. It's like all of her emotions had been bubbling up and she couldn't control them anymore. "Look at us...does it even seem like we just got back together...that we just got remarried? I'll answer that for you...NO." She said. Seeing her in tears after missing her for so many days and nights was killing. I grabbed her face. "I love you..." I said. "I missed you..." I said. She shook her head and tried to push me away.
"I want to sleep." She said. She wiped her own tears. As she turned around I held her arm and pulled her back. "I've missed you...especially at night, when I had to sleep without you next to me. It felt so wrong and I hated it." I admit.
I wrapped my arms around her waist. "Suhani, if it was in my hands...then I wouldn't have kept you more than an inch away from me on any of the past few nights since you've returned home." I said. She was still crying silently and not looking at me. I held her face. I kissed her lips softly.
"I love you so much..." I said. "Next time I need to go anywhere, I'll take you with me..." I said. "Believe me, Suhani...the past few nights have been just as hard on me as they have been on you. Maybe harder..." I confessed. I couldn't keep the desperation out of my voice any longer. I hoped she realized where I was going with this. I was completely ready and even more than ready. There was no reason to wait.
I caressed her arm and brought her closer to me. I felt her resting her head against my chest. "I love you too..." She said. Then, we hugged tighter and tighter with every second. My patience was at a tipping point and perhaps it was finally breaking. Not only for myself, but for all those months that I made her wait, I was ready to end the distance.
Suhani's POV:
Was this it? I wasn't sure of anything but the warmth of his arms. I felt safe. He didn't let me move much. I felt his lips against my shoulder and neck. I let out a sigh. "I love you, Suhani. I love you..." He whispered again and again. Was this a dream? I pushed him away just a little so I could finally look into his perfect eyes.
"Suhani, I...I'm ready. But, if you want to wait..." He stammered. I couldn't reply him. My mouth felt dry. My throat felt dry. My hands felt cold and clammy. I was nervous. I was trembling. I hoped I wouldn't pass out. What was he saying? Was I hearing things?"
"I...what are you..." I mumbled. I stuttered. I was so nervous. I couldn't look at him anymore.
He took my hand and kissed it. "Relax...I can wait if you WANT ME TO, but I don't want to make you wait anymore. To be honest, I can't...wait..." He looked a bit nervous too but he held me securely.
"This should have happened a long, long time ago." He said. It all went through one ear and out the other. I was shaking now. He hugged me very gently and I hugged him back. I could tell that he was very worried about me. I was worried about myself too. I closed my eyes while we hugged and took a few deep breaths to try to relax myself. He was very gentle. When he let go of me, we faced each other.
"I love you and you're perfect." He said. He smiled.
He moved closer to me and kept his eyes on my face. I was a tiny bit calmer now. He easily gathered me in his arms and lifted me and placed me on our bed. He closed most of the lights except one dim light near our window. I sat up and hugged my knees. He took his watch off and placed it on our dressing table. He turned around and walked towards the bed and sat on the edge of it.
"Let's... try..." He said. He looked down. "If you don't want to continue at some point then..."
I nodded. He moved closer to me and I lay down. He kissed my lips over and over until I finally began to feel my limbs again. My heartbeat felt like it was returning to normal. Slowly with each kiss, I began to regain some sense of where I was. I locked my arms around his neck and he pressed his chest against mine. He kissed every inch of my face and I smiled as our noses touched.
"Your nose is still really big..." I said.
He made a face. "I know you hate my nose..." He said. I smiled.
"But I love you..." I said.
"Lucky me..." He replied. We kissed again and that was a turning point. After that, I began to lose control and release that yearning and pent up desire that I had tried to control for a year. He unbuttoned his shirt and took it off. He was wearing a t-shirt underneath it and took that off as well. We kissed over and over and I began to get used to the taste of him. He was mine, all mine, and he loved me.
I wanted him undressed. My hands explored him as far as they could. It seemed that my neck was his favorite place because his lips didn't leave it for a long time. I felt his arms and his back. He explored my waist. He pushed my pallu away and kissed every inch of bare skin on my body. I was only aware of him, just him, his lips, his arms, his breath and how badly I now wanted all of him. I touched his face and lips. I ran my fingers through his hair.
"I love you, Yuvraj..."
"I love you too..."
He left me for a few seconds to turn off the only remaining light. The room was only light by moonlight now. I held out my arms and came back. The darkness added to the mood. It somehow made me focus even more on him. Another kiss and I felt like I was burning alive.
He lay down and held me against him. He must have been waiting to see if I was ok with moving forward.I knew that I was, despite my nervousness. I reached the back of my blouse and unhooked it. He didn't look at me. He allowed me to undress myself instead of ripping my clothes off. I loved him for that because it wasn't easy. This was the night I'd waited more than a year for but nothing was easy. It was hard and he realized that. I felt exposed and covered myself with our blanket. I closed my eyes and waited. I knew he was undressing as well.
When I opened my eyes, he was next to me. "Are you ok?" He asked. I nodded. He joined me under the blanket and we kissed. I felt his hand against my bare back. He caressed me with his fingers. Finally he pushed the blanket away and I looked up into his eyes. He kissed my forehead, then my lips and chin. He was being gentle.
He held my hand and kissed it.
"I can't imagine my life without you." He said.
"Neither can I..." I said.
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