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Amazingly awesome!!

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Chapter 24

The next morning when I woke up, it was to an empty room. Randhir was nowhere in sight, and naturally I panicked. I sat up in bed, my heart racing. Was he alright?

"Randhir?" I called out as I got off the bed and walked out of the bedroom, towards the living room.

He wasn't there either. I held back a sob - why would he just leave like this without telling me he was going? He knew how worried I would get if he left unexpectedly.

Then I felt strong arms grab my waist from behind and I gasped.

"Randhir," I said, with a sigh of relief, as I turned around to face him. "Where were you?"

I threw my arms around him and hugged him tightly. He rubbed my back with love.

"Sorry I was in the bathroom," he explained.

"Oh... right... I should have checked there," I mumbled.

"Are you going to work?" he asked me.

"Why wouldn't I?" I responded. "Of course I'm going to work."

"You don't have to anymore if you want... you can stay here and relax," he told me.

I shook my head - I wanted to be around Randhir as much as I could. I wanted to make sure he was okay... and more importantly I wanted him to get out of his guilt.

"I want to come," I responded softly and he nodded.

Then I broke the hug and kissed his jaw softly.

"Get ready," I whispered.

He looked surprised that I had just kissed him, but he didn't say anything. Instead, he went to the closet to pick clothes.

I went to the bathroom to shower and by the time I had come out, Randhir was already ready in his formal office clothes. I got dressed too and then wrapped my hand around Randhir's arm.

"Ready to go?" he asked, and I nodded.

We went to the office together and then separated into our own cabins. After a morning full of work, I left my cabin to meet Dhruv, but bumped into Ragini again.

"Hi Ragini," I said brightly.

"How are you?" she asked me.

"I'm good - great, and you?" I asked.

"I'm good... I was just going to go to Randhir's cabin to get him for lunch," she said.

"Ragini... me and Randhir are back together," I told her excitedly.

"What?" Ragini asked, sounding shocked. "How did you get him to agree?"

"He told me the whole truth... about that night," I explained.

"Sanyukta you have to know, he has been feeling really guilty. I was his one good friend, that's why he told me, because he wasn't sure what to do... the guilt was eating him up, and after all this time, I'm not sure what remains of him," Ragini whispered. "He was drunk, and ever since that night, he has been so consumed in work... he has been so withdrawn from life. I don't even know what to say. It hurts to see him that way. He loves you so much."

"I know," I responded. "Thanks Ragini... without you, I don't even know what I'd do."

"Hey why don't you take Randhir to lunch today?" Ragini asked me. "I'll keep Dhruv company."

"Will you?" I asked, getting excited.

She nodded and smiled.

"Thank you so much Ragini!" I said happily.

"Don't mention it," Ragini said, and then walked away.

I walked into Randhir's cabin excitedly and opened the door - without knocking of course. He looked up with surprise as I closed the door behind me.

"Get up, we're going out," I said to him.

"What?" he asked, looking shocked.

"For lunch then ice cream," I explained. "Come on pleaseee."

"Sanyukta I have lots of work," he said, looking down at his screen.

"You're not the only one in this office with a lot of work Randhir!" I whined. "Just come with me. Please."

I walked around the desk and grabbed his arm.

"Pleaseee,"I begged, trying to pull him up, but he struggled to pull his arm away, causing me to fall down sideways on his lap, in an almost lying down position, my hand on his shoulder, my other hand still on his arm.

He looked down into my eyes, and I couldn't help but lose myself in the depths of his... the eyes that held so much emotion from guilt, to pain, to sorrow, to the strongest one, love.

Chapter 25

I let go of his arm and touched his face softly before I pouted.

"Please?" I asked cutely.

"Fine, but get off," he said to me.

I stood up and held out my hand for him to take, but he just stood up, ignoring my hand. I frowned. Why was he being like this?

I was behaving normally with him, something I had told myself not to do, but decided to do because of the immense amount of guilt he was feeling. Then it hit me - if I behaved normally with him, of course he'd feel more guilty.

I had to be a little distant - at least for his sake.

He followed me to the elevators and I kept space in between our bodies. The elevator was empty. I remembered how we used to take advantage of empty elevators, and just ended up making out in them - those were the days before my miscarriage. Those were the days when everything was perfect between Randhir and I.

Life wasn't perfect though. Relationships were never a fairytale. I had always seen mine and Randhir's relationship as one, but now I could see how it couldn't go the way you would imagine it to.

Once we left the building and got into the car, Randhir started to drive.

"Where do you want to go?" he asked.

"Take me to a Chinese restaurant," I told him.

Without saying another word, he continued to drive. The drive was quiet... I didn't know what to say, but Randhir clearly wasn't interested in looking at me, so I kept quiet too.

In the restaurant after we ordered, I took Randhir's hand in mine. He was sitting across from me.

"I'm sorry if you feel like I'm throwing myself at you Randhir," I said to him sincerely. "But I just want you to know that you don't need to be awkward around me or distant... I'm still... I'm still your Sanyukta."

Towards the end of the sentence, I felt my voice crack and tears fill my eyes, and it wasn't me who was squeezing Randhir's hand this time. He was squeezing my hand to comfort me.

"Don't cry, you haven't done anything," he mumbled.

"Randhir how have I not done anything?" I asked him. "You're my husband... I love you. If you're not happy, how can I be happy? If you're guilty, then how can you expect me to enjoy my life? You know I can't see you in pain."

"Sanyukta," Randhir muttered. "Please don't stay with me and ruin yourself."

"No Randhir, I have to. I have to because I'd be ruining myself if I stayed apart. I'm very selfish Randhir. I need you in my life to fulfill my selfish desires. I need you to the point where I can't even leave you," I whispered to him.

I brought his hand up to my lips and sobbed.

"Please don't cry Sanyukta," Randhir told me.

"Okay fine Randhir. I won't cry... but that'll take time," I told him, looking up at him with my glossy eyes. "Just like you need time, I need time to get over all this too."

I let go of his hand and wiped my eyes.

The difference between my time and his time was that, I was able to completely lose myself in his pain and forget about my sorrows, but he hadn't grown out of his own misery to see mine yet.

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Rashi Bhargava

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Posted: 10 years ago

#144

Awsme update
Loved it

Sanyu really trying so hard to get everything normal
Bt rd its not easy for him to come out of his guilt

Excited for next
Update soon

Love u
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Ayushi

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Posted: 10 years ago

#145

Oh wow...

nicely written...

Sanyu trying hard...

she loves him so much...

Randhir filled with guilt...

I think he is hiding something...

Let's hope for the best...

Update soon

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Alaukik

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Posted: 10 years ago

#146

Awesome update.

Ragini is really helpful.

RD has to come out of his guilt, Sanyu is there for him.

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ritika

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Posted: 10 years ago

#147

read the reamining chapters at a go
amazing one😉

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Saffi Sanam

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Posted: 10 years ago

#148

Chapter 26

Our food arrived before Randhir had a chance to reply.

I started to separate our food on two plates, not looking at Randhir's eyes. I was stuck. I didn't know what to do... was I supposed to give him space or behave normally with him?

We ate in silence and when we finished, I went to the bathroom to make sure I looked alright, while Randhir paid the bill. When I came out, he was waiting for me by the entrance of the restaurant.

"Ready to go back to the office?" he asked me, but I shook my head.

"No, ice cream first," I corrected. "Then we'll go back."

"Sanyukta, you want ice cream? It isn't even that hot outside," Randhir said.

"Who said it needs to be hot to have ice cream?" I asked him.

"You'll get sick, don't be stupid," Randhir argued. "You don't even like ice cream in the cold."

"No Randhir, I really want ice cream... I'm craving it!" I told him, with a pout. "Please!"

"Why are you craving things you normally don't like?" Randhir asked me suspiciously.

"I don't know Randhir, please just take me," I begged and grabbed his arm.

"Fine," he finally agreed with a sigh. "Let's go."

I got in the car with him and he drove to an ice cream parlour, a well established one.

"I want street ice cream!" I whined.

"Sanyukta that's not even -" he responded.

"No, I want it, means I want it!" I interrupted. "Please!"

Randhir sighed again and started to drive away as I beamed happily at him - sometimes my Randhir could be so sweet, when he listened to his wife.

We stopped outside a street vendor and I went to ogle at the choices.

"I want strawberry," I said, licking my lips at the thought of the taste against my tongue. "What do you want?"

"Nothing," Randhir responded.

"Hey, I'm not sharing - so pick something," I ordered.

"Sanyukta... I seriously don't want anything," he replied.

"Okay whatever, be all grumpy," I replied, rolling my eyes, and then asked the vendor for a strawberry ice cream.

Once I got my ice cream in a cone, I licked it excitedly. The ice cream melted on my tongue.

"Mmm," I said, my eyes rolling up, "This is so good."

Then I glanced at Randhir, who was busy looking down at the ground. I spread some ice cream across my lips and chin while he wasn't looking and then walked right up to him.

"Want some?" I asked, holding the cone out to him.

He shook his head, before looking up at me. When he saw the ice cream across the bottom half of my face, his eyes lit up and a small smile formed on his face.

"Sanyukta have you seen yourself?" he asked and then started to chuckle.

I almost smiled - but forced myself to put an offended face.

"What are you laughing at?" I snapped.

"Your - your face," he laughed.

"My face? Oh my face is funny?" I asked him.

"You - you have ice cream all over!" he laughed and I smiled.

"Then take it off Randhir, I don't know where it is," I told him softly.

Randhir went to ask the ice cream vendor for a napkin, but I grabbed his arm to stop him.

"He won't have one Randhir," I whispered, and he looked at me, as he understood what I was trying to say. "You don't want me to have a sticky face or sticky hands do you?"

He walked towards me before reaching out to brush his fingers lightly across my cheeks, as his lips moved closer and closer to mine. My eyes closed nervously and my heart was beating faster than ever.

Was he going to really do this? Somehow I didn't believe it, but I started to tremble, craving his touch, wanting him to lick the ice cream off my face more than anything.

Chapter 27

His lips were so close to my lips, that I could feel his warm breath against them, and I could also feel waves of desire traveling up my spine. I wanted him so badly... maybe it was my pregnancy hormones, but I really wanted him. I wanted to make love to him right there - but I had to control.

When his lips moved to the side and brushed lightly over my ear my eyes opened with disappointment.

"Nice try," he whispered, causing my knees to go weak.

Then he took a step back and removed a handkerchief from his pocket before passing it to me.

I passed my ice cream cone to him.

"Hold this," I said grumpily as I grabbed the handkerchief from him.

He took the cone from me and I started to wipe my face. Tonight he was going to get it... if he wanted to be insecure and feel guilty, that was his choice, but it couldn't get in the way of me getting what I wanted.

Why didn't he just understand that I wanted him? Why did he have to play so hard to get right now?

I was his wife, not some desperate girl.

I irritably finished wiping my face, and I could see that his eyes were lit up a bit - as if he enjoyed watching me suffer.

"I hate you," I said bitterly. "Let's go."

"But your ice cream?" he asked, holding the cone out for me.

"I don't want it anymore," I snapped, and started to walk towards the car with fresh tears springing up in my eyes.

Damn. Why was I crying now? Just because Randhir didn't kiss me? This was not how I was... I didn't cry over such silly things. Was this what they called pregnancy mood swings?

I sniffled as Randhir ran after me.

"Sanyukta, what happened?" he asked.

"You're an idiot," I spat out. "I want to go to the office and stay away from you."

"Wha - what did I do now?" he asked.

"You don't understand anything do you Randhir?" I asked him, as I stopped walking and turned around to face him - or rather, glare at him. "You didn't understand what I wanted?"

I saw that he was still holding my ice cream, and I grabbed it from him before licking it again, trying to calm myself down.

"I thought you didn't want the ice cream anymore?" Randhir asked, sounding confused.

"I didn't... but now I do! Do you have a problem?" I snapped.

"Sanyukta what's wrong with you? Why're you behaving so moody?" Randhir asked, and I felt more tears prickle my eyes.

"You won't understand," I snapped. "You just won't get it! Let's go!"

"Well... okay then," Randhir said, sounding genuinely confused.

I threw out the rest of my ice cream in a nearby trash can and then got in the car, giving Randhir the silent treatment not just during the car ride back, but for the whole day, until we were at home.

That was when I decided that he would need to open up to me, and give me what I want. I was his wife and I was craving him... he had no choice but to satisfy me.

So while Randhir was sitting down on the bed, reading over some file from work, I walked up to him, grabbed the file from him and put it on the side, as he looked up with shock. Then I got in bed with him and sat on his lap, facing him.

"What are you -" he started.

"Shhh," I hissed. "I'm not here to talk."

Then I cupped his face in my hands and leaned towards him, my lips moving closer to his.

He grabbed my arms and held them behind me, as his eyes turned dark.

"Sanyukta don't you get it?" he asked me coldly, "I cheated on you... what's wrong with you?"

My eyes immediately filled up with tears as he reminded me of what I wanted to forget.

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ritika

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Posted: 10 years ago

#149

aonther amazing chapter saffy di...
but why rd is punishinbg himself so much and how cutely sanyu is trying to make out of him guilt...
update sooner mxt part di...
waiting

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Rashi Bhargava

@newmoon18

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Posted: 10 years ago

#150

Lovely update
Sanyu is trying so hard to pull him out of his guilt
Bt he's being an idiot
Avoiding all her efforts
Poor sanyu she's getting hurt now

Update soon
Wtng

Love u
Keep smiling

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