Significance of....

I can hardly decipher the reason I am here to share my thoughts on this particular topic.. But something tells me people here would be able to understand my emotions, because I guess many of us, if not of all of us are riding the same boat.

The depth and level up to which Manan have seeped inside our hearts and minds has no boundaries. I am simply unable to get my mind away from them, especially Manik. And he deserves it all. Never has there been such a time, when i have come across characters that leave their impressions so dark and deep that they actually become a part of your real life. The people around me, my friends and my family have literally been amazed at my craziness, my need to mention something about him every now and then, my wishful dreams, my huge crush and my insane love for Manik. And I don't blame them. Manik is such an enigmatic and powerful character that a weak-hearted girl like me can easily be spell-bounded. And we can all agree that Manik is Manik, majorly because of Parth. Special appreciation for Parth here.

Anyways let me come to the point because of which I am here. I have been highly apprehensive about writing, for God knows what reason (although I have been dying to write something about Manan, inspired by all the fabulous writers here). But an event today made me come out of my 'no-writing' zone and hence I am here in front of all my fellow buddies.

Today in the evening, while I was packing for my journey back to hostel tomorrow, I saw my mother again busy in the kitchen after last three days of non-stop work related to all the festivities and preparations expected in an Indian household during festival time. What with all the mithaais and pakwaans that have to be prepared and endless amount of people visiting us, I don't think I saw her relaxing even for a bit. And more than half of the things were specially being prepared for me so that she doesnt have to see her daughter "sookhi hui", which by the way I am definitely not.

So yeah, I was like "Mumma, ab kya bana rahe ho? You have already made so much stuff!" and my mom's reply was "Woh you said two days ago na, that you wished to have some home-made cake, so I thought let me make some for you". Her tired eyes and the love in her tone had my mind whirling. This is not the first time that she has gone out of her way to do something for me. Even after being a working woman, she has always been pampering us with everything she can manage in the little amount of free time she has. Thinking above herself for us, her children. Every mother does that, we can say. MOTHERS u know!!!!

But, Manik does not know. I don't know why while i was kissing and hugging my dearest mumma and then helping her out with the cake, I could not escape the thought about Manik and how this man-child has managed to emerge out as such a wonderful human-being from the depth of his heart, in spite of such traumatic childhood.

I mean, come to think of Manik as a child, cant even begin to imagine the amount of cuteness and innocence he would have had at that time. What would he have done when he felt like having some home-made cake garnished by a mother's love!! What would he have done when the child in him would have wanted to throw tantrums, just in order to feel pampered by his mother or father!! What would he have done when he did not receive the much needed emotional availability of a parent, which we sometimes take so easily for granted in our lives!! What would he have done when all he wanted was a pat on his back for his first ever mastered piece on guitar!! And there are endless amount of instances that could have made him feel so lonely and isolated in his life. As Manik rightly mentioned "Parents do shape our lives". His parents did too, but altogether in a negative way. Can we ever imagine the extent upto which this child has experienced pain and disappointments in his life. Can we?? If yes, then it should make us realize what we have in our lives.

I am amazed at even after such a turmoil-filled childhood, he has somehow managed to become the man he is. The care he never experienced in his life, made him realize that there were others like him.. And thus began the journey of a man whose care and love knew no bounds towards his friends. Accepted that he was rude and mean to everyone else around him, but those were the people he never grew close to, the people at the expense of which the monster side in him ( so effectively planted by his mother in her own son ) rejoiced.

I can never forget the way Manik held Dhruv in all the times Dhruv had his attacks. You guys remember the way he used to caress his head so lovingly, the way he used to hold him.. Did anyone do that for Manik ever in his life!! My heart literally stops, remembering his care and love for someone on the receiving end. We all have our share of bad moments and inner attacks, which we definitely need saving from. Wasn't there a moment when Manik would have felt the need of that caress on his head. Sadly I did not find anyone in Manik's life except maybe sometimes Fab5 (which I am not sure of).

Nandini really is his star in every sense and I wish their fabulous and heart-warming love story to extend till infinity. I really wish that Nandini's love which surely has the potential, is able to take away each and every, bad and black memory of his life. Memories which are maybe forgotten but have left their impressions behind. Only Nandini can do that.

The way Manik is, it is an achievement in itself and I respect him and love him even more, if that is even possible. I can understand the significance of parents, love , trust and Nandini in his life a little better now

Love

Pankhuri

Thank You...😊

Everything u said about manik is so true

Thank you...😊 we all are surprised by the depth of emotions Manik has.. But i guess somethings are meant to happen.. Or it is a possibility that the things we are deprived of, we keep them close to us and reveal them in front of the most precious people in our lives.. same is the case with him i guess.. love to manik...😳

Thank you... m glad you found it readable... i'll surely try to write more..

m happy, u agree with me..😆.. Thanx once again...