SANDHIR FF: MY EQUATION OF TRUST (DARK+MATURE)LINK TO THREAD 2!! - Page 51

Originally posted by: purnima209

awsme

Originally posted by: sanyugracy27

wow awesome
I read 2 part in one go
it was amazing
precape was interesting
plz update ASAP

AWW RD GOT HER DIARY.😲😲...
SANYU KA SUICIDE ATTEMPT WAS REALLY SHOCKING...
BUT DIGNITY IS THE ONLY THING SHE HAVE ..😭😭...ACC 2 HER ...
RD TRYING TO RELAX HER ...WAS REALLY A NICE GESTURE BY HIM ...AND AS ALWAYS U NAILED YRR..👏👏...
UPDATE SOONISH ...😉..

awsomly amazing update dear...
finally maybe now randhir will be lil bit soft towards her...
hoping for d best
thanx for d pm


harshita

Originally posted by: holysoul

AWW RD GOT HER DIARY.😲😲...
SANYU KA SUICIDE ATTEMPT WAS REALLY SHOCKING...
BUT DIGNITY IS THE ONLY THING SHE HAVE ..😭😭...ACC 2 HER ...
RD TRYING TO RELAX HER ...WAS REALLY A NICE GESTURE BY HIM ...AND AS ALWAYS U NAILED YRR..👏👏...
UPDATE SOONISH ...😉..

Originally posted by: oshinchaudhary

awsomly amazing update dear...
finally maybe now randhir will be lil bit soft towards her...
hoping for d best

me too yaar😆😆

thanx for d pm


harshita

hey guyz this part is dedicated to my MAHI di..di i hope you will like this love you...

MY EQUATION OF TRUST(DARK + MATURE)

Auth's note : hey guz I know u all may are finding this story to be bore or emotional but according to me its not a story its about two person's life...m actually trying to portray their emotions because for me the one thing on which one life sustain is emotions...m trying to portray them..i know m not a good writer but still I think m already in them now sorry cant help it if you aguyz are not liking it..will try to bring up something...

PART: 12

BRINGING UP BACK

Precap: rd came to know that she's too like him...broken...guilt...and sanyu's suicide attempt...

but I will fight back I will not let my only left thing go..i will not let my DIGNITY go...(he felt weak at the moment...her words rang up in his mind...he was afraid for her now...)

**DAIRY**

And after reading it ...he closed the dairy with a shut and then made a fist...he started breathing heavily..he rested his fist on his mouth..on his lips and closed his eyes while uplifting his head in the direction of the ceiling...he was just hitting his fist on his lips... While his forehead tense lines were clearly visible on his faces...yeah he was imagining her condition...her hell...her problems...he too was may be feeling it... his heart sank up at a moment...when he remembered her attempt to suicide due to her misunderstanding that her dignity was lost...he cursed himself for even giving her a chance to think so...it was all due to his behavior that she thought so...he was all lost in her life...was just thinking and thinking about her... Her life..and don't know when but yeah he slept over there...on her so called bed...totally messed one...

The next morning...
He was twisting in his sleep while lil shivering but suddenly he felt something and screamed up in his sleep...due to pain..he woke up with a jolt and then moved his arm at his back..yeah it was a back pain...it was a muscle pull due to his position on the so called bed...he massaged his warm back with his cold palms a lil while making faces in pain like a 5 year old innocent kid..yeah how much he was to pretend that he is a devil and don't care about a damn but he was a innocent kid from inside who experience everything and also reacts to it with antics...but may be that innocent one was lost somewhere... was hiding somewhere...he massaged the area near his nape and then sighed making a uff voice...and then opened his eyes to look up... it was lil dark over there but yeah a lil source of light was also there becuz it was the time of dusk...he looked up at the watch..it was 6am and as it was jan... it was cold and dark...he looked up at the bed...his heart ached..yeah he got a thought of her..how would she had been slept on that thin mattress which is enough to give a back pain to one easily..how would she had slept in this cold...with thin blankets over her...he was looking at a point thinking about her problems...but soon he came back to his senses due to the chirping of birds...he stood up from the so called bed and then left for his room where she was sleeping...he went upto her and smiled by looking at her sleeping in deep slumber...he was happy becuz the person whom he had given a lot pain was a bit relax now...he felt a lil relieved but soon his smile faded by remembering her attempt to do suicide...he got panicked...he moved towards her to wake her up and tell her everything but he was scared..what would she do...would she even listen to him..he started moving to and fro in the room thinking and thinking while panicking...half an hour passed like that he was still in his reverie... but he was disturbed..was disturbed by a clang sound giving him a shiver..he blinked his eyes thrice to look up and what he found gave him a lil ache in his heart...she was trying to get out of the room..she was taking the support of the side table...her right palm was on the table taking the support..while her left palm was on her forehead...lines were clearly visible on her face...her mouth was half opened like a way she was gasping...her hairs were messy...her dress was also not properly on her frame but now unlike before she didn't cared about her dress because according to her everything was gone...it was all gone...and after looking at her his heart panicked...he moved towards her in hurry and was about to handle her but something stopped him... no no not something many things stopped him...his mind had numerous no. of thoughts...like will she like it if he will touch her...what if she takes it in other sense and even deny to listen to him...what if she breaks down...and the last what if she is also like her'...yeah he even thought her to be the same as the one who broke him because he was still irrecoverable from the pain...the pain in which he was living from past two years...but don't know why but yeah his shivering hands reached her shoulder in a urge...may be it was his soul wanting to help a one like him...he was still in fear..his hands were shivering a lil but he knew it from inside that he was not gonna leave her in this condition...he was just looking at her...whereas she was just unresponsive on his touch..she didn't even gave a glance at him...she was just too much broken and tired that she ignored his touch and took his support without thinking anything or u can say just thinking one thing that it doesn't matter's now...he smiled faintly by seeing her taking his support but his smile faded within a moment because he knew the actual reason of her taking support...he took her to the washroom and dropped her there...she went inside washroom without even looking at him..as soon as she closed the door he took a sigh...may be sigh of relief while closing his eyes...he opened his eyes and then looked at the room it was all messy...things were broken in the same way like they were broken from inside...in pieces...he closed his eyes by looking at room and then within the next moment he started his task...he started cleaning the mess...anticipating in hope that she will like it...he will bring the smile back on her face...he cleaned the whole mess and went out of the room and within next fifteen minutes he came back to the room and settled up the things for her...may be the only thing which he wanted was to see her happy..may be he wanted to see him happy..he was comparing himself with her...he was locating him in her...his broken soul in her...he arranged everything and took a deep breath...just then she came out of the washroom..after a long half an hour...she was wet...half wet...his heart sank up by looking at her...she was mum.. was half wet..her upper body was wet..he quickly rushed up to her and shooked her while hesitating a lil... and then said in his stammering voice... "sannyuktaa..are you allright...?...tum theek ho...?...(he waited for her response but all she did was gazing at floor...he felt bad for her..he got confused...and lil panicked also..he touched her forehead with his back hand and found her heating up..yeah she was in fever...he looked at her for response but she was mum...he really felt bad and left from there..he came back with her dress in his hand and handled it to her...and then said while shaking her lil...in his concerned and panicky guilty voice...)...sanyukta...plz jaao aur change karo..tumhe bukhar hai..."..he looked up at her and for surprise she reacted...she moved towards the washroom to change up...he again waited up for her to come out impatiently..she came out after some good 10 minutes and he supported her to the bed...while she didn't gave any heed to it..she was all busy in her uncountable thoughts which were eating her up...were killing her from inside...he made her sit on the bed and offered her the books..the books she loved to read...yeah you guyz are guessing it right..rd was now not at all giving heed to his past..or maybe he was giving heed to his past only but in positive way...all he just wanted was to take her out from the phase from which he too was going on...he waited for her response but she didn't even looked at them...he then said with his lil cheered up voice... "sanyukta dekho me tumhare liye 12 ki physics part 2 laya hu..u want to finish it up na...and see tumhara favorite Chinese soup bhi hai saath me..."... yeah you guyz are guessing it right..he had find out about her likes and dislikes from her dairy...he had read some two more pages in dairy in which her childhood memories were written...he looked at her with hope but she didn't responded back..it ached his soul...he tried to cheer her up for some more hours but she was unresponsive...and then finally he spoke up in nervousness while stammering a lil... "sanyukta...your dignittyyy is with you only...u r pure..i haven't touched u last night..."...and to this she responded...yeah she finally responded but all in vain..she only looked at him once and then again started gazing the floor..yeah she didn't believed him..how could she just believe him..it was not possible for her...and by doing so she gave a pain in his chest...and then he thought for a while and said in his composed voice ... "I think u need some time..ohkay tumhe akele rehna hai toh tum thodi der akele rehlo but uske baad me aaunga aur ha plz believe me u r pure..." and after saying so he left from there gazing her for the last time...he left from there and was sitting in the living room looking at the ceiling.. was thinking of the ways to bring her back..after some 3 hours he went to her and tried to cheer her up with different thing but nothing worked..he again left her..for sometime hoping that she needs time...the whole day passed like this he tried to cheer her up in between hours but nothing worked up she was not able to trust on his words...finally it was some 9... 9 pm at night..he went upto his room where she was just sitting...but this time he was lil scared and frustrated too...frustrated on himself...for giving her this much pain...

He went up to her and sat beside her and offered her the Chinese soup which he had made freshly for her after throwing up the last one...he took the spoon to her mouth but she didn't opened it up...he again got panicked..he was getting scared by looking her like that he was getting scared for himself...he kept the soup bowl side and started shaking her up to which she didn't responded..and then he started conversing with her one sidedly...while huffing in tension...he was just sacred trying best to bring her out bring him out for a while.. in his lil scolding voice... "sanyukta..just stop it now..come one I told u na u r pure u haven't lost your dignity... Common sanyukta ab maan bhi jaao plz trust me..my words..chalo ab utho..." He started shaking her but all in vain...he stopped after few minutes and looked at her...he don't know why but felt like doing it...he took her face between his palms...uplifted his chin to have an eye contact and then said softly and innocently...in passion... by looking deep in her eyes.. "sanyukta plz believe me.. u r pure..u haven't lost it...u haven't lost ur dignity..." And to this a pearl drop came out from her eyes and fell on his palm but she was still mum...she fixed her gaze again on the bed...he tried a lot to make an eye contact with her to convey her but nah she didn't said anything..he shook her face by taking it in between his palm but nah again she dint said anything and at last when he got totally frustrated and worried for her he imprinted his hand on her face..yeah he slapped her hard..due to which she shivered a lil and looked up at him...with teary eyes...and he screamed at her in his frustrated and scared voice... "stop it god damn it stop it...m guilty yaar..plz don't kill me like this...i told u na u r a virgin..u haven't lost your dignity..." and to this she finally reacted...she jumped on him and started crying bitterly loudly by dipping her face in his chest and hugging him hard... Yeah you guyz are right..she hugged him...and was crying by dipping her face in his chest not because she trusted him its because she didn't trusted him...u know its better to being betrayed by the one whom u don't trust rather than being betrayed by one whom u trust...she was doing the same..she was crying in front of one whom she didn't trusted a long...she only had believed in his words not trusted him...she had finally believed that she was pure...and this was her outburst..outburst of the numerous thoughts running up in her mind...she hugged him so tightly that he fall down back on the bed and she was on him...crying loudly..he was shocked but soon he smiled to this with teary eyes...it was not because he loved her it was all because according to him he was successful in bringing himself a lil back..bring her back...yeah BRINGING UP BACK...from the pain which they both shared unknowingly...of trust..he too hugged her tight and started rubbing her back to which she gripped him tighter...they hugged each other for some more time crying in each other's arm..in arms of companion...and then after sometime he spoke up in his chocked voice caressing her hairs like a guardian... "sanyu..." But before he could complete she started murmuring the things... things to him..to the world...while sobbing in between...in her cracked voice stammering like a innocent and broken kid... "mmujje...ssaab...chhood..ke cha.. cha...chale gaye...mmmaa...papa...sabb...me...sabse pyyar ..pyaar karti hhuuu... I lo... love them all..aur usnne...aur..usnne mujjje dhokhaa de diyaa...dhokha de diya muje...bbechh diya mujje...kkyuu...esa kyyuuu...?... (she stopped for the response while he too started crying along with her..her cries were louder and his were silent...soon he started caressing her hairs...and then she continued with hiccup this time...)...kkyyaa galtti hai meri...*hiccup*..kya galtiii...*hiccup*...ye ke kke . *hiccup*...me ek ladkii hu...sab mujje bas chhuunna chahte hhai...*hiccup*...sabb...I feel insecure...*hiccup*...me kyya kyya kya karu...???..." after this she started crying bitterly by dipping her head in his chest while he started caressing her hairs and back to calm her down...he too was crying but was smiling too becuz he knew that he was successful in bring her out..a lil out...it was like for him as a new mission..to take her out..to help her out..to help himself...and he was feeling the real relieved after long two years...she started gripping him tight and digging her nails in his flash to which he winced in pain a lil and then said while soothing her back... "shhh...its ohkay now...its ohkay..shhh..." and then she hugged him tight and don't know when but both of them dozed off accompanying each others in arms...in each other's tears and warmth...

Next morning...
He was sleeping in his room...he twisted in his sleep and then felt a hit on his head...and he screamed in pain... "aahhh..."... yeah he fell down from bed like a innocent kid...he opened his eyes and then rubbed his palm on his head like a kid... a kid showing antics...making faces in pain...but soon he came out from his reverie and the first thing which popped up in his mind was sanyukta...he quickly stood up from the floor and started looking up for her but she was not there...he got panicked..he quickly came out from his room to look up for her..but he didn't found her anywhere...he got tensed..worried and panicked and then said out of frustration ruffling his hand s in his hairs... "shit..." But soon he heard the sound which gave him some hope...he heard the sound of utensils may be banging against each other...he identified the source of sound and quickly rushed to the kitchen while panicking a lot huffing a lil and then next thing which he witnessed gave him a lil relief yeah she was there in kitchen...

Recap: suspense...abt sanyu's behavior ...

Auth's note : sometimes a broken person gets back in life by seeing another like him...he get some hope that he is not alone...he tries to find out himself in his accompanier... He tries to soothe the other to soothe himself...the other becomes the possession of him...the words by the one movie "jab tak hum kisi ke humdard nahi bante...hum dard se door nahi hote" applies over here...the same is going with the rd of my story he founds sanyu to be her accompanier...

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Dhoka dhoka mere saath dhoka hua h
Mi 5 min lia kya gi meri first position cheen gi muse


Moi crying a bucket full 😭 😭
Moi second
Damn moi super upset 🤢

Bt meko cmmnt krna h so for few mins I will keep my sad mood aside n will happily cmmnt on update

The update yr kya kaho
It was perfect
It was my favourite chapter so far

I so luved it yr
Cnt tell u how much I luved it

Bt I m angry with u
I totally disagree with ur note at starting 😡
Really how can u say it boring
It was superb

Don't u dare call it boring next tym
Ni toh moi apni ak47 nikal lungi 😆


It was so beautifully penned it
The line jb tk hum kisi k humdard ni bnte tb tk dard hum se r hum dard se ni judta
Really true
N in sandhir situation it perfectly implies

Rd feeling the same pain dat sanyu suffered
He's getting attached with her pain

Rite now he only want to make her smile
N keep her happy
He's trying so hard to get her normal

Her miserable condition stabbing his heart
Whenever he saw her he felt a pain in his heart

She has becone lifeless
She's walking lyk a robot without any emtn n feeling

Rd cnt see her lyk this
He want to support her
Bt stuck with his past
He's scared dat she will hurt her lyk he got 2 years back before

Bt this tym he got his guards off
He supported her
He was concerned for her

He's trying so hard to make her believe dat she's pure
Bt sanyu she's not responding at all
And this is frustrating him more

He's giving her tym
Pura din nikal gya bt still she's the same

Rd ne kya ni kia books laya soup laya bt sanyu not responding

He cnt take this anymore he slapped her
This tym the intensity in his voice made her realize dat he's telling the truth
She broke in his arms
Both crying in each others arm
Sanyu letting out eveyrhing
Rd hugging her n soothing her
Both were crying n letting her pain out


Rd panicked when he saw sanyu was not there
He was worried for her
Bt he let out a sigh of relief when he saw her in kitchen

Precap intrstng
Excited for next
Updte soon


Goes back to cry mode 😭
Luv u
Keep smiling