WHEN HIS ACTIONS COMPLETE MY THOUGHTS.

Sounds exactly what I thought sanam would be thinking at that time
Great job

Oh you Soup! Beautiful, beautiful, just BEAUTIFUL <33 This was just gorgeous stuff! How. HOW indeed do you write this shiz!
This is simply just so heartfelt and genuine. I can't even begin to describe, it was like I am watching Sanam and scrutinising her "mind palace" 😆

How beautifully you have explained all that she was going through in that span of time.

She was hurt. Beyond hurt at his accusations and continous rubbing off. It broke her from within. I felt like this was the time she was LITERALLY hurt. And it was most painful off all the times.

Because this relation, his "unexpected actions" towards her, has ignited a thin line of hope in her that this marriage could work. She has always expected from him, she has always looked up to him, no matter what she felt or denied, she expects something from her. And that she has also admitted this time. She ADMITTED. Unlike HIM. This time it broke her the most because she has actually started feeling "happy' with him, on his those small things. And when he said those words, it shattered her through within. She doubted on herself why she expected these from him.

And then, when he came to the wedding with gifts. She was left dumbfounded. She NEVER ever have expected such sorta gesture from him specially after the fight they just had. Again she was confused, coz when she HAD expected something it went awry, and now when she din't expect he turns up at that moment. Making her even more confused of his behaviour, or did he really mean those words or not?
I guess he likes to keep her this way, raising her hopes, shattering them in a whim and then doing the unexpected again!😆
She felt like she just won something. Her eyes were smiling, though she was stifling her smiles, she was touched by his behaviour and was also feeling guilty for what she had done so wanted to thank him but couldn't manage, he din't allow.

The most highlighted point in this scenario for me was the fact they actually acknowledged that they HAD hurt each other this time. They have hurt each other before way too many times, but were oblivious of the fact or may be too blinded by their egos. This time, when he said about Izzat, he KNEW he hurt her, and when she said that ghutan thing she KNEW he hurt him. They are even here, AGAIN! They fight, hurt each other, take digs at each other, but NEVER they allow other one to score over them. They stand EQUAL at every damn scenario. This is indeed a major step in their relationship.

The way you expressed Sanam's POV is so apt!

Wonderful Soup👏Sanam must be thinking the same. What an emotional episode.

Edited--

I cannot explain the enormous sadness
in my heart. All through badi ammi's
illness, I had found the strength from
somewhere. Was it the unspoken word
of protection he seemed to envelop me
with? He has never promised me anything...but the fact is, I seem to turn
to him in dire situations. And he has
obliged...ALWAYS. ...👏 beautiful! You've stated the understanding between them so amazingly!👏

Really, the past few days have been so
different. He had stopped taunting me
on the falsehood our relationship was
based on...I must have even dared to
hope. No wonder I felt like he led me
on to a precipice and let me fall. The climb had been exhilarating, the fall
was that much more devastating!👏 beautiful beautiful! Oh Supu your words are magical! You know that ? Yes-just awesome! It hits right here-at the heart!❤️ Ah...i just cnt have enough of it. Wonderful.👏


What was my crime? How could he
point fingers at me every time I talked
to a man! Izzat!!!! He was calling me a
wayward woman! -a woman with
loose morals! Did he even know how
repulsive that sounded to me...It squeezed out all the respect I had for
him...how could someone be so narrow
minded! Did he take me for one of
those loose women he takes to the
haystack..and god knows where else! Is
that all he knows about women! Does he not know any other kind? It hurt me deeply...that one moment of
accusation...and I lashed out very
harsh. ⭐️so so heartbreaking and beautiful! You have brought out her anguish so raw so perfectly! 👏

I believe in who I am. I know my
worth, even though he cannot stand
me. Can he not respect me for the
person I am? Why dig for reasons to
pour dirt over my dignity? His
words...His accusations...With each passing day, my defences against him
are growing weaker. Therefore the pain
becomes more and more
unbearable...HOPE. ..why do I continue
to hope? One fleeting moment when I screamed
I wanted a release from this trap of a
relationship...where he could fling me
up and around like a rag doll to satisfy
his whims and fancies...I saw something
in his eyes. He hurt too...was it the misfortune of being dragged into this
with me, or something else? He has
played his part well...adapted to me in
his life. He must be waiting for the day
he can be rid of me for good! If so, why
does he take the extra effort to make me comfortable? Why does he turn
green whenever I speak to Rehaan?
(Rehaan! Of all the people! ) I WISH WE COULD TALK!
You captured her mind so well.! Its flawless! I wish i could quote th entire update. Trust me its that brilliant! but sadly i've short time in my hands so i'll just end it here. :/

anyway you have done an outstanding job! Please please keep on writing! Your words make my day.🤗
thanks so much for the pm.😃

p.s. Extremely sorry for being late. But nowadays i hardly get time. :( bt no matter how late i'm, i'll always come to read whatever u write.😉
and howz the new name ?
😛

A beautiful post 👏

Lovely post 👏. I'm so glad that you've penned down Sanam's POV. Incredible work here. Reading it was a joy for me. The moment they looked at each other, that's the acknowledgment that they went a tat too far. Aahil's face was so reassuring to tell her that it will be fine and Sanam had understood that. And him seeing her face, it told him that too. I was so proud of that moment 😊 . Can't say anything more, than what you have said. Keep up the good work 😉 .

MAMAMAMAMA!! 🤗

You have beautifully described Sanam's thought. They hurt each other and they knew it. it was a touching scene.