Jodha kept staring at Jalal. Finally she was with her Shahenshah. She smiled at him . But he was just glaring at her. It was apparent that he was furious . " Shahensha ..." she began " Jodha Begam abhi hum kuch sunna nahi chahte. Filhaal aap ko araam ki sakt zaroorat hai . Aap chaliye humare saath. Kal subha hum Agra ke liye niklenge " Jodha understood that it was futile to try to talk to him . She went with him to the place where they had put up their tents . Some common people were gathered near their tents .They saw her with a strange look . She could not understand why they looked at her so strangely . She was too tired now and she just wanted to rest . She had her food and laid down on the bed . She thought about all that had happened in these days . She did not know when she fell asleep .
Next morning they started for Agra . Jalal had a solemn face on the entire journey . Soon they reached Agra . The guards announced their arrival there . After they went into the castle she saw that her parents had come . She was very happy to see them . She went and greeted them . But they too had a serious look on her face . She found it strange . She asked Bharmal " Bapusa Ma aap log yahan ? " " Before Bharmal could answer Jalal came to them and greeted them as well . Then Bharmal asked Jalal " Shahenshah kya hum apni beti ke saath akele mein kuch baat kar sakte hain ? " Jalal said " Zaroor aap jaiyye " Bharmal and Mainavati took Jodha to her room . Both turned to her . Jodha asked " Bapusa aap itni pareshan kyun hai ? Amer mein sab theek to hai na ? " Bharmal told " Theek kaise ho sakta hai ? Tere hote huye sab kuch theek kaise ho sakta hai " Jodha frowned and said " Bapusa main kuch samjhi nahi . Aap spasht karke boliye aap kya bolna chahte hai " Mainavati told " Main kehti hoon Jodha . Maan Singh ne hume sab kuch bataya . Teri ek ek kartoot . Jodha aaj pehli baar sayad hume itni pachtava ho raha hai ki tu humari beti hai . Hume lajja aarahi hai ki tu humari beti hai " Jodha asked in a painful voice " Ma aisa kya kiya hai maine ? Aap hume aise shabd kyun bol rahe ho ? " Mainavati in a steely voice said " Kya kiya hai tumne ? Yani ki tumhe kuch bhi hosh nahi hai ? Tum ne Shahenshah ko unke pure praja ke saamne lajjit kiya . Tumne unhe sab ke saamne neecha dikhaya . Tumne sab ke saamne unka sar sharam se jhooka diya. Tumne ek gunhegaar ko azaad kiya. Tumne Shahenshah ki virudh gayi . Tum ne apni marzi ka kiya . Tumhe jo theek laga tumne wohi kiya. Bina kisiko pooche bina kise se kuch kahe tum ne aisa kaam kiya jo tumhe kabhi bhi karna nahi chahiye tha " Jodha tried to stop Mainavati " Par Maa Khyber to nirdosh tha isiliye..." Mainavati interrupted her " Jodha jab main bol rahi hoon to chup chap suno . Tumhe laga ki woh nirdosh hai . Isiliye tumhari jo marzi hogi wohi tum karoge ? Tumhara kartavya hai apna pati ko samman banaya rakhna . Par tum ne apne hatho se unka samman mitti mein mila diya . Poori praja ke saamne tum ne ubka mazak bana diya . Ab praja Shahenshah par haste hai ki unko apne Jodha Begam ki marzi ki hisaab se chalna padta hai . Log tarah tarah ki baatein kar rahe hain . Unki kabiliyat par shaq kar rahe hai in sab ke liye sirf aur sirf tum ho zimmedaar ho . Us danav ko bachana ke liye tumhe pata hai kitne nirdosh logo ka katil huya ? US danav ne kitne logo ko maara tumhe andaza bhi hai Jodha ? Tum ek danav ko bachane ke liye kitne massom logo ki jaan li hai ? Tumhe kuch pata bhi hai ? Tum ne us danav ke saath ek raat bitayi ek kamre mein . Iske liye log tarah tarah ki baatein bana ahein hai . Tum he zara sa bhi andaaz hai yeh sab sunke Shahenshah ko kaise lag raha hai ? Unko kitna peeda ho raha hai ? Unko kitna thes pahuch raha hai ? Nahi tum yeh sab kyun sochogi . Tum to bus sirf apne liye sab kuch socho . Tumhe kya karna chahiye tumhe kya achcha lagta hai tumhe kis kartavya ko nibhana chahiye . Tum to yeh bhi nahi sochti ki tumhare is kartavya se kisiko nuksaan to nahi ho raha hai . Tum sirf apni man ki karo . Shahenshah tumhare liye kitna kuch kiya hai kitna kuch kar rahe hai tum unhe aise saza de rahe ho ? "
Jodha was just stunned hearing Mainavati . She could not even imagine how she had done all these blunders . She realized that she had committed a series of errors . She also understood that only for her now the awaam is mocking taunting making fun of Jalal now . She could now understand the strange looks of all the people . She hung her head in shame . She wanted to disappear from the earth now . She realized that she was too headstrong and foolish till now . She understood that to save one person she was the cause of the death of so many innocent lives that too in the month of Ramzaan . She understood that she had to mend her ways . She had to correct herself . She had to more more responsible and mature . She decided what she had to do now . Apologise to Jalal.
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