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so I went to watch KICK FIRST DAY FIRST SHOW YEAH THAT'S HOW MUCH I LOVE SALMAN KHAN...and the movie was just super duper ossum...and especially this song - HANOVER...just loved it to the core...and thought to write something,...
so here it goes...
I looked at her and she looked as beautiful as always did.
she has just got up. Long, flowing hair covered a part of her face and her eyes looked at me from behind those strands of hair - full of hope, optimism and belief. My eyes welled up wondering that if that would be the last time we would meet like this , without an iota of disgust.
" I need to tell you something " I said. "please don't be mad."
she took me by my hand and made me sit down.
"I won't be." She said.
I started from the point...how it was me because of whom she has to marry that Sameer... I narrated in detail everything that I did. And told her that Sameer called me now to tell her that she has to go back to her home as 2 months are over and its now time that they should marry. Her eyes began to quiver and her grip around my hand became loose and my hands began to tremble. Tears trickle down he cheeks and the light in her eyes slowly died out.
I got to know about the truth that sanyukta's marriage isn't cancelled but it has just postponed one month ago. And in this 2 months we've become best of friends. And I hate this fact more that Sameer is my cousin brother.
I cursed my existence . I cursed that moment of envy that made me take that step. That made me talk to Sameer and he agreed for the marriage ; every tear of hers pained me and made my life a bit more miserable. By the time I finished, she sat there, chipping at her nail polish as she sobbed softly.
"I am sorry. I don't deserve your friendship, I think." I said.
I waited for her to say something. She just kept looking down at her hands. I felt terrible and decided that I should leave her alone. I stood up to leave when she reached out and held my hand.
"Sanyukta, I am really sorry ----"
she did not let me complete my sentence. She stood up and hugged me as if she would never leave. I don't know how much time passed as we stood there hugging, crying ; her body shivered in my arms.
"it's okay." she muttered, as if to justify whatever will happen will be for her own sake.
Sanyukta finally looked at me, and I promised her never to do anything silly thereafter and she asked me not to feel sorry about it. Her goodness only made me feel guiltier about what I've done.
"so, when do I have to leave?" she asked me. Trying to look all normal but she wasn't. surely she was unhappy that she have to leave her dream, for which she worked so hard...
"he'll come to pick u up tomorrow." I said in a low voice.
"hmm...so I have very less time. Anyway I'll see u later.." she said.
I took some uncertain steps to the door of her room and turned back to see her once reaching the door. I'm sure I saw her wiping tears. But once she saw that I was looking at her she smiled at me. The smile I wasn't sure that I'll ever see again. She came and closed the door on my face.
I'm sure she would have cried for long as when I saw her in canteen that night, her eyes were all puffed and her red nose was proof that she was crying. I SO HATE MYSELF.
she didn't came and sat next to me for the dinner unlike usual. She went and sat with kaustuki, sahil , yoyo and parth. It was her last night in FITE and I wanted her to spend all her time with me but I know I'm not worth her time. And moreover the more I'll spend time with her, the more I'll think about her later on.
within no time it was next morning, clouds covered the sky completely, there were sign of heavy rain and thunderstorm after that. It was 10 a.m in morning and she was crossing the corridor when I saw her, the whole last night I didn't sleep. How was I suppose to? when I know that farzi will be no more in my life and that is all because of ME , MYSELF!. It was the last time I was seeing her. Of-course being sameer's cousin I'll attend her marriage rituals but the situation will be different! She will be TO BE MRS. MITTAL.
"Hi, sanyukta" I said in a low uncertain tone.
"Hey, Randhir" her voice as chirping and happy as ever.
Isn't she sad? I wondered...
"Ready to go back?" I asked.
"yep. All ready. Just waiting for Sameer to come." She said and gave a small smile.
"why is she smiling? is she happy? if she is happy then why was she crying yesterday?" I thought.
"He will come soon. K bye." I said, I just needed a moment with myself alone. To digest the fact that she is so happy about her marriage.
"Aree..itni bhi kya jaldi hai? BTW tum toh sameer ke cousin ho na? so that means that u'll be my B-I-L (brother in law) she said mocking... but someone just tell her that this isn't funny, here I'm trying to breathe properly as she'll be leaving and she is trying to crack some PJs?
"Whatever." I said. I wanted to leave as soon as possible from there.
"u'll be there in my marriage right? " she said. I don't how and when ...but I'm sure I saw a bit of sadness in her eyes.
"Nope." I answered straight away...and why would I go to her marriage ? to see that she is marrying someone else ? someone who doesn't even let her complete her dreams. Someone who just love her for her beauty and not her heart. A SHAME ON MY OWN BLOOD . HE IS MY BROTHER ? I FEEL DISGUSTED.
I saw her face dropping but I could feel my eyes watery , I was close to tears ? I don't know why. But I do not wanted her to see my tears. So I left .
after half an hour I saw my phone beeping . I hoped that it's her who is calling and will tell me that she has changed her decision and is not marrying that disgusted pig. But no, Sameer my screen flashed! I picked up the phone. He askes me to meet him outside campus.
I went. I knew this was surely the last time I'm gonna see her.
And there they were standing Sameer and sanyukta
I went near them. Sameer hugged me. I saw sanyukta's face. She is not at all happy. I know that. She knows that I know so she acts as if she is most happiest person ever alive. I do not hug Sameer back. Why would I ? I hate him for taking farzi away from me.
he said something I hardly heard . something like bring all ur friends to the marriage. I will make that the most happening marriage ever and what not.! I just can't register his words. I was just busy looking at sanyukta. After all I will never see her again. She is all I could see. Everything, everyone is just blurred.
Sameer went and sat inside the car. Sanyukta is standing in front of me. As I look deep into her eyes, she is trying to say something. If I remember clearly, I for sure have seen tears in her eyes. I don't even realise when tears from my eyes started flickering ! as she turned ...walked towards the car I kept gazing at her. Hoping that she will turn. But she didn't . she sat inside the car and Sameer and Sanyukta left. And I kept standing there. It started raining. But I didn't move an inch! It was raining cats and dogs...parth came pulled me inside.
"Randhir ? pagal hog ye ho kya ?" he shouted as soon as we came inside the campus.
"chup ho ja parth. I'm not in a mood of fighting. " I said . I was definitely crying. I could feel those warm petals from my eyes trickle down. I don't know if parth noticed them or not .
"kyu ? aur kar kya rhe the bahar ? sanyukta ko jate hue dekh rhe the ?" parth asked.
was I listening correct ? parth noticed that I was looking sanyukta leaving. Leaving from my life, FOREVER.
"kya? Am I mad ? why will I watch her going?" I asked him.
"U can fool everyone. But u can't fool me. I am ur room-mate. I know u will not believe me but when u sleep u take sanyukta's name while sleeping. During lectures, u keep on gazing her. I've seen all and I know what u feel for her." Says parth .
I am still uncertain about my feelings for her. Had I known them, I would have stopped sanyukta from leaving. But I didn't and the worst part was when parth said that I didn't believed him! In fact I slapped him hard. And went away.
Back in my room, I spent hours lying prostrate on my bed, staring at the ceiling, wishing I were dead. My phone lay beside me and it hadn't rung in 2 days. she was not calling every few hours like she did. How I wished she had something to call me for : an assignment, maybe an extra class, something! Anything!
I left my room as it got hard for me to stay there any longer. Walking aimlessly around the campus, kicking stray stones didn't help either. I saw her everywhere, in couples that were sitting around and talking about the next quiz, the placement season and CGPAs. I walked past a bench on which we often spent our nights talking about the past when we use to fight like nothing! And our future that lay in front of us- our dream jobs. A part of me hoped she would miss me and come to that bench too.
I had time loads of it. And I didn't knew what to do with it, so I sat and I thought about her till my head hurt. It felt like somebody was stabbing me repeatedly and those stabs never missed the heart.
the days were not getting any better. I was loosing my shit! It had been two weeks and till now there was nothing more comforting than knowing that they aren't engaged yet.
Parth came in the room. I was busy looking at sanyukta's picture in my mobile which we clicked.
"sometimes, when one person is missing the whole world seems depopulated... u'r missing her right ? look I told u." parth said with a confident smile.
"just shut up. I'm just missing her because she was my best friend nothing else." I said.
"oh please. Stop fooling me. I've noticed in past 2 weeks what was ur condition. Ur madly in love with her. Go and tell her u fool. " parth said.
"I don't" I said protesting.
"u do" he said.
"I don't " I said. That really was getting irritating.
" u do. I know u do. U know u do. Don't u ?" he asked. His neck bent on one side. He said cockily...
This was enough. I've lost all my shit.
"OKAY. I DO LOVE HER. I LOVE HER A LOT...UR HAPPY ? I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT HER SHE IS MY EVERYTHING... MY SOUL MY LIFE MY EVRY DAMN THING.. SHE IS MY PRIVATE PROPERTY..." I screamed on top of my voice and after that I broke down...crying like a kid and parth consoling me like a mother...
"its okay. Its not late yet. She is not engaged yet. Go tell her." Parth says rubbing my back, consoling me. Despite how much he hated me, I hated him. I hugged him real hard. Within a minute he was my friend - a true friend.!
"I'll go...I'll go tomorrow morning. I'll let her know my feelings..." I said as I smiled.
"no. go now. SHUBH KAM MEI DERI NHI KARNI CHAHIYE..." He said and smiled showing his perfect 32 teeth. ...i shook my head in a yes. I took my bike's key. And remembered that how she gifted me that bike on my birthday. My smile grew bigger and bigger with every passing minute.
Aww.. Jaane kab hothon pe
Dil ne rakh di dil ki baatein
Samjha nahi yeh dil
Isko hum toh rahe samjhaate
I sat on my bike...i drove it as fast as I could...i was feeling much more relieved ...
Maine dekha tujhe bhula ke
Har ek tarqeeb laga ke
Har nuskhe ko aazma ke
Par dil se kabhi na utre (utre.. utre..)
Hangover teri yaadon ka
Hangover teri baaton ka
Hangover teri yaadon ka
Hangover teri baaton ka
Its insane but I really remember each and every moment we spent together...our fights your care as a friend ...our first bike ride...and our HATE KISS...
sanyukta's room
Jaane kab hothon pe
Dil ne rakh di dil ki baatein
Samjha nahi yeh dil
Isko hum toh rahe samjhate
she was lying on her bed...tears playing on her cheeks...in this two weeks...there was no night that she slept nicely... she realised her love for randhir when she came here. It was 2 weeks and she barely has eaten something or slept nicely. Randhir was all she could think of...
Maine dekha tujhe bhula ke
Har ek tarqeeb laga ke
Har nuskhe ko aazma ke
Par dil se kabhi na utre (utre.. utre..)
Hangover teri yaadon ka
Hangover teri baaton ka
Hangover teri yaadon ka
Hangover teri baaton ka..
she smiled looking at randhir's picture...the one which randhir was looking at...
oh! How I wish I could tell u about my feelings...but it's so late...tomorrow is my engagement...I wish I could cancel it...
Jaane kab meri neend udi
Soyi soyi raaton mein
Jaane kab mera haath gaya
Soneya tere haathon mein, aww.
she was thinking about the bench...the bench where they use to spend most of their time...fighting, smiling , and thinking about their past and their future...
Chal badhte teri ore
Main jab bhi kadam uthati hoon
Jaaun tujh se door door
Toh paas tere aa jaati hoon
Maine dekha tujhe bhulaake
Har ek tarqeeb lagaake
Har nuskhe ko aazma ke
Par dil se kabhi na utre (utre.. utre..)
as I jumped inside her room from window...her eyes grew bigger in shock...
"tum ? " she asked...her cheeks all wet from crying...
she came towards me ...she pinched me on my arm..."are u here for real? Or am I dreaming again ?" she said...i just smiled at her innocence...
Hangover teri yaadon ka
Hangover teri baaton ka
Hangover teri yaadon ka
Hangover teri baaton ka
"I LOVE YOU SANYUKTA AGGARWAL" I said
her eyes grew bigger in shock...I didn't let her say something...and just captured her lips...
we kissed long...we broke the kiss when we were out of our breathes...
"you're late...I'm getting engaged tomorrow" she said.
"you are GETTING engaged...not engaged already, so don't give me this shit! Just tell me that u love me." I said
I saw her getting nervous...she went into deep thoughts...then, when she didn't replied
I continued "C'mon . you love me. I know you do. You know you do. Don't you?"
"yes" she said in a low voice.
"come again ? a bit louder ?" I said. i was more than overwelmed...
"YES...I LOVE YOU RANDHIR SINGH SHEKHAWAT. BUT WHAT NOW ?" she confessed. FINALLY.
"don't worry." I said and captured her lips all over again.
as i remember we got engaged on the day when sanyukta and Samir were suppose to get engaged. Of-course Samir created a lot of problem, but I didn't let him come in my way. As far as her parents are concerned. Initially they disagreed . but they agreed and got us engaged on the very next day.!
and eventually we got married after two years. And what a day it was. Seeing my farzi in that bridal dress who was looking like some angel from other planet was so relieving that she's going to be mine forever...
and after that day. My life changed completely...
TODAY. As I closed my diary. I found my eyes teary. Wiping my tears I looked towards the bed. Where my angel was sleeping peacefully looking as stunning as ever...but wait she's still sleeping ? oh no! i just remembered that its sunday and i have to prepare breakfast today...
quickly i went inside the washroom took a quick shower and came out...i see sanyukta still sleeping very cutely ...i go towards her...and rubbed my lips with her...and quickly goes out the room ...but wait...!! as i see my reflection in the mirror i stop to have a look properly...
i notice that purplish blot on my neck...and smile...A BIG SMILE ...remembering the last night. and look towards sanyukta's sleeping reflection through the mirror she is still sleeping and her clothes are piled on the floor. yep i kept my promise. the promise i gave her on the first night of our wedding, a promise that i'll love her every night.
"still in hangover of her love?" i asked my reflection and smiled...
but hey! i've to rush i'm getting late. as i leave my room. i peek into another room. SHREYHAN's room. He is fast asleep. just like his KUMKARAN mom. both son-mom keep sleeping. shutting doors of his room i peek into the adjacent room. RAKSHITA's room. she is not on her bed. she is just like his dad. she wakes up early in morning just like me. and i know, right now she'll be waiting for me in the kitchen. yes my pari helps me to prepare food every sunday!
as i was descending the stairs i saw her standing infront of kitchen's gate waiting for me.
she made me wear the apron and we started working. she is well organised like me and unlike her mom and twin brother.
soon both son-mom join us for the breakfast. and suddenly sanyukta starts shouting "randhir...yeh kaisa khana banaya hai ? no salt ? ---" and she continued...i just concentrated on her face. that beautiful angelic face that looked more hot when she is angry. I was used to this every sunday breakfast fighting with her. but she is shouting at me and how can i listen ?
so i start fighting with her.
And another big fight starts. I don't mind fighting with her now, i know after fighting how she'll cry , hug me , kiss me and make love to me. It's usual. And isn't this FIGHT-LOVE-FIGHT thing make us unique ? UNIQUE REAL SANDHIR ?
and oh no! my lady love is getting really annoyed by the way i'm mocking her and trying to cool her with my PJs ...
"BUT HEY! I JUST HOPE...--
AB TOH BAS EK HI DUA HAI MERI ...DIL SE KABHI NA UTRE
HANGOVER...TERI YAADON KA...
HANGOVER...TERI BAATON KA..."
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