Life has strange ways of showing us facts, life has strange ways of telling us where we went wrong and what mistakes we made, and life has strange ways of punishing us.
Today, when I saw Dev's breakdown, my heart broke into a million pieces. Oh the way he looked at Nandani when she was telling the police about Karan, it was as if his world is coming crashing down around him. As if his whole world is breaking. All the time when nandani told him about the facts, he was spellbound and all he could do was remember Kaajjal and how he behaved with her, when all she wanted was a chance to talk and ask forgiveness. Oh what pain and distress, how I could see in his eyes at that moment, "what have I done? Why did I do what I did? How did I do it? My Kaajjal, and I threw her out - Out of my house and out of my life. How could I do it? How?
And then when he threw himself on the chair after listening to it all, still having flashes of his kaj, and his own hateful words echoing in his mind .... o my, that look, that one look, and I was down with tears.
But the masterpiece of it all, when he was talking to his mom's pic, telling her how he regrets what he has done and how he wished he had never done it. "yeh mainay kya lar diya mom? woh marti rahi aur main ussay marta dekhta raha mom" o my God, my heart shed a million tears seeing him cry like this. and then, when he puts his head on nandani's laps, and cried like a baby with his mom's pics in one hand "meray gunahoon ka koee prashit nahi hai bhabi".... o my, why does life have to be sooo ruthless, he had no one at all to hold close and cry in her arms ... mom and kaj, the two people who were his only support were not there, when tears were rolling down his eyes and his world was crashing around him.
and that song, that was the last hit, and there my tears started rolling .... How true is it ..
zindagi kay safar main guzar jatay hain jo mukaam
wo phir nahi aatay, wo phir nahi aatay
aankh dhoka hai, kya bharosa hai suno
dostoon shak dosti ka dushman hai
apnay dil main isaay ghar bananay na do
kal tadapna paray yaad main jin ki
rok lo rooth kar unko jaanay na do
baad main pyar kay chahay bhaijo hazaroon pyam
wo phir nahi aatay, wo phir nahi aatay
Oh my, how true is it, "shak dosti ka dushman hai, kal tadapna paray yaad main jin ki, rok lo rooth kar unko jaanay na do." For there are many a times, when we make emotional situational decisions and by the time we realize, its too late to mend.
How his tears tore me apart …. I still cant forget the crying Dev sitting on the floor, with soo many expressions on his face – Love for Kaajjal, regret on his hateful behavior, pain of not having anyone to hold in his arms, and agony of his own world destroyed.
It was as if his heart and how whole being was saying
Kahan ho tum chalay aao
Mohabbat ka takaza hai
Gham-e-duniya say ghabra kay
Tumhain dil nay pukara hai
Kahan ho tum, kahan ho tum
Ye Hai Mohabbatein
