OS-2:~The Inner Battle..~
Part-1,page-1:https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/109391730
~Moth to the FLAME-Kheeche mujhe koi dore teri ore..~
Part-1.
I fight till I cannot stay away..
I burn in my own desire-
Like a moth to the flame ,I willingly succumb..
In his arms I take refuge to get burnt in his fire..
Veera glanced still a bit stunned, at the man strumming the guitar keys,with a smile on his face..
Her heart squeezed,and she felt a knot twisting in her stomach..
"Ankhaan da noor vekh ke
Ankhaan da.. noor vekh ke
Ankhiyan cho hanju rul de
Ankhiyan cho hanju rul de
Ankhiyan cho hanju rul de"
He smiled and walked infront of her,and Veera felt her heart racing fast..
" Kothe utte behke ankhiyan milounde
Na jaana hume tu kabhi chhod"
His eyes looked into hers for a second,and Veer's heart squeezed painfully..
"Tere utte mar da
Pyaar tenu kar da
Milega tujhe na koi aur"
He looked away,after his eyes met hers for a half a second,and smiled at some Polsih girls who had gathered round..
"Tu bhi aa sabko chhod ke
Tu bhi aa sabko chhod ke"
Did she imagine it or had he looked at her yearningly again..?!
" Meri ankhiyan cho anju rul de
Ankhiyan cho anju rul de"
He looked at the guitar as he finished the song..
"Paani da rang vekh ke
Paani da rang vekh ke
Paani da rang vekh ke
Ankhiyan cho anju rul de
Ankhiyan cho anju rul de
Ankhiyan cho anju rul de.."
As he finished the song,loud claps echoed all around them,and he smiled with a slight embarrassed look at everyone..
"Oh ji thanku ji!Thanku!"He said loudly as he returned the guitar to its owner,who praised him some more in english..
Veera did not know how to react,but she did notice that he was avoiding looking into her eyes..
Infact at that very moment he was busy talking in his broken English to some Polish girls,and some to her amazement were even taking his autograph!
She noticed one girl about to hug and kiss him,and instantly she was a flurry of activities..
"OYE BALDEVA!!!Sorry!Excuse me!This is my boy friend!Can I take him away please?!"Veera pulled a stunned Baldev away from the girls..
He looked at her hand holding his possessively and then at her face as she strode away pulling him along with her..
Suddenly he had pulled his hand free and stood still,as they stood by a comparatively crowd free area beside a lake.Slowly Veera turned to face him..
"Tune abhi ki kaha uththe?
[What did you say right now over there?]"He asked softly..
Veera looked away as her insides somersaulted at the look he was giving her..
"Kuch nai..Yehi kit u meri dost hai,aur-..
[Nothing..Just that you are my friend,and-..]"
"Tu aise jhoot kaab se bolne lagi Veera..?
[From when did you start lying like this Veera..?]"His soft tone,was sending chills down her spine..And unable to keep herself from doing it,she looked into his dark enquiring penetrating eyes..
It seemed they were searching for answers in hers..Afraid what he might see in there,she looked away again..
"Main-..Wo main-..Waise tu kaab se aise koi bhi kudi di naal chipakne laga..?!Abhi to mere liye gana gaya,mere mood thik karne di waaste..!Aur uski turant baad hi un kudio di naal-..
[I-..I had-..Anyways from when did you start getting so cozy to any girl..?!Just now you sang for me,to fix my mood..!And just after that you were with those girls and-..]"
Suddenly he looked embarrassed and Veera could clearly see him fighting to look angry..
"Tainu kisne kaha wo gaana tere liye tha..Wo to..Wo to un kudiyon ko impress karne ke liye-..
[Who told you that song was for you..?That was..That was to impress those girls-..]" Baldev broke off in mid sentence as she stepped closer upto him.
He inhaled a sharp steadying breath,as he looked down into her eyes..
"Tu bhi jhoot maat bol Baldeva..Mere akhon wich vekh ke bol..?Tu wo gaana mere liye nai gaya ki..?Iss liye nahi gaya kiu ki Nihaal chachu ki saach janke main dukhi ho gayi thi..?
[You also should not be lying Baldeva..Look into my eyes and say..?You did not sing that song for me..?You did not sing as I had become sad after I got to know Nihaal chachu's truth..?]"She said softly as she came closer still.
Baldev inhaled a shaky breath as he started losing himself in her eyes again..
Why did she have such an effect on him every time..?!Why did she have to affect him in any way..He tried to think of his hatred for her..He tried to sum up the reasons she had to be wary of her proximity,but to no avail..
Nothing was coming to his mind at that moment..And all he could feel was his heart beating fast,and his mouth going dry as he stared into the liquid molten brown of her eyes..
"Bol na Baldeva..?
[Tell me Baldeva..?]"She had raised one hand to touch his one rough bearded cheek,and Baldev felt a shock pass though his body at the touch..
The same euphoric sensations were taking over his body and mind which he had fought to kill in Pritampura..It had taken him a hell lot of a time to try to forget her..To accept she did not want him in her life..That she thought he was irresponsible and she felt nothing for him..His broken heart had not mattered to her,and she had ruthlessly thrown his feelings away..
He tightened his jaw as the memories flashed through his mind,and without thinking he moved her hand off his cheek,and pulled her upto him roughly,holding her by her shoulders.
A soft surprised gasp escaped her lips as she bumped into his hard chest,but Baldev was past caring..
His fingers squeezed at her shoulder as she looked down at her with glittering eyes..He moved his face close to her,the rage and hurt taking over him fast..
"Tere akhon mein akhein daal ke kiu vekhu main..?Kaun lagta hu main teri..?Sirf dost hu..Aur kuch nai!Bhul gayi?!SIRF DOST!Ye gayer zimmedaar aadmi tere liye gana gayegi..?!Tainu khush karne ke liye..?Aisa soch bhi kaise liya tune Veera..?Tainu to pata hi hai na ki main kinna ghatiya kisim ka aadmi hu..?Bhul gayi..?
[Why should I look into your eyes..?Who am I to you..?I am just a friend..Nothing else!Have you forgotten?!ONLY FRIEND!This Irresponsible person will sing a song for you..?!To make you happy..?How did you even think it Veera..?You do know don't you,what a disgusting person I am..?You forgot..?]"He gritted out through his teeth..
Veera stared up into his angry eyes,her heart squeezing painfully..
She could see the pain he was trying to hide through his anger,and her heart gave another painful squeeze at the memories of how she had insulted him,and tricked him the last time..
She could feel his fingers digging into her shoulders,and could feel the pain that it caused..But she did not wince or complain as she could see more pain in his eyes..Far more than she had ever felt..
What had she done to him..?!How could she do this to him..?!
She regretted tricking him like that with her lies of loving him..She regretted misunderstanding his good intentions all the time..
"Dev..?I'm sorry.."She said softly,her eyes holding all the regret in the world..
Baldev hitched in a sharp breath at her soft apology..
Veera had meant it to be for hurting him,and she tried to say it..But suddenly she felt she could not talk anymore..
Her throat felt clogged with unshed tears..
She had memories of yesterday when he had taken so much pain just because of her..His cuts and bruises were only for her..To fulfill her dream..It had nothing to do with him,and yet he had done so much for her..!And still went on doing so..
She raised one shaky hand to touch his bearded cheek lightly..
Instantly she noticed a change in his expression,as his eyes darkened..He looked down at her lips as if caressing them with his eyes,and then back into her eyes..They now held a helpless need which only seemed to tighten her stomach muscles tighter..
Veera felt her pulse throbbing fast,as he still held her close to him..His fingers that had been digging at her shoulders some time ago seemed to be massaging the muscles over there gently now..
With all the yearning she could clearly see on his handsome face,Veera felt she wanted to give in to him at that moment..
She wanted to get burned by him and his desireand him in all ways possible..And she wanted to relish it all too..
Last night she had seen him fighting his feelings and acting like a gentleman,but today,this once she wanted him to let go..
"Dev.."She whispered softly,not caring they were standing in common view of people..That what they were both feeling was unseemly and not like their usual nature too..
"Dev.."She called out again,and watched with pleasure that his eyes had gotten darker..As he looked at her with unmasked need and passion..
Veera felt her heart beat quicken as his expression darkened..She moved a bit closer to his body,her hands moving to his shoulder to hold onto him..And his hand lowered to her waist to pull her close up against his hard body..
A soft gasp escaped her lips,and a flush covered her face,as she waited for him to take the next obvious step..
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