Can a heart control what is feels?

Originally posted by: squivi

Beautifully written. Yes, Paro's perspective is all muddled up and is getting everyone mad, but I am happy that she's at least feeling something besides blindly loving and having faith in Rudra.

She's clearly insecure and wants those 3 words from him that will get her confidence back up. She's a woman who feels unimportant in her husband's life because she was repeatedly told so by him (hello, wedding vows), but then his actions of care and love contradict all that he told her. Then she realizes that he had intimate relations with another woman, irrespective of no rishta or love between him and Laila. He spent 8 years with her and had no feelings for her. He is married to Paro but told her in an episode from 2 weeks ago that he can never love her... but then does all these gestures of love for her. Paro is one confused soul.

I feel for both Rudra and Paro. Two majorly flawed characters battling their demons, yet are deeply in love with each other. There really are so many layers to these characters, even layers that so many of us cannot fathom.

Originally posted by: princessunara

Well said!
@red - till now many had an issue that Paro was not reacting enough! She was too divinely inclined and doesn't have human emotions!! And when her dream world shatters and she shows those very human reactions then also some have a problem with it!

Paro is not right! She is just being human!
A girl trying hard to not be jealous, but a wife who cannot help but feel a little insecure, a young girl in the threshold of love for the first time in her life.. but she just might lose it all too.. and she yearns to be loved.. she tries to not be petty..and put some1's life at risk.. but she she still feels tendrils of jealousy and worries.. she is confused..

and if this set of feelings are not enough to leave any human being totally muddled up, I wonder what would be needed!
And for a muddled Paro who is utterly confused and conflicted b/w her heart and her mind is reacting sensibly one second and emotionally the next second..
And for me its justified as a reaction. Nothing too saintly.. cz while her innate goodness makes her do the right thing, her own wants, and hopes makes her be a little selfish too..
and I like this..

Originally posted by: SanayaIsBest

Sunara I posted this earlier...just pasting.
Paro is caught between her head and her heart, both giving her conflicting signals.

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Paro doesn't blame Rudra for his past.

She has emotionally hit rock bottom since the show started. .

She was never insecure even in the hate marriage because she was sure of her love and faith.

She was seeing small acts of care from him, she saw him smile, change.

With Laila's entry she is highly insecure, not about Laila but about herself.

She is angry at herself, feeling humiliated, sad.

She is so shaken that the promise to Bholenath does not even figure.

The core of her belief system is shaken and for the first time her faith is not giving her answers.

So she is turning to the object of her being, Rudra.

She want answers from him to help her, guide her.

She can handle Laila but not her own questions and doubts, which will not go away even if Laila does.

Laila is inconsequential and insignificant in her scheme of things right now.

Paro has been Rudra's strength when he was at his lowest point, when he lost his job and his mother's abandonment was coming back to haunt him. She held him , told him it would be ok.

She took responsibility to get his job restored.

Today Paro is at her lowest point. She is insecure, jealous, scared, and feeling humiliated.

It's now Rudra's turn to step in for her not just in action and through his eyes, but also through his words. She needs his assurance. Actions are important, but for a woman words are just as important...especially when the woman in question is hurting and insecure.

Paro restored Rudra's dignity and honor once

Today it's Rudra's turn to restore Paro's heart.