#KSGonlyASAD -Beautifully Broken FF - Thread 1 {CHP 1 -13} - Page 32

Hi freinds,

finally i wrote this update.its not that lengthy but not too short either😳😳

i am upset with the number of reducing readers and worst part i don't know the reason for it.

can someone please update me with your suggestions please.😳

thanks.

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Chapter 6

"abu..apko pata bhi hai...ap mujhse kya krne ke liye keh rahe hai?" said asad in an annoyed tone.

"haan asad... main ache se janta hu, main tumse kya keh raha hu." Rashid kept a hand on asad's shoulder. Asad reflex it by taking two steps ahead of him.

"Nai ABU! Ap NAI jante ke AP kya keh rahe hai !" asad said with a pinch of sorrow in his words with his right hand locked around the left wrist clear meaning, CONTROL.

"asad..meri baat samjho .." Rashid started taking one more step but Asad again reflected his move by quick two block distance.

"ap samajh kyu nai rahe hai...main aisa nai kr sakta" asad turned to face his father as he looked at him with fire in his eyes; "ap chahte hai ke main apki dost ki beti se nikah krlu, wo bhi isliye kyunki hum bankrupt na ho jaye?" asad raised his eyebrow with narrowing his eyelids, giving a powerful glare at his father, a kind of stare which yells ARE YOU SERIOUS?'

"abu ap jante hai.." asad started softly as he felt he is insulting his father with his high pitch voice.

"asad tum kyu nai dekh sakte ? Ye rishta humare liye bahot zaruri hai." Rashid started as moisture formed under his eyes.

"asad haseena bi ko tum jante ho. Unhe agar bhanak bhi pad gai humare crisis ki to wo ye nikah tod dengi. Fir socho nikhat ka kya hoga. Kya wo ye sadma bardash kar payegi?" Rashid said with an authoritative hand gesture, clearing his point to asad. Asad eyes turned wide on hearing nikhat's name, the impacts of Rashid words were showing giving effect on asad's face; "asad nikhat nai sambhal payengi khudko, us bechari ne apni choti si zindagi me kafi bar mayusiyan bardash ki hai. Ab ye sadma kahi uski jaan-." Asad stopped Rashid with a loud voice "ABU!"

Rashid looked at asad weakly while controlling himself to not fall weak in front of his son.

"tum sun nai sakte per socho agar ye sab ho gaya. To kya tum ye dekh paoge?" Rashid said in a threatening loud voice like a thunderbolt in the sky.

"or ye to socho. Ke badi beti ka nikah tutne ki khabar jab society me failegi. To kya izzat reh jayegi humari. Kaun nikah krega humari nuzzhat se ye jankar ke hum bankrupt ho chuke hai or humari badi beti ka nikah hote hote dusri bar tut gaya. Hum society me khade rehne layak nai rahenge."Rashid tried to make him understand by aiming the weakest core of asad: EMOTIONS'

"abu... kya society ke liye main teen zindagiya tabah kr du." Asad looked up at Rashid while questions started to flow through his eyes in the form of salt water.

"Main janta hu faisla mushkil hai. Per main ye bhi janta hu ke mera asad mushkil rasto pe chalna janta hai." Rashid said while concluding his words for him to think. But before he could leave asad called his name from behind. "Abu?"

Rashid turned behind to see asad with heavy heart as no father wished to see his strong son in pain and sorry , in a situation like what he made asad to stand in.

"Main..." asad paused as he took a sharp breath swabbing his nose with back of his hand. His eyes let the river fall in to several stream passing through the cheek and falling from the chin in to tiny droplets.

"abu..main" asad's face broke in to cry and he nod saying himself a soft No. "main.."he cough while tears fell directly kissing the while floor. "zoya..zoya ko...diya promise..." asad stoped in between as he did not had strength to continue further.

Understanding, asad's unsaid words Rashid looked at him with a small pool of un-shed tears in his eyes. "asad, ek wada tumne hum sab se bhi kiya tha. Yaad hai na tumhe?" Rashid said looking at asad curiously while asad nodded his head in a yes letting tears slip slowly on chin. "tumne apni marti hui dadi se kaha tha. Ke is parivar ko tum hamesha khush rakhne me mera sath doge. Meri kamzori nai, meri takat banoge." Rashid stopped looking at the plain blue wall to his left. He walked in trance thinking about something and then recovered back with a deep soft voice. "Main kamzor hu asad. Mera parivar bikhar raha hai.mujhe mere bte ka sath chahiye, mere parivar ki khushiyo ko banaye rakhne me. Tumhari ek kurbani dene se sab ke chehre pe muskan yuhi rahegi. Maine apne bte ko khudgarz nai banaya hai. Main janta hu tum bhi hum sab se bahot pyar krte ho. Or ye choti se chot bardash kr loge. Per agar ke khanjar nikhat ke seene me utra. To kai zindagi jeete jee allah ko pyari ho jayegi." Rashid said as he supported himself balancing on his palm over a table beside him.

Rashid waited for a while, expecting to hear something from asad but nothing came. He could heat his soft cry and whimper in the thick ice of silence.

"zoya...sambhal jayegi. Main janta hu, wo bhi mazbut hai tumhari tarah. Wo samajh jayegi or kuch salo me hum sab is dard se bahar aa jayenge. Tum dono khush rahoge,kisi or ke sath bhi!" asad looked at Rashid in disbelief and with widen eyes as Rashid concluded his sentence with something that he himself have never imagined in his scariest nightmare. Rashid left asad alone under the pitch dark sky of sorrow as he walked outside to attend the party. He could not risk himself on giving any kind of hint to people around the world of his crisis and problems.

"wo nai...badh payengi abu!" asad cried as he cried hard dabbing his back hand skin beneath his snout.

His feet sink under the haze of sorrow on the floor as he cried hard, finding it difficult to imagine a life with out her. "I can't do it abu..." he said while imagining zoya's face in his front. And soon it got replaced with nikhat's tears. "bhaijaan?" he heard nikhats voice with the vague image standing in bridal attire with tears in her eyes. "nik..nikh..at" asad said stammering due to crying hard. "mera nikah bhaijaan" nikhat said weeping along with her open hand to her side where her mehendi was fading away with seconds. Asad nodded his head in No and got up to pull her sister in to brother hug but she disappeared from his sight. "NIKHAT!" asad shouted taking her name and looked here and there trying to spot her in the room but she was not there.

He palmed his face with both his hands as he sat on the bed behind him. He took a breath relishing all the moments he had lived with zoya in his life. He closed his eyes while letting his eyes drain the last stock of tears. "I'll always love you" he said between his erratic breaths. "Always.." he repeated the word again and again for a couple of minutes till his body gave up on him and exhaustion too over his wounded frame.

"haider!" tanveer took his name again in happiness as she finally found him.

Completely ignoring zoya's blabbering she started walking to farhaan with a broad smile on her face and eyes blinking with hopes.

Farhaan on other hand stood stunt for few minutes, generally not expecting the sudden blow-off by destiny. He worriedly started looking all around with a chant of not letting anyone seeing. As he noticed tanveer walking straight in his direction, He quickly walked out of the building followed by tanveer behind.

"haider" tanveer wailed falling in his arms for secure hug. Her eyes made his shirt wet with tears.

Farhaan felt off-guard by her reaction but soon he recovered and pushed her roughly on other side by her upper arms.

"haider!" tanveer said in a confused shocked voice.

"tum yaha kya kar rahi ho tannu?" farhaan asked in a anger and not so happy tone.

"main..tumse milne ke liye ..maine tumhe kitna dhunda." Tanveer said as she raised a hand to touch him lovingly on his cheeks but he pushed her hand away and stood a step away from her reach.

"haider?" tanveer voice purely holding shock in her voice and her eyes. "Why are you behaving strange? She asked him mystified.

"Stop trying to get close tanveer. I warn you" farhaan forced his tone high as he tried to move each time from her touch.

"Per kyu?" tanveer asked sadly and confused of his weird demand.

"kyunki ab tumhara chuna mujhe pasand nai." Farhaan said in a mocking accent.

"pasand nai matlab." Tanveer voice shattered in the end while looking at farhaan with hurt in them.

"haan nai pasand..mujhe ab tumhe dekh ke ghutan ho rahi hai. Tumhare pass hun to aisa lag raha hai jaise main kisi galiz jagah pe -."

"HAIDER!" tanveer shouted in anger to stop him but quickly calmed herself down .

"Haider..ab ab aisa mat kaho." Tanveer started trying to take her pregnancy topic out. But before she could say he said something horrendous to her, something she have not imagined ever in her life.

"tanveer please! Baksh do mujhe. Are tum to mere peeche he pad gai ho. Theek hai na humara affair tha. Kiska nai hota? To isme badi bat kya. We slept and we moved on bas. Ise elastic ki tarah khichne ke zarurat nai. Bat yahi khatam kar do. Dekho ander mere khas relative ka function hai or yaha main koi tamasha nai chahta. Tum yaha se dafa ho sakti ho." He said while walking away from her.

"Or waise bhi yaha bazaru aurto ka kaam nai." He said with venom and a mocking tone as he left her crying in the dark shadow.

"bazaru...or main?" tanveer asked herself " tum pehle shaqs the haider jis per maine itna bharosa kiya. Itna bharosa ke maine apna sab kuch ." tanveer looked at herself and at the back of farhaan who was walking coolly inside the bright light of the outer world.

"ab main tumhe bazaru lagi.? Main..? Main to bolna chahti thi ke hamare pyar ki nishani mere ander..." she trailed off touching her stomach but then short a bitter glare in his direction. "nai haider ...tum aise nai ja sakte." She said in anger; "mat jao haider mujhe in sab logo ke beech akela kr ke. Main nai lad sakti tanha. Thak chuki hu..haar chuki hu main. Laut ao !" her voice started with anger but then slowly shifter to pleading by coming to end.

Tanveer fell down on muddy floor with her knees crossed to her chest, she cried on her hand while thinking about her shattered and mercilessly broken dreams of happy life ahead.

After what looked like hours she finally got up with a anger on her face. "theek hai haider. Mujhe chorkar tumhe lag raha hai ke main jee nai sakti? Main jeeungi haider or khush rahungi. Main nikah karungi haider. Main is bache ko pehchan dungi. Ek baap ka naam dungi." She said touching her belly with a promise.

"or ye wada hai mera tumse... ke tumhe or tumhare pure khandaan ko ek din mere ansuon ki kimat chukani hongi!" she wiped her tears with a determined look as she gathered herself up on her feet and stride out towards khans villa softly promising herself in a revulsion look.

"Chukani hongi!"