Zain woke up with a pounding headache. He felt as though thirty something mustangs has run him over. Holding his head in his hands, he turned over and removed the sheets covering him. He got up slowly, not wanting to worsen the headache and opened his drawer to retrieve the Aspirin readily kept there for his use. He swallowed two tablets and then went ahead with the third one, just in case his headache got worse. He then felt the need to use the bathroom and with great determination, got up to do just that. As he passed the mirror of his bathroom, he looked at his reflection and saw his tousled hair, his bloodshot eyes with dark circles underneath them but most of all he saw the disappointment he was to his father. Zain lifted his arm to sniff his underarms and violently coughed once he got a whiff of it. Shaking his head, Zain relieved himself and went back to his bedroom. Breath reeking of alcohol, his body stench worse than a dead man's, Zain fell asleep.
"Zain, open this door right now" his mother exclaimed from outside his room.
Zain covered his ears with a pillow.
"Zain I will not ask again"
Zain heard the unmistakable metallic sound of a key turning in a lock and sleep immediately evaded his eyes and he watched his mother purposely stride towards the window.
"Mom, No" but before Zain could complete the sentence, the curtains were unfurled and sunlight flushed into the room.
"I am blind" Zain said with a hand covering his eyes.
"No. You aren't. You're drunk, unemployed, spoiled beyond measure but not blind" His mother replied in a lighter tone as she walked his bed and gently put her hand through his hair, only to lift it immediately as she caught a trance of her son's body odor.
"When was the last time you took a bath?"
"I would tell you but I'm not up for math at the moment" Zain replied as he buried his head further into his pillow in an attempt to block out the unbidden sunlight.
"If I ask you to take a bath, will you do it?" she asked as she pitifully looked at her son's state.
"Eventually"
"Zain!"
"Sabr ka pal meetha hota hai maa" Zain says, his voice muffled by the pillow.
"Kab se hum sabr hi toh kar rahe hain"
Aliyah folded her prayer mat and placed it on the rack meant for her religious supplies. He father came in with a smile and lightly patted her head.
"You haven't slept after Fajr*?" her father asked as he watched her gently place her Quran over her prayer mat.
"No, didn't feel like it today" Aliyah replied as she faced her father with a smile.
"How is university?"
"It's good. All my courses are really interesting"
"I'm glad. Today, your mom is going to the Dargah, will you accompany her. I need to go to work" Aliyah's father asks tentatively, knowing his daughter's disapproval of such places.
"I will drop her but not go inside" Aliyah replies firmly.
Her father smiles and bids her goodbye. She sighs and goes to her closet. She picks out her abayah* and her scarf. Donning her hijab*, she goes to her mom's room.
"You're taking me to Dargah?" her mother asks in surprise.
"Abba asked me to and you know it's obligatory to do as your parents tell you to" Aliyah says as she picks the car keys, "I am starting up the car so whenever you're done, you can meet me there"
Aliyah's mother nods and pulls her dupatta over her head. She then searches for her purse and her handbag. Once everything she needed was placed in her purse, she leaves to join her daughter in her car.
"You won't come in?" Her mother asks as Aliyah parks the car.
"You know how feel about this" Aliyah says with a sigh as she looks at her mother.
"But what is so wrong in visiting a saint?" her mother asks in irritation.
"There's nothing wrong with visiting a saint but there is a lot wrong in visiting the grave of a saint and praying to it!"
"We don't pray to the saint. We ask the saint to pray for us because he was a pious man!" her mother argues.
"When Allah is a prayer away and I can directly ask for things, why do I need to pray to a grave? I understand he was a virtuous man mother but he died and he can't hear my woes but Allah can because Allah is ever living so why should pray to a grave when Allah is just a sajda* away?" Aliyah asks in frustration.
Her mother huffs but doesn't argue further knowing Aliyah wouldn't budge. Aliyah rests her head against the headrest for her car and patiently waits for her mother to get done. After about an entire hour, she decides to call her mother but even after three rings when her mother doesn't pick up she decides to go into the Dargah. On the way she is stopped by an old man.
"Duaa milega beti" the man says as he lifts a green bag to her for her to place money in it. Aliyah looks at it skeptically and turns her gaze to the man.
"Dua lene keliye mujhe paisey dene hongey?" she asks, knowing his answer well.
"Khuda bhi tumhe sawab dega"
"Par paise toh aap dua ke liye maang rahe ho. Dua bhi aaj kal khareedi aur bechi jaati hai" she laughs but there was no humor in her voice.
"Agar khuda ke liye paise nahin dene hain toh mat do par..."
"Khuda? Yeh paise khuda ke liye nahin chacha, yeh paise aap duaa ke naam peh le rahe ho. Agar Imaan ke saath sharam bhi nahi khaalia hai toh thodi sharam karo aur izzat se bheek maango kyunki duaa aur iman bhech ne ki cheezein nahin hoti" Aliyah says in a low but angry tone.
"Aliyah!" Her mother grabs her arm from behind and drags her to the car. Once inside she looks at her daughter, "Why did you do that?"
"He was wrong and I..."
"Wrong because he was in the Dargah and asked for money?" her mother asks as she looks out the window.
"No, wrong because of the reason he was asking for money"
"And what was the reason?" her mother asks with frustration.
"He was asking me money so he would give me a dua"
"Aadmi ghareeb tha toh dua hi dega naa? Aur dene keliye kya hai uske paas?"
"He can't sell a prayer mother! He can beg for money but he can't make a business out of faith. He wasn't making a duaa from the sincerity of his heart, he was doing it for money. Duaa is a part of faith and any part of faith must be practiced with your heart not with money" Aliyah replies as she parks the car near the house.
"Farq kya hai agar woh duaa paise lene par de?"
"Farq hai kyunke khuda ke naam ko aap apne faide ke liye istimaal nahin kar sakte" her mother doesn't reply and gets out of the car, trying but failing to understand her daughter.
Aliyah sits in the car and calms herself down. It was always like this. Her mother and she always had different views on things and that strained their relationship. They obviously loved one another but failed to understand each other.
Fajr is the prayer muslims prayer before sunrise.
Abayah is loose clothing worn by muslim women usually in black but could be any dull color.
Hijab is muslim scarf worn over the head.
Sajda or sujood (in Arabic) is when muslims bow down in prayer
Imaan is an Arabic word that means faith
I know Aliyah is outspoken and sometimes may be seen as disrespectful but she's human and less than perfect. Hope you guys like it so far. Don't know the names of the parents since I don't watch the show regularly so if someone could be nice enough to mention them in the comments, it would be really sweet.