Few weeks before her accident.
Chapter One
The salty winds swaying the curtains up and down right and left beating it harshly "reflecting my life the same way" she spoke in her mind by seeing them .
adjusting the glasses that has move down to her nose tips ."even my glasses is leaving my eyes so that I cannot have clear vision,I have done so much mess that everyone left me am I that bad that even my things, my glasses wants to leave me, if you left me I won't be able to see anything its gets blurred I am going to bang my head with doors and furnitures I am going to hurt myself please don't .. please don't leave me.. atleast you stay with me help me to have clear vision. " her face look like any moment she will break down in tears.
"If someone sees me talking to non living things talking to winds ,curtains in my room my glasses they might think I am mad ,but you know what I have crossed my sanity these are things that wants back answer me humiliate me I am on the fine between a living and non living "
Tears filled her eyes she wiped the tears before it slides down her cheeks , standing for a long time her feet started aching her but she mindlessly watched how the wind is beating the curtains and the curtains bear the harshness reflecting her pain,
"she is this curtains and the wind is him ".she spoke the word "him" in a lethal manner as if him is the word relating to a culprit.
soon her legs gave the answer the pain made her awake of her surrounding how long she had been standing and was lost in her thoughts.
The beep from clock began to ring flashing 7 a.m she moved towards the sound of clock make it off .seeing the digits flashing the time 7 a.m . she haven't slpet all night waiting for the sun to rise and darknees to fade just like she wanted in her life a miracle of nature day after night naight after day but the night is too long and seems never fading with rays of sun.
"it's time" she whisper with a new determination in her voice .she follow the daily routine task she was supposed to do.
"It's time for change , it's time to move away ,it's time to stop the pain and to do it stop them who are the reasons for it."
"I am going to stop the pain in my legs for standing so long . "
"Sorry my feet I didn't realize for how much I ignored you."
She moved towards the windows.
She closed the windows that made the curtains stop battling the wind and rest in peace.
"Sorry curtains instead of watching you getting beaten by wind I should have stop wind she laughed a little instead of watching I should do something."
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning , but anybody can start today and make a new end. ". "Yes, I am going to make end ,atleast if I can't hold on something then I should let it go ."
"Like a bird,I will leave behind what I don't need to carry pain, sorrow,grudges,tears, the birds always fly light without any burdens . " seeing the birds flying from one bark of tree to another
She took out the black diary.
Today is the last day I am complaining about everything happened in my life .
You know what I have learned
1)world is not bad because bad people have power but because good people have forgot how to unite and use their own power.
2)I am not going to regret having choosen or met wrong people in life..
Because...
No one can teach you the right lessons better than wrong people :)
3)If you want to live happy life ,tie it your goal not to people or things.
Do you know diary ,why maharaj giriraj and udayveer were sucessful because
4)"the difference between a successful person and others is not lack of strength, not lack of knowledge,but rather a lack of will."
Yes, diary I was mourning over Dadi sahib condition, I was mourning how J created chaos , how vijaybhai is defenceless against udayveer, his name itself is enough to make him to spread a red carpet and allow udayveer to walk on it and invite him to run his evil plan's. how could he help me to stand against him and be my chanakya and me chandragupt .How my father or should I call Mahraj Brijraj was more a proud and class showy king disgraced my efforts .i was a disgrace to him because I did not have upbringing of a princess manners etiquettes is all that matters, princess are just like to be used as spawn or like a show piece .
They say I am too stubborn that In my stubbornness I destroyed devghad prestige . I was not worthy of being yuvrani ,not a princess ,not their daughter , not their sister ,not grand-daughter,even below the servant working in this palace.
Maharaj Brijraj and JaiNandini has joined their forces to dump me from this palace their insults, tantrums their manipulating schemes ,they are players and play games like never ending.
What to say about maharani Komal yes , I am going to cut all my relations because in this palace the only thing that remains forever is lifeless statues she is quite as ever playing the role of a queen of maharaj brijraj , daughter-in law of dadisahab performing her duties not loving them.
You know diary , my marriage ,I was sacrificing myself .i was fed up of udayveer and maharaj giriraj politics .like an evil poisonous serpent they have coiled around the Devghad suffocating ,biting spreading the venom .
Soon everyone gone against me.
The completion of the contract that yuvrani of devghad will be married to yuvraj of jaighar was like a death certificate I have to sign on my own death.
One day...
I was informed by servant that Maharaj giriraj had called me ,I went to him.
"You know her highness manyata kumari what has let you to agree or the correct word I must use is submit yourself to my son is that he is the yuvraj and my son" he spoke the word yuvraj and son in proud tone "that we never let anyone stand against us."
" And the reason I have called you is I want you to sign this paper."
Manyata:"What is it about ?"
"It's the contract papers her highness." Maharaj giriraj spoke in an informing manner.
She took the paper from him and started reading the contract.
Her face from attentive was shifted by shock.
All the time studying her emotion which was clearly reflected on her face and body language which she obviously never pay attention was used against her to read her mind by predators whom she always fall prey looking at her change expression.
Giriraj spoke with a thin mysterious smile as he is playing the game of riddles of words : "I hope you are well aware of your position and power and behave like civilized princess ."he spoke like a teacher is going to announce the result of the student to their parents.
It didn't go unnotice by her ,his tone his words, analyzing him as well as absorbing the legal matters of the contract both side by side .By reading the contract first thing she marked in her list that the contract he made as well as Maharj Giriraj was like a phase changing riddle confusing and always favouring him even if court case happened against the contract he made it in such a way that it was always favoured him more than anyother. He makes his opponent a hell lot to pay.
Seeing the changing expression a smirk appeared in his face.
"What a lamb?" He thought .
Manyata:"Are you serious about this."
Giriraj :" well I am always serious about my riyasat ,my yuvraj s life particulary about his marriage to a yuvrani who has jailed my son , disgraced him and more than that you make him fall in love and you are marrying him for his riyasat,power and you have nothing to give him as anyother yuvrani would have given him . what do you think of yourself ? you are nothing and you have nothing to give my yuvraj."
The calm regality and the code of conduct of a royal was replaced by the tone and words were dripping venom by him.
His expression suddenly changed like a calmness before a storm .
"Her highness you should look at your hands" he pointed towards her hand " what do you have after small sigh he spoke" nothing... nothing to give ,your hands are bare ."
"Even if you asked forgiveness still I won't be able to give you." After a little while he spoke
"I neither forgive nor forget ." he spoke like it is one of the seven commandments he follow.
"Well I am pretty sure that if this marriage happens you will also tarnish the reputation of jaighad and we will also be bare hands like you have done to yourself and devghad."
Tears filled her eyes .She was suffering the blames of his father and jainandini but now it has pushed her sanity that it became insufferable.
Satisfied that he got what he want tears are proofs that you can't bear the pain anymore and very close to breaking her.
"Oh no don't think that I am affected by that water from your eyes, you are just a common girl who has been made a yuvrani and you will become an incompetent maharani.
"Enough I had enough .. I am quiet that does not mean you can speak to me like this ",she roared her outburst was loud enough to be heard outside the room.
A smirk appeared across his face ,burst out my little lamb and do a mistake in the heat of moment that I have created he thought in his mind.
"If I am such incompetent then why did you get it signed by dadisahab the marriage contract of yuvraj and yuvrani of devghad."
"Oh.. that you did not know how old relations the jaighad and devghad through generations we have.
How can we let devghad fall her highness ." he spoke like he is the best friend anyone would want.
Manyata:"If we have friends like you there is no need of enemy."
"Now.. now... watch your tongue what did I say about behaving like a civilzed ."
"Hmm." he poke like that she is amusement for him .
"Well I think you did not understood the contract well its obvious . no one is friend and no one is enemy we all have our own goals for which we live it's the purpose of life."
"well let me help you as you always required ."he offerd his help.
manyata:"wait whatever you want to explain about this new contract you will be explaining in presence of another rajwada. As I know you will be hiding your agenda behind this contract."
Gir:"as you wish .. I was going to do another favour on you ." he spoke like he was just giving favours.
"Well whom would you like to call your drunken father who is loosing himself in gambling and drinking with his mistress."
"Or would you like to call your quite as a statute your mother."
Manya:" no maharaj giriraj they are not the one who made a princess but he is the one who has taught me to be one of rajwada ."
She dialed the no. in her phone and called him.
Edited by urvashihiran - 11 years ago