Before starting, I'll say that I had never even heard of this song before. Kaunsi movie ka gaana hai, when did it release.. I'm completely clueless even now.
Anyway, leaving that stuff aside, let's come to the main topic. It was on this day last year, that Shantanu and Vrushika left all of us STUNNED and GAPING with their mesmerizing on screen chemistry. It was on this day last year that Vrushika and Shantanu put a tight slap on all those people's faces who doubted their version of SwaRon. Khamakha was truly a mesmerizing sequence. Something which still sends chills down my spine.
Let's recollect the awesomeness of the sequence?
So we basically talk about Sharon's pov. I couldn't understand Swayam's feelings that clearly as Sharon's. So here we go!!
The scene is basically about how hard Sharon tries to control herself, but unfortunately, she can't hold herself back and gives herself in. As far as Swayam is concerned, he has a complete plan to make Sharon lose herself to him ... showering his love on her in each possible way... showing that he loves her a lot.. and how much ever she tries, his love is never going to wane in any way.
He extends his hand forward to ask her for a dance. Sharon, being in her denial phase, turns away and walks away from him. He follows her.
"You think you are smart?"
"Absolutely." He replies wittily. "Agar mein smart nahi hota, toh tumhare saath yeh mauka nahi milta."
"Kyu laga tumhe ki mein tumhe yeh mauka dungi?" Sharon the diva questions him.
"Kyuki agar tum yeh mauka nahi bhi dogi, toh mein yeh mauka tumse cheen kar lunga."
She looked at him, helplessly and couldn't utter another word from her mouth. She looked into his deep brown eyes which reflected love for her. Pure love. She couldn't come out of her trance. She was lost in him. She was riveted by him. What she felt for him, was more than mere liking.
He saw her staring at her helplessly, and recollected what he had said a few seconds back. He couldn't let go off this opportunity, of being so close to her... of making her feel loved... of spending a few moments with the one he was in a relationship with...
He pulled her closer. She was helpless... he was controlling her... he was the one playing on her mind..her heart...she was slowly losing herself to him.. He placed his hand over her back... Her arm was enveloped around his shoulder... He held her protectively and firmly while she continued looking into his deep eyes which reflected all possible kind of emotions...
They continued staring at each other with utmost affection in their eyes until she realized that she had to free herself from this trance... She couldn't possibly let herself go weak in the knees in front of him like this... She couldn't be so close to him... She had to make him feel that she hated him. But somewhere, somehow she didn't want to leave him. Reluctantly, she tried protesting and freeing herself from his grip..
He didn't let her. He pulled her closer.
halki halki aahen bharna
takiye mein sar de ke dheeme dheeme
sargoshi mein baatein karna
pagalpan hai aise tumpe marna
They waltzed around the room without avoiding an eye contact. Intensity was visible in their eyes as they moved around the room without letting go off the other one. She was firmly holding him, while he didn't attempt to leave her. He had to make the most of this opportunity. He had to let her know that how much ever she tries... she can't push himself from her... neither emotionally nor mentally..
They closed their eyes in anticipation...She inhaled his intoxicating scent... how could she even think of pushing herself from him... how could she, Sharon Rai Prakash, the girl who was smitten by him even think of going away from him again... but maybe destiny had something else in store for her... No... she had to get away... She couldn't stay there with him...
Agar tum yeh mauka nahi bhi dogi, toh mein tumse yeh mauka cheen ke le jaaunga.
His words ringed in her ears.. She tried to go away but he didn't let her.. He held her wrist firmly and pulled her towards him... How could she possibly ignore, the warmth which she experienced every time he touched her... the smoothness in his grip... the love which reflected every time he looked at her... and she... she was trying to get away from all this..
ubla ubla kyun lagta hai
ye badan, ye jalan to khamakha nahi
ye khalish jo hai, wo khamakha nahi
haan tapish to hai, par khamakha nahi..
She placed her hand on his shoulder, while he placed his palm on her bonce and continued sliding it down. His hands slowly touched her dorsum and his touch sent shivers down her spine... Cold shivers... she felt like a strong electric jolt was passing through her when he touched her, so gently that she almost felt it was unreal... She closed her eyes again, feeling the moment...grasping everything that was happening around her...all of it...was ethereal.. divine..radiant...at the same time, she could gauge it was him and only him around her... Her mind was reluctant, but her heart refused to move.
She slowly looked at him, she didn't want to show how vulnerable and affected she was due to him... but her eyes felt different... They slowly made an eye contact with his captivating eyes which were enough to drive her insane...
She wanted to leave... Her heart didn't agree... He realized that... He pulled her protectively towards him and authoritatively waltzed around the room with her... They moved as if he was controlling every inch of her body... Her mind tried to protest... But her heart was reluctant..
Jo nahi kiya, kar ke dekhna,
saans rok ke, mar ke dekhna,
ye bewajah, besabab, khamakha nahi..
ye khaamakha nahi..
She peered at him... She was finding it hard to control...but her heart wouldn't listen... She needed him... She wanted to acknowledge but something pulled her back from saying that... She needed him like a heart needed its beat.
He twirled her like a dancer twirls his partner... She followed the suit, he pulled her closer to him and she slowly touched him... He felt blissful when her palm fell on his chin... He felt he was the luckiest person in the whole world when he saw her blue orbs trying to deviate their attention from him, but failing profusely...
She slowly started giving herself in... She started to embracing herself with the love he had for her ... with the affection he had ... the care, the concern, probably no one could make her feel so loved.
You can't do this Sharon... No... You can't. You have to make him feel otherwise... Don't do this.
She listened to her mind and tried making her way away from him but as fate had it, he again pulled her , this time closer and held her hand firmly as if telling her dotingly that she belonged with him, and how much ever she tried, she couldn't change this fact.
Her palm was fixed in his. They were a few centimeters apart... Each time he touched her ... she got this feeling.. Each time he touched her, she felt guilty of herself... Each time he touched her, she felt like she was acting foolishly by ignoring him... She got this feeling... She got the essence.
He twirled her again and pinned her to the wall... She looked at him lovingly, and her one look was enough to make him realize that he had cast a magic spell on him... that it was impossible for her to go away from him... That somewhere she didn't want to ignore him, but somehow she had to... that somewhere in some corner of her heart, she liked him way more than words could express.
He looked at her with all his love and cupped her face which reflected so much of feelings for him... Which reflected the most pure feeling.. The most pure feeling she had ever experienced...
He tucked a lock of hair behind her ears... She felt a shiver travelling through entire body again... He was controlling her.. He was playing on her mind...He was making her insane...for him... Only and only for him...
No Sharon. Her mind reminded her.
No... She couldn't do this...
She pushed him and tried to escape his grip... She moved a few steps, while her heart commanded her otherwise.. He didn't let her go.. He clutched her wrist and drew her towards him... He was gathering control of her slowly... She was riveted by him... somewhere although she physically wanted to leave, she mentally wanted to stay there... by him...forever
fikr rehti hai, jo khamakha nahi..
zikr rehta hai, jo khamakha nahi..
ashq aankhon mein, bhar ke dekhna
aaina kabhi darr ke dekhna
ye bewajah, besabab, khamakha nahi..
Deewangi sahi, ye khaamakha nahi..
majnu to hain, par khamakha nahi..
They were so close to each other... She could feel his breath on her face... he pushed her hair to one side, while she started giving herself in... She could feel every inch of his face so close to her... She didn't want to go away from him... Yet, she once again pushed him... He didn't let her leave the rehearsal hall... He pulled her closer and closer...yet again... They were so close to each other... so close...yet so far... His one touch made her shiver... his one touch made her feel that she was so lucky to be loved by someone like him... He had cast some evil spell on her, which had to be removed.
She tried getting away yet again... this time for real...but he didn't let her... He stood in front of her, preventing her from escaping... She couldn't let him come closer... She possibly couldn't let him gather control of her... She couldn't let him affect her so ruthlessly... No... she just couldn't... She had to cure herself... She couldn't ruin his life with her truth...neither could she stop herself from getting irrevocably attached with him... Why did god have to be so merciless with her?? Why did she have to go away from Swayam? Why did it have to happen with her?
He came towards her... She flinched...he kept coming closer, while she kept flinching back... she tried pushing him away...while he enveloped his hands around her waist and twirled her... They moved in complete sync, like no one could ever describe from where so much of chemistry and synchronization came... Perfect... was the word for them..
He pinned her to the mirror in the rehearsal hall... while she stood there, vulnerable and helpless... unsure of what to do...giving herself in... He tucked her hair behind her ears, so that he could look at her...the beautiful face looked even more beautiful when it was love struck..When it was vulnerable...and the reason being him... The sole reason for her helplessness and vulnerability being him...
She gave herself in... She turned to face him and started losing herself... She couldn't hold back any longer... No further could she take the rudeness... Her heart was forcing her to stay there, and her heartbeats where shamelessly chanting his name... His intoxicating scent was so difficult to resist... He was so difficult to resist... So much love, endearment, tenderness for her... only and only for her... She closed her eyes in anticipation, feeling the movement...trying to feel every inch of it...trying to register the same in her heart... trying to note in down in her book of special moments which included every special moment spent with him...the way he looked at her, the way he took care of her...every single thing... She was lost... She had lost herself...to him... She had given herself to him... Every single part of her body accepted him...acknowledged him...and overall she knew...all this madness...wasn't without a reason... she was mad...she was insane...only and only for him...
Arjun
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