Okay so this forum is even deader on weekends. But that certainly did not help my deluded day dreaming about PhAb, as a result here's another random blabbering from my side. Yeah I should better shut up because it feels like I'm talking to myself. Read on. 😳
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The thing that intrigues and attracts me most about PhAb is their strange relation; hence this post about it. As complicated as they are so is their relationship with each other. No matter how much they try to stay away from each other destiny keeps bringing them back together. Every time they run they come even closer and the reason being mostly pain. It links them together, whether they are far or apart but the connection lives on.
The 28th December scene is still etched in my mind. No not because it was the best romantic PhAb scene in fact there was least romance in it, the underlying emotion was the pain and suffering of these two. And with such intensity that it was all one could feel even long after it was over; one of the most moving scenes of PhAb.
For a moment in that scene these two did lose themselves in each other leaving the world and all its worries behind. For those few seconds it was just them. But the moment reality crept in all that was left was strong ache from loss and a longing to have that back which was lost long ago. Such strong yearning Phulwa's eyes held that one could feel the intensity of it and that's why even Abhay couldn't afford to look longer at her, afraid he might break down.
Hence Kuch Is Tarah…for the song describes the suffering and helplessness of lover who wishes to ease the pain of his beloved but cant. The song talks about the aching that fails to go away despite the efforts. Such as the condition of Abhay-Phulwa who whenever finding each other in pain feel the urge to wipe it away but situations leave them helpless.
They try to move beyond the heart ache but fail miserably. What they feel can't be termed as love, not yet. For Phulwa maybe but for Abhay no, he still has to discover that but it's the beginning. He feels her pain, it pulls at his heart and despite his better judgment he goes on to help her. He doesn't understand himself the unknown feelings which make him forget who she is for a while and defying all logic he goes on to ease her pain.
Such as their relation; they obliquely become the cause of each other's hurt but also the one to relieve it. This bond of pain binds them together even stronger than love would. The connection they share is what sets them apart.
Yes they hate and hurt each other but then they are the ones to reach out, for this bond doesn't let them go and will always bring them closer. Even prior to their marriage saga Phulwa had built these large walls around but love had come crashing them down. She tried, she fought but in the end her heart lost or rather won over. Again as they try to run from the inevitable, fate pulls them back even closer than before.
They are like the star crossed lovers who have the whole world working against them yet they find themselves standing next to each other. Such is their bond that no matter how much others or even they try it never breaks and never will. Because them happening is written in the stars and even they can't change it.
Chakravarti Samrat Prithviraj Chauhan
Mangal Lakshmi
