
CHAPTER 14
The hospital room was quite except for the beeping of the heart monitor. Both Sugni and Vickram were sitting quietly her head resting on his shoulder.
"Thank you!" she said softly.
"For what?" He asked.
"Everything...but for staying. I know you probably have other things to do," She said.
"Not really...my evenings are mostly spent at home staring at the walls." He said.
That reminded Sugni of the collage she saw in his room of her. She still could not believe he did that. Sugni straightened as she looked at him. Again, she wondered how she blessed with this man in her life.
"What?" He asked looking at her.
"I - I don't deserve you." She said her eyes welling up. " I really don't . I misjudged you so much and yet you still.. I am sorry." She bent her head feeling so small in front of him.
"Hey ...no! Sugni... don't..." He said raising her head to look at him. "Don't say that. Whatever happened Sugni it was my fault. If I had not been so stupid...I was the one that pushed you in that direction...
"Shhh...please no!" She said cutting him off. "Don't go blaming yourself, please Thakur Mallick. I know now, that whatever did happened it was not because you wanted to hurt me. I realize that now, in fact I realized it the day you came looking for me afterward..." She said...As rested her head on his chest...
Sugni remembered it was the next day after her Sardakhi, she was sitting upstairs in a room in Vijay Singh's haveli curled up feeling horrible and disgusted about herself and what happened the night before. She felt sick. Part of her was cursing herself for not listening to Vickram when he told her not to do this.
This was not what she wanted. Another part of her was saying so what? He is back there with his wife, he is just upset because Vijay won the bidding instead of him. All his false concern was for nothing.' But she showed him...somehow she could not find satisfaction in that.
She looked into the mirror as she passed her hands over the marks on her arms that were turning blue, images of what transpired here last night flashing though her head.
A commotion downstairs caught her attention as Sugni herd Vickram's distinctive voice calling her name.. First, she thought she was dreaming but no he was really calling her name...
Getting up she came to the corridor where she had a view of the hall downstairs. Standing behind a pillar so she was hidden, she looked on, as Vijay made his way downstairs.
"What are you doing here at this God Forsaken hour Thakur Saab!." Vijay asked.
"Where is she?" Vickram asked.
"Who?" vijay said .
"Sugni...?"
"Tut tut tut! Where are your manners Thakur saab." Vijay said.
"You come into my house unannounced, walk in here and now instead of showing me the proper respect t you are enquiring about MY BEDNI... have some class man... wait your turn... when I've had my fill you can have her back!" he said
VIJAY SINGH..."
"AH AH AH ...Thakur Saab.. Lower your voice. This is my house not yours...What is your problem? I won her fair and square ...she came with me...She is mine. Although. I will say you are a real fool to have such a willing thing and not go for it...What's the matter ...are you having problems in that department...hmmm is that it I mean you wife did leave " He said eyeing Vickram insultingly.
Vickram stepped forward about to hit him ... "You would not dear touch me in my house you won't be so foolish...unless you want to return home in a coffin. Now tell me why you are here?" he asked firmly.
Where is Sugni? I want to see her..." Vickram said.
"I am afraid that is not possible! She had a long night. She is resting." Vijay replied. "As I said wait your turn.'
"Vijay...let her go...Sugni is not one of them...this is between you and me...leave her out of it. She does not want this ." Vickram Said.
"Excuse me? Are you mad? I did not show up there unannounced...She was the one who proclaimed she wanted to do her Sardakhi, You are telling me she did not want this? Come on man...get a grip...you are making a fool of yourself for a Bedni who clearly does not want you! Now do yourself a favor get out!'
"Not without seeing her." Vickram said.
Sugni looked on as Vickram asked to see her. For the first time since the incident happened listening to him, Vickram she knew was a proud man, he was not one to bow down to anyone . A Thakur would never go to another one to ask for anything, yet here he was looking disheveled; perhaps there was more to the story, she began to think.
She turned to go downstairs but stopped as she caught sight of herself in the mirror. She was not the same as she was before. She was no longer his. It was over. He had a wife and she well she was now some one else's property. Sugni went into her room where she lay on the bed crying. She made a decision and she had to stick by it.
Soon it got quite. He was gone the door to her room opened and Vijay came in..
"Ohh I did not think this would be so much fun...Seeing Vickram Singh like that feels so good!" He laughed
"All thanks to you! " He said as he pulled her up to sit. Sugni cringed away but he tightened the grip on her arm. "You know what he said? He said that If I hurt you...he'd kill me...I'd like to see him try..." He laughed menacingly as shoved her back on the bed...
Sugni shuddered at the memory.
"cold?" He asked, wrapping his arms around her.
"No... I'm fine." She answered. Thank God, those days were behind her. There was something she needed to know though.
"Thakur Mallick..." She said.
"Hmm..."
"Why didn't you tell me about your marriage? Didn't you trust me?" She asked. She heard him sigh. She waited. Vickram made to move his arms but she stopped him.
"Stay..." She said she lifted her hand resting it on his shoulder. Silently telling him it was not an accusation any more but a curiosity. What went wrong?
"Why didn't you tell me about her?" She asked.
Because I forgot...Until my mother reminded me one day..."
"What?. How can you forget you had a wife?" she asked sitting up looking at him. Vickram looked at her, her expression was one of confused disbelief. Maybe he should start this from the beginning...
"Reva and I had an arranged marriage..." he began. " We were married for about a year before she left. But in that year we hardly saw each other...she had her friends, I was working. She loved the glamor world molding, acting, the nightlife. Someone told her she had the potential to be a top model. And it was what she wanted. " he recalled.
I told her my family was a bit conservative and would not allow that...late nights out away from home weeks at a time. We argued a lot about it, because she thought I would change my mind. Then one day she left, with a note saying she was going to pursue her dream. She was gone...years passed and no sign of her. five years had passed by the time I came back to Mawhari. I met you...I swear Sugni in all the time we were together I did not even think about her . I had been alone for so long I did forget. Then one day my mother and I got into an argument about us, and she asked me what I was doing with you...I told her I was going to marry you. She reminded me then I already had a wife..." He said. "It was a shock realizing it...but I was sure I was going to marry you. So contacted my lawyer who said I could get a divorce on grounds of desertion / abandonment. I told him to handle it. I was going to tell you but before I could, you came to me that day scared and crying ...
Sugni ran into to haveli, barefooted ...
"Thakur Mallick!!!..Thakur Mallick!!!" She cried
"Sugni?" Vickram came down the steps looking at her in alarm. She was very upset. Before he could ask what was wrong she ran to him as she hugged him crying.
"Calm down what is wrong?" he asked.
"I don't want to do it...they are going to make me do it...Thakur Mallick I don't want to please..." She said
"What?" he asked before she could answer her uncle walked into the foyer...
"Sugni...What are you doing here... come on let's go!" he said as he came up to them. Vickram raised his hand to stop him.
"Hukum!? What are you doing?" He asked As Sugni moved to stand behind him her hand was still clinging to his shirt.
"What am I doing? What are you doing Thakur Saab?" He said boldly causing Vickram to do a double take at his tone. Where was all this braveness coming from all of a sudden?. Vickram noticed then the three Thakurs that walked in behind Hukum standing by the doorway like an army.
"What is going on here?" he asked.
Sugni's Sardakhi is what is going on!" Hukum said. "Sugni come on let's go home. Enough of this foolishness!" he said as he moved to hold her.
"Stop it.! " Vickram said. "Sugni is not doing her Sardakhi!'
"Aare Wah!" Hukum Said. "Very good Thakur Saab...you know for the past few months I have been patiently waiting for you to make an offer for Sugni...but you have not. Instead,...I don't know what is going on here...but suddenly she does not want to go out and dance, she is refusing offers...and all because of what you have been putting into her head. This is Mawhari...we make our living by these girls doing their Sardakhi. I have had enough of it. Sugni I have three very good offers for you and you will take one of them now!."
"Hukum!!"
"Vickram Thakur..." One of the other Thakurs stepped forward. "Why are you being so difficult? She is of age...if you do not want her then step aside and if not join us and make an offer. You have no right to stop her...You know these bedni's are just here to entertain us nothing more...being that invested in one is not becoming of a Thakur as yourself..."
"Thakur Pratarp mind your own business Sugni is not for sale..." He said.
"I am minding my own business... and it is for Sugni's uncle to decide. Which he has..." Thakur Partap said angrily...
"You do it...please you do it..." She said softly behind him so only he heard her. Vickram turned to look at her. He could tell that she was scared, this was serious as it was obvious Hukum was about to make the choice if she did not.
"I don't want to go with them...you do it." She pleaded crying
"Sugni? What...no!" he said.
"Why? You said you loved me." She said confused.
"Yes I do..."
"Then? I don't want to go with them...you do it!"
Vickram took her hand in his as he stepped forward with her at his side. He looked at every one standing in his foyer watching them. He looked over at Sugni who was standing with her head bent looking at the floor.
"NOBODY is going to be doing Sugni's Sardakhi..."he said clearly. "I love her and she loves me... and in a month from now we will be married. You are all invited. As of this moment, she is my fiance..., SHE WILL BE treated with the respect, and dignity as any other Thakurine around here is that understood?" He looked around as everyone looked at him in shock. Sugni's head shot up as she stared at him wide eyed.
"Now I suggest you three carry on with your business and get out of my house." He told the other Thakurs who left no doubt to go spread the word that he had gone mad. Releasing Sugni's hand Vickram stepped in front of Hukum, who had suddenly lost all his confidence it seemed.
"You listen to me and listen good...Sugni may be staying under your roof for the next month, and you will no longer try to sell her off or make her do Raai. If I see her upset one time, you'll see the worst of me you understand?" He said.
Hukum nodded. "Yes Thakur S-Saab..." His bravado disappearing as quickly as it had appeared.
"Good ...now get out!" He said as Hukum made a hasty retreat.
Vickram turned to look at Sugni who was standing in the same spot he left her.
"Hey Sugni?" He said going up to her. Suddenly she dropped to her knees in front of him as she tears still running down her face.
"Hey what is wrong?" He said alarmed kneeling in front of her as she looked at him
You...you will marry me?" She asked in a dazed voice. "You just said that so they would leave. Right?" She nodded.
"No...I said it because I meant it." He said. "I will marry you Sugni." He said looking at her.
"Thakurs never marry bedni's ...," she said.
"Well you are not a bedni to me are you?" He answered as he smiled.
"You really mean it?" she asked still in disbelief. He nodded.
Sugni hugged him as she buried her face in his neck as she cried.
"I thought you'd be happy with that!'" He said.
"I am ...I just can't believe it."
"Why? I said I loved you didn't I ... what did you think I was going to do?"
"I don't know..." She said. "I love you...and I promise...I'll be a good wife...I'll cook and take care of you a-and I promise I'll do whatever you say and you won't have to complain if you don't like it I won't do it . But you won't take it back na? She said quickly pulling back to look at him.
Vickram chuckled at her whirlwind speech. "No I won't take it back. I promise you as long as I am here; you have nothing to worry about Sugni. Now you can stop crying hmm? smile...there is a lot you have to do... prepare for this wedding," he said as he wiped her face. This time her smile was genuine as the fact began to sink in she was going to get married. She nodded.
"Good that is better. Everything will be alright," he said...
"It was supposed to be alright...my lawyer was seeing about the divorce he put the notices up in the papers and by that month if she did not show up the divorce would have gone through smoothly. She saw it, her modeling career did not take of as she hoped and now she saw she was about to lose her marriage so she came back here and saw that I was about to get married." Vickram scoffed. "She could never do anything without drama, so she came in and made a show about being repentant and wanting to get back with me. When I told her that it was too late it was over the date was set my hearing was the day before the wedding it should have gone smoothly. "
"But no...she did not want to accept it so she came at the Mehendi ceremony where she made a scene about being my wife who I left behind in the city. She convinced every one that I was the one who wronged her, including you. ..." He closed his eyes as he remembered Sugni's face after she heard Reva's sob story. Her heart broken expression as she realized he was already married. Vickram sighed as he took her hand in his and looked at her.
"It was not that I did not trust you Sugni...I guess I somewhere thought I could handle it and do the right thing. You were so happy I did not want to spoil it. I thought I would get the divorce before the wedding and it would all work out. I was wrong! I should have told you from the beginning. There is not a day I have not cursed myself for that. " He said.
She shook her head. Listening to his side of the story for the first time.
"No...we both made mistakes, we both made the wrong decisions. You were right that was not me, but I was to hurt and angry to hear anything you were saying when you told me not to do my Sardakhi.. I have a lot of regrets." She said as she looked at the bed..."but she isn't one of them, Thakur Mallick ...I just have to know one thing..." She said looking back at him. She knew Vickram was not the type, but she needed that reassurance as all her decisions impacted on Shanti's life, and the maternal instinct in her to protect her child.
"What is that?"
"You know who her father is, and I know you two have a history. He lost not chance in saying how much he hated you. I mean ...I- I know you're nothing like him...but still she has nothing to do with any of tha..." She stopped when he put his finger on her lips.
"Sugni... I know what you are trying to say. There is nothing like that from my side. Believe me all she reminds me of is you. And I am not one to hold an innocent child for something she has no control over."
She sighed. "I know you're not. I just wanted to let it out. It is a new start for both of us. From now on the past is in the past Hmm?"
"Yes a new start.." He said.
"I love you."
"I love you." They embraced each other, making a pact to start over afresh.
They sat in silence for a while, holding each other both feeling much lighter now after that conversation.
The arrival of the nurse coming in to check on Shanti and informing them that it was against hospital policy to have two overnight visitors.
"I better get going then..." he said after the nurse left. "Get some rest alright"
"Ok ...you too." She said
"I'll see you tomorrow." He said as he left.
Sugni looked at him as he disappeared into the elevators, then making her way back to the couch where she lay down. She closed her eyes where she managed to fall asleep with a smile on her face for the first time in a long time.