
Chapter 27
Sugni always considered herself a calm cool person, she handled everything as best as she could and tried to make the best of what she had. She was not the type to let anything bother her unnecessarily and she tried most times to see the best in even the worse situations. She was proud of that fact about herself.
So it came as a shock to her when she realized that right now she was not feeling calm , cool or collected, so much so that going out into the small living area and pasting a smile on her face was becoming a task.
Amrita arrived at the Haveli three days after Vickram called her. She was like a burst of energy in the place. Sugni was shocked to see Vickram's friend , was so young, beautiful, graceful and confidant. She came in with all the western attire Sugni saw the girls in the city wore.
She fit in perfectly as Maa Thakur welcomed her with opened arms who greeted her like a long lost daughter. Obviously she had a close tie to this family. That was not the problem though, the problem was with her arrival Sugni saw less of Vickram who spent all his spare time it seemed showing Amrita around the Village. Sugni know the reason was he did not want to take the chance of discussing what he knew in the house least they be over herd...but still. Being friendly was one thing...but why did she have to smile at him so much, or touch him like that! Did'nt she ever hear about keeping a respectful distance. And why did't he say anything about it?. In fact he acted like it did not bother him. Why would it?...she was young , beautiful, confidant, educated in short she was everything Sugni was not. She was perfect.
Sugni realized she was suffering from a very bad case of irrational jealousy , but try as she might she could not help it. Taking a breath to quell the feeling Sugni went back out into the living room with a tea tray with three cups, and tried to ignore that Vickram and Amrita ,or as he liked to call her "Amu", what kind of a name was that any way? Was sitting a little too close to each other on her couch. . Sugni wondered if she could somehow politely ask her to move.
"Thank you!" Amrita said with a smile as she accepted the cup. Sugni smiled slightly as she handed a cup to Vickram , took her own and sat opposite them, feeling somehow like the third wheel in this group.
"Well...what do you think?" Vickram asked. So far Amrita was the only person who knew everything about him and Sugni. They came over to the guest house to discuss what she learned the past couple of days she's been here and how they should proceed.
"Definitely not Reva that's for sure. Remember that trip we took a couple of years ago, to Valencia and the water fall..the day we spent out by the River?" he nodded.
"Well Reva loved it, and every time I spoke to her she always said we had to do it again, and she could not wait to go back one day, and amazingly she remembered details about that place even I forgot and she would go on and on about it. But today I brought it up, she had no idea what I was talking about." Amrita said. "I think we need to go back and find out exactly what happened in that accident and before. As soon as I go back to the City next week...I'll have a friend of mine help me with that. Don't worry. I'll let you know what's going on. Also what about Neeranjan?...was he involved in anything?" She asked.
"Not that I know off. I mean he lived off of his fathers money, his weakness is going after women...he had a tendency to be extravagant at times. As far as I know he was never into any kind of major trouble. There was that time with Sugni..." He said looking at her.
"yes but after you warned him he acted I like did not exist. Which I am happy about!" Sugni said.
"Hmmm...well I'll look into him to see if he was involved in anything. This could take a while though...in the mean time I would say play dumb...proceed with the divorce...as usual." She advised.
Vickram let out a heavey sigh. He was not one much for pretenses.
Amrita reached over and patted his arm. Sugni clenched her fist. "I know it's going to be tough...but you want to get to the bottom of this you need to keep up with the charade. In the meantime I'll see if I can gather some solid evidence. You just keep pressure on her...in fact..." Amrita said with a wicked glint in her eye. "Maybe you should give her a real taste of what the life of a thakur's life is like around these parts!"
"I don't understand ." he said . Amrita looked at him , then at Sugni then back at him as she raised her eyebrows in some silent communication .
"oh.." Vickram said as he sook his head. "Hell no...no Amrita...you know this is..."
"Relax Vickram..I am not saying you are going to actually do anything...just create an illusion. Call it payback if you will." She said.
"No way..." He said
"What are you two talking about?" Sugni interjected feeling again like the third wheel with these two.
"Simple.!" Amrita said turning to Sugni. "Tell me Sugni, what is the worst nightmare of any thakurine around here?" She asked.
" That their husbands picks up with a bedni! The embrassment she faces...not to mention having to accept it quietly." Sugni said
"Exactly!...now no woman in her right mind would accept that. Now since she is hell bent on staying a Thakurs wife...don't you think she should get a taste of what that could be like."
"She already said she dose not care." Vickram said.
"Ohh Pish posh...yeah right. That is because she never had to deal with it. No woman , no matter how quite she is would accept that, believe me...So if Suddenly Vickram here decides to get himself a bedni., and she has to accept it...well that should be interesting..." It was beginning to dawn on Sugni exactly what Amrita was saying. She could not hide the disbelief on her face. How could she suggest something like that. ?
"Oh come on you two ...you don't see what I am seeing !. Vickram she spent the last year making your life hell, she is trying to kill you. All I am saying is don't make this so easy for her. I don't mean you two go out and do anything immoral...just give her a taste of her own mediciene. No pun indended. Also it won't make things as smooth as she wants it to be...she can't very well have you dancing to her tunes...if you'r other wise occupied can she." Amrita said. Seeing that what she was saying was not registering, she raised her hands.
"Ok Ok...I get it...bad idea. Forget I ever said it !" She said.
"Of course I will. There is no way I am opening Sugni up for any more ridicule around here. Sooner or later she will have to face some because of who she is when we come out in the open and I am not going to make it worse with some stupid game."
"I did'nt mean any thing..." Amrita said looking at them
"I know...I know." He said "Just forget it..."
"mmm" Amrita said."Sugni I am sorry if I offended you with that...I did'nt mean to insult you. I was just rambling." She said.
"It's ok Memsaab...I am not. I understand what you were trying to say." Sugni said.
"Really?...you know sometimes I just talk without thinking. And I hate seeing people take advantage of people. " She said.
"AAnyways shall we go?" She said turning to Vickram.
"Ohh yeah...let's go" Vickram said getting up. Sugni looked at them. He was leaving already ?
"Sugni you'll come with us?" Amrita said . Tinkering with her camera.
"Where?"
"Oh we are going down to the old Mandir sight...I heard the lights at night are breathtaking. I want to get a few pictures. Come on.! Oh darn...Vickram this is not working again." She said handing him the camera she had. "The night mode is not coming up, see."
Vickram took the camera and started looking at it. Again Sugni was struck with an intense feeling of jealousy watching them together. The irony of the situation being a bedni jealous of a high class woman, instead of the other way around.
"Uh...n-no...I'll stay here clean up and I have to get up early. You two have fun." She said. Amrita looked at her.
"You sure...it'll be fun."
Yeah right fun...
"No..'
"OK..." Amrita said.
"Here you go..you have to press the night mode button twice quickly...otherwise it goes back to normal mode..." he said
"thank you... what would I do without you!" she winked. He laughed.
"See ya Sugni!...bye" Amrita said walking out.
"Bye." Vickram said turning to follow her.
She waved at them as they walked out the door. Sugni sighed dejectedly. He could have asked her to come along. L
Turning she cleared away the teacups and made her way to the kitchen. All the while mumbling under her breath.
ohh what would I do without you.? What were you doing without him so long. Come along with us...to look at you flirt with him while I smile..." she grumbled softly. Letting out all her pent up emotions now that she was alone.
"my my my...somebody is mad!" he whisprered softly in her ear , scaring the daylights out of her as she did not hear him. She screamed
Sugni turned around to find a smiling Vickram staring back at her.
"Thakur mallic!.W-What are you doing here? Where is Amrita?" She asked glancing at the door way to the kitchen . She would die of embrassment if Amrita herd what she was saying!.
"She left...she said she would make it on her own...besides she was right as usual. You were jealous!' he grinned.
"What! No-no." She said. He simply stared at her . Embarrassed and self-conscious Sugni tried to side step him but he moved with her effectively blocking her path.
"move!" She said. He shook his head.
"Let me pass." She said trying to sound authoritative but failing, because he was laughing.
"Nope ..not until you admit it!" he replied
"Admit what?"
"that you were jealouse!"
"No...now move otherwise..."
"Otherwise?" he asked with a raised eyebrow.
."Otherwise...i'll wet you!" Sugni threatened noticing the sink behind her.
"Hmm go ahead I need a bath anyway!"
Thakur mallick!" She said exasperated
"Hmmm?" He said coming closer until there was hardly any space between them. Sugni swallowed nervously as she looked at him. He winked, taking her hand he led her out into the hall way. Moving towards the couch he took a seat pulling her down beside him.
Sugni sat looking at her lap. There was no way she was looking at his smirking face.
"Sugni?"... He said he tried lifting her face to look at him but she moved her head away.
" Are baap re...so much temper...you are mad at me?" he said
She shook her head. "No..why would I be?"
"Ohh it is written all over your face...tell me hmm what's wrong?'
"Nothing!" She said. Vickram did not believe her. After they left Sugni , Amrita decided that she could make it to the mandir by herself and she told him he should say back. He was confused as to why she said that.
"Oh Vickram since I've been here you've been spending all your time with me. I am a big girl I can handle myself. I think someone is missing you." She said indicating the guest house.
"Sugni? No she's not , she understands." He said. He never saw Sugni as the jealous type.
"I am sure she dose...but if that look I saw in her eye today is any indication...I think she is feeling a little left out and possibly a little jealous...after all if some stranger came out of nowhere and was all over my man...I would be out for blood." She laughed.
"Go on I'll be fine...see ya!" She said making her way to his van , leaving Vickram staring at her. Coming back to the guest house he walked in , only to find Sugni mumbling to herself in the kitchen, proving that once again Amrita and her instincts were right as always
"Sugni?" he said presently. "I'm sorry." He said. She looked up at that.
"What why are you sorry?" She asked
"For leaving you out. I didn't mean to." He said. "I guess I spent a lot of time catching up with her, then when I look over here the lights off so I decided to leave you if you're resting." He explained.
"It's ok." She said to him. "I understand."
"Really...that's why you so upset. Or is it something else?"
She shook her head. Vickram sighed.
"You know something Sugni...two of the most important things in a relationship is trust and honesty. Without either of them it can never work. And part of honesty is being open about your feelings. If I am doing something that bothers you I'd like to know about it, the same as if you're doing something that bothers me I'd like to tell you about it.So we can solve it. Together. Because if you don't you just let that feeling fester and grow in here." He said touching her head. "Until it blows out and causes a big mess. Ok? I love you...and it's important for this work that we never lose that."
Sugni looked at him, at his face. His openness and honesty was clearly written in it. And she wondered...
"Why?" She asked looking at him
"hmm why what?" he asked.
"Why do you love me?" She asked
"What?" he asked confused.
"I mean ...look at me...I am not as smart as Amrita...or as educated or graceful...I can't carry on a conversation like you two. If you look at it she suites you perfectly...she fits in I don't." Sugni said, she closed her eyes, she just laid her deepest fears on the table. The fact was seeing Amrita did bring out the drastic difference between Sugni and Vickram.
"Sugni, look at me." He said She opened her eyes to look at him, Vickram hugged her close.
"Love is a strange thing you know, you never know who you'll fall in love with. If we all got married to people because we were best suited for each other...well we would not have any love stories would we?" He said. "If I were to ask you why do you love me what would you say? Cause I am a Thakur?" He asked.
"Nooo! " She said Pulling back to look at him. "Because you're kind to everyone, the way you speak, the way you treat others. You have a good heart." She said. He smiled.
"Well I love you Sugni because you don't see me as a Thakur, but as a man with feelings. Your're understanding,. And who says your're nt smart ...you are one of the smartest persons I know, you're brave, strong and you have the courage to stand up against the people around here. And because you are beautiful." He said kissing her cheek. "And Amazing." He kissed the other cheek. "And Adorable" he kissed her forehead. "And absolutely breathtaking!" He whispered kissing her lips softly, slowly, passionately. Automatically her arms went around his neck deeping the kiss, that lasted minutes, maybe hours. The need for air putting a stop to it. Pulling back he rested he forehead against hers. Both their eyes closed absorbing the moment. Lost in the moment.
Reaching behind him he took one of her hands in his bring it to his chest , resting it over his racing heart. "Feel that?" he whispered.
"Uhhuh" she said nodding.
"no one else dose that to me...that's just you. Only you." He said. Kissing her again. Pulling back he looked at her. Her face was red her eyes were still closed and she was breathing rapidly. Gently caressing her cheek with his fingers he said. "I love you, Sugni."
Sugni opened her eyes and looked at him for a few moments before hugging him, burying her face in his neck. They stayed like that for a few minutes quite each lost in their own thoughts and emotions. "I am sorry!" She said softly after a while.
"There is nothing to be sorry about, it's natural. In fact I am happy!"
"Happy?" She asked.
"Yes! Now I know you love me...see we only feel possessive and jealous over the ones we care about! Besides you looked so cute. Really.' he chuckled.
"Haha very funny!" She said chagrined.
"Oh no...!" She said, looking at him with a look of shock on her face.
"What?"
"Amrita...she must think I am horrible!" Sugni said, remembering Vickram saying she was the one who figured out she was jealous.
"no.." he said. Stretching out on the sofa and pulling her down to him, so that she was laying at his side with her head on his chest. "I am pretty sure she thinks you are cute too!" he said.
"Still...maybe I should apologies to her." She said worriedly.
"Relax Sugni...she understands...besides you were nothing but nice to her so why would you apologies? But there is nothing for you to be worried about with her." He said.
"I am not..."She said, she wasn't really deep down she knew he loved her...no her insecurity came from her own feelings of inferiority, which he just managed to put to rest.
"Really?" He said. She nodded.
"Darn!" He said sounding disappointed. She laughed.
"Thakur mallick?" She said
"hmmm?"
" how come you don't get jealous?" She asked.
"Umm...who says I don't...but to get jealous you need something to be jealous of...have you seen the other Thakurs around here?" He joked
"Ahh that is true. Confidant are'nt you?" she said looking at him. He shrugged.
"Well there was one time..." He said. "When you were in Mumbai and I was wondering maybe you would meet some one one day...maybe fall in love. That was not a nice thought!"
"You did?" She asked. He nodded. Feeling a bit mischievous. She said. "Well you were right."
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"I did meet someone...and fell in love... Haai Sita miya...he was so handsome na..." She sighed dreamily. Vickram opened his eyes and looked at her she had a far away look on her face , that was disconcerting.
"You met someone?" He asked. She nodded
"Who?" he asked.
"Ohh forget it na...but I do miss him...although not so much these days." She said.
"Who Sugni?" He asked.
"Him..." She said
"Him ..who is him?" He asked he couldn't hide the irritation on his face.
Sugni looked at him , trying not to laugh.
"my my my Thakur Saab...what happened you got mad?"
"Sugni?"
"Oh My God...the look on your face is priceless." She laughed. "What happened? Jealous?" She asked looking at him.
"You little minx!?" Vickram said realizing she was playing. She laughed. "Heeey!!!" She exclaimed when he pulled her closer to him. He began kissing her playfully. Which after a few moments turned more serious.
The moment was broken by the arrival of the van which signaled Amrita's return to the house.
"I should go!" He whispered...still kissing her
"Yeah" She said still holding him.
"I promised."
"Yes...you did..." She kissed him.
Pulling back from her Vickram got up. Taking a deep breath he said.
"I am going...I am going" Slowly walking to the door.
Sugni giggled as he made his way to the front door.
"Thakur Mallick!" She said befor he could step outside. He turned to look at her.
"I love you." She said ...she was sure her face was now a permanent shade of red. Vickram Smiled as he made his way to the main house...
Edited by Vinnie79 - 12 years ago