PSH season 2: Episode 18 - NO COMMENTS PLEASE - Page 2

Amrita had been lost in thought and had not seen Sugni arrive.

This is not your home where I have to be polite. So you may not like what I have to say if you continue with this conversation.

Amrita looks at her in disbelief and slowly the anger creeps in and says sarcastically

SUGNI : Bikul thik kaha aapne...hmne bahut bura kiya...hm galat the...
magar SITA MAIYA KI SAUGAND(SWEAR)hmne kabhu bhi aapko takleef pahuchane ka socha bhi nhi.
ham maante hai ki jo kachu bhi hmne kiya wo sirf iss liye taki hm thakur saab ko chot pahucha sake... unn saari takleefo k liye jo unhone hme di.
pata hai? jey hmara sapna tha ki hmara byhaah ho...aur hm bhi ek izzatdaar jindgi jiye...jaisa har aurat jeeti hai...
Jab thakur saab hamari jindgi ma aaye to hme laga ki yhi wo shaks hai jo hmara sapna pura karenge...hm bhut khuss the, magar jindgi ne hmare sath phir se ek ganda khel khela aur sab kachu barbaad kar diya...
jab hmne Rewa thakurain ko jinda dekha hmare pairo k niche se to zameen hi khisak gyi...
aur hamra tute hue dil se sirf ek hi aawaz aayi ki " sugni... dekh jey bhi baki thakuro jaise hi nikle... jey bhi sirf apni khusi aur jarurat ko pura karne k liye tujhe pana chahte hai... jey alag nhi hai sugni"
ab aap hi bataiye hm kaise ek ase insaan se shaadi krte jo phle se shaadi shuda hai...aur hmara aisa karne se ham bhi to whi bann jaate jo hm kabhu bhi nhi banna chahte the EK BEDNI.
phir hmne faisla kiya ki thik hai agar hmari kismat me yhi likha hai...to yhi sahi... agar thakur saab tujhe apni bendi banana chahte hai...to hm banenge bedni magar kisi aur ki...shayd hme kisi aur ki bedni ban dekh kar wo apni hme chod kar apni shaadi nibhaye.
Hmara yakeen kijiye hmne kabhu nhi chaha ki chote thakur inn sab chizo me pade, balki hm to khud hairan rah gye jab CT ne hmari SARDHAKI ki... hme to pta bhi nhi tha kab...kaisa jey sab ...magar issey phle ki hm isey rok pata sab kachu achanak ho gya.
uske baad jab hm haweli wapas aaye to sabne hme jey ehsaas dilaya ki hmari wajah se...Thakur saab ki shaadi shuda jindgi barbaad hui hai... hm hi sab ki wajh hai...sabne hme taane diye ... baatien sunayi...beizzat kiya... magar inn sab me me sirf ek shaksh tha jisne ek ache dost ki tarh hme himmat di...Chote thakur.
AUR tab hmse hmari jidgi ki sabse badi bhul hui wo tha CT se hmara byaah...jo hmne bhi kabhu na soacha tha.
wo insaan jisne hmesa hme maan diya, pyaar diya, sahara diya...aur yhi nhi dusroo se nbhi hme maan dilaya...hm buri tarah tut gye jab uss insaan ne hmare CHARITRA par ungli uthai... hmare maan samman par sawal khade kiye...
hmre kiye jey bardaast krna... aur isey kabul krna na mumkin tha...isliye sirf thkur saab ko gakat saabit karne k liye hmne itti badi bhul kar daali... magar bishwas kijiye hmne apni galati ka ehsaas ho gya magar shayd tab tak bhut dre ho chuki thi... gusse me thkur saab ne hme tabah krne ki...hmne badla lene ki than li...magar jab bhi unhone hme takleef pauvhane k liye kachu kiya wo hmari jgah Chote thkur ne apne upar le liya ...hmari jagh saari takleef unhone saha...
hm to hmesa unhe iss toofan se bachane kim kosis karte rhe the... wo pyaar na tha balki unki chita thi.aur aakhir me iss khel ka aanth hmari maut k sath hua.
lekin jab aaj hm piche maud k dekhte hai na... to hme apne upar sharm aati hai...hme itti jidgiyaan barbaad karne ki liye khud ko doshi paate hai...
hm bhut baar apne aap se pucha" sugni tu kahe yaahn hai...chali jaa, chali jaa inn sab takleefo se dur" magar hme kopi jawab nhi mila
par ab hme pat hai... kahe se ki hm THkur saab ko dil ki gahariyoon se pyaar kartre the aur unhe dekhe bina unse dur...na rah paate... isliye hm sab kachiu chod k naa ja sake.
aap hmara yakeen nhi karengi magar hm bhut dukh hai ki hmne ek bhut achi dost ko kho diya...usse takleef pahuchayi aur jey bojh hmare sath hmari maut tak rhega...
Amrita hm aapse bas jey khan chahte hai... koi jo galati hmne ki wo aap mat dohraiye...
chot thkr aapse ab bhi bhut pyaar krtre hai...unhe mat khoiyega...jey hmari binati hai aapse.
she sadly walked out of the temple

you are absutly right...i was curel , i was wrong...but i never intended to hurt you...

i admit whatever i did was a just a payback to that pain he had given to me.

you know it was my dream to be married and live a respectful life just like other women do... and when he came to my life i felt yes, he is the one who would fulfill my dream...i was so happy...but life again played a dirty game and destroyed everything ...

i was shocked to see Rewa alive...my broken heart said to me " sugni he is not a different guy...he cheated on you he lied just like other thakur he want you to fulfill his desire"

so, tell me how could i marry a man who is already married...by doing this would be the same what i nevr wanted to be. A 'BEDNI'

and i then i had decided...that if he wants me to do that...i will do it but for someone else...and may be then he would go back to his marrige.

belive me.. i never wanted to involve Chotr Thakur in it...

Even i was shocked when he performed my SARDHAKAI... i did not know how why but before i would stop this it happened...

after all this... when i came back to hawli ... everyone made me realise that i am only resposible for spoiling his married life.

everyone cursed me...insulted me...when nobody is there for me Chote thakur was the one who had given me strenth...like a true friend.

and then i made my life's biggest mistake ...that was marring CT.it was also unexpected...

TVS was the one who always gave me respect,love and support and also made others to do the same...

i was badly hurt and devastated when he pointed his figers on my CHARACTER. he raised questions on my behaviour...it was unexpected and unacceptable for me ...i could not tolrate it...and just to prove him wrong i made that biggest mistake which i should not have done...belive i also realisd it but i guess it was too late.

The things becomed more worst when in anger Thakr saab started to take revenge on me... but everytime he took a step to hurt me... it hurted CT instead.

i was just trying protect him...from this storm...and this game ended on my death. *sighs*

but now when i look back... and feels shame on myself... i feel guilty to being the reason of destroying so many lives...

that time i asked my so many times " sugni why are you here... just go away go " but i did not get any reply...

now i know why... beacuse i would not live without seeing my Thakur saab. i loved him from the bottom of my heart. this was the reason i could not go away.

I know you will not believe me but I am truly sorry. In my anger and pain I hurt most the one person who had only ever been kind and a true friend and who had done nothing wrong. My punishment is losing a great friend. I will die regretting both of those things.

Amrita i only want to one thing to you... please don't reapeat that mistake what i did.

Chote thakur loves you so much...don't ever loose him.

she sadly walked out of the temple.