Meher couldn't believe how can this man leave her room like that. Like a coward, without any words or explanation. But god what was the explanation she wanted to hear. She knew she seduced abeer minutes back and she has no right to blame him. But if he didn't feel anything for her, he would have pushed her away or he just gave into the temptation. It was becoming difficult as time passed. Neither was she able to accept the reality nor was she able to let go of him or the past.
"I should have accepted you years back abeer... I should have... But this freaking ego of mine, it stopped me. And how can I forget that night. I shouldn't have said those disgusting words... My words have drifted us apart this time. I hurted you so bad that you distanced yourself from me. Its me who pushed you away. Unintentionally but it was me. Saying sorry is never enough. If it was, I would have forgiven you years back and so would you have two years back. Sorry isn't enough... It isn't..."
Meher took a deep breath and decided to go to abeer's room. She shouldn't waste anymore time. They have wasted way too much time already. They have wasted the glorious years of their life. Meher knocked on the door and abeer opened the door.
Abeer looked at meher standing at the door and knew why she came there.
"What is she doing here...??" Meher asked on finding niyati asleep on the bed. On abeer's bed.
"She is sleeping meher..."
"I can see that abeer but in your bed..." Meher reasoned.
Abeer came out of the room closing the door behind him and meher stood a step away from him.
"What is your problem meher...??? Exactly what...??" Abeer asked.
"You very well know what my problem is..." Meher answered.
"You said you knew we are over but why are you doing all this..."
"Because I'm still in love with you..."
"You can't love a man who once wanted to buy you..."
Meher was taken aback by his words. He still hasn't forgotten it.
"I apologised for it abeer... Don't bring it up again... Please don't..." meher whispered.
"I couldn't forgive you for it meher... I might talk to you, spend time with you but I haven't forgotten about those accusations... I haven't moved past it yet..." Abeer replied.
"But you moved past me... That fast... You confessed you love me... And I didn't accept your love -"
"Correction you insulted my love and rejected it..."
"Exactly what you are doing to me... Payback time... Is it...??" Meher asked.
"No... I can't do it... Its just that I gave my love to someone else and now you suddenly want it back... I can't snatch it from her..."
"Abeer you pushed me away but I waited for you... Long two years..." said meher.
"I waited for you for 8 years and then for few months. I gave up after that meher. I have given up on us... And i never asked you to wait... Did I...??" Abeer asked running his hands into his hair.
"No you didn't... But I have always loved you... We are meant to be Abeer... Try and understand..."
"We aren't meant to be... Why don't you understand that meher...?? You are making things difficult for me... You are making me cheat on her..."
"Her... Again her...?? Don't bring her in between us abeer... Don't..." Meher raised her voice.
"Don't raise your voice... And she is already between us... And if we notice carefully, you are the one coming in between. Between me and niyati..." Abeer told meher.
"What has she done to you...?? Kar diya usne aisa abeer... Aisa kya Jo main nahi kar payi aaj tak... Tell me..." Meher asked clutching abeer's hand.
"She has done everything she could... I couldn't get you out of my mind and the only resort I ever had was drinking. I couldn't forget how I last saw you... Drunk and broken. And the guilt of our spoiled marriage ate me up all day. She was the one who made me quit it. She became my friend, my companion and my shoulder to cry on. Niyati was never loved enough in life, she craved for love but when she saw I wanted that love more; she gave all her love and care to me. She loved me unconditionally. Yes as a friend initially but I was the one who somehow wanted more than friendship. We both wanted happiness and somehow ended up in finding it in each other. I was the one who did everything to keep her interest entact in me. I wanted her... Not a part but all of her... And I got it. I'm happy meher... She reminds me of what I was once and I love that carefree adventurous happy life. I am contended but you are messing things up... No way in hell I'm going to break her heart. Better you accept it before its too late..."
"But I'm your first love..."
"And you will always be but sometimes... Sometimes love is not enough. You can hate me if you want meher... But please don't try and pull me back... Its killing me... It feels like being divided into two parts..."
The door opened and abeer turned around.
"Niyati..."
"I just need fresh air..." Niyati excused and tried walk past them.
"Niyati... Stop... I can explain..." Abeer said and held niyati's hand.
Niyati turned around and looked at meher.
"There is an extra room booked I guess. Can I have the keys please..."
"Its down on the reception..." Meher replied.
"Niyati... Listen me out first..." Abeer made her look at him.
"I heard what you had to say... You don't have to pity me for the life I have had you know..." Niyati replied.
"I don't pity you... I don't... Trust me... Go back into the room... We need to talk... Right now..."
Meher burned with jealousy and stormed towards her room.
Abeer looked at meher and closed the door after entering the room. He found niyati sitting on the corner of the bed.
"You can go back to her abeer... She loves you..." Niyati whispered.
Abeer was shocked beyond belief. He had been fighting for his love for her and here she is telling him to go back to meher.
"So you don't love me... You are asking me to choose her when I'm clearly choosing you over meher..."
Abeer held niyati by her shoulders and made her stand up.
"Yes... If u still have feelings for her... Then better you go for her... We don't have to complicate our lives..."
"You will now listen to a part of a conversation and push me away... Yeh hai tumhara pyaar... I'm ready to fight the whole world just for you and you... You are pushing me away because... Because of what... A conversation you overheard... Isn't it great...??" Abeer spat in anger.
Tears rolled down niyati's eyes and she opened her mouth to reply but words never came out.
"I'm in love with you... You want me to prove it...?? Do you Niyati..?? How...?? You want to get engaged... Or married... What do you want niyati...?? What...??" Abeer asked unknowingly digging his nails into her skin.
She hissed in pain and abeer realised what he has been doing. He immediately loosened his hold on her.
"I don't want to be just a rebound... That's all..." Niyati whispered rubbing her cheek with the back of her hand.
"You are not a rebound baby... You aren't... But the saddest thing is that its me who is hurting you... And the worst thing of all is I can't let you go... Tum jana chaho tab bhi nahi... Mujhe aadat ho gayi tumhari... Main jee nahi pata tumse dur..." Abeer stepped close to niyati and looked into her eyes.
To his surprise, niyati stepped away from him. Still not emotionally stable.
"You are not comparing me with him... Are you...??" Abeer asked fearing the reply.
"I don't know..."
"You don't know... How convenient..." Abeer taunted.
"I shouldn't have come here..."
"We shouldn't have come here... It was a mistake..."
Niyati looked at abeer and sighed because she had no idea what to say. Not good with words. Another similarity they share.
"Niyati let's go back yaar.." Abeer suggested.
"But you belong here abeer.. Uncle and aunty are here... They are your family..."
"I know but I love you... Meher ke hote hue hum ek nahi ho payenge..."
"Do you still love her...??" Niyati asked in a don't_kill_me tone with a sad confused face.
"Arggh... Which part of 'I love you' you don't understand...??" Abeer asked.
"Sorry... And you are not like him..."
"I'm glad u know that... Now come and hug me..."
Abeer opened his arms for a hug. Niyati hugged him and smiled.
"Abeer she is not supposed to like me... But what is my fault...??"
"Can we not talk right now...?? I'm exhausted baby..." Abeer replied leaning his head against her shoulder.
"But I'm fully recharged now..." Niyati pulled away and grinned.
"Never mind... Watch me sleep now... While I will dream of you..." Abeer replied and broke the hug.
"Like a romantic novel type romance... Ohh I see..." Niyati watched as abeer got into the bed.
"Come and sit now... Or if you wanna rest more... Sleep..." Abeer told niyati and she got into the bed.
"I'm gonna read a novel... Mills n boon... You sleep..."
"Hmm..."
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