ARVI SS: PURVI'S DIARY... part 6 pg 10 updated - Page 3

Originally posted by: WanderingBeauty

Awesome concept. We are finally going to get a complete peep into Purvi's mind. I like how she still loves Arjun and has kept the baby because it symbolizes their love. Good to know that she still loves Arjun and realizes that she has destroyed too many lives in the process of setting one life straight. There is one aspect in your story which I really liked, Purvi finally realizing that Archana won't be there for her always. I would also be interested to know the identity of the one who is reading the diary, as he called Purvi as his 'wife'. Do update soon and thanks for the PM.

PS- I hope you don't mind me saying this but can you please add the dates on the diary while you update. I personally don't feel like I am reading a diary with the dates missing in it, it becomes more like a first person narrative while the date makes it easier to get an idea of the time while making it appear more realistic...😳

Originally posted by: pkdoshi

Hey rits...i hope u dont mind me calling you rits😉...Loving your SS just as i am loving reading your FF...Keep up the good work...👏...Do continue sooon...and thanks for the pm...

Hi friends so here comes the next..

PART-TWO:

MAY-8-2012

Its already a week Im away from my family…Im now in Kolkata a place where no one knows about me.. But I have some memories associated with it.. when I saw the tram after I came here i remembered how arjun ran behind it for my sake and the way we enjoyed that trip.. Today when im travelling by these trams I just do remember those days and I can still feel as if he is beside me starring at me the same way he did that day..

After a struggle for nearly 1 week I could get a place to live and have a job now.. till then I was in an orphanage which is a branch of a big NGO.. They gave shelter for some days and in the mean time I helped them in their work so they offered me to work with them.. I opted it now as working with them and staying with the kids is giving me peace and a change which is most needed for me now…

Its really nice working with them.. Seeing the children in that orphanage I feel myself very lucky as I got a mother and a small family though I have no blood relation with them but I do share a great bond with them… but now I feel what an orphan life is.. How their feelings are.. But GOD really has great mercy on me that is why he gave me a new relation before I was away from my old relations.. He gave me a baby before I lose my family..I spend my whole day playing and teaching the kids but when I return to my room which is a little way from the ngo I start feeling lone.. When I reach home I will try to make myself busy to avoid such thoughts but no I cant do it… And I don't know how to overcome it...

MAY-20-2012

They say pregnant ladies crave for a number of things in their initial months… Now Im in my second month of my pregnancy and started to crave for some things.. Suddenly I started liking to eat more and more spicy things.. Especially made of chilli flakes.. I think my baby also like chilli just as its dad like it.. I remember when he said that he likes chilli flakes a lot and very few people knew it in vinay's house when I served him poha with those flakes.. I think my baby also likes it..

MAY-28-2012

After a week I m now in my third month and I started craving for sweets and that to more of Lauki ka halwa.. even now my baby is just like her dad… he loves lauki ka halwa and that to the one which I made… I started eating more of it but I remember arjun saying u will become fat if u eat more sweets but now there is no one who will tell me that and no one with whom I can tell all these.. If I was with arjun then he would have felt so happy that his baby is gonna be just like him… But today I cant say or even think about that.. He doesn't know where im and even doesn't know that his baby is in my womb and is just like him… Im happy that my baby is just like him because I miss him a lot and now I will be able to see him in my baby in its actions and tastes…

JUNE- 5 -2012

Everything was quiet and going well.. there was nothing exciting in my life.. I just made my life mechanical with the ngo and then with my house work.. There was no change in my life till I got a big shock.. I did not expect such a thing in my life and that too from him.. I got a great jolt when he that is ONIR said that he wanted to marry me and give my baby his name… I never thought that I need to face this situation in my life as I was prepared to stay alone and raise my kid.. But the words he said were not avoidable or cannot be ignored.. All the questions he asked me should be faced by me when I go ahead in my life.. But will I be able to answer such questions???

Yes what will I tell my family about this child when they meet me?? Will I be always away from my family?? What happens when arjun comes to know the truth?? What will I answer when my baby asks me about her father?? Will this society allow us live in peace when they will know the truth??

I don't have answers for all these questions..

After thinking a lot I decided to accept his proposal but I m not doing this because I wanna escape problems or im not capable of facing them.. Im just doing it for my baby's sake.. I promised my baby that I will give her all the happiness and love but I know I can never give her ..her dad.. But now I atleast got a chance to give a person whom she can call as dad.. I led a life without my baba and I know the pain when u know u don't have your dad in your life & I don't want my baby to face that… I cant give her her own father but I can give her a name so that no one will point out her and she will never face any humiliation as an illegal child… I don't want my baby to be named like that.. So I decided to marry onir…

Onir he is a nice person and just happily accepted me and my baby without asking me about my past.. He said that he wouldnot ask me about the father of the baby and is ready to give him his name… He felt very happy when I accepted his proposal but I was not happy.. I think he noticed it… So tomorrow we were going to get married in the registrar office..

I don't why Im not able to sleep today.. I was just recollecting all my memories with arjun.. I was very uncomfortable.. An unknown pain was in my heart.. I was not able to think anything clearly.. On one side I was happy that my baby will not be facing any humiliation but on the other side I feel I was doing injustice to my baby and Arjun… I felt like I was cheating him again.. but I tried to convince my self that what ever I was doing was for my baby's sake… With those thoughts I tried to sleep but in vain…

JUNE-6-2012

I got ready with many confusions and questions in my brain and went to registrar office where onir was waiting with his friend.. I went and sat there.. there were three more pairs who were getting married that day.. after them it was our turn.. When I saw the first pair getting married some sort of fear started developing in me.. The same pain which I felt last night started again.. I felt a ache in my heart.. The feeling of doing injustice to my baby was increasing in me.. I felt I was cheating arjun and his love.. I felt that I was spoiling an others man's life for my sake… My heart warned me to rethink about this issue but my mind was saying everything is rightly going… there was a great struggle between my mind and my heart… both had their enough arguments and were still going on but there was no conclusion.. My tension increased further when other pair also got married.. It was our turn now and onir came to me and took me to the table of registrar..

I was just walking but with many questions around me and in my mind and my heart.. I reached the table and saw the names.. Purvi and onir… I could not bear my name like that.. I have always seen my name as Purvi manav Deshmukh till I loved arjun.. And as Purvi Arjun Kirloskar when I started loving Arjun and just fed that name in my mind and my heart.. now seeing my name with someone else and turning into his wife was just unbearable for me… I can be like purvi deshmukh for my life long if I cant be purvi arjun kirloskar but I cant join some one else's name with mine… I then remembered the four pheras which I took with arjun while explaining him about them.. remembering these I was not able to see anything clearly infront of me as my eyes were filled with tears.. I just closed my eyes and stood calm for a while.. by this time onir signed in the registrar and he called me to sign in it.. I couldnot hear his words and I was standing still.. my mind and heart were again arguing and I was so tensed & was sweating profusely.. onir then shook me and I came into sense and he gave me pen to sign.. I took the pen in my hand… AND….

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