I think her feelings are genuine, she is not just saying to stop Mami from looking for a rishta. But realization shown was all of a sudden without proper monologues prior to this, so we are skeptical about it. If only we knew about it through various episodes like we know about Shiva’s it would have easier for us.
Alas, I am glad she has moved past compromise and adjustments, genuinely wants to be with him. But I will still say this is not her confession but just some feelings for him. She must also be feeling that she missed out on him, that’s why said she failed to understand him and the divorce is her biggest failure in life.
True.. earlier I was glad she atleast spoke her mind..now we know what is in her mind..but the makers didn't show the flow correctly.. I mean its acceptable for me that she has accepted shiva because she wants to accept him and live for him..but it was necessary to see atleast her wondering how reached that point of thought.. like monologues..or it could have been in the same mami getting rishtha scene..just a bit more push towards ravi where mami asks why u have a prblm for finding new alliance.. maybe raavi gives excuses ..and mami or anitha confront ravi to an extend that she burst out saying she can't forget shiva..she knows deep inside she didn't understand him about what he wanted..she kept thinking she was compromising but she really wanted to live with him ..live for him..and be his...
Maybe she says properly during the confession time..