Don't apologise. Lots of love for you ❤.
I honestly don't need anything or anybody to be happy.. I just want a normally ordinarily functional life which I don't have and I haven't had for the past I don't know how many years!
Yes you don't know what I have gone through and what I am going through. I know that there are people suffering far worse than me.. I realize and do know about my blessings and am grateful for them.
This AU world is just a way for me to take a break from reality, I'm not asking that to happen for real. If in the middle of crisis a person can think of some imaginary things and be happy for few moments I don't see any harm in it. It's just my way of having fun and take things a little lightly, others may not ike it and it's okay.
And it's quite natural for a person to become a little pessimistic about somethings when you have had no luck in certain things that doesn't mean that I don't believe in being happy ir I can't be happy without anyone. Hardships sometimes make you a little bitter about certain things.. and that's just the case with me.. and that doesn't mean I don't know the taste of sweet.
If you knew me in real life, I think you would see me as one of the most independent, head strong and fierce girls (as many people around me think ki yeh toh sab kuch kar legi, but they don't know what goes inside) but here I don't know how because of some circumstances I let out my most vulnerable side.
Please anyone, don't think I'm amplifying my problems way too much.. I know everyone of us out here is going through their own share of problems and have their own way of dealing with it.
I'm sorry if I just said too much.. I think it turned out to be a little long post.