AvNeil OS- We? Seems an Impossible Thought

Hey Folks! It's been quite sometime I have written this. I would have loved seeing Vidyut-Avni a couple, but AvNeil will always be my one True Love. So here is a piece where Avni has to make a choice between the two

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The water gushed against the steps of the ghats, and the diya slowly moved with the water currents. I rested my chin in my palms and watched the diya.

"Akele-akele yahaan kya kar rahi ho?" I turned to look at Neil who smiled softly.

I turned to look back at the diya. It had moved away. I could see the flicker of the flame.

"Mind to help?" Neil asked. I watched as the flame of his diya extinguished due to the soft breeze. I helped him as he lit the diya and dipped it in the water.

"This is where Vidyut liked being, when we were kids," Neil spoke after a long silence.

"This is where we first met," I continued, remembering him.

"It's been two years, we lost him," Neil spoke.

I looked at Neil who would have been my brother-in-law if I had had not lost Vidyut to death.

"You need to move on, you can't punish yourself for something you couldn't really stop or control!"

"It's easier said than done, Neil." I tried to defend myself. I had promised Vidyut when he breathed his last that I would move on, but it wasn't easy. I couldn't let go of our memories or accept someone in his place.

"Maybe you need to give yourself a chance," Neil spoke and stood to leave.

"It's easy for you to say so, par jisne kabhi kisise pyaar nahi kiya, woh mera dard nahi samjhega,"

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My footsteps halted. I turned to look at her, but she lost in her thoughts.

"You are right, how would I know?" I said monotonously and left from there.

"Oh, I see you meet Miss Mehta," Vidyut's voice was filled with admiration. Why wouldn't he be grateful? She had saved him from drowning, but this girl, her cheeks red, eyes blazing fire didn't deserve any of my admiration. She blamed me for breaking her mom's bracelet when she was at fault.

Yes, I had found immature then, unlike Vidyut, who was instantly smitten with her. Avni and I had come a long way in these two years. The "immature" girl slowly revealed how strong she was and how she fought for her entire family.

When did I fall for her? Honestly, the day I looked at her. But seeing Vidyut and her, forced me to be mum about my feelings. It was funny though, Avni confined her darkest secrets in me and not Vidyut.

They say destiny ties us in weird relations, I couldn't agree less. Avni was in love with Vidyut but there was something that defined us, yet left us undefined. Our friendship. Don't judge her; she believed that I never fell in love, and why wouldn't she? I hid my emotions by picking up fights with her and annoying her. Whenever my heart pounded at the thought of her, I would shrug off my emotions, reminding myself that Avni loved Vidyut.

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I knew he was standing, watching me. He was my best friend, who was with me in my darkest times, in my good times; I had to push him away from me. Not because I love Vidyut, but because I know he doesn't deserve someone broken like me. I know Shweta Ma wants us to be together, maybe because she feels Neil will feel the void Vidyut's loss has made in my heart, but that's not going to happen. Vidyut had his faults, unlike Neil. He deserves the best and I know I am not that strong to move on.

Neela Ma is trying to make me realize that Neil is the best that I can find and I won't disagree. Yes, he is every girl's Mr. Right, but not mine.

Sorry Neil, for hurting you, pushing you away every time, but I hope you understand why I am doing this, it's for your own good.

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They say a mother can read her child, and Maa did read my feelings. She believes that Avni and I should be together, for I will get the love of my life and Avni will get someone who will love her. But I know Avni isn't ready to accept someone in her life. After her parents' divorce, it took Vidyut a lot of time to make Avni believe that not all men are same, and if I coax to be with me, I fear her she is going to lose her trust in me. For me, she is matters the most, not even my emotions.

The diyas now couldn't be seen, just like our future, unpredictable and seemingly dark.

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Originally posted by: AgnesFan

Vidyut and Neil as brothers and Vidyut-Avni as couple . Such a new breath of story . I always imagined DD to be Neil's brother but khair koi bat nahin . And Neil being Neil didn't share his feelings for Avni even after Vidyut's death . Again destiny wants only AvNeil .

Would want to know of Vidyut's equation with Avni

Intrigued to read more . update soon