Mukti Bandhan: a different perspective- SS - Page 11

Originally posted by: ayesha_80

Me's second...😆

-Edited-

What do I say, Sona?? Masterstroke pe masterstroke deti ho, n then u say that I/we comment?? 😲 Seriously...m in a fix. What to write...what to quote...what not to quote 😕😕 ..sachi, The ENTIRE update was AWESOME!!! And don't u dare add THIS in the BJ category 😡

I dint say a word.. you are putting it in my mouth😆but obviously I wld expect ppl to comment.. I do take time and effort for this.. you know.. and trust me Its much better in my head.. I am hardly writing it for myself.. coz I dont have to..its far more attractive in my mind😉 so I defo have expectations from my readers.. Dia will vouch for it.. she called me a rather demanding writer during my first SS time...😆

I think i've told this to you before also...i really love the flow in this story. Everything is falling "right in place"..(if u get wat i mean)...and the way you're taking the story ahead...its FAB!!

well everything was right in place in the show.. some spoil sport though did not want to take it there.. for whatever reasons.. I have no TRP problems so I can take it to CP/Parimita.. anytime😉

The level of comfort n understanding b/w VD leaves me more n more in awe of this couple. The camaraderie they have developed...over time...and the point they have reached now...its just AMAZING. The circumstances in which they got married...Devki knowing of the truth abt Vaibhav and Sabina...still, the relationship took off with "friendship" and this friendship, being the base of this relationship...helped them reach a point where, now, they complete each other in EVERY way. Beautiful!!!

yup very rarely does a couple connect with me.. this one did for how extremely real they were.. no overdose of romance or love etc.. companionship and practicality ruled in their camaraderie.. I am watching the old scenes.. and seriously.. they really showed the progression well.. from 2 individuals with strong mind and conviction.. to adjust to each other like it was their 2nd nature.. it was very real

Loved how amidst all the professional commitments, they are managing to spend time together. I don't kno whether i'm loving the professional part more or the personal one...coz i'm thoroughly enjoying BOTH. Actually, i feel...even on the personal front, one can't take out the "business" element ou... from either Vaibhav or Devki...so, the way you have blended this business n profession in their personal lives...its remarkable. Okay...i need more words...ain't it getting too repetitive?? 😆

thats the thing with them.. you CAN'T take the business out of their equation.. that's their psyche.. as I saw them.. both were extremely dutiful and mindful of their responsibility towards their work and family.. there is no taking them out of that.. till V got ruined of course.. and lost sight of everything.. they were always connected to the family esp IMV.. he was always a big part in their relationship as much as Charu was.. but eventually they were seeing each other in a new light.. through their duties.. etc

And then...the fav bit of mine was...their visit to the Convention Center. Vaibhav realizing the "void" in Devki's life...her longingness for a companion, which he has fulfilled...in the word's true essence.

yup.. this was prudent.. in the whole show barring the CP track and Charu's insight and then BB's there was hardly dwelling on why Devki was the way she was.. someone who never complained with the raw deal.. coz that girl grew up parentless.. she valued family.. she never had.. and wanted to grasp all that came to her.. not complaining about what she didn't.. towards the end.. ppl just stopped treating her as this young lonely girl.. her strength was highlighted.. her human flaws and insecurities weren't.. like I said she was no super human.. never was..

Coming to the most wonderful part...now wat do i say abt it?? CP emerging during the symposium. Just WOW!! Hats off to you for bringing her in VD's life like this. There couldn't have been a better way n place of her entry.👏👏 Could sooo imagine the whole aura of CP that DN created.

Well m jittery about writing for CP/Parimita.. esp what mihir bhuta did to her and DN portrayed.. I am treading carefully.. so hoping to do justice there..

The bit u added abt Idealism n Palgarism being presented as a false dichotomy...i'm really not good in these philosophical areas...but i guess, the essence of it is summed up in these lines...so i leave it at that:

"...But if you adopt a morality of rational self-interest, where your morality seeks to enhance your life, your moral principles become your means of determining what kind of actions will be practical"

yup you got the drift.. its like practicality and morals are not exclusive.. they do go hand in hand.. and only when they are in this fine balance does a person become peacefully successful😃

How could u end the update at such a point?? 😡 You've left us hanging...Update SOOON!!!

I have to start writing.. maybe now.. have had a busy weekend.. what weekend.. worked even today.. so there.. my life right now is a big dichotomy😆

Originally posted by: chandaursitare

Yeah, I had gotten busy with school, but I sure read the updates. I think it's nice to bring VD closer before CP's return. She is going to be upset with everyone when she finds out that they all knew. She needs someone on her side and who better than Vaibhav? 😊 Looking forward to the confrontation! They are both so alike so I'm excited to see how you bring it forth.

BTW, I forgot to say last time, but you can call me Chanda. I like it.

Part 6: Un-break my heart

My whole consciousness resonated with one word "DEVKI"

Fearing the worst, I turned to look at her.. shaking with nervousness myself. She stood against the huge glass exterior panel of the control room.. staring at the projector screen.. her face completely white.. pale.. devoid of any emotion; like she had just seen a phantom. She lifted her shivering palm and touched the glass as if feeling the face on the projector. Almost out of impulse; I moved towards her and held her other hand. It was cold. I tried reading her face but there was nothing.

I whispered "Devki"

She shook out of her trance with a befuddled "Huh?" and clasped my hand tight. I wanted to take her in my arms right there and run out; when I heard Randy behind me

"Is everything alright?"

I collected myself as she still squeezed my hand with all her might and turned to Randy " I am afraid Devki isn't feeling too good. Could we get a glass of water"

As Randy left with a "sure" I caressed her hand; but she didn't move an inch, still stone-faced.. Lost for ideas to comfort her or for that matter even get her to react, I tried to get her attention by holding her shoulder and facing her towards me. Thankfully Randy arrived pronto. I got her to pretend to drink some water before exchanging pleasantries with Randy and getting her out of there.

We didn't exchange a word on our drive back to the hotel. She stared into oblivion with a shattering emptiness in her eyes, while numerous questions invaded my mind. But this wasn't the time or place, I told myself. I had a job at hand.. Everything else can wait.. Once in the room, she ran into the bathroom and locked herself in. She needed sometime by herself, I reckoned. I ordered room service in the meantime. By the time she got out dinner had arrived. I noticed her eyes were puffy already. I sighed.

"Devki.. Have some dinner.."

She avoided my gaze.. I held her hand and got her to sit by the bed and tried to feed her some soup. She took the bowl from my hand and tried to work on it, her hands shaking all the while.. After about 5 attempts she let go.. still holding on to the bowl.. shaking.. I couldn't take it anymore. Snatching the bowl out of her hand, I kept it on the trolly.. Thereafter, I climbed in bed next to her and just took her in my arms.. At first she just stayed calm; not moving while I caressed her hair.. Eventually she started sobbing under my touch.. getting progressively louder as the final outburst came.. I held her tight as she howled against my chest.. wetting my shirt with her turmoil.

We lay there for a while, long after she had stopped crying.. I didn't even know if she was awake.. I looked down to see her staring into nothingness again.. as I held her face, looking into her eyes.. not allowing her to look away.. She faintly murmured

"Why?"

I started "I wish I knew.. I wish I could defend or rationalize it. I want to.. but all I can say is there has got to be a big reason"

She spoke faintly again, contemplating "What's big enough.. to never look back at your daughter.. for so many years". She lay down on the bed now.. recounting.. as fresh tears made their way "I spent every night; some even after our marriage.. talking to her picture before going to sleep.. feeling the need to share every detail of the day gone by.. coz I always felt she was hearing.." She stopped.. Closing her eyes, she broke down again "How do I tell myself Vaibhavji.. that maybe she never was.. never wanted to"

I bent over, kissing her forehead.. wiping her tears "Shhh.. don't think in that direction Devki.. Please hold on.. it's never all or none.. never black or white..never.. "

She opened her eyes "I am tired Vaibhavji.. tired of re-orienting.. my thoughts, my beliefs, my outlook, my life. All through growing up till recently I lived under the perception that my parents were no more.. I could live with that. I remotely remembered mamma" she smiled, reminiscing "and hence I missed her presence. Besides, I had never really recalled much about my father. I missed them but I was peaceful.. ignorant but blissful "

Looking up at me, her eyes clouding "And one fine day.. in that party everything was negated. I was forced to look at the ugly face of my father.. a man who had no control over himself, his life.. one who lived on other's sympathies. I was more comfortable not thinking about him.. but now I had no choice but to think about him.."

I tried to keep myself together but the truth was her pain was tearing through me, somewhere still guilty of the way things turned out in that party.. then I had been too pre-occupied to consciously comprehend the extent of her pain.. I let her vent, caressing her face all the while " I wanted to hate him.. but you told me not to.. you tried to reason out.. to make me see his perspective; but I always held him responsible for my mother's pain.. for losing her.. I lived by that convenient reality.. But now" she sighed.. trembling at the thought "I am being forced.. yet again.. my thoughts, my beliefs torn and thrown barefaced.. How do I bring myself to re-orient again.. to this reality.. that my mother not just left him.. but ME.. by choice.. and decided never to look back.. How do I gather the strength Vaibhavji.."

I was at the edge of my own emotions.. seeing her like this.. her pain of abandonment, rejection hit me, somewhere.. baring my own angst that I had found unbearable to live with.. the burden of carrying unrequited feelings.. of blatant rejection.. Her last words just stabbed my defenses

" I wonder how treacherous my past karma were.. that I stand undeserving of my mother's affection.. her presence.. that my attachment wasn't strong enough in front of her freedom"

" Don't you dare.."

I stopped her.. from talking.. thinking.. moving.. I made love to her, unlike ever before.. both our raw emotions, energies collided in hope of some peace.. some relief.. fulfillment.. Our troubled minds longed for that soothing touch.. that reassurance that someone cared..

Well past midnight, she lay in my arms.. sleeping.. finally.. I stared at her now peaceful innocent face.. All my pain, anguish appeared so insignificant in front of her fate.. her journey.. I thanked god for having the family I did.. the family Devki had come to belong to.. I closed my eyes in relief as the tides of questions that were hounding me in the car revisited.. Devki had been too consumed, tired to think beyond her grief.. But I did; couldn't help.. I recalled

Sadhvi Parimita .. the missed encounter.. Anand Ashram

Before Devki did, I needed some answers to lead her to them.. I closed my eyes for a minute breathing in.. I carefully rolled her over and tucked her in bed before climbing out. I took my phone and walked out to the living room, carefully closing the door without waking her up.

I waited nervously as the phone rang and I finally heard her comforting voice; we needed her.

"Mamma."

***********

I walked in with his tea to see him ready to leave. I wondered if I was late but it wasn't even 7. I rushed in, pouring the tea lest he leaves in his haste.

He smirked "Relax Charu.. I have 10 minutes. Have a breakfast meeting, important delegation. I smiled, relieved and handed him the tea. He took his spot on the chair by the balcony overseeing the pool as I joined him.

"I spoke to Vaibhav yesterday. They both liked Kunal a lot" he proclaimed triumphantly.

I couldn't help being amused "I am not surprised. Those two will always like one of their kind" I mocked.

He looked up somberly "We corporates, are not aliens Charu.. We make perfectly normal partners". I smiled genuinely. But before I could offer a response my phone blared. He gave it a disproving look "Go, your ashram beckons".

I gave him a disagreeing nod myself and picked up the phone.. amused and with a smirk, still looking at him "Arey Vaibhav.. What a pleasant surprise.. We were just talking about you both… it must be really late there na, beta? What are you still doing up?"

"Mamma"

I knew this voice. Still remember the tone from the day he returned home heartbroken; his hand bleeding. My heart skipped a beat.. Blood rushed to my face as I asked hesitantly "Everything alright, beta?"

I looked up to see him looking at me intently, curious.. letting his tea wait..

"We saw Sadhvi Parimita today" Vaibhav flatly offered. The ground beneath me shook as I comprehended the enormity of what he just said. I gulped, quickly gathering myself and avoiding his gaze I walked away, whispering "how is Devki?"

"How do you imagine mamma. She is broken"

I closed the door and sat in front of Baba, closing my eyes feeing the hurt that poor girl must be going through. It broke my heart.. as her face came in front of my eyes.. my little girl.. I sighed

"Why didn't you tell me Mamma?"'

"To protect you both from this very state.. this colossal pain, beta. I couldn't let that befall Devki.. and You.. "

There was a pause before he spoke "But now what? She deserves some answers, doesn't she mamma. How can I bring myself to stop her.. especially when none of us could stop her tryst with reality"

I closed my eyes as Sadhvi Parimita's words resounded in my mind

"Samay ke pravaah ko mat roko Charu.. usey behne do.. agar tumhari bahu ka mujhe milna taye hain.. to wahi hoga"

"You can't beta, and you must not.. She is destined to get those answers now. And only Maa Parimita can give it to her"

"Sadhvi Parimita or Devki's mother" he chimed

I smiled, in spite of myself "Let her decide that.. but rest assure Devki will get everything she deserves to know"

"Fine Mamma, I'll arrange their meeting tomorrow then"

"Take care of her beta, get her home safe.. I'll be waiting.. May God give you all the strength. You will need it. All the best.. I trust you"

"Thanks Mamma.. I'll let you go now"

I folded my hands in front of baba, praying for strength and solidarity for my kids, especially Devki. Such an innocent girl with a pure heart, wonder why she was chosen for such hardships. My heart melted at the thought. But I knew If there was anyone who could calm her turmoil, it was Maa Parimita. I meditated to calm my own fears, also avoiding his questions. I just couldn't let him know. He would throw a fit if he found out. My mind wandered; only to stop on Devki again.. I remembered the promise I had made to Maa Parimita and myself.. and today when my daughter needed me.. I wasn't by her side..

Strange are the ways of fate. I sighed.. I was always chosen.. destined to sit outside the circle and wait for my turn to heal.. to un-break hearts.

Originally posted by: ssshhh

Yup Sonali...I will always felt cheated as d show never got a chance 2 develop d D-CP angle, which was a very crucial aspect. Thnxs for doing so...U brought out d pain nd angst of D very well.👏👏👏 yay am glad you liked it.. yes the D-CP angle was always something we looked fwd to.. reminds me of this long debate me and you had on CPs choice.. that was the time I told you I had a similar story in mind.. called do naina.. but never got to write it.. but was hoping to see it in real in the show.. sigh.. somethings never happen I guess.. but I took this opportunity to script a major part of do naina.. in this very part..

Ah so finally d moment of reckoning has arrived! Can't wait for d next part.

jittery about the next part.. it'll be the crux.. if I dont decide to torture you guys.. my ending it right before.. let's see how its gets while I write..😉

BTW sorry 4 not being active yet...will b so in a day or two surely.😊

no fuss.. take your time.. I have been ranting in the meanwhile.. there's no escaping that.. 😆

Originally posted by: mbloves

wonderful 👍🏼..👍🏼 imaginations ... i m😆3😆... edit...sorry for late comm...

What an amazing intro of CP. have no words to praise ur beautiful imagination. It's true, I love CP character very much, if imv & devki is soul of MB, then i can say CP is heart-beats of both characters. Without CP, MB could not be a complete story. I also liked the way u projected devki's capability as business women. It will work for a better relation of her with VV. I m eager to know how D will react to CP as MA PARIMITA. I know it will be difficult for CP to express emotions of MA PARIMITA & that of CP for D simultaneously, OR u can say it will be difficult for D to digest bitter truth of her life. but u will give surprise to MB lovers, so best of luck & waiting interesting curial part of MB '

Originally posted by: ayesha_80

Not gonna reserve...will make another post for my comments tomorrow (hopefully) 😳.

In this one, am just gonna write ONE word for the update..."BEAUTIFULLL"!!! 😭😍