Purvi is sitting silently in the verandah, unable to decide whether to smile or to cry her heart out. Just minutes ago she had to blatantly deny her love for him, but not because she didn't love him. She did love him, so much so that she could do anything to wipe away that look of awkwardness and guilt in his eyes. So, she did the only this she could do, lied, laughed even, just to convince him that she could never love him.
"Uss ek pal mein samajh hi nahin aaya ki khush hun ya roun......... Jab aapne kaha ki kal raat humne aapse apne dil ki baat kahi, aapke saamne apne pyaar ka izhaar kiya, toh ek pal ke liye apne kaanon par yakin hi nahin hua........ Isiliye nahin ki humein aapse pyaar nahin, par isliye ki ab tak apne hi dil ki dhadkan se anjaan thhe hum........ Aakhir ussi pal hi toh apne ki dil ki dhadkan samajh mein aane lagi thhi humein....... Samajh aaya ki kyun achanak aapka saath itna bhaane laga thha humein........ Kyun aapki muskaan ke liye kuch bhi kar guzarna gawara thha humein...... Kyun aapka humaare aas-paas rehna humein itni khusi dene laga thha...... Kyun aapse ladhkar bhi khushi milti thhi humein........ Sab kuch uss ek pal mein saaf ho gaya.......
Uss ek hi pal mein pyaar ke ehsaas ki khushi toh thhi, par aapke chehre par jhalakte afsos ke saamne woh khushi jhat se feeki pad gayi........ Hum toh bhul hi gaye thhe ki bhale hi aap humein aapko daantne ka haq de dein, aapse apni har zidd manwane ka haq de dein, par pyaar ka haq aap kabhi humein nahin de sakte........
Hum jaante hain aap aaj bhi Sakshiji se pyaar karte hain..... Aur shayad humesha karte rahenge....... Hum bahut izzat karte hain aapki bhi aur Shakshiji ke liye aapke pyaar ki bhi....... Sach kahein toh pehle humein bhi chubhi thhi ye baat, bahut chungi thhi......... Par jaise jaise aapko jaanne lage, aapke pyaar ko bhi samajhne lage....... Jo insaan humse pyaar na hote hue bhi humaara itnaa khayal rakhta hai, humaare saari zidd bina shikayat poori karta hai...... Toh jab usne kisi ko chaha hoga, toh kitni shiddat se chaha hoga.......
Bas humesha yahi kasak rahegi humesha humaare dil mein ki woh pyaar, woh chashat humaare naseeb mein nahin........"
Anupamaa
