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I wish i could see him again ..for once i could meet him..for once i could know he is fine..he is happy.. i wish i could see his smile.. I wish i could hear his voice..i wish there is a way...
No No .. ! Never ! I promise to myself... I can never let myself weak.. I can't go back in his life..I want his happiness..I couldn't be the reason of his pain.. he definitely is happy with his love.. that all i had always wish for.. I m happy at least he is happy..even without me..I could live with this fact..but I can never go back..
Sheena asked me to go away from their life.. how could i say no even when i wanted to ? I had no right.. He was my love.. i had fallen in love with my best friend.. that only friend who was there for me every single moment.. who made me understand what being a friend means.. but my feelings...i hate myself for falling in love with him.. i knew it how it feels to be without one to whom you love so dearly... he loved sheena.. he was in love.. i could have never give him pain what i was feeling.. My one sided love was the reason of insecurity sheena used to feel seeing us.. no we were never us n never could be.. we were just..Friends..Best Friends.. but i lost my best friend that day...
I left him for ever.. i couldn't face him.. i left him letter..letting him know that i wouldn't let him chose between his love n best friend.. i made it easier for him.. by going away from their life myself.. When i left Mumbai , i had no idea what i will do ? Going back morena means to stop living the dreams i had dreamed after coming Mumbai ..I couldn't have taken step back in my life.. if he would have been there with me, he wouldn't had let me.. I moved to delhi.. got admission .. started a life where i had no body with myself.. i didn't let anyone to be at my side.. i was so heart broken that i couldn't stand at the fact that if i can't have him then i shouldn't have anything else too .. I don't know why i did that to myself? But i .. just...couldn't be...the same... like nothing happened.. I know i made promises to samrat in that letter.. i would be happy like he would be.. I would take care of myself.. I would be his chashmish forever.. But leaving him behind.. i wanted to kill myself.. i wanted to give myself every pain anyone could have ever... i took away his best friend.. I knew what it means to him. .Still i did it.. because he didn't know what it feels when you couldn't have your love in your life..
Every year i used to get cards on every single occasion that we used to spend together.. Our birthdays, diwali, christmas, new year... one for him ..n one for me from his side.. every year i used to think i should post a letter to get ..how is he? but the fear was in my heart..what if he is upset with me? what if my letter upset sheena??
No.. this was answer of every question i had ever asked to my life..
Today It is his birthday.. like every year.. when i blew the candle i wished...that he gets everything in his life.. his every wish comes true...
The door knocked..she startled for a second.. she get her senses back...when again the door knocked...she wasn't expecting anyone.. she got up..and went to open the door...as she opened the door..she saw a postman.. she confusingly signed n took the package...
she opened the letter..
"I am soory Gunjan.. But I couldn't be the one you wanted me to be the one for Samrat.. Gunjan , after you left , I realized I was wrong.. Samrat never loved me.. he was in love with you ..Yes.. He used to see his chashmish in everyone.. he wanted you in me.. Gunjan i couldn't be... you... I couldn't be.. It is not your fault.. it is not his.. He was good gunjan .. we both knew.. he was dream of every girl.. Gunjan i tired..trust me i tried.. hard to make happen ...us.. but nothing i could do.. with every day passing without you..he instead of being with me..got away from me... I thought i should give time to him.. but no it was the biggest mistake of my life..to consider that I'm good enough for him. .i became selfish.. Gunjan i should have start finding you then.. so i could have him back...by giving him his best friend... but my pride..my insecurity..it didn't let me... Soon I became stranger to him.. I m soory i tired but ... I had to leave for US.. and samrat he didn't want to leave india.. he wanted to stay gunjan.. because he had hope that you would come... I wanted him to come with me.. but he didn't i knew it.. I want to stay with him gunjan.. but i had no reason... he didn't stop me.. That day i realized i lost him completely.. the hope i had that i would win over him again.. it left me..That day i realized gunjan the pain you had.. pain of losing someone to whom you love.. Leaving him alone i left in rage,heartbroken... I came last week back to india.. Gunjan I met him.. I saw him again.. but... there was no smile on his face.. he didn't look at me... he didn't speak to me gunjan .. he is angry with us gunjan.. i said to him that we will go and find you but he didn't reply me. Gunjan.. I m Soory I wish i could bring the time back.. But i can't i can't.. Gunjan the day i left.. he came for me.. to stop..Gunjan.. Can i be more unlucky? I deserved it.. to be away from him.. but gunjan he didn't deserve it.. why it happen with him? He faced terrible accident gunjan when he was coming to stop me...he is in coma gunjan since then.. Yes ! I can't forgive myself ever.. I knew the only person who could make him awake it is only you.. I found you yesterday ..I should have done that long time before...I m soory... but i hadn't any courage to face you gunjan.. i m soory.. i know.. it wouldn't make any difference.. but please forgive me...Please gunjan go to him. .Please only you can make his smile the way he used to.. you can make him awake.. coz i know only his true love could make him Samrat back again.. and his true love always had been you n will always be you.. I m leaving for US back today because i know you will be with him forever.. and you two will be happy.. Just tell him I was Soory.. .
Sheena "
Crying since she had read the letter..she was in the taxi..she had cried during journey from dehli to mumbai... n now in taxi to hospital.. where he was since she had left...
She felt her legs trembling.. as saw him laid lifelessly on the bed...she cried ...cried...n slids down the door...she had no courage to go inside.. she wanted to kill herself..for all the pain...
.just then...she heard voice..
"Gunjan..."
She got up n turned..she saw Benji...with flowers..shocked..
Gunjan start crying hard...and hugged him...
"i am soory benji I m soory.."
Benji had mixed emotions.. She was back.. His friend now will be back.. the hope.. he hugged her ..
"Thank you Gunjan..Thank you for coming.. Samrat missed you.. He missed you a lot trust me... I know now he will be fine.. his chashmish is back..."
Benji smiled at samrat through window of door.. He knew the reason of his friend's life is back..
He broke the hug.. and the wiped away her tears..n took off spectacles to clean them..
"You know Samrat wouldn't like crying chashmish.."
"Chashmish... Iteny salon baad pehli dafa suna hai yeh naam phir sey..."
"Nah its gunjan for you.. .. don't call her Chashmish .. It is my Copy-right..."
Benji said in Samrat's accent.. Both friend laughed as recalled Samrat's expressions n voice.. It was first laugh they had in ages..both looked at each other..and then samrat..the guilt crept in her heart.. as soon as her smile gets invisible.. Benji put hand on her shoulder..and ensure her it would be fine.. He handled her flowers..
"Go n meet him... he had already waited long enough.. I would bring coffee for us.."
She nodded.. n ...as turned..saw him..closed eyes..the regret.. memories with him.. gathered all her courage ...n open eyes..n entered in room..her legs shivered..n she took each step with trembling feets..she stood away from him.. She had no courage to say anything..
In her every dream ... she had thought he would hug her whenever they will meet..he will fight with her.. he will make fun of her..he will let her know it is fine he understands.. .But nothing happened..his opened questioning eyes.. she felt herself so weak..to face him..she turned again to run away back from all the guilt regret anger on herself.. but she saw benji outside the door who shake head in negative who knew she would feel weak to face samrat.. but he knew what his best friends need..to talk to each other.. n that is the only way to hope for things to get better for them.. he felt tiny tear escaped as he saw her.. bending on her knees. .. on floor..crying mercilessly... asking for his forgiveness..
He couldn't see that..he turned his back to door..slide down..crying.. he remembered the day...
The day gunjan had walked out of their lives.. He knew how hard it was for him to lie to his friend to his face... that he didn't know gunjan is leaving.. He knew he can't say truth to samrat..that gunjan met him for last time before going to tell him that he would have to be his best friend like he always have been... he have to be there for samrat... he remember how heart broken samrat was that day ... when the news broke in the college that gunjan left... In Samrat's eyes every one was suspect.. samrat had turned to benji knowing he wouldn't be the one among all others knowing gunjan is going to leave.. benji lied straight to his face.. that he didn't know either.. n then with samrat he had wandered every single bus stop ,railway station, airports to get to know which bus , train or plane gunjan had boarded .. ..but NO ANSWER... Benji recalled how heartbroken he was ... how he had expressed his anger kicking away his bike n leaving ... benji following him.. .trying to be with him.. but he pushed benji away.. but benji didn''t left him alone.. he knew he couldn't let down his best friends... He remember how like a child he was crying while hugging to him... telling him.. it is his fault he should have been the one to leave..she shouldn't have leave her life.. he can't forgive him for what he did to her..
Samrat changed .. since she left.. he became reserved.. no one ever saw him smiling since that day.. Sheena who had left for US coz of her some modelling shoot that week came back...n get what she wanted...samrat... but hardly she ever get to see that samrat with whom she had fallen in love. He had changed ...
He came back to present..wiped his tears... and looked in room..saw gunjan still crying... he gathered his courage to go inside n give her hope.. the hope with what he was visiting hospital every day since samrat's accident.. Hope he would be back...with them.. he would be back to life... one day...Hope...that made them live...She looked at benji with red eyes questioning him one question they were asking from fate like always Why?? .. But there was no answer...except he hugged her ...to give hope courage ...!
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Ohkay ! No one kill me Plz :P
This is just a small gift for Someone Special <3 I would complete this OS tomorrow.. !! Honest Opinions are expected ! Thank You for everything you guyz ever did for me <3 It's been five years with you .. I love you thats all i wanted to say n thats all i mean <3 You know it is for you so i Wouldn't mention your name !
Meri :)
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CONTINUING..
The receptionist smiled at gunjan as she walked in the hospital with yellow flowers..Gunjan gave small smile back to her n exchanged greetings..She walked towards his room..she saw him the same..as it had been since she came back..She wipes away her tears..and with a bright smile entered in the room..
"Good Morning Samrat.. Now you should be awake.. you know it is morning..and the day has started..""Samrat these yellow flowers looks so beautiful na..."
She smiled to him as watched him ...she corrected his pillow n sheet..to make sure he is al right comfortable.. she moved away her face..as tears crept in them..
After that she started reading book to him...
lying on bed lifelessly..staring at ceiling...she got up...looked at watch it was 11 o clock...she called ...the phone rang..she heard the receptionist..asking her to wait till she patch up call to his room...
Like every day since she had came back in his life she used to talk on speaker phone as she wasn't allowed to stay there...to say soory to him..ask forgiveness..to ask him to come back...
Today when she opened her mouth to say soory...she stopped..she used to remind him of their days... but nothing had worked in all this time.. she was helpless..she felt so weak... she was losing hope..she wanted him to come back to life..she didn't know what she was missing.. but she wanted him to be back...instead of soory today she talked about something else.. she let the hidden truth have it's day..
"Samrat... Do you remember that day? when you had gave me those red roses or april fool day.. you found me in garden that night... I'm Soory i lied that day to you.. I should have never... I should have that courage to accept what i had felt that day... Samrat that day i had realized i have start loving you.. samrat those red roses.. even today when i look over at them in my book...samrat they had the best fragrance i ever had felt..Samrat those red flowers always be the special ones...I started dreaming... i felt i never have been happy like i was then.. Rose day i had so many dreams.. so many wishes samrat.. but you broke them samrat.. samrat you were not in love like i was with you... Samrat that day ... globe i had get for you.. with hope that it would confess my feelings for you.. but it got crashed just like me.. Samrat i never had felt pain before like i had that day..and then samrat every day it grew.. more n more.. You know every time you used to smile at me.. i wanted to believe that you are in love with me too. .i wanted you to fall in love with me.. Samrat You are right you are not talking to me.. i deserve it .. I m not good enough even to be your friend.. i failed samrat being your best friend just ... i loved you secretly.. It killed me every time i used to see you with sheena.. I was not able to see you with anyone.. i wanted you to be with me..with this realization that you love me.. Samrat i confessed.. i confessed to you... that day was best .. i had no fear that you would reject me .. you hugged me.. it hurt me badly but i survived.. i was happy at least i confessed... but sheena knew it samrat..sheena knew i loved you.. you mean more to me..than best friend.. samrat i couldn't fix it.. Samrat i didn't fix it.. I didn't .. I should have talk to her...she would have understand... but samrat i couldn't .. i felt so weak.. i didn't want to lose you.. but it gave me so much pain when i used to see you with sheena.. i could have make it possible that i stay in your life as best friend.. but Samrat i was selfish .. I left you because I was not able to take it anymore I couldn't accept the fact that you will always be my best friend only. .I couldn't see you with sheena.. i wanted you to be with me.. i was selfish samrat.. to free myself from this pain i gave you pain.. i left you .. it is only me samrat who should be blamed.. it was my fault.. it was my fault that i fall in love with you .. we were never for each other.. we were supposed to be only best friends.. nothing more.. Samrat I m not good.. I'm bad.. I hurt you. .it is all because of me Samrat.. But I wouldn't give up this time samrat.. i wouldn't leave you now ever again.. I would be always with you... you want me to be as your best friend i would be your best friend.. Samrat i will not let you down this time.. I love you Samrat..Please Come back ... Please I Miss you.. i miss you so much Samrat.. Please forgive me.. Please Forgive your chashmish for being selfish n unfaithful to her best friend Samrat..I want you back Samrat.. i want you back in my life...Samrat Please your Chashmish needs you.. Samrat I'm tired of fighting with our fate.. I'm tired of bearing this pain..I'm tired of hiding away .. I want to smile with you ..I want to you Samrat.. I want you.. I m Soory I let you down I'm not what you thought of me.. "
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She was in sleep when her sleep got disturbed with the hard knocks on door.. she got puzzled..and with wild thoughts .. she got up..rushing towards main door..she opened door n find benji there having tears...Before he could break the news, he saw her fainting.. He shockingly got forward to hold her...to save her from falling..his mind went blank see her lifeless..
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She could have feel presence in the room..but nothing make sense.. she tried to open her eyes slowly.. while reminding what had happened to her..? She remind benji in tears...her eyes popped out open..and she got up..quickly as she looked around she found herself in hospital n benji in front of him..She quickly hold his hand..
"Benji what happened? Samrat is fine na?? Benji speak something ..."
Her pulse rate get slower while she was speaking fast... She felt her breaths back when she saw a smile breaking on his lips..and then she got stunned...
"I had thought when i will wake up it would be you to come to me..."
Her eyes widening looked at benji... who had wide smile.. the smile that was lost somewhere..his eyes said yes..to her question.. it was him..samrat..best friend.. her love...She slowly calming down her breath..turned face..and saw him on wheel chair...having the world's best smile...the smile he always used to give to her..her heart beat rate randomly raised n lowered... she gulped hard at the fact he was there..smiling...She still considered it dream...like it would vanish away soon..she slowly moved away the sheet..get down of the bed..kneeing down on floor..while still staring at him..not blinking ...she with her shivering hands...touched him..to make herself azure..it is real... he was real...it wasn't dream..
"Benji it is not dream...Samrat is..."
She cried as she spoke with her happiness...and samrat next moment knew she hugged him..he closed eyes...he felt alive...in real meanings..after the long sleep..he had finally woken..as she had touched him..he wrapped arm around her...responding to her hug back..she cried on her shoulder..hugged him..
"Gunjan..."
Benji called her when even after long time gunjan was still hugging him.. samrat had gestured him ...
She broke the hug..looking at samrat..she smiled crazily at him..he couldn't believe..the way she had cupped his cheeks with her wide smile on face..and then holding his hand...
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She was in sleep when her sleep got disturbed with the hard knocks on door.. she got puzzled..and with wild thoughts .. she got up..rushing towards main door..she opened door n find benji there having tears...Before he could break the news, he saw her fainting.. He shockingly got forward to hold her...to save her from falling..his mind went blank see her lifeless..
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She could have feel presence in the room..but nothing make sense.. she tried to open her eyes slowly.. while reminding what had happened to her..? She remind benji in tears...her eyes popped out open..and she got up..quickly as she looked around she found herself in hospital n benji in front of him..She quickly hold his hand..
"Benji what happened? Samrat is fine na?? Benji speak something ..."
Her pulse rate get slower while she was speaking fast... She felt her breaths back when she saw a smile breaking on his lips..and then she got stunned...
"I had thought when i will wake up it would be you to come to me..."
Her eyes widening looked at benji... who had wide smile.. the smile that was lost somewhere..his eyes said yes..to her question.. it was him..samrat..best friend.. her love...She slowly calming down her breath..turned face..and saw him on wheel chair...having the world's best smile...the smile he always used to give to her..her heart beat rate randomly raised n lowered... she gulped hard at the fact he was there..smiling...She still considered it dream...like it would vanish away soon..she slowly moved away the sheet..get down of the bed..kneeing down on floor..while still staring at him..not blinking ...she with her shivering hands...touched him..to make herself azure..it is real... he was real...it wasn't dream..
"Benji it is not dream...Samrat is..."
She cried as she spoke with her happiness...and samrat next moment knew she hugged him..he closed eyes...he felt alive...in real meanings..after the long sleep..he had finally woken..as she had touched him..he wrapped arm around her...responding to her hug back..she cried on her shoulder..hugged him..
"Gunjan..."
Benji called her when even after long time gunjan was still hugging him.. samrat had gestured him ...
She broke the hug..looking at samrat..she smiled crazily at him..he couldn't believe..the way she had cupped his cheeks with her wide smile on face..and then holding his hand...
"i Missed you so much.. I missed you Samrat..."
He smiled at his chashmish..finally he could see her..smiling..knowing she is fine..
"I missed you more Chashmish.."
She couldn't believe she heard Chashmish from him...She turned with happy tears to benji who smiled at his best friends..
"You idiots i missed you guyz most.."
Thrice laughed as he joined them in group hug...Samrat and gunjan looked at each other...and ..gunjan moved away gaze..putting back her hairs...he had a small smile seeing her shy... Something was still need to be said...
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it's been a month.. he was back in their lives..the lives had become normal..they had started to go to their workplaces..
Samrat gunjan started fresh as being friends..they didn't speak what happened in past..Samrat knew enough..gunjan knew about him...from benji.. but they never spoke to each other about what happened... they talked normally n it used to be three of them every time...
Samrat gunjan started fresh as being friends..they didn't speak what happened in past..Samrat knew enough..gunjan knew about him...from benji.. but they never spoke to each other about what happened... they talked normally n it used to be three of them every time...
Benji called out them for dinner.. Samrat was supposed to pick gunjan..he was waiting outside her building..playing with his bike keys...when he heard of steps..he turned and looked at gorgeous girl... he had huge smile as she walked to him..she was wearing a white simple outfit..
"Hi Samrat.. Thanks for picking me up.. benji..."
"Its fine gunjan. chalein??"
"No .."
"huh??"
He turned again n saw her look...he knew she is not happy..
"Gunjan..."
"Don't call me gunjan samrat..please don't.."
Samrat felt bad on hurting her.. but he couldn't help.. he had stopped calling her chashmish after that moment in hospital.. he couldn't have push her away of course coz still she was his friend..and he couldn't afford her losing once again...but his chashmish ? he had lost that chashmish the day she had left... he couldn't make himself able to forgive the fate.. he didn't know how to let go what happened ... he couldn't figure out why...
"i think we should leave.."
"No Samrat we need to talk"
She looked with all hurt at him...he moved away his gaze he couldn't have face this fact that he hurts her..
"Don't do this to yourself Samrat please...[Samrat looked at her..her pleading eyes..pierced his chest..].. don't do this.. i know how painful it feels .. how regret kills you.. how you couldn't forgive yourself after every pain n hurt you give to other person.. samrat i know this feeling.. believe me i tried so many times to make me free from this remorse.. but every night since that day it haunts me ...as my nightmares...as my fear...samrat.. i get it you are upset with me.. i get it i m a bad friend.. i get it failed you.. but please samrat please samrat don't do this..don't make it more hard..dont punish me anymore.. i cant win from you... i just can't please I am soory...[Samrat pushes back his tears ...he cups her face..wiped away her tears..]
She looked at him...with hope..
"Why ? Why Chashmish ? I ask myself every night this question why ? Chashmish in all these years without you i tried to find answers of questions.. Why you left? it should have been me chashmish it should have been me.. you weren't supposed to go through all this.. Chashmish when you left me..i realized what it was being with you Chashmish...every night i kept wishing on stars that my Chashmish should be fine..should be happy.. Chashmish i was not able to live with this fact that because of me you left your life.. Chashmish.. I was not able to live with this fact that it is all because of me.. Chashmish i read your letter.. i kept all promises.. i did everything.. i lived that life chashmish without you which you asked me.. but i couldn't live the way you wished for.. i couldn't be happy without you because you were the reason i was happy.. you made me happy.. you were the one who made me realize who am i.. You knew who was samrat.. Chashmish.. Why you never told me? Chashmish in all these year i regret i wasn't enough good that you would have trusted me to tell me the truth to let me know gunjan..I deserved it.. i deserved it to know Chashmish.. I had right to know..."
"no samrat..no .. it was me .. i wasn't supposed to have those feelings.. i let you down. i had no right...to..."
"Don't Gunjan Don't... You know How much i am angry at you .. how much i hate you for doing this to me?? you said you are my best friend and you can tell me anything.. still gunjan you didn't tell you had feelings for me.. you just left ...like nothing would change in my life.. miss.Gunjan Bhushan.. what do you think of yourself?? you can make every decision of my life ? without even telling me you could go away n leave me alone? You do everything..you care about me.. you could leave your life.. you could abandon yourself from every happiness..and you you ...are saying..that you had no right?? Gunjan if you don't have this right...then no one could have this right...not even me.."
"Why Should i have this right Samrat ? Why even should i accept that i have feelings for you?? why i should accept that i left coz i wanted you to be happy? it is not true samrat i left coz i wanted to be free from that pain that feelings caused in my heart.. yes i was selfish i left you i did everything you said.. but at least samrat i own them.. i know i was wrong ... but you?? what did you do ? you lived the life?? if you had lived the life you should have been with sheena ..not in hospital .. samrat you let me down too.. i had the trust too that you would be happy.. you would be samrat.. but no you got changed.. samrat you said i m unfair to you ..you are unfair to me.. i had feelings it was my mistake .. but samrat you have feelings for me n its been a month you didn't say a word to me samrat.. i waited my whole life.. that may be one day i would be lucky enough to feel what it feels to be in love..but you know what i feel till this day.. that i m the most stupid girl on this earth who fall for the guy who had no courage to accept his feelings.. samrat from all of these things i had never expect that you would hurt me ... i always thought it is only me who had hurt you..every night before leaving you samrat i used to plead that you forgive me for what i did..but samrat you did hurt me..since the day you have woken up you calling me gunjan every single time.. You know what it is being to be called gunjan from you feel like ? .. samrat i die every night.. when my hopes leave me.. alone.. that i could never be happy. but still despite all of this Samrat still i want you to be happy.. i forgave you for everything you did to me.. or anything happened to me because of you .. I don't blame you for the life i m living.. i choose it for myself samrat.. and at least i m satisfied with it...I m tired Samrat.. i m tired being just A best friend to you...i can't be anymore just a friend..when you... ... I don't hate you... but i accept.. i get you hate me...and you should..."
"no.. chashmish...pl..."
"Samrat just do me a favor excuse benji from my side .. i want to be alone..Good bye Mr.Samrat Shergill.."
He stood there while she ran back in the building..he felt his world spinning around... once again... he felt like he lost her.. the way he had lost her years back..he couldn't believe ...reminding their conversation.. how could he say such horrible things to her ? ?
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He stood there while she ran back in the building..he felt his world spinning around... once again... he felt like he lost her.. the way he had lost her years back..he couldn't believe ...reminding their conversation.. how could he say such horrible things to her ? ?
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"I screwed it Benji i screwed it ! I m an idiot ! i should never had speak to her like that.. how could i say horrible things to her? Benji i wanted to fix things.. i wanted to say all those things to me... when i actually could hold her n could tell her how much she means to me.. Benji i can't face her now.. I m a terrible terrible person.. i hurt her so bad.. what should i do ?
"W-H-A-T?? You guyz are the biggest idiot ... I don't know samrat what you should do.. okay you guyz screwed it years ago. .i begged gunjan to sop her.. but she just wanted to leave..."
"What? You KNEW samrat??"
"Does it EVEN make any difference ,Samrat now???"
"yes it does.. she said Good bye to you and not me?? "
"Well then congratulations. .You got your goodbye today.. Now happy ..Live like this.. I don't know why i got punishment of having the most stupid friends in the world... Where are you going now ??"
" Last time i couldn't stop her benji because she left without telling me n i hadn't think she would leave me.. But this time Benji what i did would make it happen.. and i just can't lose her again... It was hard enough once .. i can't do this again... to her.. "
Benji had smile nodding in yes in favor... in happiness two tears even trickle down as he hugged Samrat..who looked horrified.. n surprise seeing benji like.. this. . he sighed shaking away his head..n pushed samrat out of apartment before he could make fun of him..
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After crying letting out the pain .. she had...since he came back in life..in same way .. like she used to feel years ago.. that pain had reside itself in her heart.. she wiped away her tears..throwing away her tears..in her angst..she got up..open her wardrobe..scanned it.. and took out the bag..and taking out her clothes from wardrobe she threw on top of bag.. continuously wiping away her tears...she heard the voice from her balcony..She first wanted to ignore but she couldn't ... she walked over the balcony..and found him climbing over it.. She sighed.. and opened the window and gave her hand...he looked at her...he confusingly give hand in her ..and she pulled her..she hold him to make sure he doesn't fall..he put arm around her to make sure she is alright.. he looked down at face...n saw her staring...they felt their stomach crunched ..and then the let go each other...moving away gaze..
"You didn't get scared ??"
Samrat asked her with his complaining accent.. she just showed him eyes..
"I lived a long time alone now , Samrat... Now nothing makes me scared.."
She spoke with same her upset mood..and passed by him to move at his back to be back for packing..
She spoke with same her upset mood..and passed by him to move at his back to be back for packing..
He hold her hand..she closed her eyes for a moment...as she felt his hand on her wrist..he held her pulse...and he pulled her back in front of him..
"You told benji before leaving .. Why didn't you tell me ?"
Gunjan puhsed him away ..he always had made her disappointed whenever she had hoped for better..she replied with sarcasm..
"I dont' care samrat now what had happened a million years ago.. What matters to me is that you are the same.. You would never accept it FINE..i now accept this..."
She rudely tried to be free from his grip..but he didn't allow her..stopped..and then left..knowing she would..
"No ... Stay... I am Soory.."
He didn't look at her..She sighed..but couldn't gather enough courage to say once ..It's okay...
"It is not Okay Samrat.. I am not fine...for all of the things... i had never except you would say you hate me..but i get it.. may be it is just i deserve..a reality call.. thank you.."
She spoke with her chocked voice...samrat felt terrible... he couldn't gather courage to stop her as she turned her back towards him...
She spoke with her chocked voice...samrat felt terrible... he couldn't gather courage to stop her as she turned her back towards him...
"I dont hate you Chamish... I was mad at you for leaving me.. but I never hated you.. I never stopped loving you..."
Gunjan's hand stopped.. she felt numb...she didn't move.. he spoke that to you...the wait was over..
Feeling bit relax..he moved to her..hold her from shoulders..to make her turn to him... she looked above at him...He couldn't forgot the moment...the look on her face..the anxiety..the wonder..
"You.. What??"
Samrat gave her a smile...
"I loved you Chashmish.. i loved you always .. I love you So much.. There was not a day i spent without thinking about you Chashmish..."
She felt tears trickling down her cheeks.. and she couldn't wait another moment..and hugged him..he couldn't believe on his fortune.. her hug showed him...how much it means to her.. he wrapped arms around her.. for once in life they both had hugged meaning it same...he creased her hairs.. as heard her sobs..he kissed her hairs..to make sure she is fine..she didn't break hug..he called out..
"Chashmish.."
"No don't speak stupid..you will ruin it..."
He couldn't believe his chashmish said that to him..as she broke hug ..and moved away..she stole away gaze..not looking directly into his shocking questioning eyes..while she wiping her tears...
Both looked at each other n smile grew as the moment passed.. he cupped her cheek..smiling to her..wiped away the tear from cheek..she lowered her gaze... feeling the fact he was holding her.. for the first them...he meant the way she always wished for..
He smiled... but his smile faded when he saw her clothes and bag...he unsure even touched to make sure what he thinks is right.. gunjan looked at him..knowing what he thinks..
"Y-O-U were leaving me AGAIN??"
He asked her in shock.. she made a face..seeing the uncertainty for herself..
"you don't trust me..."
She moved away her gaze crossing her arms..he hold her from shoulders.without paying attention to her words..just the thought that she was leaving him again...
"W-h-a-t?? how could you..."
"Samrat.."
Seeing him panic ,she tried to calm down by calling his name..but he hold her from shoulders..she felt her heart beat stopped as she gasped at their close interaction..
"No You can't leave me again ... never ...
before she could say something she saw him kneeing down..her mouth left opened in shock..
"Samrat what are you doing??"
She was shocked ... He hold her hands..looking in her eyes..with all his seriousness..
"Chashmish... Last time you had no reason to stay...but this time you have.. I want you to be in my life Miss.Chashmish Bhushan.. as my best friend and my love.. I know from all of the things you wouldn't have expected this from me... but that's just the start.. to make exception in our life.. to make us happen.. Chashmish Will you marry me ?? "
She was shocked totally.. speechless.. seeing him listening him.. she couldn't move think or speak anything for minutes..he saw her staring at him unbelievably...he knew his surprising proposal took away her senses..
She realized she is back when she felt ring slide in her finger..she looked at him..he was standing smiling at her..
"I can't take no as answer.. you owe me this.."
She smiled .. uncertain of her fate.. tears brimming in her eyes..
"I love you Samrat..."
She spoke to him..he treasured the moment..as cupped her face ..planted kiss on her forehead..creasing her nose along his..he whispered back..
"I love you too Chashmish.."
Both looked at each other..smiling...finally...confessing their happiness..accepting it lies in being with each other..no matter how hard they both had tried to close eyes from everything to avoid the truth lies in their eyes about each other.. but they couldn't stop their hearts which had start beating from so long for each other.. It doesn't matter how things were..how they should be.. it matters how they are now.. the way they wished for..they had lost years in searching n finding the answers of wrong questions.. answers were right in front of them..in their eyes for each other.. the way they used to look at each other.. the way they used to care about each other.. the way their heart beats for each other.. .the feelings that they couldn't turned down.. it was love.. which was always there..in their bond.. !
Fate smiled at them as saw the newly wedded bride with bunch of red roses in hand ...running over the beech in her white floral outfit being chased by her groom and newly wedded groom in his white n black dashing tux .. chasing his bride...and he finally caught her..to stop his world , his life in his arms ..to stay for ever..she looked at him..shyly..flattered heart beats.. jumping heart.. his touch..his gaze...arousing desire in her... she gasped as his palm cupped her cheek.. n creased her skin..she had lowered her gaze..but he didn't allow her as made her to look in his by pulling her more close to himself.. she felt her shivering lips being kissed by his love... The sunset sighted the beautiful confession of love...n smiled at the duo closed eyes..who were busy in feeling being in love...
... you can close eyes to things you don't want to see but you can't make your heart stop feeling the love... they both had failed in making their hearts stop beating for each other... and their love won over them...
... you can close eyes to things you don't want to see but you can't make your heart stop feeling the love... they both had failed in making their hearts stop beating for each other... and their love won over them...
Her arms were resting around his neck making him feel they would never leave him ..while his arm encircled around her waist..as they kissed each other...she felt her self bending at back in air...but being in his arms...made her assure she would be safe n sound...wrapping arm around her he knew his life would be safe..n happy.. because they both knew that they finally had let their hearts to feel for each other what they were meant since forever till the eternity.. The beautiful beginning for a beautiful journey... !!
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The Champagne...Red Roses...Candles... and she standing there in her red sarree in his room ..
He pleasantly surprised on seeing his wife as just came back from his work..he closed door..leaving his stuff aside the door..he went to her..and she kissed him smiling to herself..on seeing him happy...as broke the kiss..still cupping each other face..
"i love you Chashmish .. how i got lucky to have you ? "
She smiled..kissed his cheek..looking with all love for him in her eyes..
"I love you too Samrat.. the day i met you n you saved me..."
He recalled the day n smiled to himself..but asked her as question came in his head..
"you still can't swim chashmish?"
She shake head..he smirked..and knowing that naughtiness in his eyes..
"NOO Samrat I m not going to learn swimming from you.."
He laughed as she had started moving away saying that..but he had stopped her..wrapping arm around her like Armour..
"Darling that you have to do...but just not today.. Today we will follow up your plans.."
He winked at her..and she blushed... knowing he is so going to tease her the rest of evening..pointing out all the arrangements..
"Can i ask you a question chashmish?"
"hmm.."
"I never asked you but please...dont be angry at me..still .. i want to know.. had you left again if i hadn't showed up at your place???"
She smiled helplessly...and then hit him on chest..
"Idiot.. that day was last day in that flat . . Don't you remember the next day i moved in to another place? You helped me stupid in shifting and you thought i was leaving you? I was enough idiot to leave you once.. not stupid like you to hurt every time.."
He bit his tongue..n mentally smack himself... he held her in his arms..to apologize from her..she made the worst face...he whispered sorry to her..and kissed her softly..she made a bit better face..n replied him its okay...
He winked at her..and she blushed... knowing he is so going to tease her the rest of evening..pointing out all the arrangements..
"Can i ask you a question chashmish?"
"hmm.."
"I never asked you but please...dont be angry at me..still .. i want to know.. had you left again if i hadn't showed up at your place???"
She smiled helplessly...and then hit him on chest..
"Idiot.. that day was last day in that flat . . Don't you remember the next day i moved in to another place? You helped me stupid in shifting and you thought i was leaving you? I was enough idiot to leave you once.. not stupid like you to hurt every time.."
He bit his tongue..n mentally smack himself... he held her in his arms..to apologize from her..she made the worst face...he whispered sorry to her..and kissed her softly..she made a bit better face..n replied him its okay...
He offered her hand..and she slid it holding him close..as they walked towards the table set for the duo...with delicious dinner food...
The evening was perfect like every day since they had been together forever..
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Phew! i completed you Guyz could be now happy <3 i want replies yes i do this time.. ! This just now became my favorite piece i wrote ever !
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