and the reason has been the most beautiful journey of the most adorable pair we love - SaJan.. it was while i was recollecting those moments with a trip down memory lane in my mind ... when i kinda started feeling a thing on impulse... and hence am making this post - hope i could make sense😳
now when we look back .. i see this couple starting out its journey in the simplest way - by becoming friends.. they has their share of tussles, challenges and yes battles to fight as well - along the way
when they started off..it is so evident so so clear it is Sam who fell for her first - and she too felt something for him which made her turn back and look at him the very first time they met
overtime they grew as friends and yes broke apart too only to come together again
now this track has been the most lovely one - when Sam tries to win back her trust ... and she despite knowing somewhere down the line it is him - feeling it in her bones refused to budge ... as she was mostly scared of the hurt again - she dint knew if he would ever be trusted again despite those attempts and hence she made a shell around herself
and he - Mr Patience Personified understood exactly his chashmish and her mind - knew what her heart felt and so never gave up - he made her realize he is trust worthy - but more then that he made her see - there is no reason to be scared... he is here and that's all that matters
this was again repeated when after ages Sam finally understood he loves her - and that love is beyond any measure.. when he followed her all the way to Morena - this time to confess his love and make sure she does too - as he knew she loves him.. or was hell bent on making her do so 😉 - rem his line " tum chaho ya na chaho mano ya na mano chashmish , pyar toh tumhe mujhse karna hi hoga"
and so he did.. he admitted his love for her.. when he confessed - but before that he made her face her fears - rem when he went to Morena - he made sure Gunjan despite saying she cant meet him - runs hither thither to look for him as she feels he is a mirage ... hence making her strong enough on her own to face him - as she feared post her confession unheard by him to face him - as she felt rejection
but when she saw him in Morena she could face that - admitting to herself that Sam has come to Morena only for her - yes she knew it then too - that he too loves her .. but was just afraid to admit the same
so when he confessed; before it in the barn he made sure he asked her the right questions hit the Right notes so that she may fully accept what she knows very well and what he has realized as well - that they are madly in love with each other
now we all are cribbing about why is Sam doing this what Gunjan ought to be doing ATM - which is the chasing bit 😆 - so heck this takes me back to 2 scenes - first the confession scene - where he said - main tumhe ek aur baar jaane nahi de sakta chashmish and next - when during the neil track - on the road he said -ye sab baar baar mere saath hi kyun hota hai ? main kaise chashmish ko kho deta hoon ? woh har baar mere paas lautke aati hai ... lekin is baar nahi "
he somehow never has ever forced his love upon her but knowing her so well and how sensitive she is - her shyness he knows he has to make the first move - as sometimes fear is the only thing which keeps one away and in any relationship there is always a partner who despite it all always makes the first move - in SaJan it is Sam
in the previous tracks in the end it has always been his love and patience which are never ending that have made Gunjan come out of her shell and make her fears succumb - whether the TP, secret friend bit, confession in Morena track or even the movie track - i suppose today again he knows Gunjan is scared and so taking the first step ahead
I know it is somehow not what we had in mind... but somehow it is so Gunjan to do just that - to cocoon herself ... which is again the case - where may be she is just scared to go ahead despite knowing it well enough.. that they are in love much more deeply then ever - but the fear that this may end in a disaster again she is plain not willing to move ahead - though it is all she want
I had read this somewhere which i suppose befits her state : -
most of our troubles in life arise when we feel when we ought a think and think when we ought a feel
Gunjan is currently in that phase... and Sam just knows it - as he knows her better then her.. hence - all his advances all his moves all his romancing and courting is aimed at breaking that crust - that shell - of her fear - which makes her think when she ought a just feel ... which wont come easy nor be a simple step ahead
last night when Gunjan said the past 3 years have taken her away from him - he felt a sting - but he knows - Gunjan hasnt allowed herself to feel his love for the last 3 years it is because she has not allowed herself to even be what she is -' Chashmish - his Chashmish '
to make her feel - that to make her relive - to make way for chashmish Sam is just doing what he has to do - go through Gunjan - Gunjan who is scared, naive and vulnerable - beneath whom lies his Chashmish today - who knows his love is enough for her to win against all odds - to be brave - be fearless - as he'd be forever by her side 😳