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hi to all my sg lovers đ¤...guys i am back with a new os of mine.ofcourse as u know its on sajan.i tried to write it as a one shot but it became too long...so i have divided it in two parts.and guys i have changed my style a bit...actually copied it from my jaanu dolly..coz for the first time i wrote my story as a narration from gunjan and samrat's pov. i hope u like my new insoired style hun đ
Raindrops U and Me
An sg confession os
It's a bad wheather here''shittt the clouds have again begin to conquer the dusk sky''thought I looking towards the zenith as it was turning fumy grey all over again...'damn this monsoon'!... I think it may begin to drizzle all over again any moment'.drizzle???...nope its gonna be much more than a drizzle'may be'may be a storm''
Raindrops U and Me
An sg confession os
It's a bad wheather here''shittt the clouds have again begin to conquer the dusk sky''thought I looking towards the zenith as it was turning fumy grey all over again...'damn this monsoon'!... I think it may begin to drizzle all over again any moment'.drizzle???...nope its gonna be much more than a drizzle'may be'may be a storm''
Yes its gonna be a storm'for what u have done miss bhushan'.why the hell did u come here again??? At this very place which strangled ur soul long back forever'bcoz of which there doesn't go a single day without u breaking down'bcoz of which u r still standing at the same place where life left u nearly one year ago'
1 yr???? that sounded simple hun'but I think it had not been just a year'rather much more than that'a whole of 365 days n nearly uncountable empty moments'moments I spent just with myself n my strange emotions for him'
"him"'Gosh! my heartbeats'whats the problem with these I don't get??? always ready 2 go out of control whenever my stupid heart even thinks abt him'they reside in me but hell looks like these r a slave of his'but today they seem much more out of control than usual'ofcourse how can I forget'this place I have come to'my ex-college''
Its okkk now stop thinking abt all this gunjan. once n for all just go inside'u cant run away from it anymore'its ur last chance to come here'after this u will be leaving for delhi'n from delhi to US for the next five years'u wud never return back here any soon'u have to say that final goodbye to all ur loved ones here'.mother lisa ..sister mary'john n everyone'.and ur jesus too'.
Yaa all these'ofcourse I have come here for these ppl only and not for "him"'shittt shut up gunjan n don't think abt him anymore'else that stupid tiny organ will start jumping inside ur chest all over again!!
'Hummmmmmmmmm''gulping all my fears down my throat I slowly began 2 walk towards d campus 'the top of whose main building the clouds were almost covering now'I cudnt even see the church bell properly'"gosh they r gonna pour heavily" I thought'n even before i stepped just a few steps further'.i felt a cold drop hitting my hand'n another my cheek'.it had begun 2 rain again'the clouds seemed as if growling'n the lightening made things worse'.withinin just a while the wooden bench adjacent to me was drenched completely'.n so was i'and my white suit as well...u r so stupid gunjan'di said don't wear a white dress in this season'but u never listen to her despite knowing how badly it rains here in dehradun during the monsoons'.
"but di also says that whenever it rains'.it means that two lovers'two soulmates r destined to meet on that day'just like it rained when simran realized her love for raj in ddlj'.or even when jiju confessed his love to di'I remember even that day also it rained'.does it mean today also'someone is gonna meet again???
Just the thought of this'and tears again began to develop in gunjan's eyes'"why???why the hell do u always think like this gunjan'.when u know that this cant ever happen'when u know that even thinking abt this is wrong'.then why does u always end up thinking this only'??? Urghhhhh I hate myself for this'I know him'He'he just loves sheena'and not u fool'and that's even fine hun'after all sheena is just perfect'just like him'he is happy with her'leading a perfect lyf'and theres no space for u in that'so just stop this nonsense''!
Realizing what I was doing to myself again'I wiped off my tears that had till now overflowed till my cheeks and even to the corner of my lips and I moved ahead'
Moving all along the campus garden'all those college memories were stabbing my heart repeatedly'all those days'.still so afresh in my mind'the classroom'the library'.the staircase'the canteen its empty now'as its vacation tym'but that day it was full'I remember that day'yes yes that day it was full of noises'when samrat declared that he will not be giving his exams'.gosh I was so shocked...
'So silly I was''smiling at myself I moved on'and came across the ground'that same ground where we all celebrated holi'di jiju uday dia benji and'and him'I mean samrat'.it was the best holi of my lyf'."
And as I was just moving on'.each stair'each wall'each tree'even the parking lot'reminded me of some of the most beautiful memories of my life'my college days'my friends'and'and him..the most special person of my lyf'..
"samrat ki lif mein kitni bhi girls aayein ya jayein'but chashmish ki jagah hamesha reserved rahegi"'the words echoed in my ears as I saw that empty corridor where samrat said this 2 di'though I was still standing outside in the rain but I cud see the corridor inside easily from the window'
"what a great friend he was'always making everyone smile'always helping everyone'I know he used trouble the teachers'but then even used to say sorry to them in all possible stupid ways too'he was surely the heartbeat of the college'may be that's why even I didn't come to know when he stole me from myself'''
Still I moved on'now I had to meet mother'but where is she???
Obviously she must be inside the church or in her room'but wait'to go to the church I had to cross this garden''.
"nope not this atleast'I don't have the courage to go here again'to this very place I came on that day 'what a day it was'the day i realized how much what has he become for me'the day I realized how much I love him'never!!! I cant bear this pain anymore'I cant go inside "'now I was just on the verge of becoming completely blind'.not only due 2 the raindrops that were falling incessantly on my specs'but also the tears which were unceasingly flooding my eyes everytime I was looking at things around me. All the things'just reminding me of all those days'.the memories now seemed sought of haunting to me'my heart ached a lott'as if there wasn't a single memory devoid of him'his smile'his voice his embrace'hell!! was samrat shergill the only reason I used to come to this college????
Then why cant I think abt anything except him??? Why cant I just stop thinking abt him???
Slowly the rainstorm was growing fiercer'n I almost shivered now'.my face was drenched completely but my breathes still parched''.
I felt like running away from here'.the entire college..seemed like flooding'not only with the rain but with loneliness and pain'.it seemed like hovering me like a haunted place'.its suffocating here'I need to be out of this place'I am going from here'
thinking so I turned around towards the gate to just run out of this place'but suddenly was startled and even scared as I saw a tall figure standing just hardly a few steps away from me'
"Ahhhhhhhhhhh"'I shouted in a shallow tone'.but thankgod he didn't listen'.
he???? How do u know that it's a guy???u r facing the person's back'stop asking stupid questions'.Anyways but Whos that?...I thought to myself'may be some security guard'or someone else'but I shud leave now'its already turning dark.
I began to walk towards the gate'.just wanted to pass by that guy quietly'actually I was in shape 2 answer anyone's queries abt what was I doing here n stuff like that'so I quietly passed by his side'but somehow I don't know why but my heartbeat grew so wild when I crossed pass him..??? ahh u know this crazy organ inside u na gunjan'just let go'.its stupid'!!
and as I was abt to step out of the college'..a lonely crumbled voice reached my ears'it was a really cherished voice'I knew that'but the words'the words left my world still''''''''''
"come back chashmish'..pls come back"
I froze at my place'n so did my every body part'for a few minutes I just stood at the very place I was at breathing wildly'.
"this is not possible'he cant be here'how can he be here??? He was in Mumbai'then how can he be here??? Just go gunjan'there is no point seeing that guy back'.he is not samrat'he is just not'but then how did I hear his voice???? Why am I feeling him so close'if its not him then why my heart is pumping so hard against my chest..??...as if'as if even beyond the sound of these heavy raindrops I can hear something else as well'may be may be the sound of his breaths'his heartbeats''..Gosh this place is making u go mad gunjan'just go away from here n don't ever come back'..
"I need u chashmish'I cant live without u anymore'pls come back chashmish'plssss"'said he again.
"YES YES..its him only'I know its him"'..now I knew it wasn't a dream for sure'.i turned around in a single go to look at him'samrat was still standing with his back towards me'
I slowly began to walk towards him'my heart began to throb even badly'I can say I was nearly palpitating'almost a million thoughts just hit me in those few seconds'"god is it true???...is samrat for real'or am I just hallucinating???? I am gonna see him after nearly one year'.but what if he doesn't recognize me??? U r stupid gunjan'he just said chashmish..that means he still remembers u'but why did he sound so low???is he alright'and whats he doing here alone..??? wheres sheena???
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luv u all
malika đ
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Thats it for now guys.pls tell me whats ur take.i will wait for ur replies
luv u all
malika đ
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