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P A R T 13

guys before writing i want to tell, pls dont draw any conclusions without reading complete story. 😊

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"Gunjan...." he screamed and ran towards her. He took her in his arms and went inside. He laid her on her bed and started rubbing her hands and legs. But she did not open her eyes.
"What's the matter gunjan...pls open ur eyes...please..." he was worried. But she did not. It had been almost 30-45 minutes. Samrat tried to make her conscious. But nothing happened. At last he had to call the doctor.

"What's the matter doctor? Why did she faint just...just all of a sudden?" Samrat said as if his world is not moving anymore.
"Shes got fever. Did she say anything to u about it?" the doctor asked checking gunjan.
"Ah... well she has been shivering since few days. I thought it was just small cold." Samrat felt he did a very big mistake. "i shud have known tht it was bad for her." he regretted.

"Well we are doing some blood tests on her. Maybe there is pneumonia or something. But you don't need to worry. You can collect her reports from the hospital tomorrow and then we can start the treatment accordingly."
"OK thank you doctor." Samrat was still nervous.

The doctor left, but Samrat cud not leave her. He sat there beside her the whole night taking care of her when finally the next morning Gunjan saw him sleeping, while sitting beside her.
"Aah..." she cried and he woke up.
"Chashmish... chashmish... Are you ok?"
"I am ok Samrat. I am fine dont worry. Nothing happened to me." she tried to say the best.
"Dont lie, you fainted. You are not going anywhere today. Not to the college as well. You will have to take rest. Please."
"I am ok. I assure you nothing happened." she came closer and said softly.
"Ok fine. But u are not going anywhere. Please, for me." Samrat looked into her eyes and said to which she cud not let him down.
"Ok I wont but where are you going?" she asked him as he got ready to step out.
"I ll just come from home. Ok" he kissed on her forehead as she smiled and he left.

*In the Afternoon*

He did not tell Gunjan anything about the last night. The doctor, the report, or maybe pneumonia. He didnt want her to get stressed. Though he felt like he is not doing right by hiding things, he thought tht he can tell her later when once she is a little fine.

He called the doctor, if the reports are ready so that he can pick them up and they can start the treatment.
"Yes Mr. Shergill. You can come in around one hour and get the reports."

Samrat prayed to God for the first time only for Gunjan to make everything alright. And then he left for the hospital.

"Mr Shergill, here are Gunjan's reports." the doctor handed the reports to samrat but he felt there was something wrong with the doctor.
As Samrat saw the reports he didnt knew how to react. He was confused, shocked and dazzed.
"No' doctor no'. These are not her reports. You said she might have mild pneumonia...but this....."
"Yes Mr.Shergill...." the doctor interrupted, "These are her only true reports. Ms Gunjan Bhushan has Leukemia!"

The moment the doctor said those words, the blood drained from his face and sheaf of dizzling images fluttered thru his mind. The doctor told him that she is on the third stage of leukemia and there is thin, very thin chances tht chemotherapy wud work. And he is surprised that Gunjan did not find out about this.

"No no there has to be some mistake, Gunjan is only 19." he cudnt believe. His world went blank. Gunjan...his gunjan...his chashmish was dying...
But there wasnt any mistake...

Samrat was just numb. He took the reports and started walking away. While he walked the hospital corridor, each and every moment he spent with gunjan started flowing in his mind. The freshers party, the rehearsals, the talent parade, walk to gunjans home, their date and confession. He just walked like a lifeless person. The tears cudnt flow. The tears were numb at its place.

When he reached his home, he once again saw the reports. His eyes reached the words Gunjan Bhushan and Leukemia. He wiped his hand over Gunjans name and unknowingly the tears started coming out. He hid his face with the reports and cried. The cry which was for a long time, the way he never cried in his life. The way probably no one cried for their beloved. He said the words "gunjan" and "chashmish" at intervals while crying. His eyes were red and swollen when finally his mother saw him crying.

"Samrat..." she threw her bag..." whts the matter son?" she was worried. She hugged him tightly as she was shocked to see him cry like this. While hugging she read the reports and she was equally shocked. She tried to console her son but tht cud only wipe away the outer tears, not mend the heart that was broken. Yet she tried. She hugged her and rubbed his back.
"sshhh....listen to me...listen to me....." she asked him to face her. "Son I know you are heart broken...but this is not the time u cry. This is the time u have to think for gunjan. Do u get me?" she holds his jaw and makes him face her. "do u get me?" he looks at her and slowly nods a yes but burst out crying and hugs her mom...

Later he asks her mom to do him a favor and get gunjan at their home since she was sick last night. And he will get back after some time. He wipes his tears. He tries to gain all the strength he can have just to make Gunjan smile, bcos her smile means everything to him.

*At Night*

Gunjan waits for Samrat at his house. Samrat had made wonderful preparations at his home. He prepared a small candle light dinner near their window from where u cud see the moon and a lake. The moonlight falling on the lake was a scenic to capture. Gunjan was busy looking at it when Samrat came with a bouquet of flower in his hand.

"How are you?" he reached for her hands with so many emotions in his eyes and kissed them. She looked at him with emotions and they hugged for a second, then let go. They had their dinner but Samrat noticed Gunjan cud nt eat properly. It was really painful for him to see her like that, but he smiled. A question kept on going inside his mind. How and why haven't gunjan realized this? He wanted to tell her about it, but how? He himself cannot tolerate it, what will be her reaction to it? But he had to. He cudnt hide from her. The thoughts were going inside his mind when she interrupted.

"Samrat'" she looked little worried and quiet. "I want to say you something." Samrat looked at her. "What is it?" But she was not yet ready to say it. "Samrat I'I'" she just cudnt speak and she bowed her head down. "Gunjan please say. I know something is bothering you since yesterday'I Love You Gunjan...Please say." The moment Samrat said those words Gunjan started to cry. She came closer to him and leaned her body inside his. Samrat wrapped his arms around her, wondering what was wrong. For a second he thought if Gunjan came to know about the reports. He tried to hide the reports even deep inside his pockets. Samrat realized that she had lost too much weight.

She kept crying into his chest for what looked like a long time. Looking at her, Samrat cud not control and the tears came down rolling from his eyes. "I am sorry'.I m so so sorry Samrat'" she cud hardly speak while crying. Samrat didn't knew what happened to her, how cud he tell her the truth. His throat went dry. "Why are you sorry Gunjan?" he asked suddenly desperate to understand what was bothering her. He was trying to reach for anything and he was scared. "Samrat we can't love each other'" she said with her swollen eyes. Samrat felt the unexpected to be coming. "We can remain friends but we can't love each other. Because I... I ..." Samrat was almost getting prepared though he was shocked and stunned to listen what he never expected. He knew right then what she was trying to tell him "Samrat I am dying..." she finally and softly said, sobbing and still inside Samrats arms. Samrat was shocked to listen those words. He cudnt believe what she told. For some time there was sheer silence.

"WHAT! You mean. You mean... You already knew it?" he faced her. Gunjan was equally stunned to know that Samrat found out about her sickness before, that she had Leukemia. "Why didn't you tell me then?" he asked her. But she didn't reply to him. She just looked at him, which was again for a while, then. "Samrat I don't want to die. I don't want to leave you and go." She once again clings inside his arms and starts crying. "I don't want to leave you Samrat." She was getting out of control. "No. No'I won't let anything happen to you." He tried to control her and kissed her head. They both cried together and Samrat understood everything that happened between them. He understood her natural reserve nature. He understood her being happy for the orphans on the day of talent parade. He understood her preparations for the orphans during Christmas. Why she wanted Christmas at the orphanage to be special. Why she gave him the bible'. the present she got from her mother whom she missed a lot.

Everything made sense, but yet nothing made sense. How cud Gunjan have Leukemia?

NOTES : guys thts it for this update. honestly i had to struggle a lot while framing this part imagining things and i literally cried while writing it. i m not sure abt u.