Why is it so hard to speak English?

And as you all can see (not sure whether all above is grammatically correct, now I'm insecure 😭) I do write English. I also tweet and exchange Whatsapp messages in English.

However as a Dutch girl who has to apply for jobs in the Netherlands it was kind of a nightmare when I learned that my potential employer (who I just send my CV and who must be LOL at the English in my CV) is ☺️ Indian ☺️ and GORGEOUS 😳 as I obviously googled his name and saw his pictures 😛...oh wait that's not the nightmare. The nightmare is that he as an Indian speaks and understand English better than Dutch. Thus after reading my CV, he will most likely call me and speak English, which is freaking me out. I pray and hope he sends a mail, but my friend works in his office too and told me that he will most likely call and invite me for an interview...both in English

Whenever I created lengthy posts here like: https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/bollywood/4211759/kelas-birthday-party I never felt insecure. But the thought of having to speak English is just making me 😳 Even writing the mail and creating the CV was terrifying.

Not sure what I can do. 90% of what I watch and read is English, 90% of what I write on internet pages and social networking sites is English. Yet I feel insecure...😭

Somehow it's easier to write than speak.

not on the phone. I really wish he would just email me and ask me to agree with a date and time for an interview. Face-to-face he might love me when I appear infront of him in a tight short red dress and high heels.

Moderators trashed the 1st part 🤢 not sure why. So won't be making a 2nd, cuz I know they will trash that one too. Kind of pathetic that certain moderators like Mandy have been here for more than 10 years 😲 Do they get money? If yes, maybe I should apply at IF...

My Donald 😳 he's just so cute! Beyond excited that he will soon become President and we'll get to see him every week 😳