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So here are my entries for Round 3(a): The two OS es which i've composed. Hope it's good!
"Kyun Ajabde?" where the only words which Hansa Bai could manage to say. She was too shocked, surprised and pained to say anything more than that.
"Maa, humein kuch shan ke liye akela chod dijiye." Ajabde said in a very composed tone. But was that enough to hide that immense pain which she felt? No not at all...Hansa Bai could clearly make it our by her eyes and her voice. Even if she refused to speak anything about it, her eyes depicted all the pain she bore...her eyes spoke volumes.
"Ajabde..." Hansa Bai was angry on her. But her daughter's pain overpowered her anger on Ajabde.
"Koyi baat nahin Maa. Yadi aap nahin jayengi toh...toh hum jaa rahein hai..." She tried to sound normal and left the room hastily, almostrunning so that her tears go unnoticed by her mother.
Kitni der bhaagengi aap? Kis kis se bhaagengi aap?
Hum bhaag nahin rahein hai kisi se. Hum toh bass nahin chahte ki Maa aur Daata aur dukhi ho humari baatein sun kar...
Achha? Thik hai, chaliye maan liya. Parantu apne aap se? Apne aapse to aap kabhi bhaag nahin paayengi aur nahin koyi bahana bana paayengi.
Aap chahti kya hai humse? Aapko lagta hai yeh sab ek bahana hai? Kya chahti hai aap humse? Humein spasht roop se bataiye!
Kyun kiya aapne aisa Ajabde?
Humne wahi kiya jo humein karna chahiye tha.
Aapko lagta hai jo aapne kiya woh sahi tha?
Haan, humne jo kiya woh sahi tha. Kyun? Kya sach ka saath dena galat hai? Kya apne aatmasamman ki suraksha karna galat hai? Ya phir apne maata pita ke apmaan ke khilaaf awaaz uthana galat hai? Kya galat hai? Bataiye humein? Bataiye!
Ek mauka, kya sirf ek mauka aur nahin de sakti aap unhe?
Ek mauka? Ek mauka? Kise de ek aur mauka? Kunwar Pratap ko? Apne aap ko? Yah humarein iss sambandh ko yaa phir humarein vivaah ko? Aap ek mauke ki baat kar rahi hai na? Aur kitne mauke de hum? Aur...kitne mauke?
Humse aur nahin saha jaata! Bachpan se hum apmaan pe apmaan sehte chalein aaye hai. Parantu humne kuch nahin kaha kyunki hum apne daata ka samman katre the, kyunki tab Maa humare saath thi humein sanntwana dene ke liye...
Parantu ab...ab aur nahi saha jaata humse! Asahniya ho gaya humarein liye yeh pira, yeh apmaan!
Humein nahin pata tha ki kisi se prem karna itni badi bhooli hai... Humein nahin pata tha ki humein kabhi itne apmaan bhi sehne parenge. Nahin pata tha humein ki humaarein Daata aur humari Maa ka har pag pag par itna apmaan kiya jayega.
Samant Putri!
Haan hai hum ek saamant ki putri!
Ek saadharan samant ki putri!
Toh ismein dosh kya hai? Kya kisi samnat ki putri hona dosh maana jaata hai? Kya unhein sammaan nahin diya jaata hai ya phir woh uss sammaan ke haqdaar nahin hai?
Thak chuke hai hum! Thak chuke hai hum baar baar wahi baat sunte sunte, wahi do shabd sunte sunte! Baar baar apne daata aur apni Maa ka apmaan hote dekh!
Thak chuke hai hum ladte ladte! Thak chuke hai hum inn shadyantro se, unn logon se ladte ladte. Aur nahin hota humse yeh sahan, aur...aur nahin hota humse yeh sangharsh.
Apne aap ko nirbal bodh karte hai hum. Nirbal ho chuke hai hum baar baar apne vivaah ko toot te dekh, baar baar apni Maa, apne data,APNE sapno ko choor choor hote dekh! Hum mein aur itni shamta nahin rahi ki hum ek baar phir saahas karein, apne aapko, Kunwar Pratap aur humare smabandh ko ek mauka dene ki. Hum mein nahin hai sahas ek baar phir unn apmaano ke shikaar banne ka.
Bhool thi humari, ki hum yeh smajh baithe ki Kunwar Pratap humari baatein maan jaayenge. Apni Choti Maa ka sach swikaar kar paayenge. Hum kaise bhool gaye ki unke liye sabse pehle unki maryaada aur unki Choti Maa aati hai? Kaise bhool sakte hai hum iss baat ko?
Aur hum yeh bhi kaise soch baithe the ki...
Kunwar Pratap humarein saath khade rahenge, apni Choti Maa ko chod...unke khilaaf. Humne bhi na jaane kaise soch liya ki Kunwar Pratap humarein apmaan ke khilaaf awaaz uthayenge? Shayad hum bhool gaye the ki Kunwar Pratap apni Choti Maa ke khilaaf kabhi awaaz uthana toh kya, unke baarein mein kisi ke muh se apshabd bhi nahin sunn sakte.
Ve aapse prem karte hai...
Karte honge ve humse prem, parantu hum yeh jaante hai ki ve humse adhik apni Choti Maa se prem karte hai, unse jo humesha unhe haani pohunchaane ka maarg dhundti rehti hai.
Aur, hum itne swarthi nahin bann sakte ki keval unke humare prati prem ke karan hum apne Data evang Maa ko apmaanit hone de, hum yeh katayi nahin seh paayenge ki humari wajah se unka apmaan ho.
Parantu aapne aise kaise tod diya yeh vivaah?
Kis vishwaas ki neev se hum na todte yeh vivaah?
Kya apne sampoorna jeevan, apne Maa, Data aur swayam apmaanit hone chalein jaate Chittod mein Maharani ban kar?
Prem karte hai hum Kunwar Pratap se, parantu kya iska arth yeh hai ki hum woh har apmaan sehte rahein, unn baton ke liye apmaanti hote rahein jinmein humara koyi dosh nahi hai?
Kya ek rajputaani ka aatmasamman sabse pehle nahin aata?
Iss baat ko na hum bhool sakte hai aur naa hi jhootla sakte hai!
Aur...kya arth hai uss vivaah ka jahan do logon ke bech mein vishwaas na ho, jahan do logon ke beech bharosa na ho, ek dooje par, woh jo ek sambandh mein sabse aavashyak hota hai. Yadi ve hum par vishwaas hi nahin karte, bharosa hi nahin karte, toh...toh arth heen hai na yeh sambandh, yeh vivaah?
Yadi humarein pati humarein saath nahin khade ho paaye, toh jiss parivaar mein humara vivaah hone jaa rah tha, hum wahan ke logon se kya apekshaayein rakh sakte hai?
Yadi humarein pati apni patni ke samman ki raksha na kar paaye toh kya labh hua iss rishte ka?
Yadi do logon mein vishwaas ho toh ek sambandh prem ke bina bhi kayam reh sakta hai,
parantu yadi vishwaas hi na reh jaaye dono ke beech toh prem ka rehna bhi...arth heen ho jaata hai...
Toh aap yeh vivaah nahin karengi...?
Nahin...
Hum peeche hath rahein iss vivaah se...
Aur iss baar...
Humesha ke liye...
5 years...
She never knew when 5 years passed away... It was never less than 15 years to her...
He never knew how he had spent all these days...1825 days...43800 hours...without a single glimpse of her.
She sat there...beside the window...that window which had, all these days, witnessed her pain, her sorrow, which had often been wet with tears of repentance and pain...
Mann tera jo rog hai
Mohe samajh na paaye
'Wasn't it my decision to drift apart from you...to separate from you...to end it forever...
Than why does it hurt so much?
Then why do I still want to be with you?
Then why do I still get heartaches remembering every moment we spent together?'
Paas hai jo sab chod ke
door ko paas bulaaye
'I wish it wasn't that hard to be apart from you...
I wish the separation wasn't that much agonizing...'
jiya laage na, tum bin mora
jiya laage na, tum bin mora...
jiya laage na, tum bin moraaa...
He went to that corner of his palace which he used to visit late at nights, from the past 5 years...
To ease his pain...to hide his pain from everyone...
the balcony...that special balcony...
with the mala in his hand...yes...that mala...Ajab's shivji waali mala...
which was her only trace left with him...
Kya jaane kyun hai...
Kya jaane kaisi andekhi si dor....
'I was the only reason for which she left...
I myself wanted her to leave...
Then why I still want to be with her...to be together
I should have been happy that we are not together anymore...
Wasn't it me who wanted to get her away from my life and I still want that...somewhat...
But why can't I detach myself from her...
Why I feel I'm connected with her...
There's something which still pulls me towards her...'
Jo kheechti hai jo lechali hai
Ab yun mujhe teri ore
She looked at the dark night sky...
which was as dark as her fate...
'I don't know what had I done so sinful that destiny chose to be so cruel with me...
Would I always remain incomplete..
Maybe I'm among those stories which are destined to remain incomplete...'
Main anjaani hoon woh kahaani
Hogi na jo poori
'I never knew that the distance between us would get broader...
The hope of reunion in my heart had faded long back...
Because I know that bridging this gap is not easy.
Even if we ever come across the distance would still be vast...'
Paas aaoge to paaoge
Phir bhi hai ik doori
Jiyaa lage na tum bin mora
Jiya lage na, tum bin mora
Jiya lagena...tum bin mora...
He went down the memory lane...that day flashed before his mind...
Misunderstandings...uncertainty...disbelief...
'Why you did this? Why you broke me like this?
We were only a step away from unision but then...
Those sudden accusation...
I never knew you were like this
I never knew that the girl I loved with all my heart,
would have so many different shades...
I didn't trust you, I didn't believe you and still I don't...
But what I still believe is that you could never do this to me...
There's still something which is unknown...
Still there is some mystery which is left unsolved...'
Mann ab tak jo boojh na paaya
Tum woh paheli ho
'I wan to know...I want to solve that mystery...
that misunderstanding...
Which made us part our ways
Which separated me from you...
from my life...
I wanna know...'
Koi na jaane kya wo rahas hai
Koi na jaane kya wo rahasya hai
Jiski saheli ho
A cold breeze blew across her face messing her hair...
The breeze was unusually cold...with cold emotions...and cold feelings...
and f course...cold memories!
'I want to meet you...
I want to be with you...
The pain of separation is intolerable...
I cant pretend to be happy anymore...
I cant act to be normal just anymore...
I'm tired putting those fake smiles, every morning...'
Main muskaaun, sabse chhupaaun
Vyaakul hoon din rain
'These sleepless nights are getting impossible to get through...
I don't anymore remember the day when I last slept peacefully...
How could I?
You have seized my heart's peace...'
Kab se na aayi naino mein nindiya
Mann mein na aaya chain
"The pain is extreme...
It is unbearable...
Would that day ever come when we'll reunite?
Will that day ever come when the two broken hearts will mend once again?
Waiting for that day to come...
Waiting for our agony to end...
Waiting for those bright mornings...
Waiting for those peaceful nights...
And till then...
Jiya laage na tum bin mora
Jiya laage na, tum bin mora
Jiya laage na, tum bin mora...
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