on finding a special friend

Time for holidays...Time for fun...the endless special classes were done and the summer arrived inviting us to enjoy our lives for a while... summer passed and I never thought about her... might be she didnt even remember my name-that's what i assumed
Summer was gone and the normal days were back.School started and i felt happy seeing everyone back to school.This time on seeing her for a few days I felt something different i felt weird..😕 after returning home i started to wonder to wonder why? I started to think and remembered how a wave aroused inside me upon hearing her name for the first time a year back-I had an urge to see who this girl was coz she had the name i like the most.Then I thought thos was normal and thought"it happens on seeing a girl so different from you."

Soon the elections were near and I couldn't think of a better option than her as the house captain.I prayed whole-heartedly that she should be nominated and would win the elections...She truly deserved the post.But unexpectedly she did not get nominated😲 and by the time we all were out of the sudden shock the elections were done and she did not get it...I felt really bad and before the elections had begun i said " I want you to become the captain." She smiled and said she desired to become one. I didn't like to see her sad face and when i saw her I could see tears in her eyes and the pain of not being nominated...All the girls cheered her and finally she was over it . I wanted to console her but knew I was bad at it so did not try thinking i'll make her sad again...

Time passed by and unknowingly I started to admire her, she became someone i liked to look upto and admire and this was the first time i felt so i many years and upon sharring this feeling with my friend she said everything was normal and even she went through it ...

Soon it was time for sports competition ...she was a sports girl and loved playing basket ball...That day her team lost the game and she was very sad...i saw that sad face again which i didn't wish to see ever in my life...😭 she had her friends beside her to cheer up and tell her, " it's ok , you can do better next time and you gave your best so don't cry.." I wished to be a part of them who supported her and helped her gain confidence...aftera while I saw that same cheerful girl ready to fight back...she was truly a sports girl...I wondered how did she recover so suddenly filled with positiveness again unlike me who would sit depressed for a day...I knew she felt really bad but didn't show on her face and that needed a lot of courage which she had like always...


Days passed by and my admiration for her grew every moment...my birthday was near the corner but i wasn't any excited because i would be all alone that day...
i wished to tell people that it was my birthday the next day but didn't...My birthday arrived,she was the first person i saw when i entered school .Both of us passed a smile and it gave me immense joy..that was a memorable birthday for sure.we were still not friends,we never spoke and i didn't have the courage to speak to her myself, I told myself" come on , you can speak to her she is just your classmate who is friendly so its OK " but this didn't work out. guess my hesitation increased beyond my thought.

For a few days I didn't think about her...exams were approaching and studies became a priority which kept occupying my mind. I wanted to wish her all the best but couldn't. Soon exams were done and before i knew i didn't see her for a few days I wondered why??????? no sooner did i know than i started to miss her and waited for her to come back.Days passed like seconds and we still never spoke...