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Hi guys! So I am writing on IF after a long long time! I have decided to quit IF, but I come online sometimes, and yes, today I got a free hour in my college, and I was scribbling ideas in a paper, when I got this wild idea of writing a piece from Karna's POV! Shocking? I know most of you must have their mouths half open! But, trust me, I swear I wrote it!
Well I am not much fond of Karna but I just thought of trying out something out of my comfort zone! So, here you go! Hope you Enjoy!
PS- After reading the Draupadi part, if you want to report. Please do. I have my own blog where I can repost. :) And i dont think i am doing anything wrong by posting this.
Lucky Tears
So, I am one of the most hated, and also one of the most loved characters of Indian mythology. Well, why will I not be hated? I was unwanted in the first place. My whole birth was a conspiracy, and my birth was not scheduled to occur! Bad luck by chance. I am sure most of you know me. And yes, I am the unlucky one, who was abandoned by his mother because of the fear of society. I am the one who had been rejected by the most beautiful women in Aryavarta at her time, Princess Panchaali in Swayamvar, because of my identity.
What does truth give a human being? Well, I will not say truth gives grief. It does not. But, it does not give one happiness so easily either. I wonder if people even think what actually was truth for me? The fact that I am a Suta, or the fact that I supported Suyodhana! Well, none of it was truth for me! I did not have access to the truth! I am a madman, who kept on seeking the philosopher's stone, and it became my habit. And hence, I found it and lost it again. Truth makes you wait so much. Sometimes, your whole life!
I dont wish to describe my life to anybody. But, I just wanted to speak. Since childhood, I hardly have spoken freely. I had nobody to talk to either. But, as science, philosophy and psychology says, the only thing faster than light is the human mind, and mine was no exception. Man is always born free, but wherever he goes, he is in chains. I felt attracted towards what I should be attracted to! But, truth was in disguise in front of me! And oh, truth is a master in disguising! It disguised as boundaries.. things I was not allowed to cross! But I did not want to fall in the traps of disguise! I did try, and tried again! But, coming back to my earlier line, truth is not always beneficial.
In my life, it wasn't. And what did I get? Curse! I was wrong..yes. But I did it for the same reason why my Mother abandoned me. She did it for the fear of society. She thought I would get a better life (as the blessings of the Sun God were with me) if she abandoned me. Fair enough. She seeked the help of lies. I did the same. I lied about my identity, because it did not give me what I wanted.
Arjuna is supposed to the biggest seeker of knowledge. I respect that. He was an excellent pupil. I too wanted to be like him. And my identity, was my only obstacle! So, I took help of lies to get what I wanted. Maybe I was wrong. Let me tell you, I have been punished enough.
Nobody ever gave me any chance! The reason was, my name. My identity. I did feel I was capable to get certain things, and so, I asked for them. I had also met somebody, who was just like me. I mentioned her at the beginning. Yajnaseni.
She was also very very demanding. Luckily, she won. She got what she wanted. She had this wonderful aura in herself. Every men around me in her Swayamvar, including me felt attracted to her. I was not in love. But yes, I did desire to win her. Mistake..again. Hoping for something is always a huge mistake for me! Even today, I feel I could hit the target. Is it very wrong to be confident! Let me tell you, everybody in that hall too was confident about my victory too! My friend Suyodhana was. And I am sure, Draupadi too was. Arjuna too was. He is my brother after all. I do understand what he feels.
But, identity again. They say Kshatriyas have a different identity and a different aura! Didn't I possess that? Otherwise, how could I be an archer? Well, according to everyone Sutas cannot be archers. I lost Panchaali. I did let go.
Suyodhana did speak for me in several places, including the Swayamvar and also the Hastinapur grounds. He had so many facilities. He had so much power, and he shared his power with me. He was the first one to hold my hand when I needed it. You may call me selfish as I sided with him despite of him being in the wrong way, but selflessness never gave me anything. I wanted respect, and he wanted a strong hand. So, I lend him mine. My idea of life was different. An idea developes in the mind because of situations one has faced, and his experience with life. Life taught me its lessons, and I analysed them in my way. Whether it was wrong, or right is not what I am worried about.
And just before my final battle, truth revealed itself. Life is so mysterious! Devi Prithaa told me, that I was her eldest son, and I should join them for the battle of life. I heard my past laugh at me. I was helpless. She took away both sides from me! I could not let my loyalty go down the drain by leaving my friend, and neither could I send my Mother back empty handed. Reality giggled at me. I gave in my loyalty to Devi Prithaa. I promised not to kill any of her sons except Arjuna. But, I was that loyalty towards my friend? I was forced to doubt my own self.
And then, I left the world. Arjuna successfully defeated me. He perhaps was better than me, and that is the reason why I considered him my enemy. He defined excellence. I did not want to leave any burden into any of the Pandavas. It was Devi Prithaa who revealed the truth to me, and to her five sons. I was what I was because of what I fought for, and what I followed, and thus I had to regrets. I did not need to be a Kshatriya or a Prince. I am Karna. Just Karna.
Heroic qualities are not very very difficult to attain you see. Situation makes it difficult. But, my winning shot will always be the fact that I am still remembered, through sympathy,love and hatred. I wasn't allowed to learn archery, I wasn't allowed to win Panchaali, I wasn't allowed to use the Shakti, and I wasn't allowed to be good. But, I was allowed to leave a mark. I am very lucky indeed. I am sorry if I could not talk about other iconic incidents in my life. May the Sun shines and lives prosper for every new day Mother Earth sees. Goodbye!
Well I am not much fond of Karna but I just thought of trying out something out of my comfort zone! So, here you go! Hope you Enjoy!
PS- After reading the Draupadi part, if you want to report. Please do. I have my own blog where I can repost. :) And i dont think i am doing anything wrong by posting this.
Lucky Tears
So, I am one of the most hated, and also one of the most loved characters of Indian mythology. Well, why will I not be hated? I was unwanted in the first place. My whole birth was a conspiracy, and my birth was not scheduled to occur! Bad luck by chance. I am sure most of you know me. And yes, I am the unlucky one, who was abandoned by his mother because of the fear of society. I am the one who had been rejected by the most beautiful women in Aryavarta at her time, Princess Panchaali in Swayamvar, because of my identity.
What does truth give a human being? Well, I will not say truth gives grief. It does not. But, it does not give one happiness so easily either. I wonder if people even think what actually was truth for me? The fact that I am a Suta, or the fact that I supported Suyodhana! Well, none of it was truth for me! I did not have access to the truth! I am a madman, who kept on seeking the philosopher's stone, and it became my habit. And hence, I found it and lost it again. Truth makes you wait so much. Sometimes, your whole life!
I dont wish to describe my life to anybody. But, I just wanted to speak. Since childhood, I hardly have spoken freely. I had nobody to talk to either. But, as science, philosophy and psychology says, the only thing faster than light is the human mind, and mine was no exception. Man is always born free, but wherever he goes, he is in chains. I felt attracted towards what I should be attracted to! But, truth was in disguise in front of me! And oh, truth is a master in disguising! It disguised as boundaries.. things I was not allowed to cross! But I did not want to fall in the traps of disguise! I did try, and tried again! But, coming back to my earlier line, truth is not always beneficial.
In my life, it wasn't. And what did I get? Curse! I was wrong..yes. But I did it for the same reason why my Mother abandoned me. She did it for the fear of society. She thought I would get a better life (as the blessings of the Sun God were with me) if she abandoned me. Fair enough. She seeked the help of lies. I did the same. I lied about my identity, because it did not give me what I wanted.
Arjuna is supposed to the biggest seeker of knowledge. I respect that. He was an excellent pupil. I too wanted to be like him. And my identity, was my only obstacle! So, I took help of lies to get what I wanted. Maybe I was wrong. Let me tell you, I have been punished enough.
Nobody ever gave me any chance! The reason was, my name. My identity. I did feel I was capable to get certain things, and so, I asked for them. I had also met somebody, who was just like me. I mentioned her at the beginning. Yajnaseni.
She was also very very demanding. Luckily, she won. She got what she wanted. She had this wonderful aura in herself. Every men around me in her Swayamvar, including me felt attracted to her. I was not in love. But yes, I did desire to win her. Mistake..again. Hoping for something is always a huge mistake for me! Even today, I feel I could hit the target. Is it very wrong to be confident! Let me tell you, everybody in that hall too was confident about my victory too! My friend Suyodhana was. And I am sure, Draupadi too was. Arjuna too was. He is my brother after all. I do understand what he feels.
But, identity again. They say Kshatriyas have a different identity and a different aura! Didn't I possess that? Otherwise, how could I be an archer? Well, according to everyone Sutas cannot be archers. I lost Panchaali. I did let go.
Suyodhana did speak for me in several places, including the Swayamvar and also the Hastinapur grounds. He had so many facilities. He had so much power, and he shared his power with me. He was the first one to hold my hand when I needed it. You may call me selfish as I sided with him despite of him being in the wrong way, but selflessness never gave me anything. I wanted respect, and he wanted a strong hand. So, I lend him mine. My idea of life was different. An idea developes in the mind because of situations one has faced, and his experience with life. Life taught me its lessons, and I analysed them in my way. Whether it was wrong, or right is not what I am worried about.
And just before my final battle, truth revealed itself. Life is so mysterious! Devi Prithaa told me, that I was her eldest son, and I should join them for the battle of life. I heard my past laugh at me. I was helpless. She took away both sides from me! I could not let my loyalty go down the drain by leaving my friend, and neither could I send my Mother back empty handed. Reality giggled at me. I gave in my loyalty to Devi Prithaa. I promised not to kill any of her sons except Arjuna. But, I was that loyalty towards my friend? I was forced to doubt my own self.
And then, I left the world. Arjuna successfully defeated me. He perhaps was better than me, and that is the reason why I considered him my enemy. He defined excellence. I did not want to leave any burden into any of the Pandavas. It was Devi Prithaa who revealed the truth to me, and to her five sons. I was what I was because of what I fought for, and what I followed, and thus I had to regrets. I did not need to be a Kshatriya or a Prince. I am Karna. Just Karna.
Heroic qualities are not very very difficult to attain you see. Situation makes it difficult. But, my winning shot will always be the fact that I am still remembered, through sympathy,love and hatred. I wasn't allowed to learn archery, I wasn't allowed to win Panchaali, I wasn't allowed to use the Shakti, and I wasn't allowed to be good. But, I was allowed to leave a mark. I am very lucky indeed. I am sorry if I could not talk about other iconic incidents in my life. May the Sun shines and lives prosper for every new day Mother Earth sees. Goodbye!
CID
