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CHAPTER 11- Talking Business
"It's hard to resist a bad guy who's a good man!
"Thinking about me?"
I turned around and of course he was sitting beside me. "Nope. I've some other shit going on my mind right now". I shot. We sharing a dance n me having my moment of weakness won't change the fact that he is a jerk n I hate him.
"Wore ur snappy pants again I see". He chuckled.
I rolled my eyes in response. "Go away. This is not the right time to irritate me. I'm seriously not in a mood to worry about where to dump your dead body."
He laughed again at my comment. He should be taking me more seriously.
"Tell me something", he said catching his breath, "Why does everything has to be right for you? Right guy, right situation, right time. Don't you ever just follow ur heart n do things, without over-spending ur brain over it?"
"Oh really? Then tell me how should I act? Go over sleeping with every other guy I see on the road without giving any 'thought'?" I taunted.
"Sure, if all the other guys are as hot as me!" He winked.
Ahh he's getting on my nerves now. "What do you want Rishabh?"
"U know what I want"
I shot him a glare n he immediately straightened.
"However, I can do a little talking for now."
I didn't respond n he continued.
"Ok I'll start. I wanted to ask u this, why r u always so pissed at me? I mean I did literally nothing to deserve so much hate."
I leaned back n said in a low voice, "Its not u. But, just the way u r."
He narrowed his eyes looking all confused.
"I mean I've never seen anyone like u. U know, like u r, so casual about flirting n sleeping around with anyone. Ur choice of living differs so much from what I've idealized n it irks me. " I tried to explain but honestly now as I hear my own words, they sound so stupid n illogical!
"So basically u hate me because I don't function like, what u call, the 'ideal' way."
I was embarrassed realizing how childish I sound. But deep down I knew that there was no hate in me for him. Hate would be the last thing I can hold in my heart for this man. I guess I was just irritated of the fact that we don't match, n we can't ever be together. So pretending to hate him was easier. "That's not exactly how it sounds"
"Sure." He crossed his hands n looked at me mockingly. "I'm listening!"
God, he was teasing me. "U know what, drop it. N from when have you started listening? I thought normal talking wasn't ur THING!"
He looked away trying to come with a good reply. "I can play decent sometimes."
"Sure!" I chuckled. "Hey, since we r doing this talking stuff, I want to ask u a question too".
"Go on."
I paused for a while knowing exactly what I wanted to ask him. I looked at his face to carefully notice his change of expressions, if any. "Why did u lie to me that day?"
N sure enough, I noticed his face went rigid. He turned to look on the grass ahead. With nervously fidgeting his fingers, he replied, "I never lied to u. That day when I saw u, I couldn't recognize u. Not until u...blasted on me n left. I thought deeply of why that happened n then it hit me. I remembered that u were the same girl I once chatted online"
His confession somewhere broke my heart. In a weak voice I asked, "Was our chat that insignificant fr u that u didn't remember anything about me? Neither my face, nor my name, nor the fact that I was a med student. Nothing clicked u?"
He gulped, still having his eyes focused to the ground "I didn't remember any of that detail not even ur face. I used to chat with so many girls, sometimes even with multiple of them at the same time."
I felt as if someone has ripped my heart out. I knew he might have met many girls like me but the fact that the moments he shared with me, the moments I cherish so much, our moments, might not even had been just ours!
"N I didn't think I'll ever meet u. U wanted it that way, remember?" He turned to look at me n continued defending himself. " I don't know what u r complaining about." He ran his fingers through his hair getting frustrated. "I had been all clear about my intentions from the very start!"
"I know that" my voice came out sounding hurt. "But I guessed this time would have been different for u. I thought maybe.." I choked. I couldn't bring myself to do this anymore. So I got up n quickly turned to leave.
"Wait" he called as he grabbed my hand n pulled me to stand face to face with him.
"Leave me" I struggled in his strong grip.
"Not before u complete telling me the whole thing. U wanted to talk, right? Let's get over with this then"
I was breathing heavily n my tears threatened to come out. "I really thought u...u cared for me!"
He sighed "Why? I had told u very clea.."
"I know what u said!" I snapped. "It was not u...It was me!" I looked down nervously at his tie, not sure if I should tell him this. "Despite of knowing everything that how we would never work, I...I couldn't help liking u. I knew how crazy n strong my feelings could be so I decided to block u before the things got out of my control".
I could feel he was staring at me but didn't dare to look in his eyes.
"But when I saw u that again, all those feelings came back n...n I thought I would see if u too..."
He let go off my hand n took a step back.
I closed my eyes n continued, "But ur rejection hurt me. The fact that you didn't even recognize me shattered me. N I don't blame u for this". I looked up to finally meet his eyes. "As u said, U NEVER PROMISED ME ANYTHING!
He kept staring at me with a concerned expression. Was he feeling sorry for me? I don't need his pity! I know I let my guards down but that doesn't mean I was asking for his sympathy.
"I..I don't know what to say!" he nervously brushed his hand through his hair
But I've got my answer. I gathered my leftover self-esteem n turned around to walk away.
"Wait. f**k! just give me a minute to process all this "
He was desperately shaking his head trying to figure out something. I decided to stay. Like he said, let's finish this once n for all!
"U need to understand what I'm about say, keeping all your judgements aside"
I nodded.
He chewed his bottom lip n spoke, "That day chatting with you, did felt different. But u were looking for something that I would never offer. So we decided to end it. N then I got busy with my life n my routine, n I almost forgot about u. That's why I didn't recognize u. But though I didn't recall ur name ur face or any detail about u.."
He paused n I was yearning to learn more.
" I did remember everything about the strange chat I had, the way it made me feel, n the little ache I feel whenever I bring myself to remind that I'm never going to see her again."
I had goosebumps hearing his earnest confession. His mere acknowledgement of the fact that it was special for him too, melted my heart n just like that, all my pain n heartbreak was gone.
"Thanks fr ur honesty." I said
He smiled. "Thanks to u for letting me offer it".
We both stood still looking around anywhere but not each other.
He finally broke the silence, "So this talking thing, it's not that bad, huh"
I laughed n saw him cheer up to.
"Yup that's how people of my type do it."
"U mean the ideal type" he teased.
I rolled my eyes.
"Anyways how long are you here?"
"I'm staying here for 2 more days. U?" I asked back
"Oh, I've an early flight tomorrow morning. Was here to attend this event. What about you?"
"I'm here on a vacation. Just done with our 2nd yr exam". I informed.
He raised a brow n remarked, "I thought medicos didn't have a life!"
I gave him a sarcastic smile. "We can afford a vacation or 2!"
"Sure" He chuckled. "Bdw who r u here with, BF?"
I sneered at his question. "No. I don't have a BF!"
"Oh!"
Wait, did I catch relief in his voice?
"I thought the guy u were standing with before.."
"Oh no, he is a friend, just friend. I'm here with a bunch of people. My cllg friends" I explained. I didn't know why, but I didn't want him to have any doubts about me being involved with someone. Surely this is the insane part of me talking!
"Ok. I was just curious". He smiled. "So u got any dinner plans?"
I looked at him surprised. Was he asking me out? "Don't u think u r taking this 'decent thing' way too far?"
He put his hands in his pockets n sheepishly looked at me. "Well, a man has got to eat n what's better than having a beautiful company! "
"U know I still don't plan to sleep with you, right?
"I know"
Huh, I was unsure of his choice of words "N u want to take me out on a dinner knowing before hand that we won't engage in...any business?"
"Yes n No!"
I narrowed my brows questioningly.
"Yes for taking u to dinner n no to..." He moved ahead still having his hands in his pockets "the possibility of we not having sex"
"Rishabh!" I warned
"I know what you think now but a lot can change over a dinner. Besides, u have to agree,
I'm a pretty good charmer!"
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That's it. I know this update is filled with more of conversing n, pretty much nothing else but I wanted to give an elaborate stress on their "talk" because they hardly did it before n they had this coming. I'm so relieved that all the confusion, misunderstanding, miscommunication, tension n all that negativity between them is finally over! đ Or...is it? Definetly not kyunki bday abhi baaki h mere dostđ
What do you think about this update? Will Madhu agree to go with our charmer? Shoot ur views.đ
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Edited by prishathebest - 6 years ago
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