Its been 3 years now...three years since he left...3 years since I left this city. These 3 years has changed a lot. I have changed...the course of my life has changed...but there's one thing that hasn't changed at all...my love for him. Today...when I am back to New York again..even this city seems to be changed. 3 years ago..it was so different...so beautiful. But today...it seems as if this city doesn't want to welcome me anymore. I looked around and started walking home. The air here has changed a lot...I close my eyes taking in the air. Opening my eyes I find Rishu there waving at me near the horizon. He calls out to me..even runs nearer. But I don't let my imagination go any further..I don't want to.
I keep walking and just then I realize that I have reached the park where we used to come together. I smiled weakly. The memories of the time we spent together are still fresh in my mind. And I wont ever forget that time. It was the best time of my life.
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"Madhu stop." He said running behind her. She didn't stop but just ran. She looked behind at him and teased "Come on rishu. Catch me. Come." She teased and started running again. Madhu. Stop it yaar. I cant run anymore." He said stopping to catch his breath. She stopped there and walked back to him. "You couldn't even catch me. Tsk Tsk Tsk." She said grinning widely. He was lying there on the green grass with his eyes closed. Opening his eyes he said "Oh yeah..I cant catch you huh?" He said and quickly pulled her. She lost balance and fell down on him. "See..I caught you." He smirked. "You cheated Rishu." She said looking away angrily. "No I didn't...dont ever challenge me Madhu. Coz then if I catch you...then I wont ever leave you." He said naughtily making her blush. She hit him on his chest and tried to get up, but his hold on her waist was stronger. His smirk was turning her cheeks pink. "So my cupcake is blushing huh?" He asked and she blushed even harder. "I love you so much Madhu." He said looking into her eyes. "I love you too Rishu."He rolled and came on top of her. With a sexy smirk he said "Yeah I know." She stared at him and raised her brow. He looked at her naughtily and looked around. There was no one nearby. He again looked at her and eyeing her lips he said " Umm...there's no one nearby. So..." She blushed knowing well what he was up too and he placed his lips over hers in a sweet, passionate kiss.
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A honk brought me back to my senses and I smiled at the thought of the time I and Rishu had spent together. Rishu has always been the best husband ever. He loved me very much..and so did I. But he left, leaving me all alone in this world. But I aint angry...infact I am grateful...as I got atleast sometime to spend with him. I still love him. My love for him has got even more over all these years. I closed my eyes and a lone tear escaped my eye. As I inhale and take in the air I feel as if Rishu is still here...besides me. I feel as if the time has gone behind. But the minute I exhale and open my eyes...everything gets back to normal. I still miss him..I miss talking to him...looking into his eyes...sleeping in his arms. I miss every single moment spent with him. But I still feel his presence around me...I still feel he is here, with me - ALWAYS.
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She was lying on his chest and looking at the stars. His eyes were closed and he was ruffling her hair. "Rishu." Madhu whispered. "Hmm." He said with his eyes still closed. "Rishu, you will always be with me na ?" She asked. He opened his eyes and kissing her forehead he said "Of course. Where will I go?" "I don't know." She whispered. There was a brief pause between them. He then said looking at her "I aint going anywhere leaving you doll." She looked into his eyes and said "Promise?" "I promise" He said smiling and she smiled at him too. "I love you Rishu. I cant live without you." She said burying her face in his chest. "Even I cant live without you angel." He said kissing her shoulder. "We will always be together na?" She asked looking at him with innocent eyes. "Of course darling." He said kissing both her eyelids.
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I still remember that day when he promised me to be by my side always...that we would always stay together. But he didn't complete his promise...he left me. I wiped away my tears. He hates them. I smile while walking. "Madhu" I hear a shout. It was Rishu's voice. I smile as I turn behind. He came running out of the park. He is coming in my direction. "Rishu." I whispered with happiness. He is coming closer and closer. I smile at him and he casts his usual charming smile. A tear falls down from my eyes as I watch him come closer. Just when he was a little far away he disappeared, disappointing me. I closed my eyes...I was hallucinating, yet again. He was always present in my thoughts...in my love ...and in my memories.
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"Madhu stop crying princess please? For me?" He said caressing her face. "No. How can you leave me in such a crowd Rishu? Do you know how scared I was?" She asked sobbing. "I know baby. And I am sorry too." "Please forgive me na. I got an important call and I needed to go." He said. "More important than me too?" She asked pouting. "Ofcourse not sweetheart. There's nothing more important than you for me." He said kissing her forehead. "And now stop crying. You know how much I hate those tears of yours." He said wiping her tears. She hugged him and clutched his shirt. She then wiped her nose on his shirt and looked up at him with a naughty smile. What was that?" He asked shocked. "That was your punishment." She said giggling making him chuckle too.
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I smiled softly and wiped my tears knowing well that he hates my tears. I wish he would be there here, with me. Or if that's not possible...then I want to go to the place where he is. I want to be with him - forever.
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"Hey" She said hugging him from behind. He immediately turned behind. He had a hint of tear in his eyes. "Rishu? Is...is everything fine?" She asked caressing his cheek. He closed his eyes and managed to put a smile up. "Yeah baby. I am absolutely fine. Why? Don't you feel so? He asked smiling. Madhu scrunched her eyebrows together noticing the sudden change. "I don't know. You were crying...werent you?" She asked slowly. "N..No. Ofcourse not. Now stop thinking Madhu. I am absolutely fine. And now...I am really very hungry." He said caressing his stomach. She gently smiled at him and replied "I will set the dining table. Come down fast." Then she left and Rk just looked at her going.
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Hoe easily he lied to me that day! How easily did he just say that everything was perfectly fine! But how couldn't I understand? How couldn't I make out that something was wrong? How couldn't I make out that he was worried about something? I..I wish I would have know earlier...I wish I could have done something...but even if I would have known, would I be able to save him? Would I be able to save my husband?
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She was humming a song while cleaning the room. "Oh god! Rk messes everything up!" She said picking up his shirt which was lying on the floor. She wiped the sweat beads on her forehead and sat down on the bed, tired. Suddenly she noticed a file kept on the table besides the bed. She picked up the file and sighed "Ofoo...I guess he forgot his file yet again." She opened the file ad got the biggest shock of her life. It was some hospital papers. She quickly went through those papers and a lone tear escaped her eye. She kept the file aside and sat there doing nothing. Her mind was occupied with a million questions. "Rishu...Rishu cant be ill...he cant have cancer...no..no. He...he cant leave me. No!" She shouted in agony. She sat there...like a statue.
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I still remember that pain...that fear of losing him. I couldn't think of losing him..i loved him. I couldn't live without him. He was the best husband ever! The perfect partner anyone would have. I was lucky that he was mine. He always loved me like no one did. He made me feel special...different...beautiful. I didn't want to lose him on any condition. I just couldn't imagine my life without him. I am incomplete without my Rishu.
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She was still sitting there. She was in pain...she was devastated. She didn't want to let her husband go away leaving her. She didn't wanna live her rest of the life yearning for him...missing him. She didn't even want to imagine her life without him. Suddenly Rk entered the room and switched on the lights. He was back from work. She immediately looked up due to the sudden brightness. He gaped at her. Her hair was disheveled...her face had gone pale..her eyes had turned swollen and her nose completely red. Rk rushed to her side with concern. The tears which had stopped falling from her eyes long back started falling back again. She couldn't hide her feelings infront of him. HE wiped her tears and kissed her forehead. "Madhu? Sweetheart whats wrong? Why are you crying? Tell me." Rk asked ruffling her hair and she immediately hugged him tightly. She was sobbing loudly. Rk had never seen her in such a state. His heart ached to see her like this. "Shh." He was patting her back trying to soothe her. "Don't leave me." She said in a tone which was quite unclear due to her cries. But it wasn't hard for him to understand what she was saying. He was confused...he didn't understand the reason why she was suddenly behaving like this. "I wont leave you cupcake. Why are you saying this?" HE asked bringing her closer. "Don't lie. I know you would leave me." She said pulling away shocking him. "What's wrong with you darling?" He asked lovingly holding her hands. She closed her eyes...she couldn't bare the pain any longer. She slowly handed him the file with trembling hands. He was shocked...everything stopped around him. This was the thing he feared the most. He looked at her with painful eyes. A tear escaped his eye. "Don't leave me please." She whispered looking at him. He lowered his eyes..he didn't know what to say or what to do. He just hugged her and said "I love you Madhu...I love you so, so much." He said kissing her temple. "Then why are you leaving me?" She asked closing her eyes. "Nothings in my hand sweetheart." He said slowly. "I cant live without you Rishu."She said clutching his shirt. "You have to try baby." He said cupping her face with tears in his eyes. "How can I live without you Rishu?"
"Madhu...there's a lot more left in this world sweetheart. There's your parent...my parents..your friends..you wont even feel my absence after some time baby." He managed to say. It was difficult for him to ask her forget about him..but he couldn't be selfish...his love couldn't be selfish. "No...I wont...I just cant forget you dammit! Cant you understand?" Madhu shouted controlling her tears. Rk lovingly wiped her tears and said "You have to try and live baby. And where am I going huh? Remember I promised to always be with you...by your side. I wont break my promise..i will always be present in your memories...in your love." "No...i want you here besides me Rishu. Just don't leave me. Please.." He softly pecked her on her lips and hugged her trying to control his turmoil.
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That day he asked me to forget him...to distract myself. But I couldn't...i couldn't forget him. And how could I? He was my husband..my love..my everything. I had never imagined that I would have to live without him...that I would have to live with just his memories. Why did god did this to me? To us? We were so happy. Then why did he do this? Why? A tear escaped my eye. I looked up at the dark, grey sky. I closed my eyes...trying to get a hold over my feelings..trying to get all those thoughts out of my mind. Suddenly a drop of rain fell on my face..it started raining and everyone started running here and there..but I didn't..i just stood there. I wanted to enjoy..i wanted to get wet in the rain.
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"Hey" Rishabh said hugging her from behind. She looked at him and smiled. She kissed him on his cheek making him smile. "What are you doing standing here?" He asked nuzzling her neck. She tilted her head a bit giving him better access. "Its raining. I wanna go out in the rain." "Ahaan..so my wife wants to get wet huh?" He asked smirking. She nooded and he picked her up in his arms and walked towards the garden. He kept her down and watched her spread her hands with joy. She moved about in circles and let the rain drops fall on her. Rk just stared at her. She was looking beautiful...like an angel. He gently held her hand and made her turn towards him. He stared at her and his intense gaze made her body burn. He cupped her face making her look straight into his eyes. He gently placed his lips over hers into a sweet romantic kiss. His hands curved up around her waist and she rested her hands on his shoulder. He then pushed his tongue into her mouth devouring her. A moan escaped her mouth. Their lips were moving in perfect harmony. Without breaking the kiss he carried her and started walking towards their room. He placed her on the bed and leaning on the bed he started placing hot wet kisses on her neck. Her whole body felt as if it was on fire. She moaned in pleasure. He once again started kissing passionately and she started unbuttoning his shirt. He got rid of her clothes too and started exploring her body kissing every inch of it. The night was filled with loud moans and passion of two lovers. The morning light fell on her face and she managed to open her eyes. He was already awake. She smiled and he caressed her face. "How did you sleep?" He asked. "Good." She replied in a sleepy tone. He smiled and hugged her. "I wish I could always be in your arms like this Rishu." She said burying her face into the crook of his neck. HE kissed her ear and said slowly "That cant be possible cupcake." She didn't reply but just hugged him tighter.
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She reached home. Tears continuously falling down her eyes. She looked around the house. Nothing seemed as before...everything was so different without him. She couldn't breathe...she felt suffocating...Looking at their pictures hanged on the wall her eyes filled with tears. She missed him..She missed him terribly.She had lost him just 3 hours ago but she couldn't accept his death. She couldn't accept the fact that her husband was no longer with her. She started walking towards her room with heavy steps. She sat there and closed her eys. She opened her eyes and noticed a paper kept besides the bed. She slowly picked it up and unfolded it.
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I still have that letter with me. I haven't thrown it. And how could I? It was rishus last memory. I put my hand in the pocket of my jacket and removed a paper out. It was the same letter. I caressed it and gently unfolded it.
To my beautiful Madhu,
The time spent with you has been the best time of my life...I would always cherish those moments. ..till my last breath. To say that you were my hard does no justice to my feelings...I don't know how I feel. But I just needed to tell you that..I love you MAdhu..I loved you so much! My love for you had grown stronger over time. You would always be in my heart and the best of me would always star=y back with you...in your memories. I had always accepted the fact that I was gonna die...what I hadn't accepted was the fact of not being with you. Yes...i am too young to die. And that's not fair. But I don't regret anything. Coz I got the love of my life and I loved her till my last breath. And that's the only reason why I feel that I was a lucky man who lead a beautiful life. And now you have tgo move on cupcake...you have to keep on going. And I know you would be fine coz I would be here with you ..watching you.
Love,
Rishu.
My eyes welled up with fresh tears. I had reached home. I could see it from a distance. I Smiled. I could see Rishu smiling near the door. I Knew it wasn't true..I was hallucinating...But I no longer cared. I Wanted to go near him. I started taking bigger steps to reach there before he disappear. My smile grew wider..everything seemed changed..the air around changed. Happiness bloomed within me. I ran to reach near him. THUD! I fell on the road...blood oozing out of my head...my whole body felt as if knifes were being inserted from everywhere. I felt dizzy...everything arounf me blurred. Everyone started rushing towards me. I could still see him standing near the door. He was smiling. I managed to smile back. He started proceeding towards me and I closed my eyes as the pain became unbearable. "Madhu" I heard him whisper. I opened my eyes and saw him standing just near me. A tear escaped my eye. He gave me a warm smile and the got up. He Then started walking away..with a girl! I could feel a lump in my throat. A cry escaped my mouth. Just before I closed my eyes they turned back..I was shocked...confused. The girl...she was me! Evrything blurred around me. Maybe now..we were going to be together- forever.
Ps. Lol...So wat say guys..I know it was bad..speacially towards the end..so everything is welcome 😆 I hope ur hunger is fulfilled now (If u knw wat i mean) Lol...now no other Os's for a while...let me study 😆 I havent re read it (Too Lazy too do tht) So please dont mind the errors.
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