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Our Little Forever
"MOM! I am just going for a walk in the Park! I'll be back soon!"
"Alright., but come back soon. We are going over to the Parslow's tonight. They have invited us for dinner at 8." said Mom as she walked into the open kitchen. One could always see from there of who is entering or leaving the house. Well except if you're a freak like my younger brother who has grown an interest in free running and would just climb and jump out of a window. I always knew he was crazy and now am just waiting for him to break a bone of his so that it can set his mind straight and would use the door like a human and not do random stunts like a monkey.
"Mom it's only 5 yet, i will be back on time."
"No trust in you Madhu, because we all know that you just wonder of in your own world sitting on that bench." she sighted.
"Yeah, Bye.."
This Park, i don't know what attracts me to it, but everything is just so peaceful here. Yes there is noise like the children playing or even adults but they all are surrounded with laughter and joy. It's not that i am not happy with my life, actually i could never ask for a better family or friends but i know there is something out there which i have a right on but still haven't found it in my 24 years of existence.
"Hi Madhu"
"Oh Hey" i greeted sitting down onto my knees. I planted a kiss onto his cheek smiling wide and he also returned it making me rubbing my nose against his to show affection to which he started to laugh. He always did when i meet him. I talked to him for a bit about his day when i had to bid goodbye to him.
"Okay Mike, look Mommy is waving for you to come. I think you have to go home now." i told the 5 years old gently. And with that he ran off and I made my way to my favourite spot, an old bench. Nobody really ever sits on that one.
To my surprise, today there was someone sitting there, a Man. Still it being the only spot i actually like i made my way over to it and sat on the other end of it. I had a quick glance at the person who seemed to be in his own thoughts. He was certainly new to this area as i have been living in the same part of London for like the past 15 years. After that quick look at him i didn't face him and neither did he do anything. Silence. Dead Silence, but it felt good in some weird way.
"Errr...Hi." he greeted which took me off guard for a moment. It was unexpected that's why i guess. "...hi.." i said in the most uncertain voice ever.
"I am Rishabh Kundra." he extended his hand.
"Madhubala Malik" i said as i shook it. It kind of felt weird but warm.
"Call me Madhu, everyone does." i said trying to create a conversation.
"You can call me RK if you want. All of my friends do."
"I'll stick with Rishabh, i like that more." i said with a shrug, It just felt more right.
"So you new here?" i asked
"Well yeah, been living here for the past 2 months." i knot my brows in confusion.
"How come i never meet or seen you before?"
"Well i am not a very socializing person.." he said with a small smile. I chuckled at that.
"What's funny?"
"Well you stating that you are not very socializing, because if i remember right it was you who started this conversation."
"Well that's just because i couldn't hold myself back from talking to this beautiful person who was sitting next to me" he said with a smile which just made me stare at him. His eyes just had this joy, affection filled warmness in them.
"You know...you have a breath taking smile Madhu." he continued. I didn't know what to say or what to do. Yes he was good looking and seemed like a kind person. But i hardly knew him and he was kind of creeping me out even if i liked his compliments.
"I...I think I should leave.." i said getting up
"Wait...Sorry, i didn't mean to scare you.." he said grabbing my hand, preventing me from leaving. "Can we just be friends to get to know each other?" I thought for a little and then agreed.
That night at the Parslow's I just couldn't stop thinking about him. He was just like any other man yet different. Something for sure did attract me to him but wasn't it too fast?
Months passed and we kept meeting up regularly. He indeed wasn't very socializing. It was just me he really talked to and i kind of liked that. I had him all to myself. He was 27 years old, is a manger at a bank, an orphan but very strong and Independent. He did have family but they lived at the other side of London. We would spend time walking in the park or sitting on that bench where we first meet or would even hand out at his or my place and play video games. I felt complete around, every moment seemed to meaningful and i knew for sure that i was slowly and steadily falling deeply in love with him.
But in this perfect time and life we were experiencing or well i was, he was changing. There were times when i knew he was trying to avoid me or doesn't want to talk to me. He also seemed to be a bit paler which i first guessed to be because of the cold winter but i knew something was wrong. Maybe he was missing his family but he just won't tell me.
We were sitting on the same bench in the park after we had gone out for dinner. It was just a friendly one, nothing serious or special but the evening did. It was snowing and i did feel a little cold as the wind blew, therefore unconsciously i snuggled into him seeking for warmth. "Look...Madhu i can't do this anymore..." He said pushing me away a little
"What do you mean?"
"Madhu...we..we shouldn't be friends..."
"We aren't because i think we have something greater than friendship between us..." i stated for a matter of fact.
"No we should stop this all...it will just lead us to hurt. I can't do that to you." he said getting up, ready to move away from me but i wouldn't let him go this easily. Before he could move away i held his hand pulling it back.
"I need you..."
"Madhu...please don't do this to me..." He said sighting sadly. He sat down next to me and i just encircled my arms around his waist. Not wanting to ever let go. He placed one arm over my shoulder and took my hand with the other.
"I...i have to tell you something.."he said in an intense and shaking voice. I pressed his hand a little to let him know that i was there for him.
"Madhu..I...it's serious.." his voice and words kind of scared me but he needed me
"Wh..What is serious Rishabh?"
"Madhu i don't want to lose you..."
"Neither do I.."
"But what is you would have to..?"
"I would fight...i need you Forever by my side and i too want to be forever by your side.." "Madhu...What if I don't have Forever to live?" he asked..
"What do you mean? Tell me.." i said with a tear escaping my eye.
"Madhu...I have C...Cancer..." I just looked at him in shock. It couldn't be...he was young and healthy.
"NO..No...no...you can't...just can't..." i knew i was shaking but i didn't care. It was like some part of me being suddenly attacked and i had no way of defending it.
"Please don't do this to me...that's why i want you to distance yourself from me...you shouldn't get too attached because i am not going to survive this." I looked at him with tearful and pain filled eyes. He can't say that, i know he would no matter what.
"No i won't go...I Love You.."
"Don't..."
"You wish i couldn't but i wish for it to grow just deeper with every passing second." that was the truth. He was like a drug to me which i needed, i couldn't separate from him. I just couldn't.
"You will be hurt really badly.." He said with tears now in his own eyes.
"Have i ever told you that your eyes are just beautiful...they attract me to you...to your soul." "Madhu..." he whispered lightly inching closer to me and capturing my lips into his. He nibbled slowly and gently to which i responded. It was a Kiss of Pain and agony.
"I Love you Madhubala Malik.." he whispered resting his forehead to mine.
"I Love you too, Rishabh Kundra.." and once again he placed his soft and cold petals on mine.
After we broke the kiss, nothing was spoken. We just sat there, together in the soothing silence of the night.
"Madhu, you have to understand that i have got just little time to live.." he said in a whisper breaking the silence.
"Rishabh that little time is your forever..."
"But not your forever..."
"We will make it Our Little Forever'.." i told him in an assuring voice. Whatever time he had, we would make it our perfect little FOREVER.
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So How was it people? Good? Bad?
NOTE: Everyone please do understand that i was inspired by 'The Fault in our Stars' for this OS. I watched it yesterday and just fell in love with the idea of that 'Little Forever' therefore many of you would find similar ideas in this. I don't know how everything is written in the book as i am not a reader. Lol sounds ironic, i write but don't read...well i do read FF's but not books...weird i know..
P.S. Anyone who hasn't seen the movie has to watch it!! It is just Perfect!! Or well atleast read the book but i don't know how good it is...
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-Lubeeda😊
