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Hey peeps,
I'm back with another piece of writing, of course after ages.😆 I can't even remember when did I post my last story here.😕 I've been really busy with my studies as a medical student! I also I have my semester exams coming up next month. I never thought I will end up writing about Rajbala cuz I haven't watch it for several days due to my studies. But got to read about the spoilers of the upcoming track and couldn't resist myself of writing about them. This is my first OS about Rajbala.😳 Please do excuse the mistakes as I'm writing after a long time.😆 Special thanks goes to my bestie Steph for suggesting me a title as usual I suck in naming my stories. 😆Enjoy reading and please share your views about my story.😳All that matters
I fought within my self to fight the tears that were about to burst out of my system. Crying through my eyes wasn't good enough. My body shuddered and broke in to a million pieces. He knew I was about to fall apart. He knew I was bad at letting go. I did too.Soon I recollected my self and apologized for crying. He said 'Its fine, I think you are strong.' I slowly smiled at him. But I found it fascinating that he found me strong when all I do is break down in front of him. I knew he wasn't lying. I just couldn't understand. But I loved him for understanding me, so I cried some more. What was most ironic was the fact that, he was the reason I was crying and it was he who consoled me. I have never felt more alone in this world.
'Madhu?' He looked back again.I could clearly see the sadness in his face. His voice was shaking, when he uttered my name. I knew it was hard. I didn't know what to say. There is nothing left to talk. It's time for him to leave, why should I stop? I don't own him. 'Let him go Madhu!' 'Try to forget everything! Let him go!' I ordered myself.
He came towards me again for the second time. I smiled looking at him, I felt like he is coming to me forever, but I was wrong. I need to face the reality. He is leaving me today. But who knows what if will never meet again? That little feeling made me sick. I didn't want to lose him at any cost. At the same time I just couldn't pour out my feelings for him. I was afraid of love. I couldn't understand. I felt like I was lost in a desert. Nobody is there to understand me, listen to my feelings.
'What's wrong?' he asked softly, gently stroking my palm with his finger tips.' I..' started, but I didn't know what to say. I felt suffocated. What's happening to me? I just couldn't figured out. 'Madhu!' let him go damn it!' I scold my self again. But I couldn't stop my tears, I tried a million times but I failed.
He said 'It's okay.Cry.' I found comfort in those three words.I just continued to cry in his arms. He kissed my forehead gently. I felt the warmth of him. It was special. I felt it. This wasn't the first time he kissed me, but in the previous times I found it disgusting.
Flash back
'Why don't you just kill me off?' I cried loudly. I could almost hear it echoed through the empty room. 'Why?' 'Why don't you just trigger and kill me at once?' I shook him. He dropped the pistol which he used to threaten me while ago. 'Ma..' 'Stop it!' 'Dare you utter my name from your filthy mouth.'
'I.. I love you Madhu!' 'Damn it I love you!' His voice echoed. He kept coming forward, I could see the possessiveness in his eyes. It scared me to death. I felt unsafe. I had no idea what was his next step. I kept moving backwards until I collided with the wall. He had almost pinned me.
'Madhu..' He was looking at my eyes straightly. I wished I could disappear at once. I felt like I was a prey of a wild animal. I closed my eyes. I felt that I'm going to die in the very next second. I lost all my senses.
I felt dizzy and just couldn't realize what just happened to me. My vision was blurred. I tried to open my eyes, but it was hard. I felt my eye lids were thousand pounds heavy. Somehow after a few attempts I opened my eyes and the very next sight made me shocked to death. He was next to me sleeping, holding my hand tightly.
'What the..?' I tried to release my hand but he kept holding it tightly. 'How dare you?' I raised me voice.'Ma.. Madhu?' 'Are you ok?' He stood up. I slapped him tightly. I didn't know how my hand raised up, but I wanted to punish him for how he had been behaving with me for the past few days. 'He deserves more than that!' I spoke to my self. I felt I was burning inside. It was justified, I've been treated in a way that I would never like to see even in my worst nightmare.
'What kind of a love is this?' 'You can't force me!' 'And how could you stoop so low?' 'Kill me Raja!' 'Please kill me and release me from this.' I cried for the millionth time in front of him. 'Madhu please..' He spoke up, in a gentle tone.'No I'm not ready to listen to your stupid lectures! Just leave me alone!' 'If you can't leave me then kill me at once and finish off.'
Raja's POV
She kept begging in front of me like she used to do always. But how could I let her go? I'm in love with her madly, why can't she just understand? Was I wrong in expressing my love towards her?' I asked myself again. 'Where did I messed up? what was my fault? Everything I did so far till date cause I want her. I want her in my life. I just can't think about a life without her.
'She calls it possessive, yes it is. I am afraid of that. I don't wanna lose her. 'But..' I stopped and recalled what happened so far. 'It.. it wasn't bearable, I understand. 'Raja just let her go! You can't win her ever!' But are you sure want to let her go?' I questioned myself again. It was impossible though finally I came to a conclusion that I should let her leave. I should release her from all these pains.
'You..' I gulped my words. I could see the tearful eyes of her pleading to let her go. 'You can go!' Finally I could gather my words. I could see her facial changes. Surprised and almost jumping with joy. I wanted to smile at her once, but how could I? I'm dying inside each and every second passing by.
Madhu's POV
'Oh my god!' 'Was it for real?' 'What did I just hear?' I wanted to scream with joy. But I controlled myself. 'What if this was another trap of him?' 'I can't trust him at any cost. I looked at him again. He kept staring at me hopelessly. I knew I'm gonna win. Hope he had realized his mistakes. But he surely deserves a punishment for the mental trauma I went through the past few days. Ready to face it! I spoke proudly to myself.Without wasting a second, I escaped.
'How could I?' 'I didn't stop after escaping. I filed a complaint against him for harassing me. Specially after I found that he was sleeping next to me, when I opened my eyes that day. It made me horrible. I knew nothing happened when I was unconscious but I just couldn't control myself. The flash backs of the painful incidents I faced made me go for a complaint against him. At least he will learn a lesson not to harm anybody ever again.
He was in the jail for 3 days till he was bailed out by his family members. The time flew by. I started missing him everyday. 'Isn't that strange?' 'I hated him more than anybody in this world, but why the hell I keep missing him?' 'Missing what?' I questioned myself thousand times. 'Shouldn't I be happy that I am not with him anymore? But why is this bothering me?' I was stressed out with the fact that I've started missing him and, simply I have started loving him.
'Love?' No it can't be love!' 'How can I love a person who tried to force me?' We were married but love never happened in our lives. He confessed his love several times, but in an unsuitable way. I knew he was possessive about me but I never wanted to live my life with a man like him who never understood my feelings.
'Love?' No it can't be love!' 'How can I love a person who tried to force me?' We were married but love never happened in our lives. He confessed his love several times, but in an unsuitable way. I knew he was possessive about me but I never wanted to live my life with a man like him who never understood my feelings.
I failed. I started loving him. I had to accept the truth that I love him. I felt it more when I start missing him. Finally I had to accept that we are destined to be together after reading the letter he sent me apologizing for his mistakes and expressing his love towards me. I didn't react. I didn't want to get in to a mess again. I shall better forget this. I didn't want to accept the truth at first.
After few days he came to visit me. I talked to him rudely, hiding my feelings. I didn't want him in my life. I informed him that I want to separate from him legally since we were married. But it was barely two months all these things happened and according to the laws, we couldn't go for a divorce so easily. We had to wait till the right time.
Our relationship didn't have a name. But for the last few days, I felt it was far more complicated. Both of us have failed to express our feelings towards each other initially.I felt it more and more when the days were coming nearer for our divorce.That made me almost cry every night, fighting with my feelings. I wished certain things never happened.
Finally the date arrived and we met at the gate near the court. I felt that our hatred towards each other has fade away already. We spoke to each other normally. Both of us had our feelings stuck within till we were called to come inside the courts.
End of flashbackHe knew why I was crying. I found it justifiable too. We both found it ironic. He was my reason to cry and I was the reason for the tears at the tip of his eyelashes.We were both a blurred image. Now closer than anything other than, something short of humanly possible, we wept together.
Eventually I looked up to see his face. I can't even find the words to describe the sort of feeling I had in me at that time. Let alone begin to explain his expression. It was all too much to handle, so instead I buried my face in his chest and calmed my self. I mumbled that am sorry for being such a mess. For not controlling my self any further.
He smiled and said 'Aren't we both?' sniffing slowly. I smiled back at him. Both our eyes seem to communicate something far more important than our lips. Our tears knew something much more than our words could ever bare. Our souls held on to something far more powerful than our hearts could even dream to care.
He didn't look like he needed an explanation. He understood. But this was something I was trying to convince my self. That I failed to understand his love at once but we both knew it was something far greater than a mixture of feelings.
I didn't want to lose him neither he wanted to lose me. We realized that are born for each other and shall remain forever and always.
The end
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