RM FF - Always on my mind (Note on Pg 140) - Page 73

Rk's Pov

My phone rang as I lazily picked it up. "Hello." I said seeing it was Madhu. "Hey." She said and I could make out that she was happy. I had never known a person this well. I can make out whether she is happy or sad just by hearing her voice. But how? "So what's the reason behind your happiness huh?" I asked with a smile. "How do you know that I am happy?" She asked giggling. I smiled. "That gets reflected in your voice Madhu." I said. She sighed on the phone and I scrunched my brows. "I forgave Trish." She blurted.

What? No! Shit! How can she forgive that Trishna? God! What's wrong with Madhu? Why does she love her sister so much? I looked at the wall opposite me. I was blank. I didn't know what to say. Should I be happy or angry? I mean...I am angry, but then...how can I tell her that. Shit!

"You there Rk?" She asked. "Yeah. I am sorry. Tell me..what happened that you forgave her?" I asked rolling my eyes. "She came in my room and asked fpr forgiveness. She even said sorry to dad." She said and my moth opened a bit. Seriously? She asked for forgiveness? And then what was that she was doing just yesterday? Was that all drama? Or is this drama? I chuckled.

"Are you laughing?" She asked. "No. Why will I laugh?" I said immediately. "I just heard you laughing." She said. "Uh...Actually I am reading something. So...Anyways...that's good you forgave her." I said gritting my teeth. I don't believ it! I just don't believe it that I have to do this! This bloody revenge plan has screwed my entire life! I have to support that Trishna now? I sighed! I just hate it!

"Yeah I know." She said with a smile. I smiled. You know what? Though I hate that Trishna...I am kinda happy that Madhu is happy. She was really sad when Trishna did that. And now...she is back. So maybe ...I am happy. Bittuji entered the room and stood before me. I looked at him. "Madhu...I have got some work. I will call you later, ok?" I said. "Ok...seeya." She said and I smiled hanging up. "Chief..you have to go to a party in the evening." He said. I looked at him. "And you are telling me this now?" I asked angrily. "I told this to you yesterday chief. But you were busy...with...uh..." He said hesitantly.

Yeah! I remember...I was in a hurry to pick Madhu for shopping. God! What is happening to me? Why am I turning so bloody careless? "What time Bittuji?" I asked shooing my thoughts away. "7'0 clock chief." He said. I nodded and he left. I sat on my be as I thought of Madhu. Am I turning mad? I..I was never this...I was different...But then...after meeting Madhu, I have changed so much. I don't know whether this is a good change or a bad one..what I know, is that I seem to be enjoying life now. I feel myself...not just a mere actor. Yes! I know that I a acting...that I am acting all good infront of Madhu to make her fall for me...but somewhere, I know that when I stand in front of her...I turn myself without even doing anything. I scrunched my eyebrows. Am I...in love?

I closed my eyes...this was all going above my head. Though I hated to say this...but aren't these the symptoms of love? I should know this...because this happens in every bloody movie. This is how every actor acts when he falls in love in the movie. I thought for a while. Whenever I think of her, my lips automatically curve into a smile...when I see her unhappy...suddenly I feel all sad. But I feel crazy...stupid! Crazy, stupid Love? I burst out laughing as i closed my eyes.

It was 4 in the evening now. I stood up and messaged Madhu. "Hey." I texted. "Hi" She replied after some two minutes. Listen...I have to go for a party today...so..you wanna come?" I asked. "Uh..why do you want me to come? And what will I do there?" She asked. Exactly! Even my brain was asking me that! But then my heart fought bravely and won! "I don't know...you can just give me company." I replied. "Uh...I don't know...I will have to think about it Rk." Madhu said. "Please Madhu?" I asked. She didn't reply. I held my breath as I called her. "Please come." I said as she picked up. She giggled. "Why Rk? I will be bored. And moreover...I will feel awkward." She said hesitantly.

"I promise I wont make you feel awkward. And I wont even leave you alone Madhu. Please?" I asked making a puppy dog face. But wait...she couldn't see me...then why was I making that face? God! Something is seriously wrong! "Ok fine. But if you leave me alone, then I will go home without telling you." She said and I chuckled. "Done." I said. "And the dress code is formal." I said and he mumbled a ok.' I will pick you up at 6." I said and hanged up with a smile. Shit! This smile! Why doesn't it leave me alone?

I rang the bell of her house. The door open as Shamsher Malik stood there with a warm smile. I smiled back. I don't know why I feel that he is a good man! But how can a murderer be a good man? He invited me in and I sat on the couch. Suddenly I felt a change in the air around me...I turned behind as I saw her descending the stairs. She looked like a Goddess of Beauty in that elegantly draped saree .. Her curves were being highlighted perfectly and her face was glowing like a moon...I felt dizzy seeing her look so beautiful ..The pearl blue saree suited her complexion and made her look like an angel. Her hair was left open. My mouth opened slightly as she proceeded towards me. Shit! How am I gonna control myself today?

We reached the venue and walked inside holding hands. She looked quite nervous. I gave her an assuring smile and she smiled back. I met a few producers and actors. And it was really boring! I just hate to be social! They just keep on talking and talking and talking. I mean...cant they just shut up dude? I finally excused myself and stood in a corner with Madhu. I looked at her and she giggled. I raised my brow looking at her "Why don't you talk to them?" She asked. I looked at her and said "Just looking at their faces is boring Madhu...talking to them is a whole new story." I said chuckling.

Suddenly a song started in the background. She looked at me with a smile. "Lets go dance." She said holding my hand. "No!" I said. "Why? Please?" She said with a cute face which made me smile. We walked up to the dance floor. I wrapped my hands around her waist as she rested her hands on my shoulder. Our bodies swayed to the music. I turned her around in circles and then...our eyes locked. I looked into her big, brown doe eyes. I felt as if I was lost in an ocean and I didn't know to swim. I chuckled. "What?" She asked with a smile and I shook my head. There was no way that I was going to tell her about my thoughts.

The song ended and everyone clapped. We walked back and stood there talking. "So...do you like the party?" I asked looking at her. "Yeah..its kinda good...but noisy." She said. I chuckled. "Lets go out then." I said as I held her hand and leaded her. We walked towards the garden and sat down on the chair. The weather was chilly...and beautiful. I looked up at the twinkling stars. I closed my eyes as I felt the air. I looked up at the stars. One of them was my dad...I believed so. I...I felt nostalgic. I felt as if I am sitting here with two people...one was my dad who was watching me...and the other, Madhu who was sitting beside me.

Do I really have to hurt her? I wish I would have chosen to hurt Shamsher Malik for that. But now, I was way to far to look behind. I want to look behind...run behind. But I cant...I..I don't know what to do. I have gone way to far executing my plan. I have changed in the process. Madhu has changed me...and I ...I am gonna hurt her! I feel like a monster. And I even was one...before meeting her. But now, it hurts to hurt her. But then, if I turn behind and don't hurt her...then what about dad's revenge. He...He killed dad...and I, I am his son, then shouldn't punishing Shamsher Malik be my foremost duty? And I know...that Shamsher Malik will only be hurt if Madhu's gets hurt. I have seen his love for Madhu.

I looked at Madhu. She was sitting there with her eyes close. She had a smile on her face. I gently placed my hand on hers and she opened her eyes. She looked at me. Her eyes were filled with innocence! Shit! I wanna go back in past now. Those eyes, they were filled with so much of innocence. What will happen when I hurt her? What will she do? I looked at her. "I love you Madhu." I said looking at her. I...I really was in love with her. I mean...I hated to say this. Because my real motive was REVENGE. That's it. Love...It was never in the story. But...I am in love. I want to deny it..but I just cant...I don't know why? What have I got myself into?

She looked at me for a minute and then softly smiled. "You do?" She asked. I nodded slowly looking down. "I love you too." She said as she hugged me. What? I wasn't expecting this. Maybe I was expecting a slap. I closed my eyes as I hugged her back. I wanted to be here in her arms forever. I wish this revenge plan never existed!

Ps. The next update is gonna be Madhu's pov describing her feeling and so on 😆 I hope this chapter is not so funny 🤣

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