We welcomed him with a smile on our faces. Maan had his reasons and i did it because tonight i was the host. The evil smirk on his face... ohhh god it irritated me a lot... back in college also he used to have a similar smirk on his face but that time i used to like that look. It used to drive me crazy and make me fell in love with him all over again but see how drastically thing changed.
Maan and rushabh were sitting in the living room on two different sofas and i sat beside maan after bringing snacks and serving them. They both were talking... as in continuously talking but i have no idea what was the whole conversation actually about. I was playing the snack i had in my plate when maan placed his hand on my shoulder n i in return smiled at him.
If somebody ask me why this gesture thing happened and why did i smile, i will remain silent as im unknown and oblivious to whatever was happening. Is she really affecting me soo much... i wondered.
Maan got a call and he went to attend it n i shivered at the thought of being alone with rishabh in one room and under the same roof.
" so we never got the chance to talk... " rushabh said and i looked up and my eyes met his.
" really... i didnt realize... " u saud while trying to appear very calm and least interested.
" how are you madhu...?? " he asked me n i felt as if my rishu was talking to me.
" good... thank you... "
"Madhu..."
Maan came and called my name. He told me that i should now go and set the dinner table. I smiled abd hurruedly made my way to the kitchen.
Honestly in that one moment, i forgot that im married and thought that some time machine took me to the past where rishabh n i were we. But on thinking about this right now, i kind of hate myself. How low can i stoop to think about that time... later on i settled on the fact that reheating food is the best thing to do right now rather than cursing myself.
I set the table and now we were sitting on the dinner table. I cooked my favourite rajma chawal but apparently i cant eat it. Its making me nauseaus and a bit uncomfortable. Was it really me or his presence in my house... i dont know. Something cold and rough touched my foot bringing me out of my thoughts. I became alert and im sure it was someone's foot massaging mine. I coughed at this thought and as a result i choked on my food. Maan rubbed my back and made me drink water but while this was happening, that foot was gone and i suspiciously looked at rishabh. There he was busy in eating his food as if nothing really happened but i cant ignore the fact that i saw him clenching his fist when maan soothed me when i choked.
Somehow the so called party ended n i made my way to the bedroom. I sat on the bed for few minutes thinking about this sudden re entry of mr. rishabh kundra in my perfect life. That moment i realised how wrong i was... i always thought that i have tied the losen ties, forgot my past, ended it forever and then moved in to this life... the perfect life i ever dreamnt of. I thought it was the end... end of that heartbroken phase of my life, end of miseries, end of pain, end of loneliness... but it isnt i guess... sometimes the end is never the actual end... the real end... the end us not like the one showed in movies... happily ever after end... but im adamant to find my happily ever after n i will find it. I have to find it... for me, for maan and for our little bundle of joy...