Am I In Love: Obsession Vs Passion CH 7 updt Page 68 (12/1) - Page 41

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CHAPTER-6

RK's POV (continuation)

I never recognized ( in fact not bothered to recognize) what relation I had with madhu, how long I was going to keep her with me, what was the future of it but I enjoyed her company, having sex with her and her morals even though she hated me.

Then one day, I took the worst decision of my life. A decision, which changed my life completely. A decision, which I regret even to this day. A decision, which is refraining me from making madhu all mine.

MY DECISION OF MARRYING DIPALI.

Everything was going perfect in my life and I was not in a mood to work for a while since I wanted to enjoy my life. Madhu never interfered in my life as she never considered me important in her life. But I liked her non-interference in my life very much and I visited her whenever I got time. My mother knew about madhu but she never considered it as big a crime but my father was oblivious about my truth. I thought that I will have madhu for some time ( till the obsession on me for her wears out) and then will tell her about her family's truth and then let her live a life of her wish in the future.

One day when I was having breakfast with my family in our mansion, my father hinted about my marriage and his decision of letting me know of business and to train me to control the entire empire. The sudden decision from my father shocked me and then I noticed that there was something wrong with my parents but I just pushed away the thoughts to be a mere illusion. That day when I was returning after a late night party, my mom and dad were fighting like cats and dogs. When I tried to interfere and separate them and asked for the reason for their fight, my dad and mom just walked away from there without saying anything. Though I could sense something going wrong in my house, I never urged my parents to tell me the reason for their fight. After few days I came across the world shattering truth of my mom and the reason for their fight... guess what... My mom had an affair with one of my dad's friends. This truth shook me to the core and after that I never talked to my mom, not even to this day. Before 2 months only my dad came to know about my mom's illegal affair. There was always a rumor of affair between my mom and my dad's friend but my dad never believed on that. My dad always believed my mom and he loved her a lot.

It is always said that truth always triumphs and one day my dad realized that the affair just wasn't a rumor but for real. The women he loved, he lived for, has cheated him behind his back and this fact led him to a depression state and he took some wrong decision in business and he was suffering losses due to that. My dad's friend Kuku Bhatia had promised to debt for his losses if he gets me married to his daughter, Deepali Bhatia. The original reason behind my dad's urging me to get married and to control his empire was that he knew at that stage of the business if anything had to happen to him then we will come to the roads. So my dad wanted me to assist him in business. The financial support from Kuku Bhatia was his final hope for business. I knew nothing about business and I was afraid in taking any decision knowing the fact that this was the final hope. So I was hesitant in joining business. But madhu had her own way to making me accept some points which I won't accept if she told me in a straight way like helping my dad in business. I had also started helping dad in his work due to madhu's insistence. On the other hand my mom's day to day bad to worst behavior was taking a serious place in my mind.

Alas... the decision I took also went wrong and we lost everything exactly on the day of my marriage. On Sep-21, 2010 @ 8 PM I got married to Deepali and @ 9 PM I received a call saying that our last move on business also went wrong and we lost everything. On hearing the news my dad suffered a cardiac arrest and breathed his last in a few minutes. Deepali on knowing the truth left the mandap saying that she doesn't want to be a part of the life of a penniless man. She broke her mangalsutr which I had tied just an hour before around her neck. My mom tried to console me but I was not interested in listening to any of her silly lames as I consider her the reason for that day in my life.

I didn't know what to do next. I gave my dad a decent funeral. At least he deserves that much from me. On that day I realized what loneliness is. As though life and time had itself decided to teach me a lesson for leading a meaningless life by punching a hole on my gut. Everything bad happened to me on that single day that I was speechless. My dad died, my mom betrayed, our business perished, the girl who should have been in my life, with me in all my ups and downs, didn't even think twice before leaving me.

Oh God!!!!! why am I even living?????? It's been 5 days since everything happened and still then the hollowness in my gut was torturing me. It seemed as though it expanded every single day rather than diminishing. When I looked back into my life as to what I had gained till then I could name only one possession and that is Madhu. But I knew that she would also want to leave me after what happened in my life.

When my own wife left me, then why would a women whom I occasionally f**k would want to live with a penniless man like me. I decided one thing I wont let her walk out of my life but instead I would let her go from my life out of my own free will and let her live a life of her wish. I don't know if I could bear madhu also walking out of my life leaving me to one more rejection . But can I expect anything from her. Can I ask her to stay with me for some time. But I haven't given her anything in my life rather than sorrow. Why would she want to listen to the sad tale of a man who took her virginity rather mercilessly??? The next day I decided to go to my farm house which is rather small and which is now my only possession now apart from madhu. I would never forget that day in my life. The day which brought me untold happiness. The day which gave me my madhu. The day I fell in love with my madhu.

Early next morning, I reached there determined to get her out of my life. When I asked her to leave me and go back to a place of her wish, she was thunderstuck and I could see that she didn't believe me. She behaved differently with me that day. May be she sensed desperation and fear in my eyes. I can still remember her brown duo eyes searching for answers looking into my eyes.

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Me (determined) : " you may go back."

Madhu (confused) : " what!!!!!"

Me(agitated) : " you always wanted to go away from me, na. You can go. I won't stop you."

Madhu (still not believing him) : " why !!!!! I mean why this change of mind all of a sudden?"

Me(controlling myself to not to break down in front of her) : " coz I don't have any money to spend on you now. My dad's business faced a loss. My dad is no more. I had to sell many of my properties to clear off the losses and the debts. I am no more the millionaire who used to spend lakhs of rupees unnecessarily for a girl."

Madhu (eyes popped out) : " what do you mean by my dad is no more'."

Me (angrily) : " It means that my dad is dead. Damn it. (calming myself)...sorry. I didn't mean to be rude. I was just ..."

Madhu (consolingly) : " NO you don't have to feel sorry. I can understand how it feels when our beloved ones leave us. That's exactly how I felt when my mom and dad left me. RK... is there anything I can do?"

RK(thunderstuck but still tempted to have someone in his life) : " hug me for a minute plz. I feel to be alone."

Madhu (puzzled) : " what????"

Me : " plzzz. I want to feel loved at this moment."

Keeping aside her hatred towards me , she rushed forward and standing on her toes, covered my neck and shoulders with her arms tightly and hugged me with all her might. May be she sensed pain in my eyes, voice and body. But I relished the moment and basked in her warmth which was exactly what I craved for the past few days.

She hugged and kissed me in a soothing way and I was in heaven. She was a breath of fresh air. I reciprocated her gestures and cried to my heart's content on her shoulders. I was the man who took away all her happiness and she was feeling bad for me in my agony. After what felt like hours or so, we parted and she went inside to pack her baggage. After packing her baggage, she wanted to talk to me. I was sitting near the swimming pool with a glass in my hand, drinking.

Madhu : " RK, I always wanted to go back to my own people but now I don't feel like(I was shocked and I gulped)... I mean... I wanted to say that... if you want ...I will stay with you till all your problems are solved out... I mean to say I want to help you(I looked at her earnestly)...I feel bad to leave you at this point...I mean to say I was with you when you were in your luxury and now it is my duty to be with you in your agony also... So can I stay with you... once you retain your normal position I will go back to my family. But if you are feeling that I will be a burden for you then I ..."

I hugged her tightly and she was taken by surprise. How can she sense my pain without having me to tell her anything?? I cannot express my happiness in words to her for what she said. She wanted to be with me in my life even after knowing that I was nothing.

Me( voice breakingly) : " STAY. I ALSO DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME NOW."

she handed me a bag which she was holding in her hands.

Me : " what is this?"

Madhu : " This bag contains all the expensive gifts which you have given me till now. I don't know how much it costs or how much you will get by selling them, but this is all I have. I hope this helps you in some way..."

At that moment I fell in love with her and decided to make her fall for me no matter what. How can anyone not fall in love with my innocent, beautiful princess?? I have her now and I will make sure that I have her always by my side. She is mine forever and I wanted to seal that at that moment. I carried her in my arms, took her to my room and made love to her rather I was reminding myself that I was not alone now in my life. I savored every moment to soothe myself and she did not stop me and willingly gave herself to me for the first time. That was the longest lovemaking ever since I have known her. I satisfied myself that there is my love who will be with me all throughout my life.

Then I started my business anew and I worked hard, real hard. she also helped me in my work and we became real good friends and I was very happy about that. The only thing I did in those 3 years was eat, sleep, work hard and make love to her... making love to her was my stress buster and she never stopped me from doing that. I became successful within 3 years of hard work , more successful than my dad may be and I was very happy about that.

When I attained success, then one day she reminded me of her returning back and I was taken aback. I was not going to let her go out of my life but I was also not willing to tell her the truth about her family. Coz I just cant see her tears. In these 3 years she became more important than myself to me. She gave me hope. she gave me my reason for living. She is the light of my lonely life. I was not willing to let the best thing that happened to my life to walk out of my life no matter what.

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