Subject:- 'Ansh: The Becoming of the Monster' by leelaa9.
Tls has averred many times about that lethal secondlast encounter that Ansh was about to kill her or that he would not have hesitated to kill her. The problem is if either of those claims were true, she would been the one shot. Ansh repeatedly threatened to kill her during that lethal encounter, but could not actually bring himself to do it. His lack of humanity & his amoral character both having been very well established by that point, his reluctance to shoot his biological mother may have stemmed from a desire to avoid a hopefully unnecessary action rather than from any qualms about killing a woman he had no filial feeling for. He had much earlier urged Karan to stay away from Nandn & her conjugal life, explaining that he had no interest in Karan's life & familial happiness so long as Karan did not cross him. And he ordered the hit on Vshl only when Vshl started gathering proof of the actual perpetrators rather than simply rely on his mother's political influence to get him out of the mess. Ansh was a psychopath, yes. But so long as any person in his life did not impinge on his obsession, his judicial freedom or his life, he had no interest in doing harm to that person. Cold-blooded, selfish & with absolutely no regard for the world other than as a means to his aims, his purpose & his wants.
His target was acquiring Nandn, & though neither the viewers nor Tls learnt until much later of his ex-wife Shraddh or of the destructive culmination of his loving first marriage, the pretence of marital deceit she engineered to estrange him from herself may have convinced him that if he could establish – & prevent from terminating – a marital relationship with another woman, he could replace Shraddh in his life & his heart. Really bad luck, Nandn. Not only did you get a psycho husband, you were never even his actual obsession.
*Could* Ansh have been diffused... redeemed had Tls found out earlier about Shraddh's existence? If she had proven Shraddh's intent, love & fidelity to him? If the existence of the son who looked exactly as Ansh must have looked at that age been revealed to him?
For Ansh to acknowledge Shraddh's truth, he would have had to then acknowledge his own monstrous conduct in the time since they parted ways. Nandn was not Ansh's first attempt to force his 'love' on a girl, in the belief that with another woman's presence in his life, he could erase Shraddh's after-traces completely. Before raping his wife Nandn to avoid an annulment on grounds of non-consummation, Ansh also allegedly attacked another 'love' with acid. And there were kills enough in the 'business'. But killing is a part of that way of life. And while rape is a horrendous deed, marital rape does *not* qualify at the same height of evil. It can be atoned for... and forgiven. Though it may not be. But the acid? And there may have been other unforgivable horrors.
If Ansh had turned back from the dark path he had gone so far on, if he had found his way back to his conscience & his sanity, would he have been able to live with himself, his deeds?
The man who believed that the wife he had worshipped had used & betrayed him never forgave her. And never thereafter cared about having anyone's forgiveness for his own choices & deeds.
The man Shraddh had adored enough to wreck her life for would not have forgiven himself for *any* of those choices & deeds.
When Tls realized that Mhr had deliberately demeaned his character in her eyes to make her name him as dtya Gjrl's killer & thereby save Karan, she had wallowed in guilt that she had believed his lie & not realized his truth. Ansh's remorse would have been a million times more devastating if he had learned – & believed – the truth about Shraddh's lie. Tls's misunderstanding lasted for two days, & the only major fallout was Nandn being imprisoned for a deed she *had* committed. Ansh's misunderstanding lasted a few years & the fallout cost his humanity & every vestige of good in him. There was no end for him but the judgement of death. Without a conscience & at another's hand as it were. Or with his conscience restored & at his own hand.
Brings to mind an adage... 'The road to hell is paved with good intentions.' Shraddh sacrificed the relationship dearest to her for that person's happiness. Bitter irony then that in trying to save the man she loved, she destroyed him.
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