Living with a beast
I was living
Still living with a beast
Most beautiful
Yet haunting
Digging to the core of my being ...
They said
It is me
Not wholly
But yeah
A part of me
Most beautiful yet destructive
Damaging myself
Ready to burn down everything I built
The beast fostered inside me
It took birth inside me
Somewhere when I conceived this life
This
Life of beauty
And so much possibility
Ohh yeah
When I loved to watch rainbow
And play in rain
Like you and everyone ...
This beast
Taught me to suffer
Turning my head
I bent down
Ohh yeah ...
I heard nothing but the hissing of my beast
The road that not taken
Long
Lost years
Nameless it was
Hiding
Sometime coming out with intensity
Screaming and shouting
Glaring its presence
When I was holding hands with my life
The beast
It kissed my face
The taste of poison and bane
I saw its face
The darkness it carries
Making me feel like a misplaced ghost
Middle of nowhere
Wandering
Behind white cloaks of doctors,
Searching answers
Answers which took me nowhere
Infected
Injected
With a mark
They whispered
I have to learn
To live with this beast
This beast of so much beauty and destruction...
I preyed on it
Trying to kill it with bare hands
All I found is
Bloody hands and lost head
Angry -victim
I strike to rise
Taming
Accepting this my beauty
This destruction
And here I am
Can you see me?
The light in my eyes
The darkness in my heart...
And
Today
I am both ...
Spright with a living beast ...!
Can you see me ?
